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Desperately Seeking Balance

Friday, June 29, 2012

Iím searching for balance. Not just a balanced diet or a balanced fitness program, but a balanced routine. I see it all in my mind as a naturally flowing energy . . . oh forget that. I just want to be able to get up in the morning and exercise and get on with my day without feeling chained to the treadmill and the computer. Itís just so easy to get sidetracked. I can spend hours visiting SP!

For the first seven weeks of what I've been calling my new SparkStyle, I've been obsessed. I fill out trackers. I read SparkBlogs and member blogs. I go to the SparkPoints page and do all the things Iím required to so that I can get lots of SparkPoints. I read articles. (Well those A-Z health articles always concern me because I canít help neurotically thinking that I might have some of those things. And, as my grandson would say, some of them are just ewww.)

I spend so much time at the computer, lost in the SparkWorld that I forget to check the time. Oh, itís ten oíclock in the morning and I havenít eaten breakfast and I was going to walk. Or itís seven oíclock in the evening and I havenít even started dinner. Well, at least I know what Iím going to eat. And suddenly I find the days just slipping away from me.

How I hate to admit this because I am/used to be a very organized person, but I canít manage my time well anymore. I've lost my balance. Who needs balance when it would be much more fun to take the day and read all I can find at SparkPeople? Well, that just doesn't work anymore. It may be fun, but itís not smart. Iím not saying I canít read. Iím just saying I've got to move more.

The thing is, Iím not sure it matters how much time you have or how little. I think finding a balance is hard to do. I thought that by week seven Iíd have found that. Logically, I would like to exercise in the morning. And every morning itís my intention, honestly. Except, Iím finding myself walking on the treadmill and doing strength training at 2:00 or 3:00 in the afternoon. That means I've been sitting around in my exercise clothes all day! Of course, thatís better than my pajamas. I decided to get out of bed in the morning and immediately put on my exercise clothes, thinking that this would help steer me in the right direction. Ha! I could say I have a good excuse for not exercising in the morning. I suffer from insomnia and three hours of sleep are not conducive to walking in the morning, but really thatís just an excuse. I've been sleeping better and when I eat dinner at an earlier time I donít have as much trouble sleeping. Thereís that balance thing again.

Iím going to have to set some goals. Make a conscious effort to watch the clock so I know when itís time to fix the next meal. Exercise first thing in the morning unless there is a VALID reason not to, i.e. a doctorís appointment or space aliens are holding my treadmill hostage.

When I started SP I decided that I was not going to battle myself on eating right or exercising. I was just going to do it. Balancing time has become my battle. Of all the things I thought Iíd have problems with, this never even entered my mind!

  Member Comments About This Blog Post:

HONEYPOT319 6/30/2012 9:54AM

    Set your goals, find your motivation! Motivation is key to what keeps us exercising! I know, sounds easy, but it isn't! I have lost my way a time or two over these past twenty years. But you have to keep trying until you find what fits! I am praying for you to find what motivates you. :)

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MIDORI_SPARK 6/30/2012 12:56AM

    Spark is addictive, isn't it? I faced the same problem towards the beginning. I'm still here daily, but not for nearly as long, and only because other things in life have gotten busier. It's just incredible to find so many passionate and motivating people, it's hard to turn away from it.

Still though, be proud of yourself because it is still a step forward. We need to exercise our minds too, and you are gaining a lot of knowledge through spark right now. But you are absolutely right. Balance. There's no reason why we can't grow in several capacities at the same time.

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DESERTJULZ 6/29/2012 10:23PM

    You hit the nail on the head, Linda! BALANCE! Here's a rule I've set for myself: I'm not allowed to go on SparkPeople (or facebook) until I've done my morning walk. I have two, and only two, exceptions: 1) On Thursday it is my rest-day, so I don't have to walk in the morning; and 2) I'm enrolled in the SparkPeople 5k Your Way. There are three specific walks per week until the end of July. I am allowed to log on *only* to look at the day's walk length or time, before I walk.

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IMSOOZEEQ 6/29/2012 9:50PM

    I have had that same issue. I can spend my whole day online at SP. I have decided that I need to look at my day as my job or my business. I am making a daily schedule to follow so that I get things done and schedule my SparkTime in that schedule because I need the motivation.


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LINDYLOO49 6/29/2012 8:15PM

  I think balance in the way we live and think will automatically follow through to our life style.

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Here I am--My First Blog!

Wednesday, June 27, 2012

I wasn't going to have a SparkPage or a Blog. It took me a while to realize that these are great motivational tools, and that, in itself, is a gift. So here I am.

I've struggle with my weight all my life; I'm 56. Twenty-two years ago I weighed 220 and I lost 90 pounds. It took me years to gain it all back and then some, but I did it. So when I started SparkPeople on May 9, 2012 I weighed 230 pounds. Wow. Today, eight weeks later I weigh 220. I am so pleased. I was aiming for five pounds a month and I did it. Oh, I know it won't always happen that way, but I'm amazed that I could do this.

Six years ago I fell down the stairs and injured my knee. When I went to the orthopedic doctor he said that I already had chondromalacia, that eventually I would need a knee replacement, but the knee wasn't ready for that yet. Well, at first, I had to keep it elevated and be very gentle with it. The doctor told me that I should be able to walk, (no hills, no jogging). He gave me synvisc shots which helped. However, I didn't consistently exercise. Well, the synvisc wore off after eight months and I sat around waiting for the pain and swelling to go away. Not the smartest thing to do.

When we moved to North Carolina five years ago I became more active, but then my blood pressure went up and I started having problems with sodium. Funny, it coincided with the fact that we were eating more fast food than ever! So my doctor put me on medication and I tried to diet and stay away from sodium. I could not lose weight! I would lose five pounds then be starving and go back to eating unhealthy foods. Every summer my feet would swell and the pain was so bad I couldn't move. This May I had had enough!

So I found SparkPeople on a Google Search and joined. I started tracking what I ate and realized that when I was dieting I wasn't eating enough and I was literally starving myself!

I started walking. The first day I walked for 15 minutes at 2 mph. My knee was fine and it didn't swell so the next day I walked at 2.3 mph for 20 minutes. I kept increasing the speed and the time. One day I actually walked 3 mph for 25 minutes. I haven't been able to do that again, but I'm working at it. I started strength training four weeks ago. I can feel the difference. I can see the difference, as well. Between the ST and walking I am losing inches, as well as losing weight.

The best thing about walking has been that my blood pressure is now normal. Yeah! I'm still on a diuretic because it's summer and my feet still want to swell even with my sodium intake lowered. I keep it below 2000 mg, averaging between 1500 and 1600 mg per day. With the heat and humidity here in southern North Carolina I might have to drop that average down lower.

I can go up and down stairs without pain. I can get down on the floor and while it still not as easy as I would like, I can get off the floor without assistance. I have more flexibility and fewer aches and pains and I've stopped getting muscle spasms.

I've noticed that I'm happier. I was depressed and turning more and more inward. Not going out of the house even to go grocery shopping. My attitude was so negative. I was depressed just being around me! But for the last eight weeks (oops, it's really been seven) I've been happy. I don't ever remember being happy on a diet, do you? Well, I'm not really on a diet. I eat meat, fresh fruits and vegetables, whole grains, beans and nuts. I don't eat fast food, but we do go out occasionally. I've found that most of the time restaurants add so much salt to their food that it makes the food unpalatable. Dairy is not on my list of foods because I am allergic to the proteins in dairy. I can manage a limited amount of hard cheese but that's it for the moment.

I joined SparkPeople because I wanted to use the nutrition tracker. I didn't realize I would be getting this amazing flow of positive energy from all these amazing people. I found a place where I can get emotional support. A place where I can find motivation. Here are all the tools I need for my new healthy lifestyle. I can find all the information and expert advice I need.

The people I've met here are more than amazing. They write things that have made me laugh and made me cry. I've been awed by their courage, their honesty , their dedication, and their perseverance. They've taught me gratitude. They've taught me to be more kind to myself. They've shown me that if they can do this, so can I. They've made me go outside my comfort zone and try harder for the things I want to achieve.

I can do this. I can set goals and reach them. I can become the person I want to be. I can't thank SparkPeople enough for giving me back my life.

  Member Comments About This Blog Post:

KATYDID412 6/28/2012 7:21PM

    You're doing great!

It's interesting -- I fell down my stairs about 7.5 years ago and shattered my knee. It had to be totally rebuilt and I still have most of the hardware in my knee. I've been anywhere from like 210 to 250 in the intervening years. Walking in various ways is really the only cardio I feel comfortable with, whether it's on the treadmill, on walking paths, or in my living room. Have you tried any Leslie Sansone videos? I love them. They're low impact but a good workout and my knee can handle it, even four times a week.

Best of luck to you!

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IMSOOZEEQ 6/28/2012 2:33PM

    Great blog! Thanks for sharing. You are making great progress! Keep it up!!


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HONEYPOT319 6/28/2012 2:23PM

    Welcome! We are so glad you are here! You do not know how very frustrating it was to read your comments on my page and not be able to go to your page and leave a comment or show some support. :) Great blog! Keep up the good work my friend! :)

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MIDORI_SPARK 6/27/2012 8:01PM

    Linda! I am so glad you have started a Spark Page and shared this blog with us. For weeks now I have been reading your wonderful and encouraging comments on my blog posts, but have not had a way to thank you for your amazing support. Now I can. Thank you so much!! It is a wonderful feeling to know that someone is looking out for me, and I hope I can do the same for you.

As I read your blog, I can see you have made significant progress, and I know that you will progress even more. I love that you say you were amazed you could do this. You amazed yourself, and you amaze me :)

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DESERTJULZ 6/27/2012 7:53PM

    Wow, Linda! Your first blog totally rocks. Very well thought out and well written. You're off to a fantastic start!

Maybe you'll join me in a walking 5k? I signed up for the SP Virtual 5k "your way." I chose the Walk choice as I'm not to the point of believing that I could or should run.

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LYNSEY723 6/27/2012 3:35PM

    Look at how far you have come in the last 8 weeks! Just re-read what you wrote:

"They've taught me gratitude. They've taught me to be more kind to myself. They've shown me that if they can do this, so can I. They've made me go outside my comfort zone and try harder for the things I want to achieve. "

That is big stuff right there!! Congrats and welcome! We are all here for you, encouraging, listening, and understanding! emoticon

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JUST2SWEET 6/27/2012 3:14PM

    Great blog! Thank you for sharing and best wishes on your continued success... emoticon

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