Friday, January 06, 2012
With the addition of green smoothies to our diets, I have all this energy and I've found a super workable system of getting everything I need to do, done, daily! Amazing it has taken this long to feel like a productive, un-overwhelmed, non-stressed human.
But here's the thing. When I'm doing admin type work - papers, bookkeeping, promotion, phone calls, etc.... I can stay on track and not eat while I'm doing so.
But when I go to my scheduled hour or more writing period, I'm up every 30 seconds to shove something in my mouth. And as I'm tracking it, I'm using up my allotment before dinner....
Last night I had no dinner because I'd eaten everything by 4pm. Waaa, poor me. Oh, I survived....but still....
It reminds me of when I was a smoker. A million years ago. When I was writing, I'd always light up. Sometimes I'd end up with two cigarettes burning at once. Just a mindless body/mouth motion triggered by the hyper writing state.... I'm restless when I'm writing...moving around...thinking....nervous...juggling things in my brain...
I'm thinking that a solution may be to have a "writer" snack drawer or big ziplock bag in the fridge...baby carrots, etc... non fat super low calorie stuff that I can cram into my mouth until the cows come home...
I started writing this morning and saw myself get up and go to the fridge. I managed to distract myself by setting kitchen cleanup goals instead - did all the dishes, wiped the counters, etc, and then I quickly moved onto 15 minutes working on papers on my desk - mailing stuff, sorting payroll.....It did distract me from eating, but I didn't get any writing done....
I don't have a big snack bag at the moment to work from, so I'm going to try to sit and write again, this time with a huge glass of water next to me.
Monday, January 02, 2012
So, I gained a pound and a half since Dec 20th, the last time I weighed myself, and I'm six pounds away from the goal I had set for myself for Jan 1.
On the plus side, I swam today and spent 35 minutes on the treadmill.
And ate well, within my limits. So, hopefully next Monday the scale will be nicer to me!!
Sunday, January 01, 2012
So, I haven't weighed myself in 2 weeks. I was going to last Monday, which is the day I've been weighing at the gym, but I didn't make it down to the locker room because we didn't swim and I just went straight home....and the week before I was too stuffed and feeling afraid from christmas, even though I didn't really overdo it all that much.
So, I'm going to weigh myself tomorrow, and that's a promise to myself.
I had also made myself a little challenge that I would lose a certain amount my Jan 1, and I'm pretty sure that didn't happen, and I couldn't think of a reward for myself, because, honestly, rewards like that aren't going to work for me. I can sort of get myself whatever I want whenever I want it, anyway....so I had made a deal with myself that if I lost this amount, if I could get to under 200 lbs by Jan 1, I would pay part of my son's credit card off. But then I went ahead and did that anyway a few days after Christmas.
So, I don't know. I have to just keep doing what I'm doing. Minus the eating of too much fake fat free kraft american cheese which has too much sodium and is a bit constipating. And I have to be a little more on top of the tracking. Which mostly means that I have to cook at home and track my recipes. I ran into a problem over Christmas making food for guests that I didn't track as recipes and then, eating leftovers, I was doing a good bit of guess-timating, which I have no idea if I was correct or not!
Once I weigh myself and can see what is what I think I will feel a little better. I really have the most distorted body image I have no idea how I've done these past two weeks.
Here's to regaining clarity in 2012!
Saturday, December 10, 2011
So....I've got a handle on the eating and tracking my food. Showing results, losing weight. Joined a gym and have been doing some sort of cardio, either treadmill or cycle almost every day for a half hour, and on most days swimming laps for 10 or 15 minutes after that. All good.
Been avoiding strength training because I haven't really known what to do. In the gym the upstairs is a mysterious place and I don't want to engage a trainer there, they've already hassled me by phone and I don't want to interact at the gym...
But, I've been reading the spark emails every day and every once in a while I've been checking out an exercise that seems manageable, and today I added them to my tracker and did three new exercises that were fun! Wall pushups, some sort of towel over the head thing I forget the name of, and a leg flexor that I've also forgotten the name of!
The other day I did a bunch of feet exercises from a Spark mail but I don't think it's in the list to choose from on the fitness tracker. They were good exercises, though -- my feet hurt sometimes -- and I'm going to do them as often as I remember!
So, that's progress!! Yay!
ps. i love choosing emoticons. how silly, yeah?
Wednesday, November 30, 2011
Actually, I should have titled this "Mostly Good" because I think that's what I've been, but yesterday was a slip up, and because I didn't track it I'm not sure how bad.
First of all, missed the gym and won't be able to go again until Friday probably. So that's two days.
I tried to make up for it by walking to an appointment, not quite a half hour walk which is what I would do on the treadmill, but maybe 20 minutes. And I'm not sure if I kept up the same speed but I felt sweaty when I was done. (or was that the rain? who can tell?)
But the problem yesterday was with my tracking. I did fine until I left the house at around 5. I had had a very early dinner and used up mostly everything, but I was going to a show and figured I had just enough to catch up on calcium when I got home with a glass of skim milk. And I was even toying with the idea of putting in some nestle's quik which is fortified and would round out the rest of what I was probably missing for the day. (We've been eating mostly vegetarian with some fish, but I skipped fish yesterday, so a few things were lacking)
Anyhooooo......that was my plan. And also in my plan was to walk home from the theater (another 20 minutes).....
Instead, we took a cab home and ordered sushi. I had two rolls, saba (mackerel) roll and a shi*take (really? this blog won't let me post the name of the mushroom? LOL) roll. And then, I ate a whole bunch of tortilla chips and salsa. I have the info on the package and they are baked, but still, 10 are 120 calories and I must have had 20 or 30. who knows? So......
I dont know. I didn't track it so I didn't see the final total. And that salsa has a lot of sodium if not a lot of calories.
Pretty annoyed at myself this morning and I made a big detox green smoothie to start the day.
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