Friday, September 04, 2009
I ended up making my back worse last night after deciding the living room could use a little reorganization. (In my defense, it DOES look better!) I guess the pain meds and muscle relaxers helped more than I thought, because I felt just peachy while I was doing it. After waking up this morning I realized that may not have been the best idea. Duh! LOL I tried going for my walk anyway, hoping maybe I just needed to get moving and work out the soreness, but I only made it half a mile before I had to stop. I'm really disappointed.
The scale is driving me crazy. I think it just likes to torture me. Seriously, it's sadistic. I was extremely excited to be at 215, and now I'm holding steady at 218. I've been exercising more, but I definitely don't think I could be building muscle THAT fast! I have been noticing when I track my foods that I'm not getting enough calories. Lemme tell you, I NEVER thought that would be an issue! I'm trying to find a way to get 200 - 300 more calories into my diet without increasing my carbs. I'm doing well with the 75+ grams of protein a day, but I guess I'm just not getting enough of it from actual meats to get the calories I need. I'm not a big fan of meat though, I never was. I actually was a vegetarian for the year before my surgery.
It's strange, but the only thing I ever want to eat is yogurt. I was eating the super-yummy kinds with a bit too much sugar and carbs, but I've switched to CarbMaster (Kroger Brand) yogurt and it's STILL all I want to eat. Nothing else ever sounds good to me, and even when I do find something else to eat, I find that I have to force myself to eat it. I don't know if that's normal or not. Luckily, I still religiously take my bariatric vitamins and force down the protein shakes so I won't just shrivel up.
I bought some new clothes a couple of days ago and I'm loving them. I bought them on sale at Lane Bryant and for the first time had to exchange the ones I tried on for a SMALLER size! I think that their clothes run a bit big, but hell wearing a 14/16 shirt instead of a 22/24 is the biggest thrill I've had in a long time. I seriously almost cried I was so happy. I also splurged and bought a pair of their Right Fit pants. It's awesome to have some pants that fit for the moment. I know I shouldn't have spent so much on something that I'll be able to wear for only a short time, but I just couldn't help myself. When I tried on the pants and the number I wore had gone from 7 to 4, my eyes about fell out of my head!
Now the fiancé and I are heading to my parent's for family pizza night. It's great to be able to hang out with them and my brother, but man pizza smells GOOD! They've been awesome and tried to find a way to feed me too, but I keep assuring them that it's not a big deal. I'll take my giant bottle of water (I constantly carry a 1.5L bottle of weak Crystal Light with me LOL), my yogurt and a protein bar and be set for the evening!
Hopefully this evening my back will stop acting up and I can at least do some balance games on the Wii Fit. I'll have to debate if that's a good idea or not though. Maybe I should ask someone else since I seem to make poor decisions! LOL
Thursday, September 03, 2009
The day before surgery, I had my mom take pictures of me from every angle. I knew I would love to be able to see the changes, and honestly I have avoided having my picture taken for YEARS. Those were the first pictures I had seen of myself since I had gained over 80 pounds. Talk about a wakeup call! Well, the next day I had my surgery - came home a couple of days later- wondered around in a painkiller haze. LOL I never once realized that I hadn't backed up the "before" pictures I had uploaded from my camera. Then my compute died. My fiancé is a computer wiz and he told me that it was beyond repair. So, I lost my pictures. Out of everything I lost on there, that is what still makes me sad. That was the only thing I had to really compare then and now. Of course, I can tell that I've lost. I can see a little difference, but not over 90 pounds worth. I can tell the change in sizes, but it's not the same as those visual reminders.
Tuesday, September 01, 2009
I was so proud of myself. I got up when my fiancé got home from work and went to the park for a two mile walk. I had completely forgotten that people are even able to leave their houses at 7 am! LOL The walk went well. I had not only band-aids on my heels, but surgical tape left over from my surgery covering the band-aids to keep them from falling off. No messing around for me.
I've been having some weird back aches lately. I thought it was our ancient mattress, but the problems got even worse with our new super-squishy-mattress-from-heaven. It's always my middle back. No lower back problems, just the muscles along my spine. I've mostly gotten used to it, but today their was some kind of revolution in my back.
Around the end of the second mile, my back was ANGRY. From my neck to my waist along my spine on the left side decided that it wasn't going to be nice to me anymore.
I took some Tylenol (no NSAIDs since the bypass) and took a nap and it continued to get worse. Well, I finally had my love take me to the doctor. I guess I've strained my Trapezius. Bah!
The doctor said part of it could be if I spend a lot time on the computer I'm continuously causing strain. My love gave away my secret nerd identity to her. ;) I also may have aggravated it when I decided I didn't like the way our little shrubs looked... so I moved them. Maybe I'm not indestructible after all? LOL
I'm just hoping this isn't going to get too much in the way of exercise. At the moment I ca n barely lift my arm, and swinging it is a definite no-no, but I'm hoping that will pass quickly.
On an awesome note, the doctor wrote me a prescription for a back massage from my fiancé! LOL How great is that? Hmmm... I'll have to see how many refills I get!
Monday, August 31, 2009
I've been hearing for months from my surgeon that I need to get up and get moving. I've tried Tae Bo, Zumba, Kundalini and Hatha Yoga, Pilates, I bought the Wii fit and now I've started walking.
I think I started out way, way too difficult and really discouraged myself. When you're 175 pounds overweight, jumping around and shaking that ass may not be the way to start your fitness plan. Unfortunately, I'm not always the most logical person.
I bought a little MP3 player, loaded it with high-energy songs and have started walking the track at the park every day. I started at only a mile, but I figure that's a mile further than I would have walked if I had been hanging out at home!
After a couple of days, I moved up to a mile and a half. Woo! Now the only problem is that I have some hellish blisters on my heels. I never get shoes that fit right. I swear, the women in my family have square feet! LOL I'm just trying to figure out how to find the right shoes and how to keep the blisters from interfering with my walking. I'm slowly starting to make it a part of my daily life and I definitely don't want to stop now!
Saturday, August 29, 2009
I am SO tired of hearing how WLS is the "easy way out" of being fat.
It's easy to go through a battery of tests, have someone get all elbow deep in your innards and rearrange everything, never drink and eat at the same time again, get so much protein you wanna yak, spend months not lifting over 10lbs, learn how and what to eat all over again and THEN listen to ignorant people bitch about how it's the easy way out.
Too bad I don't have the strength to do things the hard way.
I wouldn't change a thing about having the surgery though. I tried every diet out there and even when they worked, I bounced back to my formerly round self. This surgery has been an amazing blessing. I have more energy now than I did at 20. I don't rely on food as entertainment or comfort (well, the Food Network is still entertaining.)
Anyway, to all the whiners and complainers out there; Bite me.
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