Saturday, March 05, 2011
Sleeping in was heaven this morning! And slowly waking up is my idea of heaven. Pretty soon, though, I'm going to get moving and make a nice healthy and delicious lunch. Then, find a fun workout on Free On Demand. Spend some time with my little ones and just enjoy them and then make my way to the roller derby tonight! I'm scorekeeping for two bouts, so that should be fun. Might or might not check out the after party depending on how I feel.
It looks to be a great day. Weekends are always rough for me, as far as staying on track. To be honest, my husband's not the greatest at keeping me on a healthy eating track. I think that, in his head, he thinks he's alright on that front...but I don't consider frozen pizza and late night fried snacks something that I can even think about partaking in at this point (although, I'll admit...he roped me in last night. Fried green beans at 11pm. Ugh! But you know what? It was a great learning experience because I realized as I was eating them....these don't even taste good. They are just...gross.) Next time, it might be a little easier to resist. Positive thinking, right?
Weekends are hard for me, eating wise. But I'm going to hang in there. We have a Biggest Loser weigh in on Monday morning at work. I snuck and weighed myself on my bathroom scale last night and it appears I have lost 4 lbs. this week. This could be wrong (since scales weigh differently and I definitely can't guarantee mine is correct...the one at work is completely calibrated perfectly). But, I keep thinking of a possible 4 lb. weight loss in one week and it really is motivating me to keep on track. For a person who needs to lose 100 lbs., the idea of losing 4 lbs. the FIRST week is extremely significant and encouraging. I know intellectually that it won't always be that way and that there will be rough spots and plateaus...but to see something like that right away would really make me want to keep going.
Wish me luck!
Friday, March 04, 2011
Today has been "complete" in the sense that I've been all over the place with this new healthy lifestyle I've adopted. What I mean is...I struggled with wanting to eat too much, but was able to control myself and stay within calorie limits. I was successful in adding fitness in that wasn't "scheduled" for today when I went to a kickboxing class that my company offered over the lunch hour. Then, I had lunch with some lovely co-workers (part of my Biggest Loser team at work) and we got pretty deep talking about our marriages and issues that cause us to stumble there, which led to some pretty great and unexpected emotional healing. This is awesome, since these emotions have so often in the past driven me to eat. I have a caffeine withdrawal headache...but was still able to motivate myself to at least cook my go-to healthy meal that I always whip up when I'm too lazy or not feeling creative enough to find a healthy recipe (pasta, olive oil, diced tomatoes, garlic and some seasonings - simple, but yummy and pretty healthy). Looking forward to relaxing with the kids tonight for Family Movie Night like we do every Friday.
So, the day has been filled with ups and downs and ins and outs of day to day life. I'm so ready for it to end. But, all in all, glad for the day I've had. Because I've proven to myself that, even in the mundane, I can make healthy choices.
Thursday, March 03, 2011
So, all this time, I've been thinking that I need to lose 80 lbs., which is a lot. Tonight I was working on adding some tweaks to my Spark Page and typed in the standard "I want to lose 80 lbs." goal. Once I had everything the way I wanted it, I hit "Save". I happened to glance at my weight loss tracker and it was like reality just smacked me right in the face. Weight to lose: 101 lbs. WHAT?! Well, I've been basing my goals off of what I THOUGHT I weighed. And forgetting that, when I weighed in this week for our Biggest Loser contest at work, I actually weighed more than I thought. I had not taken this into account or even thought about this.
Wow. ONE HUNDRED POUNDS! How am I possibly carrying around 100 extra pounds on my body??? I don't FEEL like I'm THAT BIG. But, when I glance in the mirror on my way to the shower, I can confirm that this is accurate. This is a really hard place to be. It's disturbing and sad and frustrating and scary all at once. This morning I read the article on osteoarthritis and and the factors that contribute to it and my eyes were opened. I thought, "I am most certainly going to get this when I am older...and maybe even when I am younger." Same with Diabetes...and who knows? Maybe even breast cancer. (I still wonder if it is linked in some way to America's horrible diet.) In that moment, I realized that this is about so much more than just losing weight for a contest at work or even about looking good. As over-dramatic as it sounds, it's about staying ALIVE. I can close my eyes and pretend that I am not in the state that I am...or I can be completely honest with myself and realize that I need to do something now before it's too late to do something about this.
I am only 32 years old. Therefore, I have quite a bit of life ahead of me. I have youth on my side and I have a body that is strong enough to get itself into shape, if I will just move it.
I don't know how I'm going to do this. But I'm just going to keep doing my best and being mindful of how I treat my body, what I put into it, and how often I work activity into my life.
Oh my goodness...a hundred pounds. Ugh!
Thursday, March 03, 2011
Don't you just LOVE a busy day that is so crazy, you don't even have a chance to THINK about food? Aside from the stress, I actually do like it.
What are your thoughts? Easier to eat healthy when you're busy? Or tougher (because you eat mindlessly)?
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