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This and That

Monday, October 08, 2012

This week, I feel like this...



Maybe you didn't get that metaphor. Here's another:



Still confused? Here's a likeness of me:



My bad, that doesn't look like me. This is a little closer:



My only hope comes from realizing that, on Friday afternoon, I get to be here doing this:



AAAAAAH, one solitary moment of bliss. Then....this:



All so I can arrive and work my butt off for a week here:



But...you know what's awesome? After that's done, I get to do this:



Along 13.1 miles of this:



And then I'll get to collect this:



Then, a party with close friends and family to celebrate. Could there BE a better way to cap off the busiest weeks of my professional year? I think not!

  
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EFFRAYECHILDE 10/23/2012 10:09AM

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LIVELYGIRL2 10/13/2012 12:17AM

  Oh Leah,
Your a good communicator. I love it!!!

I hope you enjoy the other stuff, and keep your head together and heart engaged to the things you get to do to recharge.

Honestly, I can't believe what you've accomplished in this brief time. HA, HA, enjoyed the frustrated computer pic , cracking me up ( can you hear me ? )

You savor that run and massage.

I guess my now, my sister told you, she started running. I am guessing, it has only been 1 or 2 plus months. She is so darn jazzed about it ( that I posted on freecycle/ to find some running shoes without treading ). I don't have the $ to invest .

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LIVINHEALTHY9 10/11/2012 9:27PM

    I really enjoyed your blog.
Have a good trip and a great run!

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PSHAW46 10/11/2012 8:32PM

  What an awesome blog! You go girl!

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IFEOMA4 10/11/2012 4:45PM

  LOVE THE BLOG. I really get it all

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    Good luck!

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KASPER10779 10/11/2012 2:31PM

    I totally got all of those! I hope you have a great time!

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KKARENKM 10/11/2012 2:27PM

    deer in the head lights- yep can relate to that. nice blog

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MCJULIEO 10/11/2012 11:38AM

    Lucky You! Austin is a great place to get outside and enjoy the day... whether you're near Town Lake (now known as Lady Bird Lake) that runs through downtown, or the various green spaces that wind through the canyons and hills of this beautiful city...

Hope you enjoy this little bit of Texas before returning to the frozen North!

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LUKENEMISAUNT 10/11/2012 11:01AM

  Good job!

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    Wow, I love your talent at posting all the pictures to go with your story! Awesome job and have fun during your hard work! emoticon

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    I get it!

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ILOVETOCRUISE 10/11/2012 6:50AM

    Good luck.
When we moved to the Austin area in 1985, the tallest building was the Sheraton by the river.
We do not live there anymore but do miss it.
Have a good day.

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    Looks good to me. Much better than being a emoticon body!

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CINDYBEL 10/10/2012 10:12AM

    Hope you enjoy Austin. The weather is beautiful in Texas at this time. Of course, give it a week and it will change.
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POLSKARENIA 10/10/2012 9:43AM

    Excellent - love the visuals! Enjoy!!

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LORELLELAURA 10/10/2012 8:40AM

    massage? jealous! might have to book one of my own!

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MARYJEANSL 10/9/2012 11:41PM

  Nice to have such a desirable silver lining waiting for you after the initial clouds! Enjoy the end of the week!

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PCASEY7 10/9/2012 10:48PM

    Congrats and best of luck with the half marathon! Loved the photos in your blog!

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Is that a trail in the Austin area? Beautiful already? Can't wait to get into the area. AND got my massage today!! Sore but it will be great!!

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    Great blog!

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KARRENLYNN 10/9/2012 8:03PM

    Well told! I hope you rock the week and do great in the marathon! :)

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    Good luck on a successful week at work and wonderful run for the half-marathon.

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MELROSE13 10/9/2012 7:03PM

    The feeling when you cross that starting line-and then the one at the finish line-incomparable! ENJOY that journey cause there is only one time to have your "first"!
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    have a great time

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LINDAKAY228 10/9/2012 4:19PM

    Loved it! Good luck with the hm. What a great way to end the week!

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DIANNEMT 10/9/2012 4:05PM

    Hope you had a great half marathon that made the whole week of work worth it!!

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JUNEAU2010 10/9/2012 2:51PM

    Yes! While that deer may be looking at oncoming headlights, it is strong, it is beautiful, it is independent and it, too, can run very fast!

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JIBBIE49 10/9/2012 2:50PM

    Once again FEATURED BLOG in the Spark Mail. What an honor.

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CREEKLADY1 10/9/2012 1:17PM

  LOve it!

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    Have a great run - just relax and enjoy it!

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GALINAZ 10/9/2012 11:24AM

    Good luck on your run and at work, you are amazing!


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    Way cool! Love it!

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    Go for it!

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When "Personal Best" Becomes "Everyday Normal"

Friday, October 05, 2012

I had another rough start this morning. Alarm sounded and I had about a 5-minute inner battle about whether to go back to sleep or get up and work out, as planned. I reasoned, "I worked out yesterday, so I'm good. I can sleep a bit more today." But then thought, "Yeah, but you felt so awesome after yesterday's workout. Why wouldn't you want that again?"

Somehow, I got up and went. Swimming again. You might as well get used to it...I have planned the next 52 weeks of training and the Prep/Base phase is going to consist almost exclusively of bike/spinning, swim and weight training. No weight bearing for this chick until February.

Got in the pool and, once again, didn't want to do my swim. AGAIN, it took me TWENTY lengths to even want to be there.

But today...today...would be a special day. (The best part about regular workouts is that you never know when these days will come around. It's ALWAYS a surprise when you hit a breakthrough.)

Today, I planned on my typical 30 lengths in 30 minutes. Was right on schedule. As I've mentioned before, my biggest issue is breathing. I frequently stop to rest (usually every two lengths). The most I've ever gone without stopping is 4 lengths.

This morning, I thought to myself, "Leah...just relax and stop tensing up your body. If you think about it, your body feels just fine. There are no rules...you can breathe as much as you want. Who is stopping you? This stopping every 2-4 lengths is 100% mental. You can beat this right now."

At 20 lengths, I had 10 more to go...just 5 full laps. The most continuous laps I've swam is 2. I challenged myself to swim my last 5 laps/10 lengths without stopping. Slow and easy, Leah. Slow and easy. This is a "cool down".

So, I did it.

Yep. But I didn't just do 10 lengths. I still had 3 minutes left after 10 lengths. So I did 4 more lengths. (That's my personal best - 34 lengths - the past two workouts in the pool, I've done 34. My personal best has become everyday normal!)

So, yeah...swam 14 lengths without stopping.

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BLUE42DOWN 10/9/2012 12:51PM

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Love how much of this is mental game!

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    emoticon One of the reasons you carry on; you can do it.

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OPTIMIST1948 10/8/2012 2:24PM

    Just a little bit further every day. So Awesome!

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    So do you believe you are an athlete yet? emoticon emoticon

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HEALTHY4HIM 10/7/2012 5:06PM

    And the news just keeps getting better! Way to go, girl!

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PATTISTAMPS 10/7/2012 2:16PM

    WOO HOOOOOOOO!!! You ROCK!

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MSTWOMOONS002 10/6/2012 8:49PM

    Hi Leah;
Woo Hoo Good for you I am so proud of how far you've come in such a short time with your swimming. I knew you could do it, Your getting better & stronger every day. Just trust & believe in the strength you building inside of You. I am so happy & proud of you. I wish I could just hug you..... emoticon

Love Prayers & Many Blessings Always Debby
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ON2VICTORY 10/6/2012 5:13PM

    i remember when you first got started, how swimming was an activity to do because it was one of your only options and now look at you.... you will be rockin a tri before you know it.... you got da drive :)

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MLH148 10/6/2012 1:30PM

    Great job! Those olympians make it look so easy to swim but that breathing thing gets in the way. emoticon

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    Awesome job. Keep it up. emoticon

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DEDICATED2HIM 10/6/2012 10:17AM

    Wow! this blog got a lot of comments~! I guess I'll add mine to the mash. Great work....I don't think there is any joy quite like that of challenging yourself and coming out on top. Good work!! emoticon emoticon

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    You rock and you are a REAL inspiration to me... Thank you SO much for sharing!!! emoticon

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    Great job on breaking your personal best! emoticon

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    That is awesome. Keep up the good work!
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LINDAK25 10/5/2012 9:20PM

    That's fantastic! Now all you have to do is to remember to relax.

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CHANGELIFE2016 10/5/2012 4:41PM

    i know you said you are going to take a break from running. have you ever thought of walking on incline in intervals?? It can burn calories quite a bit too. i'm at 228 and i burn about 480 calories in an hour walking on incline accordign to my hr monitor. it's in intervals so its' constantly changing speed and incline levels. I have some on a worksheet i got from my gym if your interested. :) I think you are doing awesome and love to read your blogs on your training. emoticon

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JJAQUES41 10/5/2012 4:35PM

    Great job on breath control and swimming non-stop!

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DATMAMA4 10/5/2012 4:05PM

    Wow! I'm impressed. Glad for you!

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GOSPARK45 10/5/2012 3:45PM

    Breakthroughs are so awesome! And so is improving!

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COCK-ROBIN 10/5/2012 3:29PM

    Great! I'm proud of you!

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LOVEMYBODY2012 10/5/2012 2:44PM

    You have hit the nail on the head! When we relax into exercise and stop fighting ourselves we get into that great flow state. Thanks for the inspiration and a great reminder to relax and savor exercise!

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SLENDERELLA61 10/5/2012 2:30PM

    Congratulations on this significant achievement!! Way to go, Leah!! Great blog. Great way to push yourself to greater accomplishment!! -Marsha

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    Nice - congrats to you on your awesome swim! emoticon

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POINDEXTRA 10/5/2012 2:18PM

    Hooray!

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NEWSGIRL2177 10/5/2012 2:10PM

    Man, I love swimming! That's awesome!

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EARTHTONED84 10/5/2012 1:28PM

    Aaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhh congratulations!!!!!! emoticon

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DJSHIP46 10/5/2012 1:17PM

    You are AWESOME!!! Congrats:)

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MS0669 10/5/2012 1:13PM

    WhooHoo what an awesome job - 14 lenghts is something to be very proud of !!

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VICKYMARIEC 10/5/2012 1:11PM

    GREAT job girl!

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AMANDAROX 10/5/2012 1:09PM

    Wow, this is very encouraging to hear!! I will starting swim training in January to give myself 6 months to train for next year's triathlons. I hope I have the same success you do....persistence is key! Congrats on your PR!!

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KAY-SUPREME 10/5/2012 1:05PM

    AWESOME. I need to find a pool. I miss swimming.

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    Great job! Way to talk yourself into keep going. I do that all the time and it really works. Good for you! emoticon emoticon

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Fight Your Urge to Quit

Thursday, October 04, 2012

OK, we've ALL seen this motivational poster...



Admit it...the first time you saw it, you were all, "TOTALLY TRUE!!!! I LOVE THAT SO MUCH!"

Then you saw it a few hundred more times...to the point where you no longer get excited when you see it and you probably just vomited in your mouth a little when you saw it here on my blog. Be honest. Hey...I feel the same way about all motivational quotes that seem to make the rounds over and over.

But sometimes seasons come where you can see things in a fresh light. I've made no efforts to hide the fact in the past that I struggle with depression. It's a lovely little ailment that my Mum was kind enough to pass down to me when I was just a wee little lass (i.e. official medical term is "dysthymia").

Anyway, I've been in a bit of a slump since my race last week. As for diet, I have been in a slump since before the race. My food choices have just been awful since last Friday.

Because the 10k was so hard on my left knee, I have not attempted any workouts this week either. When you add up a horrible diet and no workouts and the low level depression that I normally feel at all times, it's kind of a recipe for emotional disaster. It seems crazy even to me that a slump of just 4 days can have such a profound impact on a person, but here is where depression is a tricky little son of a gun.

Guys, I literally had this thought yesterday: "Maybe this IS all just a phase. Maybe I should just give up. I don't feel like doing anything. I've lost my momentum and maybe I should just run this half and be done for good."

EXCUSE ME????? WHAT?????!!!!!

Luckily, I also have an inner Jillian Michaels, who immediately flared up and gave me quite a talking to - complete with bleeped out words. I'll spare you the actual dialogue because I'm sure you can imagine. It was somewhat more animated than this, but held the same basic message:



So, what do you do when you hit a slump and you don't have the DESIRE to change?

1. Get your workout stuff ready. Pack the gym bag and put it by your stuff and put your workout clothes right next to your bed.

2. Set your stupid alarm clock way earlier than you want to set it.

3. When the alarm clock goes off, get your ass out of bed and get dressed. Walk out the door.

4. Drive to your exercise destination. Even if, like me this morning, you are complaining and upset the entire way.

5. Get in the stupid pool (tailored to my particular workout this morning). Forget about HOW MUCH you DO NOT want to do this.

6. Start swimming.

7. Keep swimming. Might as well...you're already in there...and it's only 30 minutes. (FYI...it took me 20 lengths to actually feel like being in the pool was maybe a good choice for this morning...TWENTY!)

8. Do it for half an hour. Stop bitching.

That's it, folks.

And here is where the miracle is delivered. The change in my heart, mind and emotions was absolutely astounding this morning. I felt amazing physically and like I was given a fresh start with my diet. More than that, I actually WANTED healthy food after that workout! The two really go go hand in hand.

I immediately thought of the poster that had annoyed me so many times and realized the truth of those words. It is only after a slump so deep and dark that I can appreciate those words and truly understand them.

Last night, I fell asleep thinking to myself, "Someone needs to save me and pull me out of this." Well, guess what...I didn't need anyone to do it for me. I just needed to make a decision to get out there and do what I know is right. And it changed everything.

  
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VIRGO_QUEEN 10/13/2012 7:50PM

    great blog!!! everyone has those moments!

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MALA77 10/10/2012 8:36PM

    way to get yourself outta the rut!!! It's hard as heck sometimes but it is possible. Thanks for sharing this!!

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GALINAZ 10/9/2012 11:29PM

    thank you, I think I can again.

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JOYFULROAD 10/9/2012 10:44PM

  Reading this it strikes me that I have 'babied myself' for far too long! Time to kick butt!

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KARAMAC2012 10/9/2012 5:52PM

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FANTABULASH 10/9/2012 3:40PM

    YES! You are just what the doctor ordered for me! I was looking for an inspirational blog and YOU ARE IT! I am back after a 2 year "throwing my hands up and eating everything in sight" hiatus! Thanks for the pep talk you unknowingly gave me!

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URGETTINTHIN 10/9/2012 3:05PM

    I needed to hear this especially since it's cold now and my comforter feels so good in the mornings.I'm rearranging my work out schedule to the eves instead of morns until I get pass this wonderful change in the weather.

Thanks!

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SLIMLEAF 10/9/2012 12:33PM

    Leah, you are a Star! I thought of you this morning as I failed to get out of the house and to the gym before work. I thought "Leah would have done it - she wouldn't have made excuses."

So, as much as I don't want to, I'm going to go to the gym this evening and do half an hour of strength training. Just 30 minutes, but that's a whole lot better than 0 minutes!

Thanks for being an inspiration and encouragement.

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BAROSS 10/9/2012 11:49AM

    Thank you a very helpful post.

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REBECCA180 10/9/2012 11:38AM

    Excellent advice, just what I've needed to hear. It's what I've been telling myself, but to hear that someone else is going through the same, (and coming out the other side with flying colours) is very reassuring. Thank you.

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    Excellent!

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KATHIC2 10/9/2012 7:46AM

  So very true! Love your blog!

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  Loved your blog!

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BEAUTY_WITHIN 10/8/2012 8:42PM

    Thanks for the kick in the ass! I need it!

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    Fabulous, fabulous blog!! emoticon

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BRONZE50 10/8/2012 4:13PM

  Thanks for sharing. Loved your blog.

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KLWALDON 10/8/2012 3:27PM

    So inspiring! I am feeling exactly as you described and I needed to hear exactly what you listed - the steps to take! I am proud of you for taking that step and getting going again. Now for me to do the same with my workout for this afternoon that I have been dreading all day. Here's to you! Congratulations!

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BMCKEOW1 10/8/2012 1:22PM

    I know that feeling. I have to remember that once I start I'll finish and I'll be so happy and proud of myself. I just have to get over that stupid hump of starting in the first place right now.

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KAREN91 10/8/2012 10:33AM

    I didnt exercise yesterday but I made myself do it today! You are right if you make yourself do it anyway youll be glad you did and you will feel better! emoticon

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MAMA_CD 10/8/2012 8:56AM

    You're blog put a smile on my face, I could relate. True, True! emoticon

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LEESHERRY 10/8/2012 8:33AM

  I too suffer from depression and have to take medication everyday. Thanks, I'm telling myself right now "Do It, Get up and get going" I'll be saying every step "You can do this even though you don't want to." Thanks again and hope you have some happy thoughts today and keep up the good work. "Because we can do it!" Even though we get in slumps we can talk ourselves into doing anything. emoticon emoticon

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HHOLT6 10/8/2012 7:26AM

    thank you! you are very right. I like the way you phrased it better than the nicey nicey blogs here. I have to get my ass up and stop my inner complainer from winning. emoticon

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THEIS58 10/8/2012 5:22AM

    Sums it up perfectly.

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DRAMAJLN 10/7/2012 10:20PM

    Thank you for sharing your story. I have also make myself do workouts even when I start them in a bad mood and with a lot of negative self-talk about all the reasons I should skip it this time, especially when I am going running and I think it's too cold or hot. Yet the irony is that those are the days that I set new records for time or distance. Sometimes it seems like I do my best workouts when I start off in a bad mood. And almost always I am feeling good when I'm done. Sometimes it takes longer than other times to make the shift, but I at least feel good that I put in the effort when I'm done. Keep up the good work!

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4RASCALS 10/7/2012 6:21PM

    Thank you, just what I needed today

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DLYNN46 10/7/2012 1:17PM

    For the record, until today, I've never seen the quote in pink and I love it! It is true and I love your story, thanks for sharing it. There have been countless times I've felt the same way. Now I will remember your post the next time I start the self-whining about working out, LOL! emoticon

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NESARIAN 10/7/2012 12:55PM

    Geez, you spoke for me today also! I'll keep your wisdom in mind and get out there RIGHT NOW!

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ANNSKA 10/7/2012 8:53AM

    Really inspiring and helpful thanks

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SLFGOLF 10/7/2012 1:03AM

    Great post. You can do it!

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JO28352 10/6/2012 11:09PM

    Thanks for the motivation. Tomorrow morning, it's an early morning workout for me! emoticon

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SHIRE33 10/6/2012 11:04PM

    Thanks for this, Leah. I just blogged about something along similar lines. Maybe it's just the season. Lots of stress lately. Though I do believe you are right about this being a phase that does pass. At 50, one thing I've learned is that I get down periods, and that they do pass. I don't suffer from actual depression, but I get the moody blues periodically. They became easier to handle once I lived long enough to see them come AND go for enough years. And you're right about another thing -- fake it till ya make it. It does work. : )



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LOLAJO54 10/6/2012 10:59PM

    as always a good lesson for us all

great motivation great inspiration!

thank you

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SONITA34 10/6/2012 10:30PM

    you have put e new perspective as to how i have to handle my weekends

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PEGLEGPRINCESS 10/6/2012 9:34PM

    That's amazing! I completely relate to this! I literally just went through the exact same 'episode' to the point where I cried myself to sleep feeling utterly hopeless. I got sick and felt absolutely horrible for two weeks and still went to work completely miserable physically and mentally. I picked myself up and worked out for the first time in two weeks before work and felt absolutely liberated! It was an amazing day. What an incredible journey we are on. Nothing can stop us. NOTHING I SAY! emoticon

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FIREFLY_MEDIC 10/6/2012 9:09PM

    i like the quote it can always be worse

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LJOYCE55 10/6/2012 8:53PM

  I love that you said it took you twenty minutes of swimming before you truly felt good about it. I am sure this has happened to most of us. Thank you for letting me know this is normal.

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OKLAMEG1 10/6/2012 8:17PM

  Great post! Thank you for being so open with your experiences. I feel you and know exactly what you are saying. I think we all go thru these downers or "lack of motivation" at one time or another for various reasons. Your blog will stick in my mind whenever I feel like quiting.

Appreciate everyone's comments as well. Thank you, everyone.

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BJAVIER1 10/6/2012 6:31PM

  This is an emoticon blog. It when comes at a time when I need exactly this. emoticon emoticon .

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A Blog of No Substance (w/Pics!)

Wednesday, October 03, 2012

Today is quite a day. I have so many emotions and strong words floating through my brain. Some bad news from my aunt's oncologist, plus a gray nastiness outside my window and, well...I don't trust myself to put words on a screen that will then be blasted to the masses. Knowing my luck, my blog would make the SparkMail and then I'd just have a LOT to answer for.

So, right now...I am zipping my lip. Here are some motivational pics that explain where I'm at (which is ALL OVER THE PLACE).

Oh, I guess since I'm posting motivational pics, I probably WILL make the SparkMail since that appears to be all it takes anymore these days. Doh! My bad...let one slide. WHOOPS.











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MITZEN21 10/10/2012 1:55PM

    Thank you so much for your honesty. You really have a way with words. I'm going to subscribe to your blog. emoticon

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COLETTEISGREAT 10/4/2012 12:37AM

    Hugs & support my friend!

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EBURGITE 10/3/2012 10:33PM

    hope tomorrow is a more uplifting day for you.

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LINDAK25 10/3/2012 10:05PM

    Your day sounds a bit like mine, but worse. I am so sorry! I've been weepy on and off all day because my best friend is going through chemo for the third time right now. It's not helping. In the future will they look back and see us as barbarians for the way we treat cancer patients? Will there be a cure for all the different types of cancer?

So the poster that says: Never allow someone to be your priority while allowing yourself to be their option--well, it really spoke to me. I've done that. I can't decide whether to feel hurt and ashamed of myself or angry at them and glad they're gone from my life. Apparently, I've opted for them all, which is such a waste of time! How to you learn not to do that?

Tomorrow is another day. May the fairy of positive thoughts honor us with a visit!

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KRYSTALLA 10/3/2012 9:01PM

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HEALTHY4ME 10/3/2012 8:53PM

    HUgs and I would love to double tap that cancer one. My mum passed 3 years ago this past june 1st of lung cancer. Sad as it eventually went to her brain and was just sad similar to alz.
HUGS and hope you have a better day tomorrow.

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KIPPER15 10/3/2012 8:21PM

    emoticon Cancer is so cruel to all involved.

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JUNEAU2010 10/3/2012 8:00PM

    emoticon Damn C! My heart is with you - that disease has taken too many lives....

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ONEKIDSMOM 10/3/2012 6:28PM

    So, prayers lifted on your behalf. Don't even need to know what for. Just because.

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NILLAPEPSI 10/3/2012 6:24PM

    I have two words for you: "Cancer sucks!!" emoticon emoticon

I'll be praying for your family.

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LIVEDAILY 10/3/2012 5:53PM

    Aw, hon...I'm so sorry.
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    emoticon for the down day. Hope your exercise helps lift your spirits. I am praying for your aunt and the options that she has. emoticon

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PATTISTAMPS 10/3/2012 4:06PM

    I hear you... keep on doin' what you need to do...

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RUN_BAKE_BLOG 10/3/2012 3:06PM

    Le Mew...

Without reading it, I knew it was a winner!
emoticon you, girl!!

Can't wait to wake up tomorrow and see if you won!



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TRACYNOTGIVINUP 10/3/2012 2:46PM

    Sorry to hear bout your Aunt and many hugs to you! Will keep you all in my thoughts!

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ON2VICTORY 10/3/2012 2:24PM

    oh man... my heart goes out to you Leah... be strong..Please? I know you will...

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POINDEXTRA 10/3/2012 1:53PM

    HUGS to you!

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LINDAKAY228 10/3/2012 1:47PM

    I'm sorry for the situation with your aunt and her health issues. Sending you hugs. Love the quotes.

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PRETTYLILHEFFER 10/3/2012 1:26PM

    I'm sorry for everything that is going through with your aunt. My thoughts are with you.

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IRONBLOSSOM 10/3/2012 1:25PM

    Sorry you're having a rough day, I definitely know how you feel. I've been in the dumps for days and it's so hard to know how much to put out there. You don't want to be a total attention-seeker all "woe is me" all the time, but at the same time, it feels like there's nothing else to say except doom and gloom. I went for a run last night and today I'm feeling better, I hope your exercise of choice can help you too!!

I'm sorry to hear about your aunt also, cancer seems so pervasive these days. I hope the news gets better soon!

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SIBLEYHONEYBEE 10/3/2012 1:13PM

    I hope you are feeling better tomorrow. Thanks for the inspiration and motivation. I do wish there was no such thing as cancer. My mother fought Paget's disease of the breast five years ago and thankfully it is still in remission now, but the whole experience "aged" her. And all those commercials about childhood cancer break my heart. Hugs!

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DJSHIP46 10/3/2012 1:08PM

    Sorry for your bad news... will remember you and your aunt in my prayers. And in case your not tired of hearing it, I really love reading your blogs, so take a break but do please come back when you're ready emoticon emoticon

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CLUMBOY 10/3/2012 12:40PM

    hope things improve. all the best to you on this "down" day.

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SPARKL3 10/3/2012 12:40PM

    I will keep you, your aunt, and the rest of your family in my prayers. emoticon

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    I also hope things get better for you. emoticon

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ISABELLE31 10/3/2012 12:18PM

    I'm sorry you're having a rough day. Here's hoping today gets better and tomorrow is even better than that! :)

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WONDERFUL2BME 10/3/2012 12:06PM

    So sorry about the news. You are right about the pics thing but these are voted on by members, so what can you say? Some of them do have real substance as well. Take Care.

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Did You See This News Story on Bullying?

Tuesday, October 02, 2012

Just caught this clip on Facebook...looks like it's making the rounds. But if you haven't seen it yet...I thought it was just perfect for SparkPeople.

What a strong woman. We can all learn from this beautiful lady!

www.blogher.com/national-bullying-mo
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MOMMACASSEY 1/4/2013 2:25PM

    Aw, I wanted to see it but the link sent me to an Error 404. Is there an alternative way to get to it?

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SUPERSYLPH 12/29/2012 9:31AM

    That was an absolutely beautiful news story.

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FRABBIT 12/16/2012 10:41AM

  Thanks for sharing!

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WHERERMY62KEYS 10/16/2012 4:51AM

  what goes around comes around.

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GOOSIEMOON 10/15/2012 11:35AM

    emoticon if we all learn and work together.

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DUTCH1811 10/14/2012 11:51PM

    Thank you for sharing.

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HYATTI1 10/11/2012 8:32PM

    Thanks for the link I will take a look when I gat a chance.

Joanna

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52114ME 10/11/2012 4:21PM

    Thanks for sharing the link.
She handled it really well.
It is a bummer that bullies get away with such awful things.

Enjoy your day.

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CINDYBEL 10/10/2012 10:09AM

    It's obvious she was hired for her talent and brains, not because she looks like a model. I don't think she looks obese, overweight maybe, but we all know the camera adds inches.
I like the fact that she turned the criticism into a constructive commentary about bullying.
And yes, she is beautiful.

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WALKINGCHICK 10/7/2012 12:27PM

    We really are a superficial society, and for those of us who don;t conform because we can't, it is very difficult. I'm 6ft 2, and about to lose all my hair, and whilst I believe that I can contribute meaningfully to society, I'm already dealing with people who think I'm 'weird'.
Brave lady!

Thanks for sharing this info, I hadn't seen it, and it is inspiring to read such stories!
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FATHINSN 10/6/2012 12:02AM

    I don't think the lady is obese - overweight, yes - and she looks cheery and strong and looking good so I don't think she's hurting herself and set bad example.

Besides, whoever wrote the email, most probably doesn't know well of her - she probably looks like no different physically after years of in the show but behind the scene, she's probably living in healthy, fit lifestyle :D Overweight doesn't mean you're not healthy!

Anyhow, applaud to her for responding the email in positive way instead of throwing fit and leash out mad, crazy words!

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REENIE131 10/5/2012 10:34PM

    I kind of wish there were a way to see the person that wrote the email. I'm guessing they must be absolutely perfect if they feel they have the right to point out another person's perceived faults.

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REGSHAR 10/5/2012 10:34AM

    WE ARE ALL BEAUTIFUL, CREATED FROM A GOD WHO LOVES EACH AND EVERYONE. THIS IS WHY WE ARE UNIQUE AND BEAUTIFUL ESPECIALLY IN HIS EYES!!!
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CLEO27 10/5/2012 8:30AM

  No one should judge a book by it's cover. If you are comfortable in your own skin who's business is it?

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LEANMEAN2 10/5/2012 7:33AM

    Thanks for sharing

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LOVEMYBODY2012 10/4/2012 11:55PM

    She rocked it! And I loved how she found the strength when she thought about her daughters. And I loved that her husband was the first to step up for her.

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FAERY_PRINCESS 10/4/2012 11:11PM

  She's right. It's so easy to dash off comments on the internet which people would never say face to face. Unfortunately, these comments have a much wider audience than the face to face ones. As the mother of a middle school child, I dread the day when he comes to me to tell me what horrible thing is circulating about him. (Notice I said "when" not "if" - things are brutal out there and MOST children are the target negative comments that go public these days). Best thing we can do is give our kids the kind of resiliance that this lady has.

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GLMOM2 10/4/2012 8:40PM

    emoticon Jennifer on her speaking up on this issue!

She is one strong lady to be able to do that as calmly as she did on live television. She is amazing!

Thanks for sharing this with SparkWorld.

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LTURSS 10/4/2012 7:28PM

    emoticon I'm glad that she spoke up! I'm also so glad that she did it so graciously and used it as a teachable moment for all those people out there who are bullied and put down because of their weight, race, acne, etc. What an awesome story!

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LADYBUG546 10/4/2012 5:30PM

    She is inspirational along with her husband who took as stance for her as well. It also shows great admiration as an adult to speak out when bullied showing our youth how to speak out as well.

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ALEX3440 10/4/2012 4:31PM

    I wonder if there isn't a trend fast developing.....for those being bullied to no longer remain silent but to become very forthcoming and thereby garner support that they otherwise would have never had
I sure hope so........I believe the decent people in society will show their support and hopefully, we still, outnumber the bullies

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GYPSYJEWEL 10/4/2012 3:34PM

    what a wonderful woman!! emoticon

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ANNE1123 10/4/2012 1:25PM

    Great post, thank you!!

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SBRAN833 10/4/2012 11:53AM

    I actually live about 25 mins away from where the news station is, and this just makes everyone so proud that while she only meant it to go locally to the dinner table conversation it is now a HUGE impact on society! She is truly an inspiration with such an powerful message to the world and I love seeing her on the news every night!!

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LOSING30TOWIN 10/4/2012 11:00AM

    So if she was thin the guy that wrote would say what a great role model she is. He would assume she eats right and exercises. The truth could of been that she is addicted to pain pills or has to sniff cocaine before she goes on the air or only eats junk food but is naturally thin.

I think she is a woman to be envied. She has a wonderful husband who she gets to work with and they both have lucrative jobs as anchors. He is loving and supportive of her and they have three healthy daughters. Ya, it sure looks like being overweight gave her a miserable life. (saying sarcastically)

A good or bad role model should be what's on the inside and not what's on the outside. I'm sure this man who is quick to criticize has an issue or two himself. We all do being human.




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ILIKETOZUMBA 10/4/2012 9:44AM

    I saw that video on CNN.com! Thought it was AWESOME. Although CNN didn't provide any additional backstory or commentary, so I didn't get the full details until I clicked on your link and then went to the woman's husband's facebook page. Did you see the interview the local station did with her after she made all this national news? It's a great interview....until they read the original d-bag's response to all of this attention where he takes the opportunity to say again that he hopes she will set a good example and lose the weight. Sigh. Way to miss the point, dude.

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AML05030 10/4/2012 9:43AM

    I grew up as the internet grew up-- I am glad my generation didn't use it's vastly accessible abilities to bully me. It's something I wonder about with my own kids; what will be the new FB or myspace when they grow up? Will they use it to hurt or harm others?

Hopefully, bullying will no longer be a problem by that time.

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THOMS1 10/4/2012 9:41AM

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ANJELIA1968 10/4/2012 9:39AM

    Thanks for sharing this. I had heard a little about this story on yesterday's news but had not read the full details. I love how her husband is standing up for her too! Just proves that we aren't alone in this world, and people do still care about doing the right thing!
I do think that we sometimes take "bullying" to the extreme, and we do need to teach our children that it is a cruel reality in this life. The fact of the matter is that there are jerks in the world who enjoy hurting others and exploiting whatever weaknesses they can find. Those people are wrong, but we have to exist with them around. I think it's just as important to teach our children to stand up for themselves against the bullies, and to not let these cruel words shape their self-images. I consider Jennifer's story an even greater contribution in that respect!

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MARGARITTM 10/4/2012 9:21AM

    Good for her to stick up for herself.

Sadly we are a superficial society. .... and are judged on our looks.



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JLEMUS1 10/4/2012 9:18AM

    I saw it too, it's a shame people resort to this type of communication.

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LEFTSOX 10/4/2012 8:56AM

    I honestly don't think the person who wrote it had bullying in mind - yes it was a stupid and mean thing to say. I don't consider this bullying I consider this down right rude which is a huge problem in our country right now. People are just becoming really rude.

That old sayings of "If you have nothing nice to say don't say anything at all" Or how about "do onto others as you would have them do on to you" (sorry if the wording is off! LOL) these seam to be missing in alot of the people I have talked to recently.

I think we need a National Rudeness Awareness Month!

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NEWMOM20121 10/4/2012 8:35AM

    Well said.

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MICHELLE_H0501 10/4/2012 7:57AM

  How very graceful in how she responded to that letter. Although I doubt that the person who wrote it will learn anything from it however; the many people that go through life being bullied just might finally realize there own self worth.

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AJB121299 10/4/2012 7:43AM

    nice

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LUKENEMISAUNT 10/4/2012 7:33AM

  Great!

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MARTINGAVINSMOM 10/4/2012 7:03AM

    How hard was that for her to stand there and admit that she knows she overweight? I give her so much credit for addressing that on live t.v. I don't know if I could have done that. She is a beautiful woman and I really admire her for what she did!

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ARCHERGIRL44 10/4/2012 6:58AM

    Loved what she said. It's silly to think that a heavier person is less competent at news reporting, and she makes a great point, that she knows she is fat. It's no new revelation. I always think that myself, I know I am fat, do I need someone to tell me? No. Great post. emoticon

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NIKO27 10/4/2012 6:18AM

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DRB13_1 10/4/2012 5:38AM

    I saw it on FB too - so well said!

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IFEOMA4 10/4/2012 2:16AM

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ROCKETGIRL229 10/4/2012 2:10AM

    Love people for who they are!!!! ..... I just loved watching Jennifer respond back so intellectual and and mature to an obtuse and simple-minded person. emoticon

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