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Monday, July 30, 2012

I will not look back
I will live in the present
With God by my side

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JANET552 7/31/2012 5:45AM

    Good advice!

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DDHEART 7/30/2012 9:08AM

    Yes you will!

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KSCRAP363 7/30/2012 8:28AM

    Beautiful! I'm going to make this my mantra for August!!! Thanks for sharing!!!

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Here I am!

Monday, July 23, 2012

I'm struggling. I've lost a significant amount of weight. I've figured out the eating part to lose weight, I've discovered running so I have the exercise part down. Where I'm struggling is the emotional aspect of weight loss. I still see my self as overweight. I still hear those small voices saying sabotaging my efforts. I need to take to heart the lyrics from Pink "..Change the voices in your head Make them like you instead" If I can't think positive about myself, why would I expect the world too. I'm perfect just the way I am.


It is, what it is...

Tuesday, October 04, 2011

Today has been a very trying day, from a supervisor that "knows" everything to a cranky customer that is cursing to my face. Than I get home and I'm dealing with the worse customer of the day....ME!!!!. Here's what happened. I'm went out for a 4.5 mile run. Instead of just "being" and relishing the fact that I'm able to run at all, about 1 mile into the run I start looking at the time and trying to calculate my pace. Now, keep in mind that after that first mile I was running with no effort. When I realized that I wasn't running as fast as I thought have should have been, the doubt comes in and the next 4 miles were tough. "What the heck do you think you're doing?" "Do you honestly think that you're capable of running a 10:00 min pace?" "You might as well just walk because there is know way that you're going to get the time that you "think" you should have" I can't get the negative talk to stop. Finally, with less than 1/2 mile to go, I just accepted the fact "It is, is what it is" Why did it take me so long to finally get that thought into my head. Ackkk!

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SICIANASARI 10/5/2011 10:43AM

    Well, no doubt your day rubbed off on you a bit, that's all... it's hard to be positive with yourself, when everyone around you is negative. At least you can step back and analyze and get yourself moving forward on the right foot again!

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I'm back searching for more..

Sunday, October 02, 2011

I'm back with Sparkpeople, again. Well, I never 'officially' left, I just stopped dropping by. Why? Because, I had reached my goal, I don't need to be accountable, I can do this on my own and a million other reasons. Well, I did lose the weight but, somewhere along the way I've realized that I'm more than a number on the scale. I'm trying to find that balance now of maintaining my weight without becoming overly obsessive about it.

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ELAINEROSE5 10/3/2011 9:13AM

    I just commented on your post about being new to the group, but feel like I understand where you are.

I continue to hope that I have figured this out finally! I am pretty much at goal weight (give or take) and just want to maintain. I have tried to make this whole thing about more than losing weight and read the nutritional info each time I see it! I think understanding nutrition and how important those things are to my body has been my biggest key to success this time. I feel so much better and I believe that eating the right things keeps craving and hunger at bay! I also took up running and believe that we have to properly fuel our bodies if we expect them to run! I wish you continued success on your journey. Congratulations on reaching your goal weight.


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The end of an abusive relationship

Tuesday, November 30, 2010

I was going to title this entry addictive relationship but, some how the word abusive relationship seems more appropriate. For over 30+ years Iíve been in an abusive relationship. An abusive relationship with my scale. I know, I know, just throw the da** thing out. But, like all abusive relationships what a person is supposed to do is quite different than what actually happens. For a while I did get rid of my scale. For one year, I did not step on any scale what-so-ever. For whatever reason I bought a new scale. At first I limited the number of times I would get on. It started out just once a week, than it was twice a week and it just got worse from there. That number that I see totally determines the day I will have. If the number went down, I would have a good day. If the number stayed the same or worse went up, my day was crappy. How can three numbers have that much control over me. My self-esteem is often tied to those three numbers. But, today something happened.... I had an aha moment. The light bulb went on! I'm ending the relationship.

For the past three weeks Iíve been at a plateau. Those three numbers on the scale have not changed. Theyíre not going up but, they are not going down. Iím doing everything possible to get the scale to move. Nothing, Nada, Zip, Zilch. It is not moving. So this morning, I weigh myself and of course, itís the same number that Iíve been seeing for the past three weeks. But, I did something different this time; I took the time and took my measurements. When I first started my weight loss journey over a year and a half ago, I was taking my measurements once a month. For unknown reasons, I stopped and instead was relying on the scale. Well, you know what; I went back to my true friend, the tape measure. This friend tells me the whole truth Ė it told me that Iíve lost close to 26 inches of my body. Holy Frigt Batman, how awesome is that? I need to work on my relationship with the scale. I truly believe that we can work something out together but, for now, Iím thinking Mr. Scale is going into the back of my closet and my new bff will be the tape measure. I also need to remind myself of other things that I can do. I can run 5k's, I have more energy, my skin is clearer from eating healthier, I sleep better at night. I know it will be a struggle to end my relationship with the scale but, for my self-esteem, I need to do it.

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FEADHEAD 12/12/2010 8:47PM

    So true with the measuring. To break a plateau change something or lots of water consumption, exercise, and calorie range. It works! emoticon

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CSYOUNCE 12/1/2010 10:49AM

    GREAT blog.

I have to try to follow your lead and ditch my scale, I am just not ready......

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WAKEMEFRIDAY 11/30/2010 6:41PM

    Great job on 26 inches!!! That is amazing! And great job knowing that its time to switch from the scale to the tape :) Thats tough!

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