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We want everything, and we want it NOW!

Saturday, January 12, 2013

It feels great knowing that I lost 34 lbs last year!! I still have 29 lbs to go to get to my goal of 130, but it will happen this year. I'm hoping within 6 months, but I've got to start working out consistently. It has been a real struggle to get my arse out of bed in the morning, before the kids get up, so I can get a workout in for the day. I have plenty of time to do it when I'm up at 4a. It's all mental, and I should be in control of my mind.

Enter intermittent fasting. I have been fasting for between 16-18 hours a day for the past week and 1/2. I have a window of time where I eat that is usually around 8 hours long, or less. I really enjoy this way of eating!! It feels totally right for me. I have never enjoyed snacking on little things throughout the day, and having 3 small meals. I'm the kind of person who enjoys having a few large meals.

It works for me. It works for other people. It doesn't necessarily work for everyone. I have realized that I am ok without breakfast in the morning, and even without lunch if I know I will get to eat larger meals when my "window" opens later in the day. It has helped me be at peace with feeling a little bit hungry. As a person who leans more to the side of eating binges, fasting has shown me how to control my impulse to eat whenever and for whatever reason. Do I feel a bit hungry? Yes. Have I died from it? No. It has taught me that I really do control my actions, and I really am in control of when and what I eat. It has taught me that it's ok to feel a little hungry. It doesn't mean that I HAVE to eat right NOW!

We live in a society where everyone wants what they want, when they want it. Which is always NOW. We have forgotten how to wait for anything. We are surrounded by food 24/7. If you want a pizza at 2a, I'm sure you'll find one. If you want to shop at 2a, there are stores that are open around the clock, and heck even if you can't find one, you can shop online and pay extra money to have something delivered to your house TOMORROW. And most of the time, the purchases are being made with credit cards and not with the money we already have... because we want it NOW! We don't want to wait until we've saved up money; that would take way too long. We want it now, and no one is going to tell us we can't have it.

I am learning to wait for food. I am learning to be more responsible with how much food I am putting into my body. I am learning that I control my mind, it doesn't control me. I am hoping to see what I have learned about my mind and my relationship with food trickle over to other areas of my life. I'm looking for balance in my life, like most of us, and fasting seems to be a great way for me to begin finding it. :)


31lbs gone! :)

Saturday, July 21, 2012

Wow! I cannot believe I have lost 31lbs almost effortlessly! My weight plateaued around 165, so I decided to get serious about tracking my calories. It feels like everything is coming together, like the pieces are falling into place, like the light bulb has finally been switched back on... and it feels amazing!!

I successfully have tracked 3 days. One was a big accomplishment, so I'm thrilled with 3! I have found a good combination of foods that satisfy me everyday, and that I enjoy eating all the time.

1/4 C soy milk
less than 1T agave syrup
brown rice
dried beans (soaked and cooked, no salt added)
1T earth balance whipped spread
1/2T nutritional yeast
bag of steamed broccoli
Bragg's Liquid Aminos

1C almond milk
1 scoop protein powder
brown rice
1/2T earth balance whipped spread
nutritional yeast
bag steamed broccoli
Bragg's Liquid Aminos

1 slice Whole Wheat Bread
1T organic crunchy peanut butter
1T reduced sugar jelly
bag steamed broccoli
Bragg's Liquid Aminos
nutritional yeast

raw mushrooms dipped in hummus

And of course, lots of water throughout the day! I know I could totally do without the pb&j, but for now, it's getting me back into the swing of things, and sadly giving me something to look forward to. LOL! ;)

My goal is to reach 150lbs by September 13, 2012 or before. I know that once I have tracked calories for one week, I will want to get back to consistent exercise. One thing at a time, until I reach my goal.

And of course, my ultimate weight goal is 130lbs by January 31, 2012. Not a problem! :)

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Almost 20lbs down! :)

Monday, March 26, 2012

Well, I have been doing amazingly well lately! I went from being vegetarian to being vegan on December 13th, and since that day, the pounds have just been falling off! It was a natural transition for me. Not a difficult decision to make, and because it's not a diet, I have had NO problems. It's made me realize that all of the ice cream and pizza and butter and cheese had been such an addiction for me. I haven't looked back even once, and I feel so much healthier eating a plant-based diet.

I have bought a few vegan cookbooks, but the only thing I have made is mac n cheese with Daiya. It was DELISH! I have also made pizzas with Daiya. It is without a doubt the BEST vegan cheese. My staples have been dried beans (which I soak all night and cook in the morning) and brown rice. I mix some Earth Balance spread into the rice, mix it all up and top with Daiya. This has been great for breakfast, lunch, or dinner and super easy and cheap! I like to keep my meals fairly simple. If a recipe looks like it has too many ingredients, I shy away from it. I also don't mind eating the same thing often which I know is a struggle for a lot of people. I have the most success when I keep things simple.

I have found wonderful substitutions for butter and cheese, but I have yet to find a vegan ice cream that tickles my fancy. The closest is made from almond milk. But again, it's not addictive because it just doesn't compare to real ice cream.

Anyway, I can't believe I have lost almost 20lbs since mid December, and without trying. It has all been diet related, as I haven't been working out. For the next 20lbs, I am going to work out with weights and of course throw in some cardio. I know the pace of loss is going to slow down, so I want to do what I can to at least remain consistent in weight loss, even if it isn't going to be as quick as it has been so far. I have no doubt that I will be to my goal weight of 140 by the time we are in September! :)


Always rethinking things, aren't I?

Tuesday, September 13, 2011

I have realized that I'm not as much of an emotional eater as I thought. My weight started to climb after I developed the super unhealthy habit of drinking and eating every night. The drinking always came before the eating. I would even eat normal during the daylight hours, only to sit down in front of the tv right after the kids were in bed and start drinking... and then eating. And eating. And eating. It seems the alcohol numbed my stomach, and I could just keep putting food in there until I felt like I was going to burst.

Even now, my days are spent eating fairly normally, and not to excess, but once those kids are down for the night, it's back to the old song and dance.

The obvious reason for my not sticking to my plan is... ALCOHOL!!

I don't eat near as much in the evenings when I don't drink, and surprise surprise, I even go to bed earlier! When I drink, I am tired and irritable all day, and I can feel my body becoming depleted of important nutrients with every heart palpitation and muscle cramp I get. I'm not only dehydrated from the drinking, I am losing important and essential electrolytes and minerals.

Stupid habit. And I was never a drinker before I got married. Lucky for me, I married someone who loves to drink, and always has. He's not an alcoholic, although I would say he's been on the verge in the past, but he can out drink me any night. One nasty habit that I learned from him... and now I have to force myself to break it. It wasn't that long ago when simply getting the kids to bed was enough for me. It made me feel relaxed and content with my life. Then, evil alcohol crept in and stole my identity.

When I was on this weight loss journey years ago, I allowed myself one "cheat night" a week. It kept me on track all week knowing I had that to look forward to. It also fit into my lifestyle, so if I wanted to go out dancing and have a couple drinks, I still could. And I succeeded doing things this way. My cheat night was the only night I would drink, and I also had my 2 favorite things, Amy's Mushroom and Olive Pizza and Haagen Dazs Chocolate Peanut Butter ice cream. I think it's time to go back to my old ways.

Once a week and no more. emoticon

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RIVER331 9/18/2011 8:13PM

    Sounds good, it really does need to change or you could begin to have long-term problems with sugar / serotonin / depression issues - not to mention the calories & weight emoticon. Alcohol can be relaxing but there are definitely other ways to relax in the evening and they won't make it so easy to slip into bad eating cycles. It's really great that you can step back and see this now & get yourself back on track! Good job! emoticon

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Slow is the way to Go (and Grow.)

Sunday, September 11, 2011

So, I really have been exploring nutrition and exercise since before I decided to have my first baby in 2007. He was my motivation to lose weight the first time around. I knew that I wanted to be a cute pregnant girl, not a fat pregnant girl. I wanted to be obviously pregnant, not obviously fat with no hint of being pregnant on the outside. I achieved that goal, and it made me feel proud to to take my baby belly pics along my pregnancy journey. I lost all of the baby weight from my first pregnancy, except for 10lbs and then I became pregnant with my second son.

I think most of us know how to lose "weight," but losing "fat" is a bit more challenging. I learned so much about how to eat to torch fat from bodybuilding websites and my favorite magazine, Oxygen. It wasn't until I made my most recent attempt at losing weight that I realized just how hopeless I felt and how desperate I had become. I went to a local weight loss clinic that prescribes the hCG hormone injections and advises their patients to stick to a 600 calories/day diet. Not good, I know.

The first 2 weeks (known as detox,) I was instructed to eat between 800 and 1000 calories (hello starvation mode.) They provided me with a list of what to eat and when. I stuck to this faithfully for the full 2 weeks, and my scale went down 8.8lbs. Of course, I was elated. However, I went out for drinks with my Dad to celebrate, and that started the downward trend back to my old eating habits.

The next 4 weeks was when the injections started and I was dropped to 600 cals/day. I stuck with that for a whopping 4 days, and then I realized how much of a fool I was for falling for this gimmick. Anyone is going to lose "weight" by the scale's measurements on 600 cals/day. It's impossible, however that all of the "weight" you lose on such a diet is mostly fat. In my estimate, there is a little fat loss, but an overwhelming amount of precious muscle, too. That is just not what I am looking for. I worried about the long term effects of this type of diet, not to mention the effects of injecting myself with the hormone.

I came back to SparkPeople, and finally purchased The Spark. The book makes a ton of sense, but it wasn't until I read blog after blog about how losing weight at a slow rate was not only worth it, but the only way to do it successfully that it clicked! I have gathered other books in my arsenal that are proving this is the only way to do this.

It's best to take it minute by minute, and day by day, otherwise you'll never make it to week by week, month by month, or year by year. Start with now. Today. When you make it to the end of your first successful day, move onto the next. Creep along and don't rush it. It's still important to create a 3 month, 6 month, 9 month and 1 year goal, but start at the start, stick with YOUR plan at least 80% of the time, and you'll surely get to the finish line!

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VTMAID 9/11/2011 11:47AM

    Good for you for coming back to SP. As a cancer survivor, just the thought of hormone injections makes me shudder.
Good luck with your weight loss journey.

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