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How Much Is Too Much?

Friday, August 17, 2012

You know those days where you just can't think of a thing to blog? Yeah...this is NOT one of those days!

This day has just not stopped since I dragged myself out of bed at 6am. It was early and I was sleepy, not looking forward to driving to the YMCA and jumping into a cold pool to swim 22 lengths of the pool...but I did nothing physical yesterday at all, so I really wanted to get a workout in today. And, frankly, 7am is the only time I had available. I just could not let another day slip by where I would not be actively working toward my goals.

I am one of those people that HATES eating breakfast super early in the morning or right after I wake up. My body needs some time, you know? BUT...I was about to do some pretty heavy duty swimming (for me, still a beginner) so I knew I had to give my body some fuel to run on.

Thankfully, I have a whole BUNCH of THESE sitting in my pantry:



I've never tried these before, but MARATHONDAD kept INSISTING that I would love them. Our local grocery had them on sale for $1 and I literally bought every single package because that was such a great deal!

IMPORTANT ANNOUNCEMENT: Friends, I have found my racing fuel of choice.

They are DELICIOUS!!! And, here I am, thinking...WHY didn't I listen to MARTHONDAD in the first place??? Oy vey.

These little guys have caffeine in them too and, I'll tell you, I could feel the energy boost almost immediately after eating them. In addition, you are supposed to take them with water, so I got 16 oz. in my body before I even started my day. Not too shabby!

OK, so...the swim. This was my second time swimming and I really just wanted to focus on form and technique and, especially, on breathing. It was every bit as tough this time as last time...but I was analyzing things more as I went. I was surprised to realize that swimming is very much like running, in that it is a pretty tough mental game.

This is what happens to me: I start off going down the length of the pool feeling great...totally at ease and relaxed. I still haven't figured out a breathing pattern, so right around the end of the first length, I am starting to get winded. By the time I'm going back down the length, getting ready to finish my lap, my body is so much more tense and I would go so far as to say "flailing". After one lap, I must stop and breathe for at least 30 seconds before I can start another.

In my head, I know that the same is true of swimming as running: SLOW DOWN and RELAX. But...I have not been able to figure out how to make my body go a different speed. And, as I said, I am relaxed until the end of a lap. I believe this is 100% mental. Phsysically, my body should be able to continue. Gosh, isn't that just like running? Except scarier...because when you panic in water, you could drown.

Because of these issues, my tiny bite-sized goal for today was to swim 4 lengths (2 laps) non-stop. I was able to do that...twice...at the end of my swim. That made me feel proud. That pride will make me come back and try again.

Of course, swimming is also NOT the same as running. The biggest difference I've noticed is the delayed onset of exhaustion. When you are running, you feel tired as you run. In the pool, I don't feel particularly tired or sore or anything. I felt a *slight* burning in my arm muscles near the end...but it wasn't horrible. When I get out of the pool, there is a period of about 15 seconds where I feel AWESOME...but then at 20 seconds out, it is like exhaustion pounces on me like a panther. It's the most bizarre feeling I've ever felt. Luckily, it doesn't last long...but, my goodness, it takes a person by surprise! I'm used to feeling RADIANT after a run...not like I suddenly got run over by a truck. Haha.

I am learning so much about fueling my body...by how it feels. This morning, the Powergels were exactly what I needed to get my body going and fuel my swim. I did a sprint triathlon distance in 26 minutes. But, as soon as I was out of that pool and showered, I literally HAD to eat something...immediately. As in, I had not even gotten dressed but I was eating. Thank God I had brought graham crackers with peanut butter with me. I truly believe I could not have gone one more moment without fueling. That's just crazy. I really LOVE getting to know my body in this way.

After swimming, I booked on over to the physical therapist's office. New office. New therapist. This is the location with the water treadmill and pool therapy. Spent one hour with my P/T just going over everything that's ever happened to my body, moving my feet every way possible, walking so he could analyze my gait, etc. Of course, it was a WEALTH of knowledge...specifically about MY body. SO great to learn!

You know what my problem is??? I run differently on one foot than on the other. I suppose I always suspected this because I know I tend to baby my right ankle, whether it be intentional or not. But it is a marked difference. He said my right foot turns out a little and my left foot pronates. This is just awful for the rest of my body. He gave me a pretty motivational speech about how we are going to work on this in the pool, but when I get back on land, my complete and total focus needs to be on nothing but running evenly. My goodness, he's a great therapist. I know I've said it before, but I feel SO blessed to have such an excellent medical team on my side!

Of course, that comes with a price tag. They are pretty much my personal trainers/coaches right now. What would you expect to pay for that? If you said $250 per visit, you'd be correct. I balked at that amount at first, especially when I did some quick math and realized I'd be shelling out a cool $2,000 when all of this is said and done. How much is too much to invest in this half marathon/marathon/triathlon dream? When I really consider what I'm getting for my money, I can honestly say it's the first time I've ever seen a doctor bill that I felt was completely justified. And if you think that this could save me countless injuries and setbacks in the future, it is literally priceless therapy that I'm receiving right now. 14 doctor visits in a span of 8 weeks is a little crazy, but I'll tell you...it made me think long and hard about what I really want.

I want to be an athlete. I AM an athlete. And, more than that, I want to be healthy for life. There are going to be bumps in the road (many caused by my obesity), but I refuse to let obesity win. It has been winning for far too many years. I have wasted too many days, months, years of my life wishing I could do things that are beyond my reach. My appetite and declining health have controlled me for more time than I care to admit. It's time for me to rule my own body and make my own choices. How much work am I willing to put into this?

The answer: as much as it takes.

  
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NKOUAMI26 8/21/2012 9:19AM

    Beautiful blog. It is amazing to read about fellow parkers that are motivated to reach their goals. All I can say is this is inspiration to me.
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CHANSEN_20001 8/21/2012 9:14AM

    Wow. Great job!!

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    Wow. Great dedication.

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TERID816 8/20/2012 11:41PM

    Yay for great choices! You Rock!

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    Great blog, particularly love that last line!

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    Thanks for sharing!

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NELLBELLA26 8/20/2012 7:35PM

    Way to put out what it takes to get you back to where you want to be! Motivational blog. I want to try those power gels now. emoticon emoticon

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    Your determination is astounding!

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IRISHANGIE1 8/20/2012 4:51PM

    I respect and admire you so much...NOTHING gets you down, or sets you back. You just keep on keeping on!! Your dedication and motivations inspire so many of us here at Spark, and it's not only the runners, it's the average Joes' and Janes' who respect and admire you too!!

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LANEE24 8/20/2012 9:51AM

    LDRICHEL- You are AMAZING! Dedication is the key, and 6am is definitely dedication :). I am training myself for my first 5k and it has been a beast! Bad knees, strained back, flat feet lol...it's been a process, but like you I'm trying to stay on track! Your blog was so inspiring and I'm ready for 5pm, so I can get home and hit the treadmill! Thank you and KEEP PUSHING!!! Just remember- One day at a time emoticon

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    Cool I think I will try those bars thanks, emoticon emoticon

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NJJ-EXERCISE30 8/20/2012 8:56AM

    I prefer Quest bars with Whey protein.

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DETERMINEDLOSER 8/20/2012 8:25AM

    Great Attitude! You are doing GREAT! I am going to have to look for those Power Bars and give them a try.

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AJB121299 8/19/2012 11:59PM

    nice and might try the powerbars

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HHUGHES71 8/19/2012 10:08PM

    Keep up the good work! I am trying to motivate myself to a do a 5K, I think. Not a fan of running, but so many people I work w/ are runners. If you can do it in the pool, where I am most comfortable, then I will attempt to do it on land where you seem to be more comfortable!

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SIMOFDIM 8/19/2012 10:07PM

    Good for you! Our journey's are so much alike! I had a similar experience with a wonderful physical therapist, doctors, massage therapists, acupuncturists who helped me turn things around. When I started in October 2010, I could only walk in the pool for 10 to 15 minutes at a time. This weekend I swam in my first fresh water race. One mile in lake. I am looking forward to swimming more races. Keep up the good work, swim those laps, fix that gait and you'll be rocking!

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LYDIASPURPLE 8/19/2012 8:46PM

    Go for it girl. BIG time!

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JIM12490 8/19/2012 7:48PM

    Stick with it you sound like you are doing great! One trick I used to use while swimming in my youth was to change strokes each length until I built up endurance. It never hurts to give yourself a recovery lap. Keep on pushing.


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  Whats the nutritional info of those bars (if you dont mind my asking?)

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KIMMIG133 8/19/2012 5:34PM

    I am SO going to have to find some of those Power Bar energy blasts & try them!

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VTHOKIE88 8/19/2012 5:21PM

  Wow! I love your attitude. I too am financially investing in becoming an athlete, getting rid of this weight and into a place where I can play again - ski, run, hike, live - without worrying about my body getting hurt because of the huge mass it had to move. I've joined a program overseen by a doctor with a therapist and 3 trainers/physical therapists. 3 weeks into it - down 10 lbs and I can feel muscles I never knew about. Thanks for the tips about the energy blasts. I hate to eat before I work out, and am looking for something I can easily put in my body to give it fuel when I go to the YMCA early in the morning! Keep sharing those tips, and keep going! You are an inspiration!

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Kindred Spirits

Wednesday, August 15, 2012

So, remember my running buddy, Sarah, that I met out on the trail?

Here is yet another photo I stole from Sarah's FB page:



Yes, gentleman...she's available! Haha.

RECAP: Sarah and I passed each other on our regular morning runs almost every day. We would pass each other twice around the same spot on the trail every time. She had the sweetest smile and was so cheerful and always said, "Good morning!" I really wanted to know her story, so one day before my run, I penned a quick note and took it with me, hoping she would be out on the trail. Of course she was! So, as we got closer to passing each other, I yelled, "I have a note for you!" And I passed it to her. On the second pass, she introduced herself and said she'd e-mail me.

A couple weeks later, we had coffee for about half an hour, chatted about running and realized we were meant to be running buddies. We agreed to go on a short run together...an easy 5 miler. I had never run with a partner before. It was so much fun!

We decided, rather spontaneously, to do a long run together on a Saturday. 7 miles. That was awesome too! But, that was the fateful day of my ankle injury.

We had texted each other a couple times since then. She has been such a sweet, uplifting force for me through this time of injury and we have missed running together.

The other day, Sarah announced that she would join me for Deep Water Exercise. I was so proud of her for going out of her comfort zone.

And this is when it happened...

Try and put yourself in Sarah's shoes (probably Asics) for a second.

There's this girl that is close to your age that you keep seeing on the trail. One day this freak passes you a note...like it's high school or something. In the note, she calls you beautiful, but also makes sure you know that she isn't hitting on you. What a weirdo. But points for originality.

You meet her for coffee and it's fun! Yay! Instant friend!

You go running together once and decide it was worth it. Let's do it again!

Awww....friend is injured...no more running buddy for at least a month. Maybe it would be supportive and fun to go to deep water exercise with her.

Then, as you are struggling not to drown, she lays this one on you...

"So...do you wanna train for triathlons with me?"

Wait....WHAT?!!!!

Here's the best part, Sparkfriends. She thought for about, I don't know...one minute...and said, "OK, let's do it!"

Ahahahahaha! YES!

So...here we are. Two virtual strangers checking out swim instructors/classes and planning to split the bill. Biking will be next, but we can only handle one or two things at a time, you know. (Oh, did I mention she also plays tennis?)

We must be nuts. Barely knowing each other and agreeing to forge into this completely unknown territory together. But, the thing is...we don't feel like strangers. It's AMAZING what can happen on a short 5-mile run. So much sharing...so much common ground discovered. And it really doesn't take long to know when someone is a kindred spirit, does it?

Anyway, it might be insane, but it's fun...so...it'll be worth it. And I think we will only love ourselves more as we move through the process.

  
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LINNBEAR 8/23/2012 10:26AM

    Don't over think! Just enjoy the friendship. Good for you for stepping out, she could be just the girl you say hi to on a run, but then you would have both missed out on so much.

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TORTISE110 8/22/2012 4:43AM

    You both rock!

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NELLBELLA26 8/22/2012 12:08AM

    emoticon Not only am I amazed by your strength and courage to try something so physically challenging and working through your injury like a champ, but you're brave when it comes to forging friendships, too.
I love how you just put yourself out there without fear!
Congrats on having a buddy to train with. How fun.
Keep up the great work..
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NAOLEE 8/21/2012 2:08AM

    Thank you for sharing. Sometime our best friend is on front of us; but because we get scare we lose them. GOD BLESS YOUR NEW FRIENDSHIP emoticon

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THETROUT 8/20/2012 7:56PM

    You guys look alike!

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SASSYLJB 8/20/2012 5:27PM

    People come into our lives just when we need them and stay for the time we need them be it a short time or for the duration of the time of our lives.I am glad that you have found that perfect person to train with, You got this go for it!

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MANILUS 8/19/2012 2:03PM

    Always great to enjoy things you love with a friend!

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ROB704 8/19/2012 1:22PM

    I don't know which is cooler - the friend or the fact that you two are training for a triathlon - Holy Running Shoes batman!

Go get 'em!

It's stories like these that keep me going some days.

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BESSHAILE 8/19/2012 8:17AM

    this is SO cool! Can't wait to hear about the training.

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JMARIES51 8/19/2012 2:15AM

    Cherish your relationship because these things don't happen everyday! My best friend passed away a year and a half ago and I miss her everyday.

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RAMONAFLOWERZ 8/17/2012 2:25PM

    that is so freaking amazing! you are so lucky to have that spirit with you. I am in this alone (well, IRL). I have my Scotty - but he's a busy guy and we don't like the same sort of training. And he's already at his goal. He's trying as hard as he can to be super supportive and trying to be understanding of my current situation, but I always feel like I'm holding him back.

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    Friends are a great thing to collect! emoticon

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JKELLEY1107 8/17/2012 11:26AM

    That is so cool. Thanks for sharing! Makes me wanna go out on a limb and introduce myself to someone new. I tend to stay in my little comfort zone all the time....

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ISABELLE31 8/17/2012 9:43AM

    What a cool story! :)

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SPARKLISE 8/16/2012 10:18PM

    Nice!
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KIPPER15 8/16/2012 9:19PM

    Friend come along in the strangest ways. Isn't that nice. emoticon

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KEIPONY 8/16/2012 9:13PM

    Didn't take long.....

Go for it!!

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TKADEEPBREATH 8/16/2012 5:18PM

    You two even look like you could be real life sisters . . . that's cool . . !

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PEGGYO 8/16/2012 3:21PM

    You can do it.

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BUTTERFLY-1976 8/16/2012 3:01PM

    That is AWESOME!!!

I met my closest friend through a learn to run class. We were in class & the teacher told us we needed to find a running buddy for the running homework through the week. We chose each other & have been close friends ever since.

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IRONBLOSSOM 8/16/2012 2:42PM

    That's so awesome! Finding someone you click with and can exercise with like that sounds great.

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GOSPARK45 8/16/2012 2:00PM

    Sometimes you just know a best friend the minute you meet her. How wonderful!
Maybe the injury put you on this new course. Wow, weird huh?

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LYNSEY723 8/16/2012 11:31AM

    That's awesome!! Onto new and bigger adventures for you! It is so great that you have someone to do this with. Way to go!!

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AMBER281 8/16/2012 11:25AM

    That is so awesome that you have such a great support and friend!

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NYCMEGHAN 8/16/2012 10:51AM

    Can't wait to read all about your journey! I'm now on a mission to find a running buddy :-) Glad that the recovery is going smoothly.

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AUTUMNBRZ 8/16/2012 10:37AM

    That is terrific! You guys were lucky to find one another :) Good luck!

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CLUTTRELL8 8/16/2012 10:31AM

    It's awesome to meet someone you feel you've known for a lot longer than you have... and it sounds like it's going to be a great, supportive friendship for you both! emoticon

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HFAYE81 8/16/2012 10:29AM

    That is the coolest thing ever! Running buddies are the BEST!

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SMANISMELL 8/16/2012 9:55AM

    I think it is awesome you have a buddy to exercise with. I would really like to have one. I feel that you can go farther and do more if you have someone there with you.
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PATTISTAMPS 8/16/2012 9:45AM

    My 3 best friends and I would never have met if 2 of us hadn't been married to the guys we were married to at the time... Now, 30-some years later, we are sisters of the heart and soul! So I hope that you and Sarah have a long and wonderful friendship, and share many things together! emoticon

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CHEERFUL-ALT-3 8/16/2012 9:18AM

    Good luck! My friend and I tried to do a mini tri together...we didn't actually make it to the race, but we had a great time trying! I am sure you will have a blast :)

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    Fate!
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VICKYMARIEC 8/16/2012 8:52AM

    Thats great!

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NDKARIKARI 8/16/2012 8:33AM

    awesome! so happy for you that you have found an accountable and nice buddy!

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ELLENBERRY 8/16/2012 8:31AM

    emoticon That is amazingly cool! Best of luck! I will be rooting for both of you.

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NLPOLAK 8/16/2012 8:22AM

    That's great! You just never know what each day holds, or who might end up being one of the best friends you could ever have, even in the most unlikely situations!

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OPTIMIST1948 8/16/2012 8:19AM

    The Beatles said it best: "I get by with a little help from my friends"

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4RASCALS 8/16/2012 8:06AM

    AWESOME!! You can do it You never stop amazing me.
Your an awesome person, such drive & determination.
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REGILIEH 8/16/2012 8:04AM

    WOW!!! How much fun the 2 of you are going to have! I cannot wait for the rest of the story!

Go! Go! Go!

She is going to be really blessed being with you!

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SIBLEYHONEYBEE 8/16/2012 8:00AM

    Congratulations on finding the perfect person to go on this adventure with you! Have fun!

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GUITARWOMAN 8/16/2012 7:28AM

    Serendipity!

Bonus!

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DUMBBELLE84 8/16/2012 1:28AM

  That's so cool. Good for you, Leah.

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CORINA-MOMOF4 8/16/2012 12:13AM

    awesome!!

I'm actually thinking of creating a facebook group for my area for local runners... I often see the same faces when I'm out running, and each time I want to stop and ask them their training plans, what runs they have scheduled ect...
I thought about creating the fb group and then make little cards with the name of the group and then hand them out to runners as I pass them. I'd name the group:
"city name runners group" or "city name runners"

Is this a crazy idea? What would you do if you were out running and someone gave you a card that tells you about a facebook group for runners in your city?

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A Course in Confidence

Tuesday, August 14, 2012

I had lunch with my boss this afternoon. As always, it was wonderful. I'm so blessed to have someone working above me that truly cares about my success in all areas - personal, family, career, running, everything.

Today, I was nervous. Because I knew there were issues that we needed to discuss where my performance on the job had not quite met her expectations. To be fair, she could have reamed me. But, she didn't. She was kind and understanding. Firm and clear about what needs to change (and she was 100% right), but never cruel or demeaning. I've never worked with a boss that handles situations like this so well. She's something else.

One thing we talked about was my professionalism. She is one of the most professional, confident women I've ever met. Watching her do her thing (which is, incidentally, "schmoozing" the big dogs at colleges and universities) is just fascinating. I asked her for tips on how to...well, be more like her. She said, "I know there is a deep confidence in you and I see it when we meet one on one. But, when we are in meetings and networking gatherings, you shrink back and I don't know why. You need to put your confidence out there and own it."

She's right, you know. I've talked about my insecurity in the professional realm in a previous blog. It is, by far, my biggest challenge at the moment. And it made me think...

Yeah...I DO have confidence inside. Remember my blog yesterday? I'm FIERCE. When it comes to my personal life, I really feel like I'm getting a handle on some things and that, naturally, brings confidence. But, when it comes to my outward persona with co-workers, it feels like a whole different story. And I wonder if it's related to my weight issues and the low self-esteem that comes along with them?

Here is a picture of me my junior year of high school:



I was not an athlete. I did not pay attention to my food and, frankly, I ate anything I wanted and ate a WHOLE lot of junk. It just didn't stick to me. I wasn't overweight until later on in college and, obviously, when I started to have kids. I wasn't one of those kids that was fat my entire life. Being overweight, and then obese, was completely unexpected. I never, in my wildest dreams, imagined it would be possible for me to get to where I am now...over 200 lbs.

How did THAT girl become THIS?



Granted, that is an absolutely BEAUTIFUL photo of me and my son. But, you can see a difference from what I used to be.

Back when I looked like the girl in the first pic, my Mom (a tiny, 5 ft tall 100 lb Korean woman) said to me one day, "Leah, never ever get fat and frumpy. No man wants a frumpy wife. He will say he loves you no matter what, but on the inside, he'll be disappointed and he won't find you attractive."

WOW. Can you say ISSUES??? Yeah...you can BET that has caused some DEEP problems in my marriage.

So, this skinny girl goes to college and goes nuts with food and never exercises and gains 20 lbs. She comes home from college and her Mom says, "You are getting so fat. Be careful because....no man wants a fat, frumpy wife." Thanks for reinforcing that message, Mom. Especially since it hadn't already scarred me the first time!

Once in college, when I had gained 20 lbs (to bring me up to a total weight of 140 lbs), I was freaking out about my weight gain and, naturally, crying to my boyfriend about it. He said, "Leah...this is ridiculous. You look fine. Think about this....how heavy do you think you're going to get?" In a burst of sobs, I wailed, "Probably (sniff, sniff) one..SIXTY! Waaaahhh!" Get this...he LAUGHED and said, "You're never gonna be 160!" OUCH.

Mmmmhmmm. Then, when this not-so-skinny girl was pregnant with #2, she called her Dad on the phone and told him that she had officially passed the 200-lb mark. Instead of telling his 8-months pregnant daughter that she could lose the weight after the baby was born, he basically went ballistic, shouting, "Oh my GOD! That is SOOOOOOOOOO heavy! OH MY GOD! TWO HUNDRED?!" Yeah...that didn't help the old confidence.

So...I can see where my confidence went bye bye a long time ago. I mean, if this is what my PARENTS see....people who are supposed to love me unconditionally...what do I expect pure strangers to see when they first meet me? And do you think I'm going to be great at walking up, making eye contact and confidently introducing myself? Nah.

This is not a whine-fest, though. Because I HAVE changed. I've long since dealt with my parental issues, so their negative messages do not cut nearly as deeply anymore. Of course the effect from those wounds lingers on, but now I am able to see clearly when this is happening and work to fix it. This is all a person with a wounded past can do...take it one day, one sitaution at a time. And, as time passes, it gets easier.

My entire life has changed over the past few months. It hasn't been just physical...it has been emotional and mental and spiritual. A complete overhaul. I have SO much more confidence than I had even back in February of this year. YOU are a part of that. You guys give me confidence every single day.

And that's what my boss, Jennifer, is talking about...she has seen this change in me. She knows that I possess it within. She is just asking me to show it to everyone else.

In the meantime, I am interested in faking it until I make it. So, if I have any seasoned professionals in the business world that read my blogs, help a girl out. Give me some BASIC tips on how to exude confidence in a networking setting.

For instance, Jennifer's idea was this: when I meet someone, give them the firm handshake, look them directly in the eye and say, "Hi so and so, my name is Leah Drichel and I am the Fiscal & Administrative Manager for the Kuali Foundation and I really wanted to meet you." Her tip was: imagine they really WANT to hear what you have to say. (Cuz...they actually probably DO! Haha).

Any help would be greatly appreciated!

  
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LSPIZZA 8/22/2012 10:39AM

    Leah
You write the most amazing blogs. You do amazing physical things. Use this experience to fuel your networking. Smile. Look them in the eye. Tell them who you are and what you do. And then be YOU! Just like you made friends with the runner you saw every run. You know how to do it. Apply your life confidence to work. You have this in you already.
Lauraine

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CORKY982 8/20/2012 3:26PM

  Eye contact and smiling are key! Most people who donít have a lot of confidence forget to smile haha, and people can tell that you are uncomfortable by facial expressions. So.. smile! And make sure it reaches your eyes. A firm handshake is important. I often take a notebook and pen into any meeting I go to, even if I donít think I need it, and jot down a thing or two the person says. That way it really shows them I value what they are saying, and taking the time to talk to me wasnít a waste. When youíre talking, make sure you donít over-use your hands. Nervous people, or unconfident people, tend to play with their hair, fidget with their clothes, wave their arms around like they are trying to land a plane! So keep your arms either at your side, resting comfortably on the arms of your chair (if youíre sitting) but donít cross them or stick your hands in your pockets. I know, such a small thing, but body language really does help! Thatís another reason I always carry anotebook Ė I have a pen and paper in my hands, so I canít wave them around, canít cross my arms, and canít put my hands in my pocket or touch my hair/clothes. I would also say, if you have them, always have business cards on hand to give to the person you talked to. I always feel really important when I have that little card with my name and position on it, and I find people remember you better Ė or at least can get in touch with you to follow up on anything you have talked about easily. And I echo what people say about dressing Ė donít be afraid to spend money to buy nice clothing, even if you arenít at the size you want. And I sometimes go to thrift stores, Value Village, online to eBay.. find nice clothes for cheap!

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DEADWEIGHT2012 8/20/2012 1:14AM

  I found this to be helpful and realize weight loss goes beyond losing weight, but also improving self-esteem and confidence. I can;t wait to walk with my head held HIGH

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JANETTEB553 8/18/2012 5:11PM

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IRISHANGIE1 8/18/2012 2:29PM

    I always love reading your blogs, they are always so filled with the human touch and day to day living...and you are absolutely wonderful!!

Haven't worked in the professional field in quite a while, but when I did I would always introduce myself by saying Mr or Ms/Mrs/ So and So, I'm so happy to meet you, my name is Angie O'Mara and I am the Program Co-Ordinator for the Before and After School Programs in the Archdiocese of Philadelphia, let me take a few minutes of your time and explain to you how much I love my job and what it entails. After a few intro like this it became easier for me and I stopped turning red (blushing) every time I did it!! Hope this works for you!!

Once again a great blog, thanks for sharing!!

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JACKIMARIE2 8/18/2012 1:51PM

    Gosh girl reading your blog makes me think so much about myself. I am new to the workforce after being a sahm with my 18 month old. I can definaely see how much my confidence has gone down since gaining 60lbs while being pregnant with my son. Just know that if you stick to you it will work out for the best! You can do this!

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ANNANN63 8/18/2012 1:09PM

    Mimic business associated that are successful. Notice what they do and say and just copy it. You really can have preset things you do and things you say. Once you get past the introduction to a new person, you can concentrate on the work. If you know what you are doing you will be able to communicate that.

Dress professionally. Do not make the mistake I made for years. I read "Dress for Success" and knew what I needed to wear but I didn't want to buy nice clothes when I was so heavy. So I kept buying the wrong stuff and I did not make a good first impression. My wake up call was the day I had on a simple dress with a jacket and my boss (who was wonderful and successful) said something like "you look great, you should dress like this everyday." He was brave enough to tell me that the rest of the stuff I was wearing to work did not make me look like someone who was competent and professional. Even when I was 225 pounds, it made me more confident knowing I was wearing appropriate professional clothes. And I found that with sales and buying things that all worked together, I could afford the right clothes.

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SIM1SAYS 8/18/2012 11:56AM

    Love this. Thanks for blogging.

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MARYJEANSL 8/18/2012 11:34AM

  I can so relate - my mother was just the same. And both my parents put me down constantly about my weight - to calling me a 'fat slob.' It is hard, but it can be overcome, and you are well on your way to overcoming. You are doing so well!

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STEADFASTNSEE 8/18/2012 8:51AM

  Don't know about business advice (partly cuz I have the same issue of "putting my confidence out there" ) But I do know a well thought out plan and a well written blog when I see it! Good going on all counts Leah!

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FORBANDE 8/18/2012 8:28AM

    I think BESSHAILE has wonderful suggestions. The thing that helps me is thinking about what I have to offer and how it will benefit. It helps to put it into perspective that the other person doesn't see me as an overweight, unprofessional, blob but rather someone that knows her business and is here to help. And anytime I am feeling scared, anxious or self-conscious, I smile. I smile a big smile that I may not feel but it makes the other person smile and then I'm more at ease.

Thanks for your blogs! What an inspiration and awesome source of support.

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BLOOMING52 8/18/2012 7:28AM

    Awesome.

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BESSHAILE 8/18/2012 6:33AM

    some thoughts.

First off - forget about yourself when you approach someone in a business setting. Here you are the message, not the messenger.

If you love your message - pour the enthusiasm you feel for it into your voice. When I go out to talk about libraries - I remember how much I love the idea of a library - the idea that unlimited education is offered to one and all - for free - because of a library.

Second - think of the fundamental good your organization does - what it does at the very bedrock of humanity - again, my library example may go all over the place, but it always includes two things:

"It's about the story" - because it is through stories that we pass on core values from one generation to the next.

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A public library is the first place a person learns how to be a good citizen - someone who partakes of the common good, benefits from it, cares for it, then returns it for someone else to benefit from.


these things - loving your message and being able to show how your message is about the greater good of humanity - actually help you cut that message down to the personal, tailor it to your particular audience. And none of this has anything to do with what you look like or how confident you feel. You're just a bell, ringing out some good news - and EVERYBODY likes to hear good news.

The trick is to forget about yourself and think about your audience - and how much fun it is going to be to give them your message. And I know you can do this. You're so fierce!

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READE2MOVE2012 8/18/2012 4:13AM

  Your boss gave you excellent advice.

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SHEL_V2 8/18/2012 12:17AM

    Great advice from your boss. My non-Korean mom was hung up on my weight, also, and basically a product of her time. She mentioned one time that any woman who needed size 8 underwear should just kill herself. I had to suppress the urge to pick when she'd put on some weight and I wondered what size she was wearing! But she'd long since shut her mouth about my weight, so I didn't.

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NELLBELLA26 8/17/2012 11:03PM

    As always, you have amazingly well written blogs. I really enjoyed reading this because it is amazing how we start to internalize those messages that our parents given us and it affects our lives in so many ways. It seems like your boss is a very positive, inspiring person to look up to. It is obvious that she sees the confident you and if she sees you that way, you should be able to see yourself that way.

This is definitely a process of trying to overcome those old messages that we now tell ourselves because of what was told to us. great blog! emoticon emoticon

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TIZSLIM 8/17/2012 10:46PM

  It's late - I need to go to sleep. But I read your blog and had to at least acknowledge it. As to how to 'fake' your business confidence - given your belief in your boss, each situation you are unsure about, ask yourself, "what would Jennifer do"? And then do it, unless and until, the inner, confident you says, "that's what Jennifer would do, but I can do it better".

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TANGOKATE 8/17/2012 9:33PM

    Wow. I congratulate you for staying in the game. Life is more challenging with naysayers in it, but you are rising above it and that is the sweetest most loving thing you can do for yourself! You Go Girl! I am with you 110%!

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KAREN1035 8/17/2012 9:28PM

    Reading made me thing of my life. Some points were dead on. I have already thought that if you be your self in meetings and with networking, you should do fine. Some people really like to put on a show, but they don't get anywere.

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LARKSONGRUTH 8/17/2012 9:16PM

    I think it really sounds like you are on the right track and you are getting there! Just keep going.

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MCHILSTR 8/17/2012 4:40PM

  some suggestions -

Posture - it says so much about what we think about ourselves
Dress at the level you want to reach
Know that most of the folks are shy, and will welcome your contact
And - make sure you have a good bra! That keeps me from looking dumpy. emoticon

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DONNA5281 8/17/2012 3:37PM

 
Your blog really hit home especially about the parent part. Also, for me it is my whole family.
You are an inspiration! Keep up with your good work!


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JPOZ62 8/17/2012 3:36PM

  I will give my two cents. My best advice would be do not be afraid to fail. Every successful person has failed in some way. It is important to learn from your mistakes and grow as a person.Go to network functions where you can work on your meeting skills. People are going there to meet business people. It will help you to have confidence to network in your company business as well. Ask your boss if you go with her to learn her style and what might work for you.

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GAL7288 8/17/2012 2:36PM

    I really can relate to this blog,and went deep down. I am too currently dealing with the self confidence. In some realms I am a natural self confident, take total control kind of person but when it comes to meeting new people and potential dates, i freak and I take cover. I for no reason in the world can look that person in the eye and even talk without mumbling. And yeah you are right, it's because of insecurity reasons that have been implemented in my mind since i was young. But I too will work on becoming confident in all aspects of my life.

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BUSMOM27 8/17/2012 2:31PM

    I am not in the business world, but I do know that when I've lost weight I feel happier and tend to smile more. Smiles can be contagious just like negative feelings can spread. Paste a smile on your face and listen to other people. emoticon

Thanks for sharing your blog!

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HEATHER3477 8/17/2012 1:53PM

    your story really motivates me, my parents always called me fat when I was a beanpole. My sister and I both developed eating disorders from the remarks that were made. I ended up losing my sister because of the negative talk she could never get past her eating disorder because she always seen herself as fat when she was 135 pounds and 5'8 inches tall (skinny). I just left the 200's but with the stress in my life today am probably getting back up there. I am unhealthy, but people around me don't see it because I am 5'9" tall. If I were shorter my weight would show better than it does people are amazed when I tell them what I do weigh. There guess is always around 160-170 (unless they are tall as well) then they are usually a lot closer. Anyway thanks for sharing your story and keep up the positive thinking, we can and will do this. :) emoticon

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LIVELYGIRL2 8/17/2012 1:00PM

  Leah,
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I'm not in upper management, but I know you will develop these skills because of all the things you say and do. I believe in you and see growth from when you started in Spark, and it will trickle over... emoticon

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SBNORMAL 8/17/2012 11:11AM

  Be pleasant, greet people, dress well and study confident people and imitate their behavior,

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TRICIAE2 8/17/2012 10:47AM

    I love the FAKE IT TIL YOU MAKE IT piece of advice. Because eventually you will realize that you're not faking it anymore. That it really IS you, just you and how you really have become.

You're AWESOME girl!!


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GARDENCHRIS 8/17/2012 9:56AM

    good for you

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DOTTY7267 8/17/2012 9:34AM

    I love reading your blog. I find them very interesting. One thing that I might offer that helps me a lot, especially when I worked Marketing events, is go in thinking/believing that you have the most interesting topic to discuss. I find a lot of times people just want to be acknowledged, so when you approach them and introduce yourself, you've already done more than a majority of people will do. Find out something about them and incorporate that into your conversation about what you are trying to put across. For me, small talk doesn't bother me, I always think that it's better having a conversation with someone then being alone with great ideas.

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AJB121299 8/17/2012 9:24AM

    good luck and know that you have the support of all of your sparkfriends

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FARIS71 8/17/2012 9:21AM

    Everyone has had awesome suggestions. Train at it like you train for fitness goals. Small steps. Tracking. I definitely see you as confident. Shine on sister!

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CLUMBOY 8/17/2012 7:43AM

    this is all terrific advice. like all of the others who have commented, i understand where you are coming from. and i echo the sentiments of one in particular--do you love and believe in what you do? let that love come forward--forget about who you are or how you might look with respect to your weight to the other person--focus on what you do and why you love it. that will come out by itself if you get the other stuff out of the way.
i think of the negative voice that lived in my head for 57 years as a person who was a very destructive "friend" in my life. this person was real, and i jettisoned her from my life without a backward look, just to preserve my own sanity. it occurred to me recently that i can do the same to that unhelpful voice who talks to me all the time. so i gave that voice my ex-friend's name, and then i turned my back on it. helped me a lot.
and remember--when people meet you for the first time--esp. in a business situation, they WANT to like you and they WANT to come away from the meeting feeling positive. they don't automatically dislike you--they don't want to waste their time or not finish the encounter without a positive result. go with that positive flow. look them in the eye and connect with them as a person--not a judge and jury you need to be afraid of. you will be great! you want it badly enough to fight for it. go forth and do it :-)

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PENOWOK 8/17/2012 7:16AM

    Leah, do you believe in what you do?? One thing I learned was that I had a good product. It was valuable to me and it was valuable to others. I call it the "cookie." You can call it what you want. I have the cookie and they will want it. I am happy to let them have it for the right price, but they don't always know how valuable the cookie is at first. That's where you come in with your confidence. You don't HAVE to share the cookie, but maybe, if they really want it, you will. The fact that you know how valuable it is and they don't gives you the inside track on it and the confidence about it and what you do.

I hope that simplified explanation makes at least some sense...

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COLETTEISGREAT 8/16/2012 6:16PM

    With regards to your parents, are they still around? What is your relationship with them like now?

With regards to your lack of confidence at work, think about how you attack every run. Baby steps are the way to go. A little at a time. You will not come out of your shell instantly, but you can try little things. And you could track those little things in Spark as fast break goals!

I love the ďfake it Ďtill you make itĒ idea. Keep doing it!


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OCEAN_BOBBER 8/16/2012 10:55AM

    I've been in the business world for several years, and faking it until I made it was something that I learned very early on. Here are some of the tips that I recommend to anyone looking to be more confident in the workplace.

1) Posture! Stand tall, square your shoulders, and hold your head up high. I think putting your body in a confident position sends some kind of magical signal to your brain that helps calm nerves and makes you FEEL more confident.

2) Channel! When you are in a situation that you feel your confidence waning, ask yourself what would a more confident person do, and then do it, no matter how strange or uncomfortable it feels. It will become more natural with practice.

3) Ask! Asking questions is a subtle way of controlling the direction of a conversation. Ask questions, keep the other person talking, and give direct and concise answers to questions you are asked. Then ask another question. The other person will think you're the best conversationalist they've ever met!

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HBLACK5 8/15/2012 8:37PM

    I love reading your blogs! I can relate to all of them. I wish I had more self confidence because I know that is one of my major flaws. I do my best to put myself out there and get to know people, but I have a tendency to shy away myself. You will be successful at this because you want it to happen!

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JOYFULJUDYLYNN 8/15/2012 8:26PM

    I love your blogs. Seriously love them.

As for tips... I'm a social worker... TOTALLY different field. But when I'm meeting with state workers or county officials, I try to remember that I'm the expert of whatever the topic is in my own way. I see a side of the issue that they don't experience, and that is invaluable. Helps the confidence for me professionally.

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TRACYNOTGIVINUP 8/15/2012 5:47PM

    I love how you can pour so much emotion into your blogs and word it in ways that everyone reading can relate to. I am not a professional but I bet you that if you use the same technique when in your meetings and let your passion and ability to show others how you can be a leader who can relate things are bound to work out the says best for you.

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KEIPONY 8/15/2012 5:36PM

    A lot of good advice. I'm not in a profession that I have to speak to a lot of people or talk in front of a group. I'm shy and have little self confidence at the moment. My advise would be to look them in the eye, ask questions, listen to them, respond back. I'm sure after some more practice it will get easier. By the way, how about the critic of your work on that meeting you had to handle? How did that go?

On a final note, I must say I think this injury was a blessing in disguise for you. You have opened another window and I think this journey not only will help you with your weight loss, but will help you in your personal and professional life.

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Are You Fierce?

Monday, August 13, 2012

It occurred to me yesterday that, in a couple days, I will already be halfway through my time in the walking boot. Two weeks down and two to go. My ankle is feeling a lot better, but then again, I haven't tried to necessarily put any weight on it. Still...it's healing. And, no, I do not walk around my house with the boot on 24/7, so I do have *some* idea of how it's doing...it's not like it's a full cast where I'm losing muscle mass daily, etc. It just feels...normal. That's a good thing, I think.

What's interesting is that I really haven't had much time to fret over the healing of my ankle. Yeah, I freaked in the beginning. But my ortho couldn't have been more merciful in putting me in a walking, removable boot.

I've been doing literally every other form of exercise that is non-weight bearing that I possibly can. My arms are RIPPED, y'all! For now, elliptical and bike are still out...but I have become more familiar with water than I have in a long time.

To be honest, I sort of dreaded water workouts, because it just seemed like a huge pain in the neck to figure out a schedule, then DRIVE to a pool and get my workout in. To be sure, it is a little more complicated than walking out my front door and running for an hour...but, it's amazing how simple things become when you are fiercely determined to do them.

Before this injury, I wouldn't have even considered going to the faculty/staff deep water exercise classes that are held from 5:30pm-6:15pm every single day after work. Don't want to miss an extra hour with my kids!!! Guilt city there! But...as it turns out...my family understands my desperate need for a workout right now and they don't really care if I come home an hour later than usual. They know this makes me happy and better able to serve them.

Do you know how long my kettlebell sat in a corner after I bought it? But you better believe I dragged that sucker out and it has got some use this past two weeks...along with my resistance band and my 5 lbs hand weights.

Do you know how DIFFICULT it was for me to make good food choices before this injury? But, hell...when I begin to feel desperate and realize that this is the KEY to continuing to lose weight, even while injured, suddenly it doesn't seem AS hard to make healthy choices for myself.

And, lo and behold, the scale is finally honoring the combined effort of exercise and diet that I am all-out fighting for these days!

I thought I was dedicated before. I thought I had a great program before. I really thought I was making the right choices before. And I really was...up to a point.

But this little injury/setback has taught me that there was a lot more I could have been doing. I didn't even SEE it! I just couldn't understand why I wasn't losing weight!

Well, truth is...I hadn't truly decided to...I wasn't 110% all in. And I didn't even know that I wasn't all in. How's that for helpful? Lol.

There was an initial switch in my brain that flipped back in April when I began running. It was the switch to accepting and working towards a healthy lifestyle.

And then there was this most recent switch...as Emeril would say, we kicked it up a notch. This was the switch to making that healthy lifestyle happen. There's something fierce about this switch.

If there's another on the horizon....well, that's almost frightening.

What about you? Where are you in your journey of fitness and food? BE HONEST. You don't have to tell me, but for goodness sake, be honest with yourself.

Are you fierce?





  
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DEEDEE1081 8/19/2012 9:31PM

    Love your story! The switch has happened to me too, and I am so thrilled with each and every day! Good Luck in your recovery, and thanks for the inspiration. emoticon

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SUNSHINE65 8/19/2012 3:19AM

    Thank you for the blog. Never thought of my determination in this way...this may turn me around! I copied it onto a page on my desktop to review frequently. Thanks.

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WHITEANGEL4 8/18/2012 10:32PM

    Great blog....glad you found there are options when you think there are none

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SKINNY2FAT2FIT 8/18/2012 9:06PM

    I will be FIERCE!!! emoticon

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REY_WOWW 8/18/2012 6:43PM

    Great!

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JIBBIE49 8/17/2012 6:31PM

    Great to see your blog featured in the Spark Mail. What an honor. emoticon

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Thank You, You really are an inspiration. Thank You!

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GODDREAMDIVA1 8/17/2012 2:19PM

    I'M fierce!

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CHERYLSBUTT 8/17/2012 12:40PM

    I am fierce in my dedication to a healthy lifestyle.
It means I fight the urge to chill and push for the urge to workout and eat well.
It is the me I want to be and I am pursuing her!
Good luck and praying for a speedy recovery!!!

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TAKINBACKMYBODY 8/17/2012 11:11AM

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JANEMARIE77 8/17/2012 7:42AM

    I am so happy for you! I believe and hope that you will find many more kick it out a notch places along your weight loss path we should always honor where we are today but we are so much stronger than we think keep pushing

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LESLIE56 8/16/2012 11:08PM

    Good blog...I'm doing very well, on my weight loss and fitness journey. So far, I've lost 20 lbs. and only have about 5 to go. emoticonfor sharing. I feel I am well on my way to Fierce!

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GOIN4GR8 8/16/2012 7:54PM

    Thanks for this blog. I'm getting new knees on Monday, and you helped me see things from the RIGHT perspective, which is to focus on what I CAN do vs. what I can't.

Good for you!!!

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SHERMOR13 8/16/2012 5:34PM

    Good for you! You know we often think that when something happens to us, like your ankle injury, it seems like the worst thing that's ever happened to us. But as many of us know, often what we think is the worst thing, causes something to happen in us & somehow that horrible thing becomes one of the best things that has ever happened to us.

FIERCE - that's what came out of it! Good for you - hang in there!

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TKADEEPBREATH 8/16/2012 5:10PM

    Fierce . . . YES!!!! Thanks, I loved this . . . let the games begin . . . and never end!

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PENOWOK 8/16/2012 4:51PM

    You are strong and now you are fierce!! You help the rest of us feel strong and powerful! We're proud of you!!

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BEAUTY_WITHIN 8/16/2012 4:46PM

    Congrats! Keep it up! And thanks for the inspiration!!

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JANETTEB553 8/16/2012 3:56PM

    Wonderful to hear you managed to overcome the setback and make it work for you. That is a REAL lifestyle change... good on you.

I am doing well but have a way to go as I am only at my first goal and have a lot further to go.

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LADYTSUNADE 8/16/2012 12:06PM

    Thanks for sharing! I am currently working om getting my Fierce back!

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DRKYASHI 8/16/2012 11:54AM

    emoticon! emoticonfor sharing!

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LISA_FRAME 8/16/2012 10:53AM

  good post

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TMCK-40 8/16/2012 9:13AM

  I love soing and using different tools

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NCSUE0514 8/16/2012 9:11AM

    Woo Hoo

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INGMARIE 8/16/2012 8:43AM

    awesome, yo go girl, or maybe you swim girl emoticon

and i am working on fierce. Thank you for a great blog emoticon

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WALLINMW 8/16/2012 8:42AM

  Fierce, baby!

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WILSON1926 8/16/2012 6:44AM

    Great blog, as usual.
Keep up the good work beautiful
Michael

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THEIS58 8/16/2012 5:35AM

    Fierce!

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NANA2ANGELS 8/16/2012 5:15AM

    I Am Fierce!!!!

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MSMOSTIMPROVED 8/15/2012 10:56PM

    You better believe it! Fierce is my middle name. I love that you are trying all these old and new activities to stay fit while you heal. Best wishes for a speedy recovery.
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KNEEMAKER 8/15/2012 8:24PM

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HFAYE81 8/15/2012 4:23PM

    You are AWESOME!!! So proud of you! Way to go, not letting injury defeat you!!! emoticon emoticon

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POLSKARENIA 8/15/2012 11:55AM

    Brilliant - great approach to your injury!
Keep it up!

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JIM12490 8/15/2012 11:40AM

    WOW! Fantastic way to approach your injury and a great guide for life. Thanks for sharing. emoticon

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NKOUAMI26 8/15/2012 11:34AM

    Good for you for not letting injury stop you!

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THEIS58 8/15/2012 11:02AM

    Excellent!!

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BANDMOM2012 8/15/2012 10:27AM

    I love how we are invited into your life with such honesty emoticon You inspire me with each blog!

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NEWMOM20121 8/15/2012 8:34AM

    Glad you are doing so well. I love the blog it is what I needed today.

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GIGI1953 8/15/2012 8:15AM

  Awesome resonse to a set-back. It would have been so easy to have a 20 pound pity party but you examined what you could do instead of focusing on what you couldn't do. Great attitude!

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WARMSTRONG2 8/15/2012 6:01AM

  fiercely made lemonade out of lemons

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JAZZEJR 8/15/2012 3:41AM

    I may not be fierce yet, but people like you inspire me to keep working toward it. emoticon

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MANILUS 8/15/2012 12:57AM

    Congrats on discovering your full commitment! I am Fierce!

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SHERYL_B 8/15/2012 12:30AM

    Fierce!

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AJB121299 8/14/2012 9:53PM

    nice--keep it up

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Words of Wisdom from ON2VICTORY

Sunday, August 12, 2012

I know I do this every so often and I hope it doesn't bother anyone, but I haven't had much happen in the past few days, as I've been down with the stomach flu. I mean, I suppose I could share that with you...but something tells me it would be rather uncouth to do so.

Instead, I thought I'd point you to an inspiring blog that I recently read. It happens to be written by one of my favs, ON2VICTORY. You guys know he's my buddy and, well, his story is really the one that stood out to me and got me started on this journey.

He posted a fabulous blog last night and I thought you'd enjoy it too:

www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_jo
urnal_individual.asp?blog_id=5011558


He's such a great writer and so excellent at expressing what so many of us feel about our own issues with obesity and losing weight.

I hope you enjoy it and send him some love.

P.S. He just LOVES emoticons. Especially the "Keep Pushing" one. It's his FAVORITE. You should definitely emotibomb him.

Heh heh heh.

  
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GOOSIEMOON 10/24/2012 10:30AM

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DEBK0923 8/23/2012 2:39PM

    I loved this blog

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CLUMBOY 8/17/2012 7:53AM

    thank you so much for sharing--i read his blog the other day and couldn't find it again. (subscribed to yours too) emoticon

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JUSGETTENBY42 8/14/2012 8:03PM

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IAMAGEMLOVER 8/14/2012 2:06PM

    emoticon Now off to ON2VICTORY

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EMMIELANE 8/14/2012 12:48PM

    Done!

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SWP0213 8/14/2012 11:31AM

    "Emotibomb"... LOL... Love it! Hope you're feeling better!

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ROCKYCPA 8/13/2012 10:45PM

    Thanks for sharing - going to look at his blog now!

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JAMER123 8/13/2012 9:38PM

    emoticon for sharing a emoticon blog!!! I enjoyed.

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HEARTS116 8/13/2012 9:07PM

    emoticon
Get better asap!

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PATRICIAANN46 8/13/2012 9:03PM

  I love his blogs too. emoticon for suggesting this one.
And.........I hope you feel better very soon. emoticon

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KIPPER15 8/13/2012 8:29PM

    emoticon Feel better soon

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SUSANK16 8/13/2012 8:21PM

  done

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TONYVAND1 8/13/2012 7:54PM

  emoticon Thanks

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GAELENEC 8/13/2012 7:24PM

    Yep. We all have great things inside us, but some are very good at sharing those in words that resonate with others.

You and he both are.

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HYATTI1 8/13/2012 4:19PM

    I too love his blogging, he is an SP friend and I keep up with all he has to say. Such inspiration he brings to the board. I do hope you are feeling better these days. You have been going through quite a bit yourself.

Joanna

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LOGOULD 8/13/2012 2:21PM

    Rober (ONTOVICTORY) has been a SparkFavorite of mine for months - his words of wisdeom have seen me past many, many hurdles!

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JIBBIE49 8/13/2012 1:52PM

    Once again you're a STAR with your blog featured in the Spark Mail. emoticon

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LINDAKAY228 8/13/2012 12:42PM

    I love ON2VICTORY's blogs too. He has such great insight and is willing to share it. Hope you feel better soon!

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KNITTYKITTY01 8/13/2012 12:29PM

    emoticon Hope you feel better soon

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LAVENDERLILY 8/13/2012 11:51AM

    Thanks for sharing!

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WHERERMY62KEYS 8/13/2012 11:38AM

  hope you feel better

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MOMMY445 8/13/2012 10:28AM

    hope that you feel better soon and thanks for sharing ON2VICTORY's blog! have a fabulous day!

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VOLLEYGIRL77 8/13/2012 10:20AM

    Thanks for the share!

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SIBLEYHONEYBEE 8/13/2012 10:17AM

    I hope you are back feeling 100% this week Leah. I hate it when illness sets me back from my goals. Thanks for the referral!

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TERID816 8/13/2012 10:14AM

    Love his blogs! Hope you feel better soon! emoticon

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WALLINMW 8/13/2012 10:13AM

  you are awesome, thank you for the inspiration to move forward in my journey, great blog

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DALEROG 8/13/2012 10:09AM

  Thanks for recommending him... Now I have two blogs that I don't want to miss! Yours and his! Feel better soon! emoticon emoticon

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LAURIE5658 8/13/2012 10:06AM

    Robert is the best and so are you!!!

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NEWMOM20121 8/13/2012 8:49AM

    Hope you feel better soon and thank you for sharing.

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NHEMBERGER 8/13/2012 8:22AM

    Hope you feel better! Thanks for sharing ON2VICTORY's blog!

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PENOWOK 8/13/2012 7:59AM

    thanks for the referral!

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LIN1111 8/13/2012 7:50AM

    emoticon emoticon emoticon Glad you are feeling better...God Bless!

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BESSHAILE 8/13/2012 6:47AM

    emoticonHope you feel better now - Happy Monday.

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GARDENCHRIS 8/13/2012 6:00AM

    feel better!

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NCSUE0514 8/13/2012 4:37AM

    Thanks!
Feel better!

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    emoticon

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RUNNER12COM 8/13/2012 2:10AM

    Honestly, how amazing is that guy?!

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ISABELLE31 8/13/2012 12:33AM

    Thanks for the recommendation! Feel better soon!

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CORINA-MOMOF4 8/12/2012 9:52PM

    Hope you feel better soon!


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LINDAK25 8/12/2012 8:36PM

    Hope you're feeling better soon! Already read Robert's blog, but thanks!

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SHERYL_B 8/12/2012 7:47PM

    Done!!

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    I hope you get well soon. emoticon

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GUITARWOMAN 8/12/2012 4:17PM

    Feel better soon!


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JENNNY135 8/12/2012 4:13PM

    Get better soon, need my running buddy.

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