Wednesday, April 06, 2011
Today began like any other day. Then, the entire company was called to an impromptu 9:30am meeting in front of the CEO's office, in which we were told that 12 of our colleagues were being laid off at that very moment and that they would be coming up to their desks in 15 mins and that we were to be supportive and help them handle the news. Shipping their jobs overseas, where they can hire people to supposedly do the same work (though, not as high of quality AT ALL) for something like $8 per day. It makes me sick. I don't usually like to deal with politics, but this really hit close to home and just about has me ready to start fighting with SOMEONE.
We work in small teams called pods. I can't go into much detail, but my entire pod was let go, except for me and my friend. I can't tell you how devastating this was...not just for the people laid off, who had absolutely no warning whatsoever (some who have been serving this company for YEARS), but also for those of us remaining. One thing that our company has going for it is that the people that work there are just wonderful. We genuinely love our co-workers. And my pod had become like my family. These people are so special to me and being near them and hearing their voices and laughing with them every day was what made all the horrible parts of the job completely worth it. And, just like that...they were gone. The whole place was a MESS...people were crying all over the place. It was just horrible.
Then I thought...wow, I leave my church one day. The next day I lose co-workers that I love. My friends are just dropping like flies. :( Thank God I still have derby!
I did emotionally eat to handle this news. But not out of control. And when I got home, I walked 4 miles...really fast. And I am exhausted now. So, at the very least, my body is calmer and I will hopefully just get in bed and pass out and forget all about this day.
Tuesday, April 05, 2011
Been dealing with a lot of huge decisions lately regarding all sorts of things. In short, though, my husband and I have been feeling for awhile that our current church is not a good fit for us and we just don't feel like it's our "family" or our "home". Therefore, we finally got our courage up and made the decision to leave. This is difficult. We are nervous, scared, excited, confused...all rolled up into one. If you've never been a really integral part of a church, you might not understand why this is such a big deal for us. But it really is. It's such a big part of our lives and leaving people you care about is never easy, even if there are only a few that you feel a lot of affection for in the bunch. It really does feel, in some ways, like a divorce. We went through all of this just 2 years ago. That one happened to be a very healthy, very friendly divorce and we have been able to hold onto a lot of those relationships and they have remained. This one will likely not be so friendly and not be so clean. And that is why we are nervous.
So, in all that...I am so thankful for my health. That I have been working this past month to take care of myself and learning how to use exercise as a stress relief outlet and not see it as torture. If I didn't have the opportunity to let off steam and think about things while I'm being active, I don't know that I'd make it through this without sinking into depression.
I'm so thankful for this journey. So many new things are happening. And it is all good. If you're the praying sort, we sure could use some prayer right now.
Saturday, April 02, 2011
So, I figured with all of this desire to eat houses and such...I better make sure I up my activity this weekend. I pretty much had to FORCE myself to go for my walk on the trail today, but I was excited to take my 3 yr old boy (who has really missed me a lot since I've been working so much overtime) out with me in his stroller. Let me just say...walking 4 miles with a kid in a stroller is a much tougher workout than just walking the trail myself! And the best part is...I cut my time down from a 26 minute mile to a 22 minute mile! Woot! Go me! :)
Now I'm going to do some strength exercises...nothing too extensive...just enough to stretch my body out and get a little bit of muscle going. Then, I am RELAXING!
Do you know I worked 92 hours over the past two weeks?! Yeah...that is enough for me. I plan on resting for the remainder of this day! Ha!
Friday, April 01, 2011
OK, so I've been doing really well for the past month or so with controlling my calories and ignoring crazy cravings, etc. And I've been steadily losing weight at a healthy rate.
I don't know WHAT is up this week, though. It's like I'm SO HUNGRY all the time!!! I want to eat anything and everything in sight. I will eat an entire meal and still feel like I'm starving! Last night I definitely had 2 dinners. : (
Has anyone else that's been doing this longer experienced phases like this? And WHY is this happening? I thought my tummy was supposed to shrink with smaller portions and I was supposed to be able to get full faster.
I've been doing everything right...drinking a ton of water, eating healthy calories, working out. Why this sudden increase in desire to eat? Could it be purely hormonal? It is that time...
UGH! Hate this! All I can think about is eating more and more and more. Luckily, I've been able to control it somewhat and not give in to every whim. But it's rough!!!
Thursday, March 31, 2011
Yay!!! Finally! A day where I ran the nutrition report and met all the nutrition goals. None that were over or under! That's a big deal for me. I'm usually under on (surprisingly) fat and carbs. Ha.
I also have a great workout planned for tonight - roller derby practice sans the skating (cuz of my injuries). But I have a GREAT strength and cardio routine planned out for 1.5 hours of practice, then one of the really tough roller girl coaches will be leading us in a half hour of her circuit routine. Really looking forward to the physical activity, as well as the comeraderie.
I'll report on how it went tomorrow!
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