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Starting Over

Friday, March 25, 2011

Well I'm back starting over. Life has taken a toll on my body and mind. It is beating me up but I'm trying to fight back. Starting over. I'm not sure I can do it but I don't want to give up on myself now.

  


Watching tv

Tuesday, February 09, 2010

As I was watching Celebrity Fit Club last night it dawned on me I was seven pounds away from Bobby Brown and 13% higher in body fat and he is 4" taller than me. I knew I had to change my ways. I decided to go cold turkey on the coffee and chocolate because everyday was my farewell to those delicious items in my life. Superbowl Sunday I pigged out and my team won. Tonight had an intense craving for something sweet to eat but I decided to track my calories, drink a cup of tea, and read an article in a magazine and the craving is now gone. Thank God because I am in all my calorie ranges normally I'm over in carbs, fat, or calories but through a miracle I managed to maintain all calorie ranges. Ladies and gentlemen that is a miracle within itself. I believe a first in Sparkpeople history and I feel full and included fruits and vegetables. It 's a stressful time for me and I decided to make definite changes. I think my son is watching too much tv and I am only allowing 2 hours on the weekdays, and I'm not sure on the weekend. I am working with him everyday for an hour after school. Is it me or is kindergarten curriculum advance? It doesn't matter because we just have to advance with it. My body fat is 43%. I am almost half fat and when I drank 13 glasses of water today, I felt better and fuller. I won't lie.12/15/09 I was 179 and 38% body fat. I was laid off and i baked 6 deep dish sweet potato pies and ate half of each pie along with my husband. Everyday a chocolate bar twice a day along with M&M's. Brewster's Apple dumpling along with cinnamon ice cream knowing the dumpling had 10g of trans fat. I brought new clothes for work and they don't fit. Even my plus size clothes are snugged. At least my husband and I decided we don't need to have something sweet everyday. I don't know how long this will last but for my first day being back, I mean actually in the swing of things, it looks promising.

  


Six Week Weight Loss

Thursday, July 16, 2009

I'm trying to lose 15 pounds by 8/27/09. I am only 12 pounds from where I started last year. I need to move quickly with this goal and working on a short time period. I think the difference this time for me is I am not eliminating or reducing anything out of my diet. I just have to keep everything in moderation. I'm having something sweet everyday, but within serving size. I'm not a big meat eater but if I cook with meat, i'll make sure to have a serving within moderation. Started exercising again. Life moves quickly and it takes you through alot of twists and turns, so hopefully it won't throw me another curveball until the end of August in which I hope to be 15 pounds lighter.

  


Weight Gain

Tuesday, June 30, 2009

Unfortunately, I am only 22 pounds away from where I began last year. I feel I am slowly killing myself with food. When I drink coffee, I can feel my veins constricting, and when I had too much sodium I get an instant headache and my hands feel slightly bloated. Between the caffeine, sugar, and salt my kidneys are working overtime. I don't feel like exercising this week. I don't know if i can lose 16 pounds. I felt losing the weight really didn't change anything for me so why should I try again. Too many other issues to deal with in my life right now to concentrate on me.

  


Recommit

Wednesday, June 17, 2009

Well, I just realized I'm 20lbs from where I began last year. I was wearing a size 12, now in a tight size 14, and slowly creeping into a size 16. As I was looking at my eating habits from last year, and I realized nothing really has changed except I used to exercise more then I do now. As much as I will love to blame my husband for being unsupportive, he never held a gun to my head to eat those foods I knew wasn't good for me. Then life happened, almost everything you can imagined hit, and now I need to regain strength and recommit. But this time I want to change my eating habits for the better instead of binging and exercising like crazy. I don't want to keep abusing myself and body. One day at a time can hopefully be a consistent motto. I overate today but hopefully tomorrow I can start anew and be gentle and loving with myself. I want to nurture myself to a healthy lifestyle. I apologize to myself for being so negative and hateful towards me. I went back to Stage 1 and pay attention to the strategies given to us. When I first started I was so excited about finding the site, I never completely followed all the steps in Stage 1 and just started dieting which meant eliminating or reducing food instead of finding a balance. Now I'm starting from scratch and when I look at my food diary in the future from 6/18/2009 (my current starting point) to the future, I hope to see definite changes. I was reading my blogs and I remembered how long it took me to reach the 170's and how hard I worked to get there and I'm there now and I can't go back to 192. I never created a healthy foundation for my weight loss, I just dieted, and now that is what I will set out to do. Create consistency, self-control, and wiser choices with my selection of food.

  


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