Friday, December 06, 2013
It took me many years of stumbling and learning. I still have a lot to learn. But I finally think I found the core problem with my self worth. All my life I have been treated as though I don't matter. Thank goodness I have a supportive husband and a rescue dog who adores me. It is still taking awhile to go from "knowing" this to accepting that I do matter and do deserve nice things happening.
It's funny that all along I have always felt that everyone else was more important than I was. As a single mother, I accepted a layoff from a good job because if I didn't, someone else would have been laid off. I didn't know who, or what their circumstances were, but I just convinced myself that I could handle it better than they could. How stupid!
It all worked out and I have a comfortable situation now, but how different my life might have been if only I thought I mattered.
So if anyone reading this thinks they are less important than anyone else, remember that I, for one, think you are very important, and now I am almost as important as you are.