Sunday, July 22, 2012
Do you see this man?
He looks like a nice fella, doesn't he? Secretly, I think he looks like the lead character in that Pixar movie, "Ratatouille" but maybe that's just me.
This man has played a pretty big part in my life. He has been there at my lowest point and taken care of me. He is not my husband. He has seen a side of me that so many have never seen - a rather disgusting side, if I'm being honest. He is not a family member. But he should be...he knows more about me than a lot of people in my life know. You could say he knows me inside and out - and that would be an accurate statement.
This is Timothy Steiner. DR. Timothy Steiner to you and me. A man who knows intimately how many pieces of metal are currently growing into my bones. He was right by my side when I was wheelchair-bound and was learning how to walk (the second time). He gave me that disapproving look when I would proudly straighten my elbow for him and he wasn't satisfied with the range of motion. He doesn't mince words. And he doesn't mess around. And, that's good, because he shamed me into doing my physical therapy for 6+ months. And he healed me.
He's an expert in the field of sports medicine and he specifically works with athletes (even though his office is usually full of old people). He's the best kind of doc because you go in complaining of ANY type of pain and he will ALWAYS take an X-ray right then and there to find out what's actually wrong. No random diagnoses pulled out of his ass...just the facts.
I love this man, but I'd hoped I wouldn't ever have to see him again.
When I started running, I had a sinking feeling that I might need to get re-acquainted with the brilliant doctor. And, tomorrow, I will beg him to let me come in and see him...so he can tell me good or bad news about my ankle.
I'm pretty scared...because, frankly, if I hear the words "don't run for a month" or more...well, I know it won't make sense for some of you...but it will devastate me. But, if I put it off and try to ignore or ice the pain away, I will most certainly hear those words at a later date. I promised myself I'd go at the first sign of pain. Just as I won't break my promises to myself of consistent healthy living, I can't break this one either.
For now, I'm going to somehow drag my butt out of bed at 5am tomorrow and head over to the YMCA to see what kind of fun torture they have for me there that won't put any pressure on my ankle. It's not the same. I won't lie to you. I don't really want to do it. But...I know it will make me feel better and stronger. And, God knows, I NEED to feel stronger.
So...I'll keep you posted. I'm kinda down right now. But I wish you all the best week ever. Keep sparking, friends!!!!
Saturday, July 21, 2012
A friend of mine just got a tattoo of a line from her favorite poem on her foot. I'd never heard of this poet or this piece before...but, as I read it, I thought to myself, "Geez...could this be more perfect for SparkPeople????" So, I thought I'd post and share it here.
BY STANLEY KUNITZ
I have walked through many lives,
some of them my own,
and I am not who I was,
though some principle of being
abides, from which I struggle
not to stray.
When I look behind,
as I am compelled to look
before I can gather strength
to proceed on my journey,
I see the milestones dwindling
toward the horizon
and the slow fires trailing
from the abandoned camp-sites,
over which scavenger angels
wheel on heavy wings.
Oh, I have made myself a tribe
out of my true affections,
and my tribe is scattered!
How shall the heart be reconciled
to its feast of losses?
In a rising wind
the manic dust of my friends,
those who fell along the way,
bitterly stings my face,
Yet I turn, I turn,
with my will intact to go
wherever I need to go,
and every stone on the road
precious to me.
In my darkest night,
when the moon was covered
and I roamed through wreckage,
a nimbus-clouded voice
“Live in the layers,
not on the litter.”
Though I lack the art
to decipher it,
no doubt the next chapter
in my book of transformations
is already written.
I am not done with my changes.
Saturday, July 21, 2012
So, last night I got home from a Girls Night Out around 11:30pm. Woke up at 5:30am to meet my new running buddy, Sarah (see "Running Buddies") for a nice easy 7-mile run. Everything was wonderful. I took a gel (Hammer Orange - BLECH!) before the run because I didn't have time to figure out breakfast. HATE gels. Will try a couple other brands and flavors, but I am not hopeful. Took a package of Honey Stinger Chews for the middle of the run and those things were DELICIOUS (not even vitaminy tasting!) Took 24 oz. water and 24 oz. Nuun, but ended up only drinking about 12 oz of each because the temp was a PERFECT 53 degrees.
Sadly, I got home and after I finished stretching, I stood up and experienced sharp, shooting pain through my ankle. :( Iced it for a long time...it seems to be doing a little bit better now...walked it out a little bit and still have it in the brace...but it's not recovering quickly. I am not sure what's wrong. We'll have to play it by ear and if it isn't improved tomorrow, might think about seeing my ortho. I hate this...I have the Color Run next Saturday. I will NOT miss that!!! I have already determined that I will just walk the entire thing if I can't run it. So I'll still get to experience it. It's not a timed race, so it's not a huge deal.
Not sure about my workouts this week, but I figure I ought to have a back-up plan in case I can't run. I can't just let myself go completely...not with all the stress I have at work and the emotional stuff I'm dealing with. I've got to have some sort of outlet to sweat it out. So...I'll be thinking about that in detail today.
So, I received an interesting question in my SparkMail the other day and thought I'd address it in a blog.
QUESTION: How do you justify the cost of all these races? Don't they all have registration fees?
This got me thinking about how much it does cost me to run. First, I was just figuring up the race entry fees, but then I started to think about the cost of shoes, long run fuel, clothing and gear, travel for races, etc and I thought it would be interesting to map it all out and see what the total is...just for curiosity. I am also assuming that I will only be running half marathons this year...no marathons in this financial plan yet. Those are much more expensive.
So, this is another super SCIENTIFIC study (with one respondent...which is me). We're gonna go ahead and try to figure an entire year. This will be highly inaccurate, I'm sure. But fun...and scary.
Running Shoes: $400
I'm going with an average price of $100 for a good pair of shoes (although many will cost more) and, since I run about 20 miles or less per week, I figure I will need to replace my shoes every few months or so...for a total of 4 pairs per year.
Running Clothes: $250
This is probably low for most runners...but I don't go all fancy, yo. Target has some AMAAAAZING running clothes and, if you catch the sales, you can get stuff pretty cheap. I can get about 3 pairs of running socks for $8. I bought two packs of those. I also bought 4 sports bras for a total of about $30 once and I expect them to last a year...I take very good care of them and never let them go through the dryer. Currently, I only have two really good, high quality wicking shirts for warmer weather and two pairs of running pants. Shhh...I wear both outfits twice and then I wash them. LOL. I will probably have to invest in some winter clothing at some point. I really don't mind having two outfits that I rotate over and over.
iPod Shuffle & Skull Candy Earbuds: $60
I did buy an iPod Shuffle because it's small and it clips on to my clothing and it's just easier than dealing with a full size mp3 player. The Skull Candy earbuds are the soft rubber that wrap around your ear so they don't fall out, even if you're sweating. This purchase has been invaluable.
Fuel for Longer Runs (gels, chews, Nuun, etc): $350
This also might be a little low of an estimate. Some people take 2 gels at a time. So far, I have not needed that much. But I figured about 4 gels (or similar items) per week - just for my long runs or races.
Race entry fees: $300
A 5k is usually $15-$20. I tend to do mostly 5k races, so it's not really breaking the bank. But half marathons start to get into the $40 and up range. This estimate is based on a race schedule of about seven (7) 5k races and 2 half marathons in a year...which is how my first year looks.
Travel for races: $250
This includes gas, hotel, food for a trip outside of my hometown. Most of my races this year are local, but I am going to figure in two out of town races, which require travel, for the purposes of this blog post. I'm also figuring in sharing a hotel room with friends.
TOTAL FOR ONE YEAR OF 7 5K RACES AND 2 HALFS: ~$1600/year
So, yeah...that seems like a lot, right? Well, how much does it cost me NOT to run?
Here are some ideas of alternative ways to use my money:
Starbucks Specialty Drink every weekday for a year: $910
McDonald's Value Meal 3 times a week for a year: $546
2 New Kinect Games per Month for a Year: $700
Going to the Bars to party every weekend (2 drinks): $780
Or how about these benefits? Can you put a dollar value on:
1. Improved Health
2. Disease Prevention
3. Weight Loss
4. Stress Relief
5. Eliminating Depression
6. Increased Confidence
You know, I didn't need all these facts and figures to answer the original question. I already knew the answer. The answer is...how do I justify NOT spending the money to run? It's something I love...something I have found a deep passion for. And, when you love something, you don't care what it costs.
People pay for things they WANT to pay for...pure and simple. At this point in my life, I just really want to be healthy.
Friday, July 20, 2012
I have got a special treat for you today!!! It's a GUEST blog! Now, you know I don't do this...well, ever. I do, however, peruse most of your blogs and try to read as many of them as I can. I have a SparkFriend that I've known for awhile and he doesn't post too often, but today's blog was just...special. I thought, "I have GOT to share that with my peeps."
So, friends, let's give a warm welcome to fellow runner, MARATHONDAD (a.k.a. Eddie).
I'll let him give you a little summary of himself and how he got to be where he is today:
"My wife, Brenda (MOMMARUNNER), is more than just my wife – she is my best friend, mother of my kids, and my running partner. She has always loved me unconditionally, even when I was 125 pounds overweight. After our first date, I knew I was going to marry her and less than year from that, I did.
I was overweight and heading down an unhealthy road. One day she called me out and dared me to join her at the Running Room. I’m a guy…and she had just challenged my manhood. What else could I do? I started to run.
I remember our first run was 8 km, which probably wasn't the best idea, now that I look back on it. It was so hard, I thought I was going to die. I couldn’t walk for a week afterwards. But we kept going to the Running Room and I kept improving and then I was hooked.
My weight started to fly off. Before I knew it, we had agreed to do a half marathon on Father’s Day. I couldn’t think of a better way to celebrate Father’s Day than running a half marathon with my wife by my side. After I crossed the finish line, I was on Cloud Nine! Believe it or not, I almost cried. After that day, I couldn’t wait for our next race.
Since then, I’ve completed 7 half marathons (all of them with my wife by my side). She saved my life. I was borderline diabetic and my cholesterol levels were awful. Now I am healthy and will be able to live a long life and watch our four kids grow up. (That's right, folks...Eddie and Brenda have FOUR kids under the age of 5! YOWZERS! No wonder they run!!!)"
Aren't they adorable???
You all know that I have talked in my blogs about how running has been helping me handle grief and stress and joy and all the other emotions that come with life. In light of that, I thought it was so appropriate to share Eddie's story with you today. It is one of the most beautiful things I've ever heard and I know you will agree.
"Sometimes my job is so difficult and it can be so cruel. I manage recreation in a nursing home. My job is very rewarding and I meet some of the most amazing people. For our residents, this is the last place they live before they go to heaven. I want to make sure their stay is full of fun and dignity. My residents are like fine wine…they get better with age.
Yesterday, I lost two of my favorite ladies. One of them was my all-time favorite. She was 102 and still very active. Let me repeat that…102 and STILL ACTIVE. So, when you say you are too tired or too old, remember my senior.
She would ask me every day, “Did you go for your run?” I would always assure her that I did. She would tell me that she had done her laps on the floor. She was so proud of me and proud of the father I was becoming. My kids would visit her and I was so happy she got to meet my precious Abby before she passed.
Yesterday, I was talking to her before the end and was holding her hand. With a smirk on her face, she asked me, “Did you get your run in today?” This beautiful lady was on her deathbed and she was worried about me! I held her hand until her final breath.
I needed to grieve so badly last night, but I was scheduled to work my second job. This morning, I went for a 10km run, as a way to say good-bye to my ladies. I probably scared people passing by. I was running so hard, all the while also crying so hard. But it felt so good to say good-bye. When I was done, I looked up at the sky and I said, “Yes, I did my run!!!!!”
I know that touched you as deeply as it did me...so let's show Eddie some love. Comment away, folks! Send him goodies! Tell his wife how amazing she is too! Let's love on this family and help to carry them through a difficult time. That's what we do best here at Spark. So....ok...GO.
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