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To Climb a Mountain

Sunday, May 20, 2012

Last weekend I went to Thunder Bay, Ontario with my boyfriend for a little "vay-cay". It's a six hour drive one way, so we took an extra day off work and stayed two nights in the Bay.

On our last day, before the six hour trek home we decided to go to the Mount McKay Lookout, and as we drove the windy path up, we excitedly chatted about checking out the trails, and how far up we could get.

Now, eight months ago, I would have been excited, but also very unsure and apprehensive. I was 50+lbs heavier and not in very good shape. My boyfriend is a 6'2 naturally fit man who hasn't worried about calorie intake a day in his life. Walking with him has always been a challenge for me, being almost a foot shorter than him.

This time, when we got to the end of the trail, which was was a fun, yet treacherous boulder ridden, sandy footpath we were both smiling ear to ear. It only took us 20 minutes!! Yet as we hugged and looked up we were both dismayed... we weren't at the top... we still had at least 300 feet to go! We were at the end of the trial, it opened up to a nice clearing with picnic tables and places to deposit your water bottles and garbage. But neither of were satisfied... we didn't reach the top..

So with a sly smile and a playful push, I said... "Guess we better keep going, eh? Let's make our own trail!" and happily my partner followed.

We were lucky enough to be able to follow a "path" from where the water runs off the Mountain in a big rain... but that didn't necessarily make the trek easier... especially for my little legs (27" inseam"). But neither of us slowed down, we both made a few jokes about being mountain goats as I would use my arms to pull myself onto ledges and then wriggle my way up (He had a much easier time with his long legs, but he didn't leave me in the dust!).

By the time we reached the top, we were both huffing and puffing, covered in rust colored dirt and absolutely giddy! WE CLIMBED A MOUNTAIN!! As we looked out at the spectacular view of the sleeping giant we embraced. He said "I'm so glad I did this with you" and I smiled and said "I'm glad I can".

The descent was far more difficult than the climb up with loose shale and sandy footbeds. It took us a lot longer to get down, but we were both charged with the high of being at the top so we didn't even notice the time.

When we got to the bottom and looked up at where we had been standing, I couldn't believe what I had achieved. I knew six or eight months ago I would have never been able to make that climb. When I said this, my boyfriend frowned and said "we would have done it honey, you were just as determined before as you are now... your size doesn't matter.. it just may have take us a bit longer".

And you know what? He's right... we would have done it, but he would have had to help me up rocks and slow down. He would have been patient and taken breaks if I needed to. Once I had gotten to the bottom I would have been exhausted and ready to sit..... but not now.....

I was energized for the rest of the day, I could have done it again or gone for a big walk. I wasn't tired at all.... the climb was a challenge but I was ready to give it my all.

I'm still riding the high from that climb... sure it's not Mount Everest, but if I had looked at that climb eight months ago, it would have been. It's just one step in my journey for a healthy, happy life... but it's one that I will never forget. I did it without thoughts of giving up, I did it without ever thinking I wouldn't make it...

.....I climbed a Mountain.

  
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SLIMINMIND 5/20/2012 12:28PM

    Thanks for sharing. Behind every great women there is a great man! I have one too!

emoticon Take care of him ! He sounds very special!

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LEANNIE84 5/20/2012 11:29AM

    Thank you! :)

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DOLLFACEDX 5/20/2012 10:04AM

    8-)

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CHRIS_TEE 5/20/2012 10:04AM

    Awesome motivational story. Congratulations on your accomplishments!
It's nice that you are proud of your achievements as you should be.
Thanks for sharing.
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To Climb a Mountain

Sunday, May 20, 2012

Last weekend I went to Thunder Bay, Ontario with my boyfriend for a little "vay-cay". It's a six hour drive one way, so we took an extra day off work and stayed two nights in the Bay.

On our last day, before the six hour trek home we decided to go to the Mount McKay Lookout, and as we drove the windy path up, we excitedly chatted about checking out the trails, and how far up we could get.

Now, eight months ago, I would have been excited, but also very unsure and apprehensive. I was 50+lbs heavier and not in very good shape. My boyfriend is a 6'2 naturally fit man who hasn't worried about calorie intake a day in his life. Walking with him has always been a challenge for me, being almost a foot shorter than him.

This time, when we got to the end of the trail, which was was a fun, yet torcherous boulder ridden, sandy footpath we were both smiling ear to ear. It only took us 20 minutes!! Yet as we hugged and looked up we were both dismayed... we weren't at the top... we still had at least 300 feet to go! We were at the end of the trial, it opened up to a nice clearing with picnic tables and places to deposit your water bottles and garbage. But neither of were satisfied... we didn't reach the top..

So with a sly smile and a playful push, I said... "Guess we better keep going, eh? Let's make our own trail!" and happily my partner followed.

We were lucky enough to be able to follow a "path" from where the water runs off the Mountain in a big rain... but that didn't necessarily make the trek easier... espeically for my little legs (27" inseam"). But neither of us slowed down, we both made a few jokes about being mountain goats as I would use my arms to pull myself onto ledges and then wriggle my way up (He had a much easier time with his long legs, but he didn't leave me in the dust!).

By the time we reached the top, we were both huffing and puffing, covered in rust colored dirt and absolutely giddy! WE CLIMBED A MOUNTAIN!! As we looked out at the spectacular view of the sleeping giant we embraced. He said "I'm so glad I did this with you" and I smiled and said "I'm glad I can".

The descent was far more difficult than the climb up, with loose shale and sandy footbeds we had

  


I did it!!! ... but now what?

Saturday, May 05, 2012

For six months, I've been working my butt off, literally! I started at 207.5lbs and was determined by July I was going to be down the 160lbs. Why 160? I mean, it's just a number, right? Well, the last time I remember my body feeling really well, not looking well, but FEELING well... was when I was at about 160lbs. So that became my goal. You see, as much as I wanted to LOOK good, it was more important to me to FEEL good, inside and out.

So I started my journey, have the standard milestone celebrations along the way (5lbs, 10lbs, etc.). I was working hard, exercising every day with one rest day a week and eating not only properly but sticking to the meals I had planned which is a battle in itself!

Then at the beginning of April, I did my typical Saturday morning standoff with the scale. I stripped down to my birthday suit and got on, sucking my tummy in (which somehow, in my mind... makes me weigh less... and I bet you've done it too!) and there it was.. 162.5lbs. And I followed up with my measurements (B- 38, H- 38, W- 31). Now most people would be standing in their bathroom, naked, dancing because they were sssoooooo close but what did I do? I panicked. "OMG- I'm almost there... but once I'm there... then what do I do?". Those thoughts were followed up by a prompt call to my Mother.... it's amazing how no matter how old you are, you're Mommy can fix ANYTHING!! And if she can't fix it, she always has the right solution.

And my Mom, bless her heart said "Why are you panicking sweetie, this is exactly what you've been working for! You deserve to meet your goal, don't you?" - boom- that was it right there.... did I think I deserved it? I wasn't sure, remember at Christmas I had that cheat day with potatoes and some cookies? I know I worked even harder for the rest of the week... but what about that other time when I shared some cheesecake with my friend to celebrate her weight success? I know I had counted calories and been painstakingly strict the week prior, anticipating that celebratory cheesecake... but I'm not perfect and I had a few slip ups! So, did I deserve to meet my goal? And not just meet it, but meet it before my deadline?

I struggled with that but continued my regime between low carb eating, calorie counting and exercising regardless. I knew I couldn't give up and I knew I was on the right track but I felt as though I was floating and in unfamiliar territory. I didn't know what to do - if I hit my goal, am I going to want to continue to loose? Or should I maintain for a while? What am I going to do? And then the scary thoughts "What if I hit my goal and decide I'm done? I start eating the way I used to and stop exercising? And what if the weight comes back? And if the weight comes back, how am I going to feel?".... those thoughts went back and forth in my mind for days.....

And then 2 weeks after my weigh in which initially made me panic, I stood off with the scale yet again... and yes, I stood tall and sucked in... but I always weigh myself more than once to make sure the scale is accurate. Guess what the scale said that day? 159lbs.

I did it, I'm there......... I MADE MY GOAL!! emoticon

And guess what! I still don't know if I should keep loosing or maintain, and since then I've lost a few more pounds. I've been thinking of a new goal, because it's always good to have something to work for. This time, the goal is going to be completely different, it's going to be something I never thought I could do.... because I wasn't sure if I could get down to 160lbs... and proved to myself I could. This time, I am going to put a fitness goal into place. I want to learn to run... and maybe by the fall I can run a 5K!

I'm going to continue my weekly standoffs with the scale, but the numbers aren't going to dictate how I eat that day. The numbers may go up a tiny bit as I move forward towards my fitness goal, we all know muscle weighs more than fat... but then again, those numbers could go down too. And I've decided, as long as I'm around that 160lbs mark, I'm satisfied.

So now what?

I celebrate, I made my goal and deserve to have met that goal! It may have come sooner than I had planned but I DESERVE IT! And even though I'm floating on a cloud of unsurety... to maintain or loose... I did it!

I'm not going back to my old habits, I'm going to continue my journey because this isn't just a diet, this is a new lifestyle for me. And from now on, every day is going to be a celebration of my accomplishments!! Why wait?

  
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MIKEYCO 5/9/2012 10:45AM

    WAY TO GO!!!!! That is wonderful that you have meet your goal a lot of hard work and it paid off. I still have 60+ pounds to go and have many of the same thoughts about what is going to happen when i get to my overall goal. It is completely normal to think those things but that is good. It just shows that you know you can't just stop. Like you said it is a lifestyle now not just a diet.

You have done great and I am sure you will continue with your success. Good luck with doing the 5K.

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LEANNIE84 5/7/2012 4:14PM

    Thank you everyone!! emoticon

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KETTLEBURN 5/7/2012 3:37PM

    wow! that's amazing that you've not only reached your goal but did it far before your deadline! just goes to show that hard work can and will pay off. i know that we've never met, but i'm so proud of you for reaching that goal! i'm not even close to my goal by a long shot but i'm already wondering the same kind of things: what will happen WHEN (not if) i meet my goal? thanks for sharing your wonderful news, and congrats!

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GURNXTDOOR04 5/5/2012 9:50AM

    This is an AWESOME post. I have always thought of that myself, what happens when I get to goal? because you spend so much energy and concentration trying to get to this one number. IT IS AMAZING that you reached your goal and be sure that all the work you did to get there, YOU DESERVE IT! CONGRATS! emoticon emoticon

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LEANNIE84 5/5/2012 9:28AM

    Thank you Quasior!

I wouldn't have gotten to where I am without the encouragement of fellow sparkers like you! :)

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QUASIOR 5/5/2012 9:24AM

    Well done! You achieved your goals. Don't they have 'maintenance on this site too? run a 5 k is a great goal to have. Enjoy your new body you've earned it! emoticon

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Rheumatoid Arthritis Flare

Wednesday, March 28, 2012

I haven't been blogging much - actually this is only my second time emoticon

But have any of you experienced an RA. flare up? I was diagnosed in December and put on medication along with a specific diet to help eliminate inflammatory triggers. I have been doing well, lost weight and have bee walking faster than i have in a long time! I almost forgot I had RA.... until Sunday....

I hate to complain, but my mobility is almost nil and I forgot how much things hurt! I haven't been exercising, just some mobility stretching and some light yoga to keep things "loose". I have to walk to work, and it was all I could do to get there! I'm used to walk 4.5KM or more, and the 1Km to work was brutal! How can this be?

Of course I'm beating myself up about not exercising... and I'm petrified the scale is going to go up, but there isn't a whole lot I can do, is there? And besides, stressing myself out will probably just make my symptoms worse!

Today is a bit better. I think the beast is lowering his head, but I think this was a reminder that I can't "beat" this disease, I have to work with it.

Any suggestions from those of you who have RA and how you cope with flare ups?

  
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MIKEYCO 4/10/2012 1:29PM

    I don't have RA or know much about it. However, would exercising in water help. I know it is said to help those with mobility issues and having a bad back I know it works for me. I know my bad back and RA are not the same but it was just a thought. The other issue is access to a pool.

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Rough Weekend

Monday, March 12, 2012

Well, this weekend was a rough one!

The sun was shining, I went for a big long walk, did some pilates and took the dog out for a walk too!

But.... I was still a bit off... and I couldn't figure out why. And after making Almond meal cookes, and devouring the whole batch, along with 3/4 of a batch of spinach crackers I had an epiphany...

I'm emotionally binge eating... but why? I have it narrowed down to being lonely and/or stressed about work... but that doesn't get rid of the 30+ carbs I inhaled....

Today, I woke up, jumped on the scale and am up 2.5lbs from my last weigh in... but I'm not going to get mad at myself. What's the point? To trigger another binge? Instead I said to myself "those cookies were darn worth it! But I better work a little harder for the rest of the week!". Sure, I know I'll beat myself up a bit here and there throughout the week, but I might as well shrug it off and realize I'm doing well and I'm a lot healthier than I was 3 months ago.

So, how was your weekend?



  
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CRISTHIANE 3/12/2012 2:01PM

    That's great! You have an excellent attitude about your weekend and the upcoming week. Good luck reaching your goals!
My weekend was the same of yours so I'm adopting your attitude and moving forward!
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