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June 8 Goals

Tuesday, June 08, 2010

It's been a couple of emotional days, good and bad. My weight has creeped up a little bit, but by less than a pound so I am not too worried. I am going to keep doing what I have been doing. It has been working.

Yesterday's report goes as such...#1 and #2 met. Exercise, I got side tracked with phone calls, getting DS ready for all the activities they are doing today, and trying to complete the other goals on my list (not that I did that great with those either, but I tried.) #4, I got 1 birthday card done for my nephew (the Mickey card) and I still have one more to go, I have the idea, I am going to use a card I previously made for card club and then change the sentiment on it! I think it will be really cute! Hopefully I can get it done today and then all my June birthday cards will be done. I did not have DS make the thank you cards. I absolutely need to get that done today or tomorrow before school gets out. And I started working on the stuff for card club. I have the cuts 1/2 way done, but I am going to be lazy to an extent, but not really, because I am going to teach the girls how to put together shapes from the cricut. How to layer them and such. Why should I spend the time putting them together when we go there to learn how to do new things?! Besides I don't really have the time to do it anyway, so it will work perfectly I think! lol

Tuesday's goals:
1. 10 glasses of water
2. What I have planned food wise today is around 800 calories, I have a dinner at church tonight, I don't know what is being served or anything. So I am going to say only one serving for the meal and one serving of whatever the dessert is. I think as long as I do that I can definitely stay under the top of my calorie range which is 1550.
3. Strength Training
4. Finish last birthday card
5. Have DS work on his thank you cards
6. Finish up cricut cuts for card club
7. Get to bed by 9:30

I am sure that is plenty since there won't be a ton of time after I get home from work and will have to leave to go to the church. I can do this! I am in control of what I put in my mouth and I can choose to eat healthy and reasonable. I'll be back with a report tomorrow! lol

  
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AUNTRACHEL 6/8/2010 12:07PM

    Remain positive. You CAN do it.

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June 7 Goals--A breakthrough

Monday, June 07, 2010

Let's start off with the good news, as I said on Friday I was NOT going to blow it this weekend. I worked hard, stayed within my calorie range, while I got little exercise because of my knee and some other things that happened this weekend, I still managed to not only maintain but lost 1 pound over the weekend! I am thrilled!! I am determined to keep working hard and MAYBE at this rate I could get below 160! I THINK THINK THINK that I am FINALLY off my plateau. If this weigh in is good I can officially say I am off of it. Here is the major kicker/trick...I will be leaving on vacation for in essense 2 weeks. (I will be home for a couple days in between one trip to go to work and get ready to leave on the next trip! lol) And I sooooooo don't do good when I am on trips. I have to try to plan a little better so I can stay on track and eat healthy, I know I will get plenty of walking in, but my eating and getting plenty of water will be a big thing. Oh and BTW this is not my breakthrough, keep reading, although it is a long blog post, I promise it is worth it.

So remember how I said on Saturday I was going to be like the tasmainian devil when I get home??? Well I wouldn't exactly call me the tasmainian type, just the devil type. I went on a rampage mostly with my DH but some with my DS. I am over people saying they will do things and then promptly "forgetting" them. If you know you can't remember, write it down. If you say you are going to do something, then do it. Get your lazy butt of the computer and get it done! There is a time to do what needs to be done and then if you hurry and do it you usually still have time to do what you want to do! Why is this such a freakin' hard concept for people???? It makes me so angry. I left my husband Saturday night. I did end up going back after a couple of hours, but I was ready to throw the towel in. I was ready to walk away from it all. I just want to be HAPPY in my marriage. I want to feel loved and accepted. And the most important thing is that I finally realized what my one thing is that has caused me to be overweight. You know I think to all the seasons of BL and how Jillian almost always finds out the "why" of people being fat. I racked my brain so many times as to what my "why" is. I know I have had trials, but who hasn't? I know there have been things that have happened in my past, but who hasn't? But I have never felt like they have really bugged me, I just always felt like I just liked to eat, that I liked the taste of food and that was why I was fat. When I was getting ready to leave my husband I wrote him a letter and while writing that letter I realized what my why was. My why is that I never feel like I am "enough". With my husband I keep wondering "when will I be skinny enough, pretty enough, sexy enough" for him to want to be with me, but more importantly to be intimate with me. As a kid I was always getting A's but I remember one project that I showed my mother and I will never forget her reaction, it was one of "good job, but couldn't you have done better?" I don't know what words she said, or if she even said any in particular, but I remember like that was the way she reacted. I have carried that and many others like it based on my mother since I was probably 10ish. I moved to live with my dad when I was 14 because I couldn't take it any more. Without going into every facet of my life since then, I will skip ahead to know and those same feelings. Will I ever be enough? I had a long talk with God yesterday. I explained all these feels. I came to realize that even if I am not good enough for people I am certainly good enough for God and in reality who is going to be judging us when it really counts? Yep a loving Heavenly Father. One who know I am "enough". Wow, what a breakthrough! I know that God KNOWS that I am enough. And probably way more than I THINK I am. I know he loves me and wants me to be happy. If you too feel like you are not "enough" like I have, know that you ARE enough in the site of God and he is truly the only one that counts. He loves YOU!

So back to the regular goals part of this blog! lol Saturday...I got my water in, stayed under 1400 calories, didn't really decide on my meals because at that point I didn't care! I didn't get my ST done either, once again I was dealing with too much to care about trying to exercise. I did get DS's teacher's card done, got 1 Father's Day card done for my Father, and kindof got my DH's father's day card done from me BUT I couldn't finish, I couldn't put a sentiment on it because at that point all I wanted to say was "thanks for nothing jerk!" lol I felt it was best to have the tensions cool off before I decided what would go on the card. I am thinking I need to do a card for him from my son, but again at that point I wasn't into it, so I just left it alone. I got 1 birthday card made and found one in my stash to send, so I got it addressed and ready to mail later in the week. I still have 2 left that I need to get done this week. One is for my nephew so I already have a concept (Mickey Mouse) which I already have the Mickey made from a shape swap I was in, I just have to get the card put together. There were no goals for yesterday other than trying to get through all that happened with my DH and DS this weekend. So I guess I met that goal, I did get through it, not sure how gracefully but it is Monday and no one is dead and we still all live in the same house so I guess we made it "through", just gotta fix all the things that got destroyed (I guess not "things" per se, nothing got broken, but the pieces of our lives need to be cleaned up).

For today...
1. 10 glasses of water
2. Stay under 1400 calories
3. Exercise for at least 10 minutes
4. Finish the last 2 birthday cards that I need for June
5. Get DS to make thank you cards for his b-day gifts
6. Start working on stuff for card club (figure out which card I am making for this month and start getting it put together)

Have a good day everyone! Thanks for reading.

  
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MYGALSAL13 6/7/2010 6:00PM

    glad things are better! Life can be tough! Be patient with yourself and others! I love ya a bunch!!! Keep going miss, you can do it!! Things will get better

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DREAMWEAVER1637 6/7/2010 2:47PM

    I'm sorry you had such a rough weekend but sometimes we need to blow up and get things out in the open and work towards making things right. Hang in there, you deserve good things to come your way.

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AUNTRACHEL 6/7/2010 1:30PM

    So sorry to hear all that you are going through. I hope that things can get worked out. I know that it won't be easy but you can do it. Thanks for sharing this. Made me realize that things I'm dealing with aren't so bad.

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THERIGHTREASONS 6/7/2010 11:56AM

    Oh Chele...

You remind me of the hymn #220 ("Lord, I Would Follow Thee"). There's a line in that one that says, "In the quiet heart is hidden sorrows that the eye can't see." Hang in there, my friend!

Love you

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THERIGHTREASONS 6/7/2010 11:56AM

    Oh Chele...

You remind me of the hymn #220 ("Lord, I Would Follow Thee"). There's a line in that one that says, "In the quiet heart is hidden sorrows that the eye can't see." Hang in there, my friend!

Love you

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POSHAMY 6/7/2010 7:16AM

    Yikes! I'm glad things are starting to turn around, I think sometimes we need stuff like this to "fix" what's been broken. I know I've had to flip out on my Dh in the past, especially when I'm in school, just for him to GET IT! lol We had a rough weekend last weekend with our Dd and I can say that I think things are better for it. She's been a model child ever since then, not that I want to live with such drama, but sometimes it might be necessary!

Great job for sticking to your goals and not going over-board, I know with me the one thing that causes me to binge is stress! Let's make a plan for the retreat to go to the exercise room everyday before we do anything and workout for at least 30 minutes! Dh already told me to pick up a few cases of water, so I'm stocked and ready, so we can drink all the water we need too and we can keep each other accountable when we eat out ;)

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June 5 Goals

Saturday, June 05, 2010

So sometimes I think I am super woman...don't we all sometimes? We think we can do it all and we can't! My list is a mile long of things I need to do before we leave on vacation and I am just not checking them off as fast as I am putting them on there. :-( I have to work this morning but after I get home I am going to be like a tazmanian devil flying through my house getting things done. Many things are projects that must be completed before we leave because I need to give them to people before I return or right after I return and I won't have time to do it before I need to give it to them. So I am going to put some of those things on this list each day this week so I can make sure I get them all done.

For yesterday's goals...#1 and #2 I think I did, I may have been over slightly on the calories, but shouldn't be more than my regular calorie range. Again I didn't decide on my meals for today, and honestly I didn't even input yesterdays stuff, I may have decided on it, but I didn't track it to know if I was under my calorie range until this morning. So I did yesterday and today's food tracking. So I am good to go for today. I did 15 mins on the gazelle. My knees still are really bugging me from Monday. I am getting concerned because we are going to be leaving for Disney and it's not like you just sit around on the rides! I am going to have to be doing some major walking and how am I going to do that if my knees are killing me? Also my back has been bothering me when I get up in the mornings and I couldn't quite figure it out and kept thinking it was the bed. Now the bed is 11 years old and has given me problems in the past, and sometimes will if I sleep on my back instead of my side, but I have tried really hard lately to stay on my side, however, my back has still be bothering me. It wasn't until this morning when it was hurting again, that I realized that it started hurting again when I started doing the gazelle. So I am not sure if that is a good thing or a bad thing! lol Maybe the gazelle is helping the junk in my trunk/low back area when I use it, but it is kindof the no pain no gain concept???? I don't know. I hope it isn't hurting it to hurt it. I don't do the gazelle every day but since my knees have been hurting I have been using it a bit more and it is my go to exercise when I work because I can do it while I watch whatever tv show I want to that night without having to put a DVD in or turn the wii fit on. Kindof like other people use a treadmill or stationary bike. ANYWAY, I hope some of these problems go away in the next couple of days so that I can go to Disney healthy and not in pain. Boy I sure am chatty today! lol #5 and #6 both got DONE, DONE and DONE!!! woohoo!!! I am so glad! And I must say that I think that DS's teacher gift is absolutely gorgeous! You can see it here (sorry I am not home so I have to link to my blog) thescrappinsunflower.blogspot.com/20
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I am really tempted to make another one for me, except it took me so stinking long to do it, I am not sure I can be that patient again! lol Now I just have to get the card done for her. And the invites done for July (since I will be gone when they are needed, ugh, never ending...why did I say yes to this assignment?????)

Okay so for today:
1. 10 glasses of water
2. Stay under 1400 calories
3. Decide on meals for tomorrow (we are not going to the in laws so I need to make a plan for after church)
4. Strength training (all but squats, going to do this instead of cardio so my knees can rest some more)
5. Get DS's teacher's card done
6. Get Father's Day cards done (while DS isn't home to see it)
7. Get 4 birthday cards done

Oh boy, I am really setting myself up for this aren't I?! lol Oh well they MUST be done. I think I can get away with using some of the birthday cards I have already made through card club, but I need to make some of them. Okay I better run so I can get going on things!

  


June 4 Goals

Friday, June 04, 2010

Well today was my official weigh in day and I have lost 2 pounds since Tuesday (the 1st) and 2.4 since last Friday!!! WOOHOO!! Hoping this sticks around this time! I am NOT going to blow it this week or this next week.

Yesterday I got the food and water done, but did not decide on the meals for today (although I have now, I didn't do it yesterday) and I got 20+ mins of exercise done (if I include all the walking at the stores it is a couple of hours! lol). I got 30 of the 50 invites done, all are printed but the flowers aren't put on them.

For today:
1. 10 glasses of water
2. Stay under 1400 calories
3. Decide on meals for tomorrow
4. Exercise at least 15 minutes
5. Get invites done
6. Get DS's teacher gift done

More than enough for today. I can do this. I can stay on track and I can exercise and continue to lose weight!

  
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ANGLEGIRLSANDY 6/4/2010 11:23PM

    Your doing a great job. Keep up the good work. You can do it.

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June 3 Goals

Thursday, June 03, 2010

Yesterday's report--Well everything got done except #5. I didn't even get to work on the invites. Things got really behind and I ended up having to go to walmart to get stuff for dinner (I thought I had it and realized that I didn't have the two main ingredients!! ARGH!!!! lol) and I also got some stuff for our vacation. Good news is I lost a pound!

Today's goals:
1. 10 glasses of water
2. Stay under 1400 calories
3. Decide on meals for tomorrow
4. Exercise for at least 20 minutes
5. Get invites done

I have to get these invites done today I cannot keep putting this off!!!! That is my main chore today except for laundry and a few errands! lol So gotta run and get them done!

  
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SKERTSO 6/3/2010 4:03PM

    I know that you will do it! emoticon

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