Tuesday, October 22, 2013
So I know that losing weight is not an easy thing. I know that healthy lifestyles do not come instantly, but right now I'm frustrated. I've gotten back on the bandwagon of tracking and being active and yet I'm not really seeing results. For example, I was down 2 pounds on Thursday and Friday. I did not have the best eating on Saturday and Sunday, but I was very active on Saturday, and neither day was out of control eating compared to many a bad day I've had. Today though after getting back on track I'm up 2 pounds. I know I did not eat 7,000 extra calories. I know are bodies sometimes do weird things, and that the scale is only a number, but seeing that number go up is still frustrating. More so because when I look at how things are fitting I don't feel like I weigh as much as I do. Sure some of it could be muscle, or water weight, but either way. I'm annoyed because I've been trying to make this work and get back on track and I'm not seeing any indication that it's actually working.
Another frustration I'm having is beyond the scope of Spark, but I want to talk about it because I think getting all of this off my chest will just feel better. School is so busy this year, and admittedly I've slacked off some, but lately I've been able to catch up in two of the 3 classes. This means that I've really only been at my apartment to sleep and read, which is not fun. I've also had a lot of stuff going on at school so I'm really just so tired when I get home and I don't get to do much. I know school is busy but right now it seems extremely so and it's getting me down. Lastly, even though I've started to catch up I don't understand anything in one class and that's never good so that's stressing me out.
Lastly, I'm frustrated with my own mind. Normally I don't have an iron clad self-control, but I have some. Lately though it's a struggle to say okay lets cook dinner, and make sure that we measure out what's being cooked. Also, I haven't been into running, my mom finally started running again, and I have no desire what so ever to do it. I'm still walking, and walking a lot so it's not an issue of exercise, I just don't want to run. I've gone through phases like this before, and ever time it happens I get super annoyed with myself. I love running most of the time, but when I hit a time like this it just seems like the worst idea out there. I'm hoping that wanting to run comes back soon though because my mom said we could run the local Turkey Trot together, but right now she would definitely beat me if we went.
While overall I haven't been in a great mood lately it isn't all bad. I'm proud of myself for catching up in class. It was a week long effort, but I did it. Also while I'm still not entirely pleased with how I look in things I don't hate it, and I don't think I look as big as the scale says. Lastly, I'm still moving, even being busy I'm still getting out there and moving about 4 times a week so I'm still burning the calories I said I would, and I'm for the most part actively measuring and tracking. But I'm still frustrated, and I want this feeling to go away.
Tuesday, October 08, 2013
So I have a confession. I have not tracked at all with getting my teeth out, well I did a few days, but for the most part that didn't matter because I don't really care if I'm in range or not. Right now I've decided that I just need to focus on the recovery, and one thing the doctor told me was to eat when I was hungry because eating will help the healing process. That being said I have made an effort to not go too crazy, though I'll admit to lacking self-control with ice cream.
I intend to get back on track the instant I can have solid foods, right now that's looking to be this weekend or Monday. I tried some yesterday, but it didn't work out. I got really paranoid that it was going to get stuck and I'm not allowed to use the little tool to fix that until Thursday so I have decided I'm definitely not do anything until at least that point.
I haven't been completely horrible though. While I can't run because of the drugs, and worry that the holes in my mouth will throb I have been able to do a lot of ST. So I've been doing all kind of crunches and push-ups. I've also been working on strengthening my hip flexor. It still gets sore, but I'm definitely noticing a difference. I'm so ready to be running though. I really hope this motivation stays when I actually can, and isn't just a passing phase because I can't.
Anyway that's my brief update. Recovery is definitely coming along fine and hopefully everything will be back to normal soon
Saturday, October 05, 2013
So just got my wisdom teeth out. I'm doing well past a stiff jaw and sore bottom part. I had to stall my 50 miles in a month running goal. I had an injury that was still bugging me. Thankfully after another 4 days off and a lot of stretching, and strengthening exercises I think it's starting to heal up again. I'm hoping to start it again and complete it when I can run again which should be by Monday the 14th. Don't want to over do it while on decent pain killers. Also doing okay with tracking water. Finally seeing some progress on the weight front. Feels good to be back on top of stuff. Alright I'm tired so I'm off.
Wednesday, September 25, 2013
So this is kind of a repeat of my last blog. I'm starting again. Because I didn't last time when I said I was. I did a little better. Finished my half a minute and a half faster than my first one. My running has definitely gotten faster, but I was so horribly prepared and only ran a solid 3 miles before I had to run and walk the rest. Which for everyone who does that is great, and I'm not bashing that. I'm more disappointed because of the fact that the other half I ran I was able to run the first 6 miles without stopping,and then walked a quarter mile up a long hill and then ran another two before I had to go to more run/walk. On the other hand it is nice to see that I have gotten faster, because I always feel like I'm the slowest runner ever.
Enough of a recap, getting back to starting over. I've decided that I haven't been looking at this the right way. I'm always looking at the giant picture of doing it all right and making super progress and not having slip ups and when I think about having one I panic and don't see it working in a plan. But that's the wrong way to do it, and people have said it , but I think it's finally settling in my brain.
So I'm taking baby steps. I have reset my ticker. It shows where I am now, and were I would like to be by my birthday... January 21st. It's a lot of work, and I don't know if I'll actually get there but I'm certainly going to try. Also, I'm taking little steps. This week I just want to track everything. I would like to try and stay in range, but if I don't I'm not going to freak out. I haven't tracked in over a month so just tracking would be great.
I'm also going to focus on water. I haven't had 8 glasses water a day in so long. Since school has started I just started loading up on caffeine, and have hated the taste of water. That and I hate getting up in the middle of class to run to the bathroom so I've been trying to work around that too. So my other goal this week is to have 8 glasses of water every day this week. I've reset my trackers on everything, and so that will help, because I like seeing streaks.
Lastly, I've set a running goal again. I have a few races set up through the end of the year which is nice, but I also want to do a mileage goal again. So I'm going to do 50 miles in a month again starting today. I did it back and June and was miserable after, but I was also a lot less forgiving about what would count as running. Having learned from that experience any time I walk/ run I'm still going to count it because I'm still getting out there and doing something, and based on my half time it's still improving my running.
Okay so those are my little goals for the first week. I will make this work!
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