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Being Me!

Monday, January 28, 2013

I have a poor self-image of myself. The above statement is something that I've struggled with my whole life. Growing up, I was often subjected to verbal abuse by my mother. I've carried that self-doubt my whole life and is something that I am working on addressing in my life. I'm working on feeling the joy of being me! There is a website that I have discovered called Daily Motivator. It can be found here And it just so happens that today's post is exactly what I need to work on. Finding the Joy in Being Me.

May today, you find your joy in being you! We are each unique. May you believe that today, if only for a little bit.

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AEHEGE 1/28/2013 4:48PM

    Thanks for sharing both the blog, the quote, and the link. All worthwhile for us to read and learn from. I am heading to the link now.

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CHERYL_ANNE 1/28/2013 12:31PM

    Believe it!

You are a joy!

You are worth it!

The struggle is hard and sometimes the way seems very dark and torturous but you will get there. And your SparkFriends will be right alongside you on your journey.


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BECKYLIZ 1/28/2013 12:28PM

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GORIANA 1/28/2013 11:20AM


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LRSILVER 1/28/2013 11:19AM

    Thank you for great blog. I will definitely try that link.

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AMBERZADE67 1/28/2013 10:35AM

    That's a great link!! I bookmarked it.

I experienced a lot of verbal abuse via my Mom too when I was growing up. She has passed away and before she passed away we didn't speak for years. However, despite the fact that we did not have contact, we still had a relationship, simply because she was my Mother and I understood myself in relation to her. So I worked towards forgiving her, as well as seeing her for who she was. There were a lot of good things about my Mother. She was perhaps, just not cut out to be a Mom. But she was very talented, very creative, and very intelligent. Part of the dynamic of a Mother Daughter relationship is loving/hating seeing one another in each other. Part of my struggle to care for and love myself has been my struggle to love and care for the part of me that is my Mother. So I continually work on that.

After my Mom passed away my Brother dealt with the estate. Which, I give him tons of credit for. He gave me a lot of her things but I found that I could not look at them when I first got them. I did not wan to deal with it. I didn't care. I didn't want to care.

Recently I have gone through the things and found some treasures. I found a huge amber pendant and earrings set and other fun things. I enjoy wearing
them now.

Thanks for your blog post and all the best on the continuing struggle to care for yourself. I think we all have that to whatever extent.

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NUTRON3 1/28/2013 9:28AM

    So true

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SARASMILING 1/28/2013 9:23AM

    Thank you SO much! emoticon emoticon emoticon

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JUDYHELP 1/28/2013 9:17AM

  emoticon that's a true and nice quote!! Thanks for sharing. I hope that you yourself can be happy with yourself each and everyday. It's hard to believe in ones self when doubt has been put in our minds as we grow, but I hope that that doubt weakens for you everyday. One day (soon) the doubt will be gone and YOU can shine. Good luck on your path. emoticon emoticon because we are worth it.

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Letter to my 16-year old self

Friday, January 25, 2013

Dear Susan,
I can't believe your 16 years old today. How wonderful is that? You have your whole life ahead of you. Before you know, you'll be graduating from high school and going on to college. The next couple of years are going to be important to you. The decisions you make now will have an impact on the choices you make later in life.

First off, I want you to know, deep in your soul, that you are a perfectly made human being. Remember that little saying - I'm O.K. because God don't make junk. You need to start believing that. Never settle for anything less than the best for you. Ignore those girls who appear to have it all. They don't. They're just as insecure as you are. Don't listen to the people who cut you down or call you names. When it comes to your outward appearance - you'll learn that those that matter don't care and those that care don't matter! What truly matters in life is what you feel in your heart and what radiates from you. These are the qualities that God looks for. Let his Love that he has for you permeate every bone in your body. don't take that love at face value. Believe it, drink it in. It is yours for the taking. All you have to do is believe with your heart and soul.

And don't worry about finding someone to that loves you. Oh, you'll go through relationships were you think the person "loves" you. If they truly love you, they won't put your down, they won't say that you need to change your appearance, or you need to lose weight. They'll treat you with respect and honesty. They won't need alcohol to communicate. They won't threaten to leave you constantly. They won't make you beg and plead for love. They will give it freely and unconditionally. Eventually, after you've learned these lessons the hard way, just when you have given up on finding that special person, you will. You'll meet someone who becomes your best friend. He'll make you laugh at the silliest things. He'll have shoulders big enough for you to lean on and to cry on. He'll love you for you, no matter what size, shape or hair color for that matter! You'll forge a relationship with this person that can withstand the winds of trouble and despair. You'll go through the darkest times with this person and you'll emerge together to view the most beautiful sunrise.

You'll go through trouble times with your parents and family. Never forget how important those relationships are. No one has the perfect family. That is something that Hallmark created to make the rest of us normal people feel inadequate. Every family has its dysfunctional quirks. Embrace them and love them even more because of them.

Express your love for your friends and family at every opportunity. Before you know it they'll be gone. Some sooner than you expected. The memories from these friends and family will constantly touch your heart and soul. They'll leave an impact on your life long after they are gone. Never forget their smiles and widsom.

I'll leave you with the last paragraph from the great Dr. Suess -

be your name Buxbaum or Bixby or Bray
or Mordecai Ali Van Allen O'Shea,
you're off to Great Places!
Today is your day!
Your mountain is waiting.
So...get on your way!

Your future self (who is still learning these very same lessons!)

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    emoticon Blog!

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LIZARDG7 1/27/2013 3:59PM

    Super blog!

Thank you so much! Hugs, Lizzie

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AEHEGE 1/26/2013 9:43PM

    Good advice to anyone at any age. emoticon

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NETTYBREAD 1/26/2013 9:58AM


Thank you... I am going to share this with my 17 year old daughter. Just beautiful thoughts. Thanks for sharing.


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HIKER-SQUIRREL 1/25/2013 8:27AM

    Wonderful blog! Thanks for sharing.

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CHERYL_ANNE 1/25/2013 8:27AM


Love this!

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Monday Funny!

Monday, January 14, 2013

Here's how I feel about today emoticon

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2BDYNAMIC 1/14/2013 10:24PM

    emoticon There's not much you can say for Monday 'cept to keep in mind, "It is only ONE day out of seven! We wouldn't able to handle more, would we? ............ Cute pic!
oh and emoticon for the comment on MY blog couple of days ago............ sorry .... this may look like a cheap shot ............... posting on your blog and throwing the thanks in too ................. emoticon All I can say is: it was MONDAY!!! lol

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BEFIT014 1/14/2013 6:08PM

    emoticon Absolutely!

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MSPATOOTY 1/14/2013 12:57PM

    Yeah. That about covers it! Thanks for the giggles! emoticon

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CANDYCANE2B 1/14/2013 12:37PM

    Oh, I LOVE it!!!

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62NVON 1/14/2013 11:20AM

    Hehe... I wish I COULD run away!

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NUTRON3 1/14/2013 8:28AM

    I agree

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CELIAMINER 1/14/2013 8:24AM

    Boy, did I need this! I have a case of the Mondays BAD!

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EATNBOOGERS 1/14/2013 8:00AM

    I needed that! ;-)

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NETTYBREAD 1/14/2013 7:26AM


Thank YOU!

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LRSILVER 1/14/2013 7:17AM

    It is always good to start the week with exercise! Have a great day Susan.

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CAT609 1/14/2013 7:11AM

    So true!

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DRB13_1 1/14/2013 6:51AM

    so nice to start the week off with a big emoticon

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BLC Goal - Reconciliation

Saturday, January 12, 2013

For someone who has lost weight, a challenge that I'm facing is making the connection of what my mind perceives and what is reality. My mind perceives my body at 215#. The reality is I'm 78# less than that. I'm really struggling with that body image. Someone came up to me yesterday and said how awesome it must be to be so thin and that I'm doing a good job of keeping it off. I said thank you but, afterwards I struggled. I struggle with getting compliments like that because in my mind, I'm still obese and still need to lose weight. I'm not thin enough! Does that make sense?

I don't have too many full body pictures of me when I was at my highest weight. But, I came across this photo this morning.


When I compare myself to what I was to what I am now,

I still have a hard time coming to terms with my weight loss and reconciling what I was to what I am now. That is one of my goals for BLC (besides losing those last 10#). I need to learn to celebrate who I am now but, in a way to mourn the loss of the person I was.

And maybe that is what this journey, for me, is all about. Mourning the person that allowed herself to gain the weight that I did. I didn't love myself very much at that point. I guess, I know what my next blog post will be about.

Have a wonderful Saturday!


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NETTYBREAD 1/13/2013 5:49PM


You are not alone in your thoughts.
Thank you for sharing.
I can tell you are beautiful inside and out.


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CHERYL_ANNE 1/13/2013 9:28AM

    Perfect sense!

Body mastery and moving past your fear(s). Your mind and heart will eventually move in sync with each other.


A Mindfulness Reminder I am trying to master ~

If you are depressed, you are living in the past.

If you are anxious, you are living in the future.

If you are at peace, you are living in the present.

Be at peace,SparkFriend, Sue!


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CANDYCANE2B 1/12/2013 3:47PM

    Wow, are you an inspiration, Sue!!! Congrats!

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JKPONYGIRL 1/12/2013 3:31PM

    Try not to think of it as size, but as health.

You MUST feel so much better. I know that I do.

Concentrate on the fact that YOU are capable of turning your body into a healthy machine, not that you were a different number on the scale. YOU are still the same person, just in a smaller package.

It is not important that you were once heavy. What is important is that you take care of yourself now.

To me your new picture looks STRONG!

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BECKYLIZ 1/12/2013 2:59PM

    emoticon Good to hear about the other side. Be glad to see the day when I have to worry about adjusting to an incredible weight loss. emoticon emoticon

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KATI5668 1/12/2013 12:09PM

    it is amazing how our "body" image can confuse us. It does take some time to refocus & realize that yes we are the same person,,,maybe better in many ways..more fit..more energy..healthier for sure!

Honestly my problem is just the opposite of yours..I gained this weight & still bang into walls or doorjams cause I have not grabbed to the idea of "my size"..& do not intent is coming off thas all there is to that!

emoticon you can do that last 10#..just look at what you have achieved!

Good luck on BLC 21...................

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EATNBOOGERS 1/12/2013 11:57AM

    Big hugs. My own struggle is with consistency in maintenance (and I'm a bit outside my range right now). My best friend lost over 100 lbs 2 years ago, and she has many of the same struggles as you. You look great. You were a great person before, and you're a great person now--same body, but different contours, if that makes any sense. It can be hard to be the same person inside when folks on the outside perceive you so differently.

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BLC21 - Challenge #2

Monday, January 07, 2013

emoticon This is me peeking out. I'm taking a deep breath and putting everything out on the line.

For BLC21 I would really like to lose 10 pounds and do some toning up.

Measurements -
Chest: 37"
Arm: 12"
Waist: 29"
Hips: 36"
Thigh: 21.5"

Here are my before pictures:

Ok, that wasn't so bad! On to the next challenge!!

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BECKYLIZ 1/8/2013 6:55AM

    U look emoticon emoticon

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CANDYCANE2B 1/7/2013 9:33PM

    Sue, you are BEAUTIFUL!!! I'm glad you're my friend! Now that you posted your before pic, maybe...just maybe I'll post mine. I hate my picture taken anyway, and to post mine on sparkpeople is going to take a lot of...guts! We'll see.

emoticon for the BLC21, I'm excited and can't wait for it to begin!!!

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JITTERBUGJOY 1/7/2013 9:22PM

    emoticon Congrats to you for being brave enough to post! I have been working myself up to post my before pictures!

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