Sunday, July 17, 2011
It isn't really the heat that gets to me, it is the humidity. I know I shouldn't complain, it was only in the upper 80s, but that is hot for where I live, and with no breeze the air just kind of stuck to me today. Maybe it hit me so hard because I don't have air conditioning, and I don't get much air circulation in my apartment. It has been hot other days this summer, but today was the first day it really dragged on me. I still managed to get out for half an hour, but I went pretty slow and easy, and came back in for a glass of water. I was feeling kind of down that I only managed a half hour, but then I thought "I could have skipped it altogether, and I didn't." So, now I am feeling better about myself.
Saturday, July 16, 2011
I got to play with my friend's new puppy this afternoon. He is so cute! His name is Gatsby. My friend says I have cheekbones again. That is the biggest difference she can see after I have lost 20+ pounds. I say terrific! I can feel a difference in how my clothes fit, but I can't see a difference yet. The key word here is "yet". I believe I will see a difference eventually. I just have to keep on track and keep moving. I keep telling myself "I believe, I believe". (I feel like I am saving Tinkerbell when I say it, but it seems to work for staying motivated too.) It was hot out there today, and it is supposed to be hot again tomorrow, but I am going out no matter what! I'll just go out later in the evening. I'm definitely feeling motivated today!
Friday, July 15, 2011
I walked about 3 miles yesterday evening. I was only going to do 2 miles, but I got started on the final couple blocks and decided to just keep going. I walked about half with my aunt, so we were going pretty slow, but then I continued on by myself and really picked up the pace. It felt good to move and keep on moving. I got my pedometer, and put it on before I left to walk over to my aunt's house. I was impressed by how many steps it recorded, now I just have to remember to put it on in the morning so I know the total number of steps I take in a day. I spend a lot of time sitting, so probably not a lot more than what I record on my walks. My apartment is a tiny studio, so it is difficult to move around in it. There is just enough room to do some exercises for strength training, but just barely. I don't get a lot of light either, as my apartment is basically in the basement of the building, which bums me out sometimes. But I don't want to whine... I am definitely in a better mood than over the weekend, and I am feeling physically stronger as well, so life is good. I am going to a used bookstore/cafe with my oldest niece and my mother this afternoon, and my eldest brother's birthday dinner is this evening. I will fit my walk in in-between the two. I probably won't walk as long, but it helps with the blues if I walk, so I definitely want to fit in some exercise.
Thursday, July 14, 2011
I started reading The Spark, and I am cruising through the reading, but the doing...? The big thing I see is setting goals. I don't think too far into the future, it frustrates me, but I can go a year or two forward. Long term (by 5/2013) I want to go to the British Virgin Islands with my eldest niece. In order for that to happen and me be comfortable with flying and swimsuits and such, I need to lose another 75+ lbs. So, that is two connected goals. In the next couple of months I want to have exercise and healthy eating become habits. To achieve that I will work on streaks of drinking my 8 cups of water every day for a month at a time, exercising 6 out of 7 days each week for a month at a time. I find I also need to set daily goals. To get up in a timely fashion, eat well, drink water, and do something active each day just for that day. I know I will have setbacks, and probably face the dreaded plateau, but I figure if I just do today what needs to be done today then I have a good chance of realizing my goals. It is already working for me, I am just more specific in why I am ding this now.
As for my weigh day results... I lost a pound. One whole pound rather than 1/2 a pound like I have the last couple of weeks. That is 21 pounds that I have dropped from what I have to carry around with me. Last night I managed a 19 min/mile pace again for almost 3 miles. I feel like I am making literal and figurative strides every day. It is encouraging to feel a difference in how I carry myself. My expectations are different too. I am more self-reliant, and if I get bored or lonely I can DO something rather than sit and do nothing.
Wednesday, July 13, 2011
I will never be petite. Not in this lifetime will it happen. First of all I am 5'10'', that right there counts me out of the rank of petite women. I also come from good Scandinavian peasant stock. Big-boned and sturdy that's me. I do not, however, have to be fat and sturdy. I decided this morning that what I want the most is to be healthy. I can't control everything... I will always have this clotting disorder, and other problems that are genetic or permanent, but I can do something about my pre-diabetic condition, my cholesterol, and other lifestyle affected factors. I already have greatly affected my cholesterol levels, which I attribute to the diet and exercise changes I have made with SP. I will find out with my next major batch of blood tests how the glucose levels are doing, and I know my lung power is better. I had a CPAP a couple of years ago, but when I quit smoking I didn't need it as much, and nowadays I don't use it at all. I suffered through an episode of amnesia and aphasia a few years ago, and though the doctors don't agree on whether it was the result of a small stroke, or toxic effects of medication, they do agree that I have to be careful with my health, and until this Spring I was just coasting. Agreeing with them to their faces, but doing nothing on my own time. Now, with SP, I am making those healthy changes they have been touting for years, and I feel do feel better after only about 6 weeks. So, no, I will never be petite, but I can be much healthier, happier, and successful with my goals.
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