Tuesday, October 02, 2012
So, today's posting is to be about goal weight. How did I pick my goal weight? Did I know at the beginning of my weight loss what my goal weight was? Did the goal weight change and did I set smaller goals along the way?
In my previous weight loss attempts, I did have a goal weight in the back of my mind that I wanted to achieve. Once I lost that specific amount of weight the magic was supposed to happen. I would be transformed, the birds would always be singing and the sun would always shine. When I would lose that weight amount, the birds had all flown south, the sun would sometimes shine and there was certainly no magic happening. At least not that I could see. It was still my same life; the dishes were still sitting in the sink, the kitty litter still needed to be cleaned and the dust bunnies were still hiding behind the sofa. What the heck? Since my life (and attitude) hadn't changed, the weight came back. And the worse feeling was when I would gain back even more than I had originally lost.
What's different this time is that I don't have a goal weight in mind. My goal weight if you want to call it that is to strive to know that I'm more than a number. My weight will/does not define me. I'm caring, passionate about my marriage and home life, I strive to be honest at work, I adore my grandsons, love being outdoors, discovered that I'm a runner and so much more. I'm that and so much more, regardless of what I weigh. I think that is what is so different this time. Previously I was focused on a number. I wasn't looking at what that 'number' represented. That 'number' was me. If I want to maintain this weight loss I need to focus on that person and really discover who she is.
At this point, that's where I'm at in my weight loss journey.