Thursday, April 17, 2014
This isn't a blog about bragging. This is a blog about realizing. Realizing that it takes time to make a change. It takes time to reap the benefits of your efforts. If you take the time to invest in yourself, eventually the rewards appear. I'm training for my 3rd half marathon and tonight was a 6 mile training run. It was during the 2nd mile where I felt like my breathing was so off that I was ready to give up for the day, but I pressed on. I found a bit of a mental angle that I needed to press through the run. When I got to the 5th mile, I recalled a blog I had written when I had completed my first ever 7 mile long run. I remembered how I struggled through that run. How I never believed I could complete 7 miles, let alone 13.1 miles.
I finished up the 6 mile run tonight feeling awesome considering the first 2 miles were such a struggle. I went back to that blog which was written a little over a year ago, and I can see the progress. The slow progress that I've been able to achieve. It hasn't been easy. It hasn't been perfect. Far from it. I've had more runs I've given up on over the last year than I'd like to admit to. When all was said and done, I took a look at my running app which had me running that difficult 2nd mile at a 9 minute per mile pace...that's fast for this slow poke.
In a nutshell, push through it. The results will be there for you in one way or another. Sometimes they aren't going to be what you're expecting, but that is simply a nice surprise at a point in your journey. A surprise that will come out of the blue where you will be able to look back a year ago and see how hard you were struggling and now the struggle isn't quite so difficult. It's worth it.
Sunday, April 13, 2014
I am just finishing up one of the better weekends I've had in a very long time. Life has taken me through a lot of ups and downs over the past two months and the weekends always seemed to be bearing the brunt of most of it. I made some changes to my regular life routine and am now enjoying the rewards of those changes. At first I felt deprived and very resentful for having to make these particular changes, but now as I look back at how these things were disrupting my life in a way I didn't even realize until I had been away from them for a while, I'm very happy. Hindsight...gotta love that darn thing.
My weekend training runs went so well this weekend, too. My long run of 9 miles on Saturday felt great. My recovery run of 4 miles today felt even better. Lately I've had to really convince myself to get out there and to be honest, a lot of runs turned into walks. For me when I have a lot on my mind, I find it so hard to push through the feeling in my chest that running brings, but I still pushed as I walked through it. So to say it felt good to be back to normal a bit more is an understatement. I'm very pleased and grateful for a weekend where I felt at peace.
Funny thing while I was on my recovery run today, I was watching the ground as I was running, like I normally do. I do this because I've taken a few spills by getting tripped up by sidewalks lifted just a bit higher than expected, and along with the injuries that came from the falls, the cracked phone screen from hitting the ground and the, shall we say, bruised ego that went along with them, it brought something to my mind. I look down when I run to avoid tripping and falling. I'm protecting myself. As we go through life and go through the trials and experiences that come our way, I like to think that each one was a lifted sidewalk that temporary caused some turbulence and that now it's passed, the healing has come and I just need to keep my eye out for any future ones that will surely come my way. Seems so simple really.
Tuesday, March 11, 2014
A few weeks ago I completed my 2nd half marathon. I think that was probably one of the hardest runs I've ever done, even though everything was perfect conditions for a great run. The course was almost completely flat with just a few minor hills. The weather was gorgeous and cool. I was rested, hydrated and carbo-loaded. The energy was amazing. But for whatever their reason, my legs didn't feel up to doing their job that day. At least not in the way I had wanted them to. I finished the race, but getting to that finish line was a battle for me. I finished though after fighting through the various emotions during that 13.1 mile run. That run that took me through happiness, frustration, pain, tears, feelings of failure, complacency, determination, more tears and joy...all in that order.
It's pretty amazing when you cross that finish line what goes through your head after a run like that. After receiving that medal, I turned around and looked at that finish line and thought about the journey I just spent a few hours on. I've blogged many times about how emotions get pulled out of me during my runs, but this run was one I will never forget. It was a rough one for me and it just goes along with some issues in life right now that are rough for me, too. Did I learn anything? Yes, I sure did. I learned that no matter how prepared you are, what is meant to happen will happen. Also that I really need to invest in a better pair of socks for the longer runs, because ouch the bottoms of my feet weren't happy either.
So the goal was achieved and it's time to work towards another one. So half #3 is the Rock n Roll San Diego half marathon in June. I'm looking forward to it a lot and will take with me a different perspective in how I'm going to run this one. This one is for fun because after all, running is supposed to be fun...at least that's how I'm looking at it now.
Sunday, March 09, 2014
When you try your best to see the good in a situation, yet the good in it is so few and far between. That moment when enough feels like enough, yet that enough means you have to tear your heart into pieces and go through the process of putting it back together. When you're too tired to deal with the same thing over and over again, means it's time to change. I've tried tweaking it for a different perspective, but what I've learned is that you can tweak things all you want, but if your core beliefs are breached, there's no real fixing that.
Sunday, January 19, 2014
I'm about ready to head out for my long run and I'm reminded how fragile and precious life truly is. The running world has been mourning the loss of a Virginia woman named Meg Menzies, killed by a drunk driver last Monday morning during her morning run. She has left behind a husband and young children, as well as many others who love her dearly. Thousands of runners all over the globe dedicated their runs yesterday to her memory, and to bring awareness to drunk/distracted driving. It's so important for all of us to remember to make smart decisions with our driving and to remember we do share the road with our runners and cyclists.
When these senseless, tragic things happen, it always makes me sit back and think about what is actually important in life. The small things that seem so big just diminish when I think about never seeing a loved one again, or when I realize that it could have been me during one of my own runs. When I think about the second possibility, I think about whether I have created a legacy that I am proud of that others can look at and find some solace in if they needed to. Have I taken what was put inside of me, that was meant to be shared with others as well as being my own journey, and given it the life it was meant to have? Am I dwelling on the "small" things that seem so big, when they are actually fairly meaningless?
We all have a legacy to create. From the looks of it, Meg Menzies created one that she probably never even realized would span the globe. Just goes to show that you never truly know who you are inspiring.
Time to run...
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