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You Really Do Have Worth

Saturday, August 20, 2011

“After a while you learn the subtle difference between holding a hand and chaining a soul, and you learn that love doesn’t mean leaning and company doesn’t mean security, and you begin to learn that kisses aren’t contracts and presents aren’t promises, and you begin to accept your defeats with your head up and your eyes open, with the grace of an adult, not the grief of a child, and you learn to build all your roads on today because tomorrow’s ground is too uncertain for plans. After a while you learn that even sunshine burns if you get too much. So plant your own garden and decorate your own soul, instead of waiting for someone to bring you flowers. And you learn that you really can endure… that you really are strong, and you really do have worth.” ~Veronica A. Shoffstall


Found a GREAT motivation site

Thursday, August 18, 2011

I was just stumbling around on the internet and found this site. I just have to share it with everyone!!! Check it out.


I've got my hand-basket ready!

Monday, August 08, 2011

Every American should be talking to their Congressional Representatives. You can do so by using this link: . Just put in your zip code and it will take you to your representative's link. These are the peeps we elected... OBVIOUSLY we have to tell them what to do because they haven't fixed the problem that they've created! Stop the insanity! Tell them now!

Re-post the link so we can get as many messages to Congress as we can.

Let them know what you are willing to give up. Let them know what is unacceptable. Let them know how you feel about their inability to solve the problem. Let them know how important your retirement fund is and how little you appreciate it's loss in value.

Whatever you do, TELL THEM. They (collectively) don't seem to have a clue! America is better than this. We are much better than this. We need to stop the blame game and get to work.


Staying on track...

Friday, August 05, 2011

I would like to be more enthusiastic, but I just can't seem to pull it out of my hat. I am managing to maintain (for the most part) my weight and fitness level. I don't really feel like it, but I'm managing to keep my nose to the grindstone. Some days seem to have an almost joyless aspect.

I'm pretty sure its my own particular version of seasonal affective disorder. Its not the kind that people get during the fall and winter when the sunlight is low. Its the summer when my life goes into a stimulus free zone, so to speak. I pretty much stay home with very little interaction. Since I'm not working, our finances get very tight as well. With fuel at $4/gal (+/-), even a scenic drive is a stretch.

I find a lot of my energy being used up in an unending exercise to avoid the pity puddle that seems to be lapping nearer everyday. I'm generally not a Eeyore kind of gal but find myself trending closer to a Gloomy Gus than the Spitfire I feel like during the school year.

The good news is that school starts on the 29th, just 3 1/2 weeks from now! I'll have stuff to do the week before... meetings, route paperwork and setting up the bus (mostly cleaning). So really its only 2 1/2 weeks or so.

So for now, I'm finding pride in not losing ground. I'm not really excited about not losing ground, but finding pride in it is okay for now.

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LILACEOUS 8/6/2011 8:40AM

    Thanks, Poindextra! Thats exactly what it feels like... trudging! But I'm COMMITTED to the trudge! :)

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POINDEXTRA 8/5/2011 9:30AM

    Hang in there! I find that my life is much easier when I have a set schedule as well. Sometimes we just need to trudge along ...

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Yesterday was a long day... but a good one

Tuesday, August 02, 2011

My niece, Dani's grandfather died last week, three days short of 80. It was not unexpected; he had Parkinson's, diabetes, and heart disease and was in a nursing home. I didn't know him well, but he was my niece's grandfather.

Dani is a special girl (now woman). She is a couple of years older than my daughter and has come through a panoply of adverse life situations, most of which were caused by her mother, my husband's sister. At one point, we had to intercede on Dani's behalf and took her into our home. Although my sister-in-law is a whack job (and I say this in the nicest way), she did one thing well... she gave the world Danielle.

I went to the funeral and burial yesterday. I got up early and got my stepping in and my upper body ST before I left because I KNEW I wouldn't do it once I got home. I also took a big water with me for the two hour drive. It was a humid day and thunderstorms were predicted for midday. The weather held off until after the internment which was a blessing.

The funeral was a Catholic Mass. Its been years since I've been to church and I didn't know some of the responses, but the ritual struck a harmonic chord of memory. Then we went to the cemetery for the graveside service. I knew only the family but was greeted warmly by many of the attendees.

I had been toying with going right home afterward because of the impending weather, but hadn't had a chance to visit with Dani. So I set off for the luncheon location (without using my GPS) and after a couple of minutes going the way I thought I was supposed to go, realized I was lost. I was going to text Dani, but then remembered I could google the actual address with my phone. by the time I got myself turned around and arrived at the restaurant, I was the last to arrive. Dani was waiting for me and had saved me a place at the center table.

I had the salmon with veggies and rice pilaf, but I left the rice on the plate. I did indulge in a piece of garlic bread, but left the fried zucchini alone. I had a glass of wine, but didn't finish it and concentrated more on the ice water. So, as far as the eating went I did well.

I had a wonderful visit with Dani. She's so wonderful and caring. People are drawn to her sweetness and I just love how gracious she is. The wonderful part of the day for me was how much all these people I didn't know knew about me. Apparently, the story of Dani's trial and tribulations and our part (the DH and me) in rescuing her were well known. I got lots of well wishes and gratitude form lots of people. It was quite surprising. I could only smile, thank them for their sentiments and enjoy the scene.

I could have done nothing less for Dani. It was just the right thing to do (back when she needed a safe place to be without her mother). But people don't want to hear that and it would have been more than rude to posit the thought amidst the genuine sentiments being expressed. What I took away from it was how much my dear niece is treasured and loved. I love that... that there is such a deep and caring bedrock of support for her from people that have known her family for a long time, in some cases generations. Family counts.

After the luncheon I drove Dani back to her father's home where he lives with her step-mother and half-brother. I stayed for a while and visited, something I don't often get to do. Wistfully, I had to leave for my 2+ hour ride home. Dani was going to her meme's house to say good bye and then heading to her home (about fifteen minutes from my house). Amid this day's drama was my daughter's journey up from Virginia Beach.

So, though the drive home was fraught with horrible weather and traffic, but I was comforted that it was an experience we were sharing. We all got home safely, though worn out.

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LILACEOUS 8/2/2011 9:00PM

    Thanks! It amazing how much energy I get from positivity!

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NTSOHLTHNT 8/2/2011 8:20PM

    Glad you're home safe and you found comfort in your experience with Dani and the wonderful things you did for her.

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GINNJEN2000 8/2/2011 7:24PM

    Sounds like a long but wonderful experience

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