Friday, January 13, 2012
So far this week I have done something active every day. It feels pretty good. I am starting to understand the saying "You are only one workout away from a good mood." I have felt pretty great after each workout and am starting to believe that my depression is a result of my inactivity. Even though I joined the Derby team right after moving here (July 2011), we had a big lull where we weren't doing any skating from October-January. During that time I really started to pack on the weight again and definitely slipped into depression. I went from weighing 145 to my current 160. It may not seem like much, but the most I've ever weighed in my life (aside from during my pregnancy) was 165 and that was the year I got married. My weight has yo-yo'ed from 140-155 and now 160 for the last 8 years. I am ready to be done with that cycle.
My sincere hope is that I can not only reach my goal weight, but also be able to stop taking my anti-depressants and my acid reflux meds. It would be great if I didn't have to rely on medication anymore. I really want to set a good example for my daughter as well. She is 2.5 now and I want to be able to have as much energy as she does. I don't want her growing up with a sad, angry mother who keeps getting fatter. I started taking the anti-depressants to be a better mom to her. It would be great to be able to do it all on my own. Does that make sense?
I am rambling on again, lol. Today I am going to be working in my shop. I have a lot of orders to fill and I won't have much time to work this weekend. My Derby team is participating in a 5k on Saturday. It will be my first time. I am pretty excited. I am going to take it easy today for the most part. I am still really sore from Wednesdays practice and all the little workouts I've done at home this week.
I know I am the only one who reads this, but I always feel like I should sign off somehow, lol. So see ya later Blog! Have a great day! I plan to! :)