Tuesday, March 26, 2013
I have been on SparkPeople for a week. I have never done a blog before and thought I would give it a try. I have been on many diets and I can't seem to either lose the weight or keep it off. I am a big girl always have been. I've been made fun of since I was a little kid, it caused problems with my self-esteem. I still struggle with it and I am 30yrs old.
For one year I was skinny I had lost around 150lbs. I was happy and active and felt so good inside. Then I met my husband and I became pregnant (no I am not blaming the pregnancy or my husband :)) This was my fault. I had stopped watching what I ate and stopped working out. I gained all the weight I had lost and added some. I was so happy when my son was born but I became depressed and couldn't seem to get out of it. It took me 17months to start taking my life back. It was scary because I added so much weight. Then one month after starting to work out and eat right I found out I was pregnant again. I was determined not to gain a lot of weight. I did great (only 12 lbs gained) until the last two weeks. Then of course the last two weeks I was so hungry it wasn't funny so I gained alittle more :) I was ok with that because I knew it was for my son. The only problem was that I weighed the most I have ever weighed. I went over 300lbs. Granted I am 5'10 but I know it is a lot and very unhealthy.
With having a c-section you can't do much of anything for a good while so I thought about how I wasn't going to let myself get down and how I was going to start to change my life. I had the doctor put me back on my anti-depressants before I left the hospital. For the past 6 weeks I have been healing from my surgery. I joined Sparkpeople, been watching what I eat and when I was able to walk more then five feet without being in pain I started to walk and bought zumba for xbox kinect . When I joined I had already lost weight so that is a good start. I get cleared tomorrow from my doctor to workout and I can't wait. I want to be healthy for my kids and husband but most important for myself.
I am hoping it will help to Blog what is going on in my life. I know it couldn't hurt.