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Reminders that it's not all bad...Some NSV's

Tuesday, August 18, 2009

I've been MIA because life has been crazy, hectic and pretty horrid all around. Not surprising considering I'm creeping up on 1 year of being unemployed without any hope of it ending any time soon. We've also been helping friends with a flood crisis for most of the month, not to mention a few dozen other excuses I could make.

When you get right down to it I've simply not had the energy to make the best choices as consistently as I have been. My exercising has been spotty at best, non-existent at the moment thanks to a back injury acquired after helping friends move. My eating has been 'eh' and while I haven't been going crazy or eating tons of things that I shouldn't, I've probably been eating more than I should've been some of the time.

Because of all of the above I've managed to hit a plateau of sorts where my weight has been bouncing up and down within the same 7lb range since late June, early July. I had a few moments of mentally beating myself up but didn't throw myself into a deep depression because of it. I also didn't put myself into a mindset of thinking it's not worth it because the weight is coming back.

It's not - not all of it at least. It's only about 7lbs that keeps coming and going depending on how determined I was that week.

All of that considered I've still had a number of non-scale victories in the past two months that are worth writing down as reminders to myself that although I haven't been perfect, I'm not a failure.

- I was able to purchase a gorgeous black dress in a size 24. While it is stretch, I'm happy to report that several others that I tried on at the time also fit - and they were 24s as well.

- My blood pressure has been more or less under better control than it has been in years. I was actually able to spend most of the last month OFF of my Blood Pressure medications completely while maintaining a normal Blood Pressure (on the low end even). Now it has crept back up slowly however I've got the feeling that once I get myself back into gear with more careful eating and more regular exercise it will go back to the level it was at. I highly doubt that the lowered numbers were a fluke. The increased dizziness and super low readings I was getting are proof of that. I just need to step it back up.

- We helped our friends move last week - from a first floor apartment to a third floor. Without getting into the more annoying details the victory here was being able to help as much as I did. Not only was I able to help significantly with loading the truck, but I was actually able to help with the unloading too! To understand why that's such a huge accomplishment you have to remember that the last time I was in a 3rd floor apartment I could barely make ONE trip up the stairs, never mind a trip down and back up. In fact I had trouble with two indoor flights of stairs in November - never mind trying to do 3 long flights of outdoor stairs. Well that was all a distant memory last week when I repeatedly moved things up the stairs and quickly returned down them for the next load. Yes, I was out of breath at the top of the stairs, but I was able to recover quickly and didn't feel like I was going to die. I may not have been lifting the heavy things the guys were, but I definitely feel secure in the fact that I was pulling my own weight and then some!

- I was able to buy my first ($20) interview suit today - in a COMFORTABLE size 24. This is a huge difference from the dress I bought, as these items are actually fitted and included a BLAZER. I have a horrible history with blazers and button up items in general. They may fit my shoulders and bust but are invariably too tight in the stomach. This time that was NOT the case. Not only was I able to button the blazer and sit in it, but there was actually a little bit of room in the stomach area. I know this has some to do with the cut, but still - IT FIT! I was absolutely amazed and am actually looking forward to going out and trying to submit some applications face-to-face to some hiring managers tomorrow.

- On the heels of the suit purchase came one more. I was able to go into a brick and mortar Old Navy store and purchase a short sleeved shirt to wear underneath my blazer (since I don't own any appropriate shirts). I was so overwhelmed when I slipped the shirt on and it fit. It's definitely more fitted than I'm used to, but it actually gives me hope that I may be able to buy some of my favorite shirt styles again from the store rather than having to order them online. I know I'm still a long way off from buying pants there, but I'm still happy to get the shirts back. They're so cheap and versatile for all seasons. :D

So yes, while the last couple of months have been lackluster in terms of exercise, eating and weight loss they've shone in other was and I need to remember to be proud of that fact.

Now if I could just find a job - then life would be PERFECT (well, as perfect as it will be until I graduate and move back to WA :p).


New progress pictures and back from the dead...

Tuesday, July 14, 2009

Well, first I'm back from the dead. Well, not really the dead, more like the land of the extremely busy. The last several weeks have been hectic and emotionally draining to the point where I was being very lax with myself. Between appointments, going out with friends and trying to keep all of our ducks in a row I haven't had a lot of time to really focus on me.

Fortunately it seems we're in the wind-down stage of all the craziness, so I'm hoping to pull things back into focus. I think I got off to a good start - walked/ran my first 15 minute mile tonight at the gym. The eating for today was so-so, but at least none of it was fast food or restaurant fare, and it was mostly within my normal eating plan. I just need to focus on more veggies during the day, although I've definitely upped my fruit intake.

I'm planning on using the time between now and August 31st to really get myself back into a routine so there's not a lot of thought into eating the right things and working out. If all goes as expected, my husband and I will be starting school on August 31st, so it's going to be imperative that I have a solid schedule in place like I've had for most of the year.

I am glad that I didn't let myself give up completely during this hectic time - that'd be a bad sign for what's to come. Although things definitely got off kilter and out of whack, I never gave up completely. I tried to make the best choices that I could given the circumstances and definitely felt guilty by not going to the gym. So in my mind those are both good signs.

To celebrate the end of the crazies and not completely losing my way, I started trying on some clothes in the back of my closet - from the 'small size' section. I was very pleased to find several things that fit and that I could REALLY see a huge difference. The best thing was fitting back into the dress I wore the night my husband proposed to me in August 2006 - it's been a while since it fit me comfortably. I'm looking forward to wearing it out for whatever reason my husband can think up. :)


NSV: Thank you CardioCoach/Sean O'Malley!!!

Saturday, June 20, 2009

I started using CardioCoach about little over a month ago at the gym. When I started out, my 'warm-up' speed was about 2.5MPH, my 'steady' speed was about 2.8MPH and my 'level 3' speed was between 4.3 and 4.7MPH.

I've made definite increases since then, going from an average of a 20min mile to a low of an 18:10min mile in the last week.

Well today I blew all of those numbers out of the water.

My 'slow' speed was a 2.9MPH

My 'steady' speed was 3.2MPH

My 'level 3' speed was between 4.7 and 5MPH.

I also entered into my 'level 4' speed, which was a whopping (for me) 6.1MPH.

The most amazing part of the entire workout was what my average mile time came down to...


That's 40 seconds that I managed to shave off of my time and it felt FANTASTIC! I was tearing up when I watched the treadmill tick from 1.99mi to 2.00 mi. If I hadn't been walking at 3.3MPH I probably would've jumped for joy, but had to settle for throwing my arms up in the air.

Thank you Cardio Coach, Sean O'Malley for giving me the tools to achieve my goals. I honestly don't think I could have done it with any other program. I've used Spark to 5K, Couch to 5K, etc and never, EVER had this level of success. And hey, any program that can get a 295lb woman to run a mile in under 20 minutes is pretty damned impressive in my book.

Anyway, thanks for letting me share :)


Measurement update

Saturday, June 13, 2009

Waist: 58.75
Hip: 58
Thigh: 28
Bust: 60
Under Bust: 52
Waist: 53.5 (-5.25)
Hip: 57.5 (-.5)
Thigh: 28 (0)
Bust: 55 (-4)
Underbust: 49.5 (-2.5)
Waist: 52.5 (-1)
Hips: 56 (-1.5)
Bust: 53 (-2)
Underbust: 48 (-1)
Thigh: 27 (-1)

Total Lost: 18.5" since 12/09

Woohoo - 56lbs and a foot and a half of fat GONE for good!

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TRACYZABELLE 6/19/2009 4:41AM

    Keep on slimmin mama! YOu are doing grrrrrrrrrrrreat!

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VEGGIE8 6/15/2009 11:24AM

    You are making wonderful progress! Keep up the great work!

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    That is excellent. I don't have the courage to do the origanal messurements. Here's to you for your accomplishment and courage.


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Gains and losses...

Saturday, June 06, 2009

So first, sadly my visit to Two-Ville was extremely short-lived. I'm not sure if it was the scale, if I was right on the edge between 300 and 299.9, or what - but my weight is back up. I guess on the plus side it's only the second real 'gain' I've had since December. It's also been SLOWLY creeping back down - I'm hovering at about 301.2 right now. Hoping that will either stay stead or slip down just a TAD more between now and Tuesday.

We'll see.

I've got to say I've handled it fairly well. I was definitely bummed when that 2 went away and I had to move the slider up to 300, but I reminded myself of the many reasons that could be the case. So I took that feeling and just sort of turned it into determination during my workouts. I've upped my speeds on the treadmill (Cardio Coach V1, base speed 3.2 and top speed of 5.0), my times on the elliptical (CardioCoach V2, base resistance about 5 and top about 12) to about 15 minutes and have been struggling through my strength training exercises. I've been doing my best to drink as much water as possible.

Unfortunately that determination hasn't leaked into my eating - if anything, they've fallen into the 'bad' zones more often than not lately. I'm struggling to get them back under control - mostly trying to bring down the carb and sodium levels and attempting to eat more frequently. It just hasn't been easy. I'm really going to have to think about our grocery list next week - I've got to find a way out of this eating 'slump'.

Now, in better news - I finally fit comfortably into ALL of my size 26 pants and can actually zip up the 24's. They're still way too tight to wear, but it doesn't feel like that will last very long. I've also got my first pair of 'goal' jeans. Yes, they're a 22 - but that would put me back to the size I was when I met my husband three years ago. From there, my goal is to get down to a 16/18 and be the smallest bridesmaid at my friend's wedding in March.

With the slowdown of my weight loss, I totally realize that may NOT happen, but then again - I have NO clue what weight I'd need to be to be an 18. I know when I was a 22 I was probably about 270 or so. That means that conceivably I could hit an 18 around 250, which may be possible by then. I'm not going to set that one in stone until I get below 300 though. A lot will depend on how long it takes me to get back there and STAY there.

Anyway, that's what's been going on in my world. I've been feeling like a bit of a failure (weight gain and bad eating), but at the same time a winner (bumped up workouts and smaller jeans!).

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TRACYZABELLE 6/9/2009 6:03AM

    Not to worry you will be back in no time!

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