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Back from another blood test

Thursday, August 13, 2009

11:15 am

Well - the first hormone test came back with just ONE imbalance (prolatin), therefore they wanted to test it with a fasting to see if the level changes. It was a little high - like I'm pregnant. If it comes back normal on this next test, it could be as easy as just changing my birth control pill - worst case - maybe a D&C.

Then of course, I look up prolatin on webmd - the VERY worst case scenerio - a tumor. NICE! DON'T TELL THE HUBBY THAT! He'd freak out! That's the one thing about Webmd - it gives you a heads up on what it could be, but also the VERY worst case scenerio. I like checking it just so I know what I could expect when I do go in to the doctor.

I'm not really worried about it - I have a feeling I'll be changing birth control. I've had a D&C before and before that would happen I would have to have a ultrasound to check everything out.

So I should hear in a couple of days. Next is the visit with the regular doc on Tuesday for followup to the cholesterol. Let's see if all of those salads have helped. It's been hard getting the salads down this week - I think it's just because of not having them the whole week. I think I need to change up the dressing - I think I'm not that big of a ranch dressing fan anymore - at least not on salads.

Thanks for all of your support. I'm thankful that I can just air my dirty laundry on here and there's no judging. We are all in this together - the weight loss journey, the medical problems, the emotional problems.

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ANNIEONLI 8/14/2009 10:26AM

    I'd say that is good news!! YAY!! I'm sure everything will turn out fine.

Salads...add some cranberries and walnuts and a smidge of blue cheese or feta with a light italian...one of my favs! I think I'll have that for lunch today!! LOL

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LEAVNTHEW8BHIND 8/14/2009 9:53AM

    NICE! That's something that you are "wanting" a good salad! I think I just need to change the dressing and I'll get back on the salad track.

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ADLINS 8/13/2009 8:24PM

    I'm with you on WebMd... I always go there and see worst case. But, let's not go with that. Let's go with the not worst case scenario. :)

As for salad dressing. I used to do Ranch all the time and it lost it's luster. Not sure of you tastes, but I find I really like the Honey dijon or honey based dressings or even a light thousand island. Or even a caesar with it on the side - I don't care for a lot of dressing so that works for me not just in the calorie department.

Here lately, there are times when I really just want a good salad. Good luck at the Doctor.

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BARBARA_G 8/13/2009 1:03PM

    we must have similar medical problems. My hormone tests came back normal. Hence I had an ultrasound done. I'm still waiting on those results. Good luck to both of us!

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Had a new (to me) snack last night

Wednesday, August 12, 2009

9:30 am
So last night at about 8:30 pm I was starting to get hungry (again). I was fighting it - trying to figure out WHAT I could eat that was low calorie and fill me up. I ended up eating an apple. That is the first time I EVER had an apple in the evening. I was still hungry (probably should have waited the 20 minutes, but didn't) so then I had 2 cheese sticks. WHAT A GREAT LITTLE SNACK!

I have read about having an apple and cheese for a snack before, but didn't think they really went together. It's amazing how you try to get creative with your eating and you hit something that is just wonderful!

Anyone have any other combo snacks that you didn't think would work, but then were great together?

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ANNIEONLI 8/12/2009 8:34PM

    LOL!! I asked the SP cafe once why when I eat an apple I always feel hungrier after it? Soooo many people were saying to add protein to it..like cheese or peanut butter. Looks like you stumbled across the solution with good old fashioned ingenuity! LOL

My mom always gave us apple with cheddar cheese when we were kids...smart lady emoticon

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SDANNI64 8/12/2009 6:07PM

    My snack is similiar.....four carr's rosemary crackers with havarti cheese, and a small bunch of red grapes.....always seems to take the edge off my hunger. emoticon Yummy!

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LEAVNTHEW8BHIND 8/12/2009 4:59PM

    Thanks for the ideas. Nut butters! I need to try that!

I need to watch the cheese - that's why it was in (low fat) cheese sticks.

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ADLINS 8/12/2009 2:39PM

    Oddly, I only eat apples cooked, but I can see where the protein in the cheese (as well as the fat) would help curb the hunger.

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FITGIRL15 8/12/2009 11:21AM

    Did you know the reason the apple didn't satisfy your hunger alone? Because it doesn't contain any FAT! Fat is a known hunger satiater! (is that a word? LOL)
...try apples (great Low GI, high fibre fruit choice) with all different kinds of nut butters too... very low in sodium and super tasty! (my favorite is apples & almond butter!) Remember, the GOOD fats won't make you fat... they will only assist in your weight loss efforts!!!

Don't get me wrong, I do love my cheese... but right now, I can only eat it in moderation!

Comment edited on: 8/12/2009 11:22:22 AM

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BARBARA_G 8/12/2009 10:56AM

    I often eat an apple to take the edge off my hunger. Apples and cheese together sound great!

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KSTYLEFITNESS 8/12/2009 10:42AM

    Apple and peanut better is awesome!

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Back from vacation - and I stayed on track!

Monday, August 10, 2009

9:13 am
All vacation, I was worried about gaining weight - I didn't do too bad - I went up a pound, but I'm ok with that.

Now, back into the swing. I have one week before I get my blood work done again for the cholesterol check - not sure if I'll get to 160 by then, but I'll try.

While we were gone, I got a message from the OBGYN that I need to do a fasting blood test for them for the hormone blood work - GREAT! Obviously something came back on the original test that was done mid-day. I'll be going in on Thursday for that.

We did a LOT of walking with geocaching while on vacation. Somedays more than other.

Back to reality.......

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BARBARA_G 8/10/2009 10:47AM

    I'm glad you had a successful vacation weight wise. I hope it was allot of fun too!

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Just a little more venting about work

Wednesday, July 29, 2009

1 pm
I mentioned yesterday that "golden child" at work is probably going to another office and the 3 (out of 4) of us in the office will be filling in. Today in our staff meeting, it was mentioned that the plan is my position will become a hybrid position and do both duties. GREAT! MORE WORK!

The first thing I thought of was "how am I going to manage all of this?" I'm not motivated as it is (sometime) and sometimes feel out of control/not knowing what to do next.

I've read "Getting Things Done" by David Allen, but haven't really put it in action. I've been looking at different blogs that people write on their organization based on GTD.

So, I'm taking a few minutes (OK - maybe hours) and creating a tickler file and just "organize". Hopefully, it will make me feel better.

Tonight hubby and I are going to a Geocaching event. Of course the first thing hubby asks "what are we doing for dinner?" I'm so trying to stay on track, so I said to him, I don't eat that much in the evening, so why don't you just bring me a peanut butter sandwich. He was ok with that answer. He's picking me up from work and we are heading right there and it won't be over until 8 pm. I know what he was thinking - Chipotle. I dodged that bullet! I really want to focus during vacation and get the walking in and watch what I eat. I won't be able to weigh myself the whole time I'm there - I want to come back less that what I left at!

I won't have internet (except for the phone), so the plan is just writing everything down that I eat and walk plus keep the pedometer on for geocaching.

I'm so ready......

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LEAVNTHEW8BHIND 7/30/2009 10:09AM


Adlins - totally agree with the Chipotle selections - I don't do beans or rice on my burrito, so I save a LOT just by that. Plus trying to eat out at lunch time is better than dinner time - fills me up and I can (try) to resist overeating for the rest of the day. Or at least I can try to work some of it off!

Here's to my friends (all who have posted here on this blog alone)! emoticon You guys are great!

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NYCFA1 7/29/2009 10:42PM

    Sorry work sounds like it's just getting more stressful! emoticon

I'm heading off on vacation myself in a couple weeks and I'm getting nervous about getting off track! (and I've just barely been hanging on as it is!!!).

Good luck with it all!

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ADLINS 7/29/2009 6:03PM

    I've been there. And, once they see you can do both jobs, they won't fill the position. In my case I took on extra duties when 1/3 of our team left. That position was never filled. Then when the other team member was run off, they did fill that job, but I had to take on 2/3 of that job because while I liked the new hire, she just couldn't do the work that was being done by the previous co-worker. She eventually was the beginning of my end. Hopefully, that won't be the case with you. Hang in there.

As for Chipotle, here's a couple of things I do cause I love them. There is a site to calculate calories. The bowl of course offers much fewer calories. I usually do the bowl now and without chicken but with cheese, sour cream and guacamole, it's about 600 calories. That's a lot, but you can leave off one or all and then reduce. IMHO that also cuts down on the fun of Chipotle. I also try and make sure they don't put the heaps of stuff on my bowl that they want to.

The burrito is so huge that it's easy for me to get 2-3 meals from one. Also, I can sometimes half the bowl and get two meals. Just some thoughts from another Chipotle lover.

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SDANNI64 7/29/2009 1:37PM

    It seems like more and more companies are "combining" jobs to save money....sorry you get the brunt of the responsibility.
I like you have to "dodge bullets" with my husband with dinner....although I think that your plan sounds like a good one I will have to try. Jack still doesn't understand that I don't like to eat heavy at night, since we workout at 9PM.
Have fun on your geo-cache....I still need to join a group and try this!

Take care, Sheila emoticon

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BARBARA_G 7/29/2009 1:23PM

    I think writing everything down on you vacation is a good substitute for the computer.

I'm sorry they are throwing more work at you on your job.

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ANNIEONLI 7/29/2009 1:23PM

    You sound right on point with the weight loss/exercise thing...work too. Step by step, things will get done.

In the meantime - relax and have a great time Geocaching!! My hubby wants to do that so bad. Maybe one day you can give me some tips on equipment to buy (on the cheap side) and some websites to use.

Have fun!! emoticon emoticon

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Time for some venting

Tuesday, July 28, 2009

9 am
I know I'm ready for vacation because I'm so sick and tired of work. I'm tired of being the "responsible" employee out of the 5 of us here in the office - the one that the boss always depends on.

I found out yesterday that the "golden child" is more than likely leaving to go work at another office AND they aren't going to replace him, so the boss said the 3 of us will need to take over the position.

WAIT - didn't I say there were 5 of us in the office - yes, but for some reason, the boss just lets our administrative assistant do whatever the hell she wants and doesn't push her to do anything extra. PLUS, the admin is getting married next year and we ALL KNOW she's leaving. The admin comes in anywhere between 9:15 and 9:30 when she's supposed to be here at 9. I start coming in 10 to 15 minutes late and it gets announced that starting time is 8:30 and we (meaning me and the golden child) need to be here on time. That didn't get said when the golden child was coming in 10 to 15 minutes late.

I know it could be so much worst here at work. The boss and I have been working together way too long (9 years). I keep thinking it's time for a change, but I don't know where to. I like my job (outside of always having to be the one that the boss depends on). I just feel like I can't grow sometimes. I've had the talk with her several times on how I feel about her expecting more out of me than everyone else in the office. I realize that as long as I'm her "best friend" at work, everything is happy for her and there is no tension between us.

We had a falling out in March - she basically screamed at me that she didn't care if I didn't like her or not she was not going anywhere. I ended up telling her about my depression at the time - which I NEVER wanted to tell her - but it made her feel good that I confided in her. I'm just afraid that it's going to come back to haunt me (somehow).

Anyway, the reason for this venting. I know my "craving" for a blueberry muffin yesterday was emotional. I can't just walk out on work when I don't feel like dealing with it. Any suggestions? I did walk the airport, but it still doesn't get me "away" from the problem.

About a year and a half ago, the boss took another job for about 6 months. During that time, I lost weight. I was happy because I felt like the work load was more balanced - even though the new boss wasn't here as much (long story). Our admin was happier too. She came back and I started gaining the weight again!

Somehow, this is deeper than just me eating healthier. I guess I'm realizing that because of watching "Ruby". She is on a wonderful journey and she's figuring out that's going on inside.

OK - I think I feel better - just needed to vent about it. Now some better/feel good conversation.

When I was walking in, the cleaning ladies mentioned again about me losing weight. English is their second language, so it's kind of hard to understand what they are asking and they are so straight forward (coming straight out and saying "you were big", making gestures where the extra weight was). But no matter what, they make me feel so good with their comments. Asking about how I'm doing it, how much I've lost, what I'm eating, etc.

So many people have commented. Even guys! It might because I'm so open about the change in the eating and how I struggle with eating veggies every day.

Thanks for listening and being there for me! My Spark friends are awesome!

Oh - BTW - here it is 9:30 and no admin yet. emoticon

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LEAVNTHEW8BHIND 7/28/2009 12:12PM


Unfortunately, my sarcastic self is not allowed in our work environment. My boss gets offended when I make a sarcastic joke, but, of course, she can be sarcastic - no problem.

I have learned to hold my tongue because it has been written up in my review before that I can joke about other people, but can't joke about myself and do it without realizing it hurts their feelings. I now get praised for holding my tongue.

I have voiced my feelings/opinion about the admin to the boss and she (the boss) says - "I don't know what do to - I say something, it changes and then it goes back to the way it was"

I tell you - blogging my feelings REALLY helps. I just need to get it all out there so I feel better. I tried to tell my boss - just let me vent - sometimes she does but sometimes, it might come back to haunt me. SO I have learned to either write it down or use this website.

THANK YOU SPARKPEOPLE for letting me vent. Like I said - I feel better already.

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ANNIEONLI 7/28/2009 10:05AM

    #1 - YAY For YOU!!!!! Comments from people is good!!! So something is working!
#2 - Yay for YOU!!! Venting about emotional eating and workplace stress is good! It keeps things in perspective!
#3 - Yay for YOU!!! Walking is a great way for dealing with stress - Good Job!!
#4 - Yay for YOU!!! Jillian Milchael's says that a weight loss journey involves tackling deep emotional issues....something is bubbling up & venting helps! Yay!

....I can go on and on...but the best will be

#5 - Yay for YOU!!! for ending on a positive note at the end of this vent!!! Always a good thing to do!!!

I hope the work situation gets a little better...give it a bit of time when things aren't as emotional. I know in my job (where I am the boss) we have one person that pisses another one off on some constant minor irritation to her...I know of the situation and when the pissy one ever makes a comment or brings it to my attention, I ask them, "well, do you want me to say something? or not?" Her answer usually is "No, not really, I just think it's ironic that she is just so oblivious to the situation....it is what it is." And now it has become a bit of a joke between us at this point. Maybe you can say something to your boss how you observe her always coming in late....make a joke out of it....it will get it off your chest and point out the obvious to your boss.

Stay well!!!!! Good Venting!!!!!

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