Wednesday, August 12, 2009
So last night at about 8:30 pm I was starting to get hungry (again). I was fighting it - trying to figure out WHAT I could eat that was low calorie and fill me up. I ended up eating an apple. That is the first time I EVER had an apple in the evening. I was still hungry (probably should have waited the 20 minutes, but didn't) so then I had 2 cheese sticks. WHAT A GREAT LITTLE SNACK!
I have read about having an apple and cheese for a snack before, but didn't think they really went together. It's amazing how you try to get creative with your eating and you hit something that is just wonderful!
Anyone have any other combo snacks that you didn't think would work, but then were great together?
Monday, August 10, 2009
All vacation, I was worried about gaining weight - I didn't do too bad - I went up a pound, but I'm ok with that.
Now, back into the swing. I have one week before I get my blood work done again for the cholesterol check - not sure if I'll get to 160 by then, but I'll try.
While we were gone, I got a message from the OBGYN that I need to do a fasting blood test for them for the hormone blood work - GREAT! Obviously something came back on the original test that was done mid-day. I'll be going in on Thursday for that.
We did a LOT of walking with geocaching while on vacation. Somedays more than other.
Back to reality.......
Wednesday, July 29, 2009
I mentioned yesterday that "golden child" at work is probably going to another office and the 3 (out of 4) of us in the office will be filling in. Today in our staff meeting, it was mentioned that the plan is my position will become a hybrid position and do both duties. GREAT! MORE WORK!
The first thing I thought of was "how am I going to manage all of this?" I'm not motivated as it is (sometime) and sometimes feel out of control/not knowing what to do next.
I've read "Getting Things Done" by David Allen, but haven't really put it in action. I've been looking at different blogs that people write on their organization based on GTD.
So, I'm taking a few minutes (OK - maybe hours) and creating a tickler file and just "organize". Hopefully, it will make me feel better.
Tonight hubby and I are going to a Geocaching event. Of course the first thing hubby asks "what are we doing for dinner?" I'm so trying to stay on track, so I said to him, I don't eat that much in the evening, so why don't you just bring me a peanut butter sandwich. He was ok with that answer. He's picking me up from work and we are heading right there and it won't be over until 8 pm. I know what he was thinking - Chipotle. I dodged that bullet! I really want to focus during vacation and get the walking in and watch what I eat. I won't be able to weigh myself the whole time I'm there - I want to come back less that what I left at!
I won't have internet (except for the phone), so the plan is just writing everything down that I eat and walk plus keep the pedometer on for geocaching.
I'm so ready......
Tuesday, July 28, 2009
I know I'm ready for vacation because I'm so sick and tired of work. I'm tired of being the "responsible" employee out of the 5 of us here in the office - the one that the boss always depends on.
I found out yesterday that the "golden child" is more than likely leaving to go work at another office AND they aren't going to replace him, so the boss said the 3 of us will need to take over the position.
WAIT - didn't I say there were 5 of us in the office - yes, but for some reason, the boss just lets our administrative assistant do whatever the hell she wants and doesn't push her to do anything extra. PLUS, the admin is getting married next year and we ALL KNOW she's leaving. The admin comes in anywhere between 9:15 and 9:30 when she's supposed to be here at 9. I start coming in 10 to 15 minutes late and it gets announced that starting time is 8:30 and we (meaning me and the golden child) need to be here on time. That didn't get said when the golden child was coming in 10 to 15 minutes late.
I know it could be so much worst here at work. The boss and I have been working together way too long (9 years). I keep thinking it's time for a change, but I don't know where to. I like my job (outside of always having to be the one that the boss depends on). I just feel like I can't grow sometimes. I've had the talk with her several times on how I feel about her expecting more out of me than everyone else in the office. I realize that as long as I'm her "best friend" at work, everything is happy for her and there is no tension between us.
We had a falling out in March - she basically screamed at me that she didn't care if I didn't like her or not she was not going anywhere. I ended up telling her about my depression at the time - which I NEVER wanted to tell her - but it made her feel good that I confided in her. I'm just afraid that it's going to come back to haunt me (somehow).
Anyway, the reason for this venting. I know my "craving" for a blueberry muffin yesterday was emotional. I can't just walk out on work when I don't feel like dealing with it. Any suggestions? I did walk the airport, but it still doesn't get me "away" from the problem.
About a year and a half ago, the boss took another job for about 6 months. During that time, I lost weight. I was happy because I felt like the work load was more balanced - even though the new boss wasn't here as much (long story). Our admin was happier too. She came back and I started gaining the weight again!
Somehow, this is deeper than just me eating healthier. I guess I'm realizing that because of watching "Ruby". She is on a wonderful journey and she's figuring out that's going on inside.
OK - I think I feel better - just needed to vent about it. Now some better/feel good conversation.
When I was walking in, the cleaning ladies mentioned again about me losing weight. English is their second language, so it's kind of hard to understand what they are asking and they are so straight forward (coming straight out and saying "you were big", making gestures where the extra weight was). But no matter what, they make me feel so good with their comments. Asking about how I'm doing it, how much I've lost, what I'm eating, etc.
So many people have commented. Even guys! It might because I'm so open about the change in the eating and how I struggle with eating veggies every day.
Thanks for listening and being there for me! My Spark friends are awesome!
Oh - BTW - here it is 9:30 and no admin yet.
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