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Upset--bit of a rant.

Tuesday, April 30, 2013

This is a rant...and a bit of a pity party. But the bottom line is I really just need to get this out:
Well...the last entry where I'd lost 8 lbs was a fluke, I guess. I gained it right back the next week--eating the same things and exercising the same if not more.
...And now for about a month, maybe more--no progress yet again.
And I've really been trying. I have had a couple of days where I just get sick of it and give up. But the next day I feel bad and go right back to it.
I don't understand and It's really starting to depress me. I can't wear any of my clothes...I hate looking in the mirror. I can't tell you how many times I've broke down in tears about all this in the last month. I don't want my picture taken. I don't want my husband to have to come back and see me like this.
And the most frustrating thing is I'm actually TRYING. I don't know how to try any harder. I literally eat fruit, vegetables, meat and a little dairy most of the week. A sandwich MAYBE twice a week and only at breakfast. 30 minutes at least of cardio 3 times or more a week and I'm pushing myself. I've also gone so far as to get off my depression medication (with dr. supervision) because he suggested that's what's keeping my weight at this terrible plateau.

I don't know what to do. This is the worst time I've ever had with my weight. I've never NOT lost weight when I've actually tried....I'm at a complete loss and not only concerned but angry and sad. I feel like I've tried everything, literally everything minus starving myself which...i know isn't right.

This sucks. More than I can even put into words.

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SYDLETZIII 11/10/2013 2:35PM

    I tried to lose weight for over 7 years, Sparkpeople was the first time I lost some of kept it off. 3-4 months ago I stopped losing and the needle went back and forth for 2 months then for no reason I started losing again. Losing weight takes longer to lose then to gain and it harder. Hang in there and have faith. Most importantly remember there will be setbacks, but these are opportunities to become stronger and wiser. Good luck on creating a new journey to losing weight- You are not alone.

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LEAHLINK87 5/1/2013 4:53PM

    thanks, you two. I definitely have noticed that I'm stronger/can run longer distances, etc. Clothes still aren't fitting differently :-/ guess that's where I really want to see the improvement.

Maybe I do need to keep a better eye on the sodium. That's been one of the hardest things for me to regulate, it seems. Even though I don't eat much salt it's just in so many foods.

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JULESJET 4/30/2013 2:38PM

    Are you drinking enough water? Are you keeping an eye on your sodium? Water retention due to sodium can definitly stall your weightloss.

Don't give up! Make sure you are tracking what you are eating, keep doing your exercise. Sometimes it just takes a little while for your body to get the clues.

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CATHGREEN8 4/30/2013 7:07AM

    Even without progress, how do you FEEL? Are you stronger? Are you sleeping better? Are stairs easier to climb? Do your clothes fit differently? has anyone noticed that you look well?

Even when the scale doesn't move in the direction we want....we are gaining better health with evey workout, with every healthy meal, with every good nights sleep.

I hope you will notice your gains, and not the ones on the scale. I am proud of your efforts, please don't give up.

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Good results!

Saturday, March 16, 2013

Well the carb cycling (see last entry) is definitely working!!! I can honestly say this is the biggest weight loss (within a week) that I've seen from any diet I've ever tried. And I still don't feel like I'm missing out on things I want to eat/still feel motivated to keep with it.

SO the results ::drum roll:: 8.4 lbs! :)
Very pleased with this amount and I can already SEE the difference in the mirror. Curious to see what next week yields!

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Carb Cycling--it's working!!!

Wednesday, March 13, 2013

Weight Watchers, Low Carb Diets of all sorts, most recently p90x--I've been on the search for weight loss that works for the better part of 8 years. And I think...I've finally found it. My secret weapon. Two words for you:
Carb Cycling.

If you've never seen it I suggest first watching a few episodes of Extreme Makeover--Weightloss Edition.
Chris Powell, the coach for that show is the author of the book Choose to Lose-- 7 Day Carb Cycling. After watching the show I was inspired by how much weight these people lost and I thought to myself--what their doing WORKS. So I looked up some info on Chris Powell and found his book which I bought thinking "It can't hurt."

Well it hasn't. 4 days after beginning to change the way I eat according to the plan (which is easy EASY to follow) outlined in this book. I have lost 7 lbs. In 4 days. I feel great. I'm sleeping better than I have in...years. I'm actually eating more than I'm used to.

The basis of carb cycling is alternating one day high carb meals, one day low carb meals. Andddd the best part is you can choose to have a full cheat day or 3 cheat meals throughout the week (on a high carb day). And you eat 5 times a day (every 3 hours--it's actually almost more than I can handle). The reasons why/how it works are in the book.
For the first time I don't feel like I'm missing anything. I'm not craving junk meal from Sonic's drive-thru, I'm eating carrots and drinking water and liking it (Powell suggests that after a few days eating whole foods you actually begin to experience the real taste of foods--I have to agree. For instance I tried to drink a diet mountain dew the other day and it tasted bad to me...never...has this happened to me in my life)? Have I slipped into an alternate reality, here?

Anyway, I don't imagine that my entire journey will yield 7 lbs a week or anything, but hey--it's an awesome start. And I feel that eating this way is something I can actually live with and do. I just wanted to share and tell you I think it's worth a look for anyone wanting to drop the pounds. Here's a link to the book on amazon:


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SHERYLP461 3/16/2013 10:06PM

    Interesting, I am checking this out

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LEAHLINK87 3/16/2013 9:43PM

    If any of you decide to try it out let me know how it goes--I'm curious to hear other people's results from this diet!

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ELIZACG9 3/15/2013 10:45AM

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JLLOVETT 3/13/2013 5:23PM

    Good luck emoticon. I might buy the book.

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TXTOAD9970 3/13/2013 5:15PM

    Thanks for sharing your story. I have been looking for something to try. I tried the 17-Day Diet and lost some weight in the beginning, but it's a hard diet to stick to if you're not seeing results (I wasn't seeing results after the first week).
I will check out this book and try this diet. Thanks again!
And Congrats on your weight loss - you're doing awesome!
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Freezer Meals

Monday, February 18, 2013

I'm going to attempt to cook up food, separate them into correct portion sizes and freeze. With the husband deployed it seems like a great idea for healthy meals rather than grabbing something fast/small enough to cook for myself/wasting food, etc.

Plus with work when I get home I just don't feel like cooking. Maybe I can even implement it when he gets back home, that way I can still have cooked meals prepared for him even though I'm at work all day and tired when I get home.

Just a thought. Gonna try it and see if it helps any.

Ideas for freezer meals:
--breakfast burritos
--shredded chicken for chicken salad, tacos, etc
--blueberry yogurt cookies
--banana applesauce cookies
--greek yogurt strawberry banana bread
--terriyaki chicken
--baked sweet and sour chicken
--mocha protein donuts
--bacon/egg/cheese on english muffin

not all of those at once, obviously but...just something to go on. This way I won't have to skip any meals. I can just grab something for breakfast, lunch and dinner. :)


Binge Eating...

Sunday, February 17, 2013

Ugh. I hate to admit the fact that I do this. I seriously don't know why...it's like if there's food in the house that I like--I will eat it. Whether I'm hungry or not. It's gotten a lot worse lately.

I think because I've been a bit depressed lately. Just a lot of things going on...stuff that's been hard to deal with for me. Not only that but sometimes I don't get a chance to eat properly while I'm at work which makes me ravenous by the time I get home and I'm stressed and tired a lot more than I have been in a while. And I know that I do turn to food to make me feel better sometimes. It definitely comforts me.
And that's gotta stop. There are a couple of foods that I turn to and I know what they are. The main one is cereal. Peanut butter can be one also.
So I've decided to eliminate these from my pantry. Well, maybe not the peanut butter as I have less of a problem with that one and I seem to use it in other things a lot.
I've already eliminated Nutella from my shelves and bagels. (I know, my cravings are probably not standard--I don't crave chips or pizza or chocolate bars...). Anyway. I know they say that you shouldn't ban yourself from ever eating anything completely but...I think it's just safer if I don't buy that stuff. I know now (from it becoming very clear this weekend) that if that stuff is in the house...i will not be able to tell myself no for very long.

I guess I need to substitute it with something. Either activity or some low calorie food of some sort (any suggestions about that are welcome, fellow SparkPeople). Maybe eventually I won't want that kind of thing anymore. :-/

Feel really bad about eating so terribly this weekend. I feel fat. and pretty awful about myself.

But. The past is the past...it happened and I just have to get back up and start over. So tomorrow--conscious of how binge eating has made me feel today, healthy food choices, MODERATION, and the gym with a friend after work. Time's getting away from me and I've really got to do this for myself. Even if I just lose a few lbs...i think i'll feel a lot better.

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LEAHLINK87 2/19/2013 8:03PM

    this was on pinterest today about how to stop binge eating--thanks SparkPeople: http://www.sparkpeople.com/resource

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LEAHLINK87 2/19/2013 10:18AM

    congratulations on your recovery :). I'm glad to hear that you've been free of it so long.

Thanks for the encouragement and advice.

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    Hi Leah,

I am a recovering bulimic (335 days since I B/P). i know what you mean I have my comfort foods that I like to binge on as well. I use to not carry them in my home or I only let a small amount in my home for my kids at various times in the beginning. I think there are a few things that make me want specific foods and one of them for me is food allergies. They make me feel awful when I eat them but for some reason they were the food I chose to binge on. Depression and eating goes hand-in-hand and I think they feed off of each other.

One of the best ways I found to curb my binges was to change my routine, activity is excellent - from walking to going to the library. Changing that routine can help you. Eating regular meals also helps me, especially starting the morning with a well balanced breakfast.

I have been revamping my eating disoder recovery group, it covers all forms of eating disoders feel free to check it out and I hope you have a beautiful day. Take one baby step at a time and emoticon

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