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Birthday Party

Sunday, March 13, 2011

Wow. So, what can I say? It was my first screw up day in the 3 weeks I've been doing this. We had a birthday party for my 3 year old. I had even planned out exactly what I would be eating to try to keep on track, calorie-wise. And, once everyone got here and there were just bowls of food sitting out, it was really hard not to just keep eating and eating while mingling. It also didn't help that things were tense with all sides of the family together at the same time (AWKWARD). I swear I just kept eating to have something to do so I wouldn't have to handle the weirdness.

At any rate, I still came right to SP to log everything. Surprisingly, I was only a couple hundred calories over. I thought it would be much more. IT FEELS like much more. But...I'm not really proud of that fact because everything I ate was complete junk and not nutritious at all. And I have to weigh in tomorrow morning at 10:30. I am so scared that everything I did last week and all the hard work I put in will be wiped away with one day of foolishness. I hope that isn't so. But if it is...well, I'll just need to remember this feeling.

I feel gross. I feel completely and totally unsatisfied and not at all nourished. I don't feel good. My body is not happy.

Simply put...it wasn't worth it.

Hoping I can hang onto this feeling for the next time I am tempted.

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MARVEEME 3/13/2011 9:02PM

    That's part of the process, my dear. This experience will help you plan for next time. Where was the veggie tray? The cucumber slices that could be dipped instead of chips? You have just had an "AH-HA" moment that will last a lifetime.

The numbers on the scale are meaningless in comparison to this valuable lesson, wouldn't you agree?

Get back and keep on track with your plan, you'll be able to jump this hurdle, and every one like it in the future, FOR SURE!

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ZZYYGGY 3/13/2011 8:53PM

    Don't beat yourself up. We all have bad days like that.

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The Spark!

Saturday, March 12, 2011

I feel like crap. Well, if I'm down and out physically...I think I'll do something worthwhile in the time that I'm not sleeping. Got "The Spark" in the mail yesterday and I'm so excited to read it!!! I'll let you know how it goes.

P.S. Here's a picture of me and my little man. He turns 3 tomorrow. I am in love with him.

  
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MARVEEME 3/13/2011 8:36PM

    I think I am too!

WHAT A CUTIE!

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GOLFINSUNSHINE 3/12/2011 1:55PM

    Hope you feel better hun - You and your son are too cute for words. I am curious about the book also but am in a bit of a financial crunch at the moment - let me know what you think. P.S. I believe when we are sick and/or down - that is our committment to get healthier seems out of reach and so much harder....you are showing great strength to reach for something to stay on track - You go girl.... wonderful!!!

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MIMIDOT 3/12/2011 1:52PM

    Adorable picture. Thanks for sharing.

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Sad, Sick, Sticking With It

Friday, March 11, 2011

Rough, rough day. Recently found out a good friend has very aggressive stomach cancer. He's been so positive and wonderful through the whole ordeal, but today's journal entry was all about how he is going to start chemo next Thursday. He said he has pre-readied journal entries for the time after chemo when he is too weak to update all of us and one of them is his funeral arrangements and what to do after he is gone. This was a serious and bracing reality check for me and the thought of losing him is just devastating. He is one of the most positive, wonderful, kind and loving people I've ever met! I am 32 years old and, by some miracle, have never had to deal with grief in my life. I've never known anyone that was close to me that has died. I realize this is a statistical anomaly, but it's true. My heart was heavy with that news.

About five minutes later, I heard the news of Japan's earthquake and the devastation there and all of this, before 7:30am. I thought to myself, "This day is simply too sad for me to survive already."

Add to this the fact that some kind of super cold bug took over my body yesterday and I feel SO HORRIBLE! Somehow I soldiered through a 49 hour work week, but it was not without some effort the past couple days. Then, instead of resting, the clock hit 5 and I was out shopping for my little boy's 3rd birthday party on Sunday, which we are having at our house.

Amazingly, with all of that, and frankly...with me not really giving a crap about ANYTHING today because I felt SO low in general, I still managed to come in under calorie limits. AMAZING. Also, I think I can muster out a few crunches and push ups. But I intend to rest all day tomorrow and drink lots of water and organize all my recipes. Oh man, that just sounds like heaven right now.

Pray for me, y'all. This was a tough one today. emoticon

  
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ANNECEK 3/12/2011 10:44AM

    Thoughts and prayers go out to you. Good job with staying in focus concerning your tracking. It is so hard to keep going with healthy living when you are so mentally and physically stressed. Enjoy you're son's bday and keep up the good fight.


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GSPFAN99 3/11/2011 10:00PM

  I'm sorry to hear of such a rough day for you. I'm praying for you. You're an amazing woman to make it through a day like today and still take care of yourself properly and your family. God will help you through all of this, as well as your own strength. Never forget how strong you are. You inspire me all the time!
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MARVEEME 3/11/2011 9:06PM

    My prayers are with you. Cherish more, worry less. Give this one to God, he'll be up all night anyway!

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PPHILLIPS9 3/11/2011 9:04PM

    emoticonHOPE YOU FEEL BETTER MY PRAYERS TO YOUR FRIEND emoticon

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Dawnings

Thursday, March 10, 2011

"It is not always possible to know what one has learned, or when the dawning will arrive. You will continue to shift, sift, to shake out and double back. The synthesis that finally occurs can be in the most unexpected place and the most unexpected time. My charge...is to be alert to the dawnings." ~ Virginia B. Smith

So, I've been doing SparkPeople/Biggest Loser (through work) for two weeks now. Obviously, I've been pretty focused on losing weight. But, as I've begun to really move my body, I have begun to get addicted to the endorphins that I get right after a workout. And the day after a workout, everything just feels so good. My body is stronger already...I can feel lit. I sleep SO much better and I have so much energy!

The dawning came to me this morning, when it suddenly hit me...it's all well and good to lose weight in this health journey (and that should certainly be one of the goals for me). But, what I'm really gaining through all of this is a deeper understanding of my own body. The more I focus on what goes in and what I can get out of it (in the form of workouts), the more I feel like I "know myself" better. I'm speaking strictly physically right now.

This is the first time I've felt that I actually have CONTROL over my own body. Things aren't just happening TO me. I can make them happen FOR me. And that, my friends, is the epitome of empowerment.

  
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JEDIGYRL 3/10/2011 6:26PM

    You are so right. mmmm...endorphins.... emoticon

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D_K455 3/10/2011 9:58AM

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973MOM 3/10/2011 9:52AM

  That's great! I need to get my "body" in to it now my "mind" is in to it. Starting working out, even just walking is tough. I'm tired of making excuses because the only person I'm hurting is myself. You are an inspiration to me. I enjoy your posts! Thank you. emoticon

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MARVEEME 3/10/2011 9:41AM

    AMEN, SISTAH!

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Workaholic

Wednesday, March 09, 2011

Ugh. Today was just rough. I went in to work at 7:30am and didn't leave that office til 6:45pm. It's only Wednesday and I already have 5.5 hours of overtime logged this week! I did OK for breakfast and lunch. But dinner time came around and I was really getting hungry. Add a ton of stress to that and trigger emotional eating. I wanted to eat EVERYTHING all afternoon!!! But, I forced myself to drink water and chew gum instead. Not as satisfying...but it did work. All in all, I didn't make my daily calorie count...but I only went over by about 150 calories, which isn't the absolute end of the world, I guess. As long as it doesn't happen all the time.

Also, went straight to small group from work and didn't get home till after 9pm. I'm sorry...but cardio is OUT. I will still do my quick 50 crunches and 50 push ups before bed, but I am just about worn out today. I had really hoped to do cardio (even if it is just 20 mins) every single day this week, but it is just not going to happen tonight!

The good news is...I have derby practice tomorrow night. A 2-hour, super tough workout. So, I hope to more than make up for tonight when I go to that.

Anyway, good night!

  
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JEDIGYRL 3/10/2011 7:08AM

    You might want to consider whether cardio every day is good for you. Most of the articles recommend a day of rest or something more relaxing like stretches or easy yoga. Don't beat yourself up if you miss one day. I used to do intense cardio 7 days a week and then i got worn out, hurt myself and ended up stopping for a bit. emoticon

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