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Summer Deliciousness

Sunday, May 27, 2012

Been a pretty un-eventful day since the 5k. I wasn't prepared for the amount of soreness and pain in my body, nor the excessive exhaustion. But...trainer said this would happen, so at least I know it's normal. Took a GREAT nap yesterday after the race. Church this morning, then simply could not stay awake a minute longer so I took ANOTHER nap this afternoon. Today has been a complete rest day. Tomorrow will probably be simple cross-training walk and I might try a short 1.5 mile run on Tuesday morning to get my body back into the usual training routine.

We are headed out to a cookout with our church friends in a few and I always used to agonize over what to bring to these things. There are so many desserts (which really don't appeal to me much anymore) and, obviously, lots of grilled things. With the last cookout, I finally found my go-to potluck/cookout/pitch-in dish. This is absolutely one of my favorite parts of summer...THIS salad! It's SO easy and so delicious and very low in calories, but high in nutrients and even has some protein.

INGREDIENTS:

One package/bag/tub of pre-washed spinach
One pint of fresh strawberries
Some walnut pieces
One small container of crumbled goat cheese
Marzetti's Simply Dressed Balsamic Vinagrette Salad Dressing

Throw all of this in a bowl.
Toss with a little bit of the dressing.
BOOM. Summer Deliciousness.

And you wouldn't believe the compliments. It's almost guilt-inducing because it's so easy. Haha.

Here is a picture to make you salivate:

  
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ESCHMIEDT 5/28/2012 10:54AM

    Looks yummy!

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MARVEEME 5/28/2012 10:08AM

    What time is dinner? Looks like perfection to me!

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COOKWITHME65 5/28/2012 9:48AM

    Looks wonderful. Thanks for sharing.

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HOPEANEW 5/28/2012 4:13AM

    Mmmm yum! That's also wonderful with feta cheese :)

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CHIPLEY_FL 5/28/2012 1:02AM

    Feel 100% soon.

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ON2VICTORY 5/27/2012 10:51PM

    Oh dear....that DOES look seriously tasty..... Yum!

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ILIKETOZUMBA 5/27/2012 10:28PM

    Mmmmm, that salad sounds good! And congratulations on the 5k! Hope you're back to feeling normal soon. :)

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SPARKLINGHOPE 5/27/2012 8:57PM

    Sounds so yummy!!

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MAGGIE805 5/27/2012 8:55PM

    Looks delish! I'm going to have to try it and thank you sharing the recipe. emoticon

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AWOOD1973 5/27/2012 7:34PM

    Love this! I've had it before.... Yummy!!

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BOSS61 5/27/2012 6:51PM

    The salas sounds great - we'll try it too.

But what - only ONE nap a day? I'm thinking a minimum of two!

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STARSUB99 5/27/2012 6:47PM

    OOHHH! Another great salad to add to my favorites list! Thanks for sharing. And congrats again on the 5 K.

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JOHNTJ1 5/27/2012 6:46PM

    Yum!!!

Now I'm hungry

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CHICAT63 5/27/2012 6:42PM

    Great salad !

I am known as the official salad maker in my family and friends. A favorite that I often prepare but it does take a bit longer to make:
-Spinach
-Mushrooms
-Brow
n rice 1 cup cooked
- Bean sprouts
- Sunflower seed unsalted 1 cup
- The dressing: olive oil, garlic powder, lemon juice and light/salt free soya sauce to taste.

Here is Québec we call it: Salade des amoureux = Lover's salad.

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FRANCES-AGAPE 5/27/2012 6:17PM

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So GLAD you made it
thru your 1st 5k and
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Seriously, Girl, YOU are
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Hope your soreness passes soon

Glad you're having a
Super Sunday

YUM ! Gotta try the salad.
It's been in the 90s here
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light, cool meals.
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Have a Marvelous Monday

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BLESSINGS !

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WARMSPRINGDAY 5/27/2012 6:17PM

    Hey, that's my favorite salad sans the goat cheese! Sometimes I use sunflower seeds instead of walnuts which is tasty and nutritious also. I usually throw some sweet or green onion in, too.

Can't wait for spinach from my garden.

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VIMVIGOR 5/27/2012 5:08PM

  Sure looks good. Definitely going to try it. Thanks for sharing. Cheryl emoticon

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Hoosier Fit Expo 5K - First Race!

Saturday, May 26, 2012

Wow...what a day for a first race! I had a GREAT night of sleep last night, after several encouraging texts from some of my runner friends and non-runner friends alike. Woke up around 6am and, per trainer's orders, ate immediately. Had a nice strawberry banana blueberry yogurt smoothie, cup of coffee and a Luna Bar. Just a few sips of water to get my vitamin down.

Around 7am, the texts and e-mails started pouring in from amazing friends, co-workers, SparkBuddies and trainer. I was nervous, but excited and just so touched that so many were thinking of me and cheering for me. And then...I went outside to leave and found my van had been attacked by one of my derby buddies, Thigh Candy. Oy...that sweet, sweet girl! There was a card and a dozen roses on my windshield and a bunch of star balloons tied to the side mirror. And...well...this...



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Got in the car and was one of the first people at the field house. Haha. That was a long couple of hours, but had some friends with booths there so I chatted them up a bit, used the restroom and all that good stuff. Did a little warm-up and got into my zen place. About 10 minutes before the race, my mother-in-law, husband, oldest daughter and little guy showed up. That was a surprise and pretty nice to see them.

Before the race started, I got to chat a bit with Tara from Biggest Loser (Season 7?). She was really sweet and really down to earth, not at all like you'd think a TV star would be. I kind of expected her to have an entourage, but nope. She was just hanging out by the starting line and nobody was talking to her, so I asked her about her Iron Man and she played with my kids a bit. That was surreal. We talked about workouts and food and such. She was really great. Here's a shot of Tara:



I know, you guys are like...WHO CARES? GET TO THE RACE! Haha.

OK, so starting line...and we're off. There were really only about 30 people running this 5k so it was a really nice, small group. We started out and I was already in the rear...but I knew going in that I wouldn't be as fast as most people, so it didn't really bother me. I just hung out in the back, thinking, "I'll make this up later...gotta get in the zone."

Well...no time to get in the zone because the very first thing on this course was a MASSIVE hill. I have not trained on hills AT ALL. I've READ about them and the form you are supposed to use when you run up and down them...but reading and doing are two very different things. Needless to say, I walked that first hill...as did many of the runners. Listen...that thing was LONG. About halfway up, I decided to name it because it was just so treacherous. I dis-affectionately dubbed it "Murder Mountain".

Once I got past that hill, running felt SO good. Until...the next hill. Yes. And the next. And the next. Look, I didn't know there was a mountain range in the middle of Bloomington, Indiana! emoticon

So, I walked all the hills because I really wasn't willing to risk injury. I figured, "Well, my time will suffer, but who cares? At least I'll finish."

On the downhills and straight-aways, I was able to run and that was really nice. Honestly, it was 93 degrees and it wasn't until the last half mile or so that I really began to feel the heat. Luckily, they decided to throw some water stations onto the course RIGHT where I needed it...wow, that stuff felt good and helped me keep going.

Finally, I could see the stadium (finish line was across the parking lot). But, you know...wouldn't be right unless there was ONE LAST HILL right before the finish line. It was a smaller one...but still.

The last 0.1 miles, of course I ran. And Tara ran with me. That was pretty awesome. She took me all the way to the finish line.

So, I came out with a final time of 43:35. Considering my normal training run time for the 5k on a totally flat course is 43 minutes, I was SUPER excited about this finish. I honestly thought it was going to be closer to 55 minutes. It felt so long out there.

Here is the obligatory medal photo:



Sparkly!

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All in all, this was a perfect first race. Debriefed with trainer afterwards and he asked, "How do you feel after getting such a cool medal?"

I replied, "I feel...like I can do whatever I want. I feel like I'm never going back to...all of it."

But, I think if I had to sum up how I feel...it really doesn't have much to do with the run. Honestly...I've never felt more loved than I felt today.

I'm so thankful and so blessed to have the most amazing group of friends on the planet.

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NVRDWN88 10/15/2012 7:59PM

    I know this is an old blog but I just love it...one of my favorites on spark....meeting and running with Tara had to feel amazing cuz she is one terrific person I cried (dont laugh at me) when I watched her in thw ironman and some of her bl episodes and you did a great job in your race and all the support you got was fantastic doesn't it feel great knowing people want you to succeed instead of the people who judge you or back stab ya and want you to fail....you know what I mean.....I know it was in may but Congrats again

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DEBK0923 6/17/2012 2:04PM

    congratulations, I have just started to run and can't wait to get where you are. Great Job and great blog

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WHITEANGEL4 5/30/2012 10:05PM

    Fantastic day for you. Congratulations. Thanks for giving us a detail so we could follow you along the way

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MSTAPLE1 5/30/2012 11:25AM

  Congrats!!

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SOUTHPONDCAMP 5/30/2012 8:31AM

    Awesome job...and how cool to meet Tara. She's one of my favorites from BL. :)

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MANILUS 5/29/2012 6:39PM

    Excellent work! So great that the emotions you felt were awesome!

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XXEDRA 5/29/2012 5:06PM

    Congrats on your first race!

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CYDNEYLEECH 5/29/2012 6:29AM

    Unbelievably awesome. I know how you felt about the hills. When I was in the Army (12 years, until my back gave out and I had to get out medically), we used to run in all terrain. Once I was stationed in Harrisonburg, VA. Right outside of the Skyline Drive, meaning all hills and mountains. It was rough. Congrats!!!!


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CM_GARDNER78 5/28/2012 11:33PM

    That is AWESOME!!! And I think it's SO cool you got to meet Tara!! :-) Congratulations!!!

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TMOORE073 5/28/2012 10:25PM

    Congrats! I am a runner too. It is such a great form of excercise. Good for you to get out there & set a goal for yourself! I also have a goal to set for myself. I am almost 50 & I would love to compete in a Triathalon. I think it will be hard work but worth it! Sounds like you have a great support group. Wonderful friends & family to help you along the way! Good luck on your next race! I sure there will be many more! Happy running! emoticon

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MISSLISA1973 5/28/2012 9:37PM

    You made me get choked up! What a great race blog. Thanks for sharing! WAY TO GO!

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NEWMOM20121 5/28/2012 8:49PM

    Great job. Congratulations on a jog well done.

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ANCLIFE 5/28/2012 8:26PM

    Congratulations! I haven't raced in a long time but I remember what an adrenaline rush it is. I hope you'll keep going because they're all a lot of fun.

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CASILAYNE 5/28/2012 8:25PM

    So proud of you!! Well done!! :))

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SBATES63 5/28/2012 3:47PM

    Awesome!!!! You are a champ!

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BUTTERFLY-1976 5/28/2012 12:40PM

    Way to go! That's awesome. Congrats on you first race.



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ERIKGN 5/28/2012 12:39PM

  Good job, Way to go!

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FANCYBEANIE 5/28/2012 12:00PM

    I ran my first 5k this weekend. It was hard, but I hope to do it again. Congrats on a great job with a great time.. emoticon

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FANCYBEANIE 5/28/2012 12:00PM

    I ran my first 5k this weekend. It was hard, but I hope to do it again. Congrats on a great job with a great time.. emoticon

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    congrats!!! i ran my first race on sunday and what a feeling it was emoticon

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    Congratulations! It is always good to have friends to support you in your endeavors. emoticon

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AMURDOCK68 5/28/2012 9:56AM

    Whoo hoo. Ways to go. We never know what obstacles we may find on any journey. Way to get over those hills and mountains in Bloomington. Glad I caught your blog on the the Best of Spark People Daily. :)

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TAURUSGIRL3 5/28/2012 9:40AM

  Awesome!! I am sure that was the first race of many!!


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TWEETIEBIRDIE 5/28/2012 9:07AM

    Amazing! You must feel so proud of yourself! Now you can train for your next race! It is so exciting to run with a crowd of people!!!

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MOM2HANDH 5/28/2012 8:39AM

    Great job!! Sounds like a perfect first race (except for the hills :))

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BLOOMING52 5/28/2012 8:15AM

    Way to go.

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  Good job!

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    Congratulations.

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CHIPLEY_FL 5/28/2012 1:00AM

    How cool. I love it all. The run. Meeting Tara. The Medal.

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  Way to go. I know that you must feel really great!
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PORTPRINCESS1 5/27/2012 9:54PM

  Way to go! Inspiring!

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    Awesome!

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JOYCECAIN 5/27/2012 8:23PM

    I AM SO PROUD OF YOU. YOU FINISHED THE RACE AND THAT IS WHAT COUNTS. I ENVY YOU BECAUSE YOU ARE YOUNG AND ABLE TO RUN. BUT I AM SO HAPPY FOR YOU. GOOD GOING. YOU DID YOURSELF PROUD. emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon

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SPINNER520 5/27/2012 8:13PM

    Running in races is about doing the best that you can and worrying less about time! Nice job!

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ANGIEINTRAINING 5/27/2012 8:13PM

    Congratulations on your first run! It feels great doesn't it??? When is your next 5K going to be? What a great blog. You are a fantastic writer...very fun to read.

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TYLYNN61 5/27/2012 8:04PM

    WTG You are an inspiration to all of us. I loved readying about your race and how you took the hills slow and cautiously. Kinda like life run on the straight away and walk through the rough days. Thank You for sharing.

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MARGARITTM 5/27/2012 7:56PM

    Great first race - many more in your future!


See you at the finish line Runner Girl!

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Let's Get Real, Shall We?

Friday, May 25, 2012

Well, it seems I have your attention right now. And, because of that, there are some thoughts I'd like to share with all of you that are deeply personal...things I have not shared with even my closest SparkFriends up until now. I hope you don't mind if we go a little deeper and a little darker today, but I promise we'll come out in the light.

The reason I want to do this is because there is such a momentum with my blogs right now and, I suppose, with my life in general. I fear that you will think that I am doing all of this on sheer willpower. And that you will become discouraged if you can't seem to muster the willpower to make lasting changes in your own health. I want you to know that this burst of energy that I've been seeing is not based on willpower (more explanation in a bit). I'm beyond thrilled that I can encourage and motivate so many of you, but I've been hearing murmurings from discouraged friends. And I have taken them to heart.

The most touching was from a dear friend from high school. She wrote:

"I'm inspired by your dedication to your new, healthy lifestyle. I'm jealous that I'm struggling to get there myself. I'm happy that you're accomplishing such amazing things and loving your life! I'm angry that I'm struggling to get there myself. I'm delighted that you look and feel amazing! I'm disappointed that I'm struggling to get there myself. Oh, did I mention that I'm struggling?

I wish I could find out what is wrong in my head. I still can't stop making poor choices when it comes to food and I really struggle physically to complete any kind of workout. I'm extremely angry at myself for letting my health get to this point and I'm frustrated that I keep bouncing back and forth between healthy and non-healthy choices.

I just want to tell you that I truly admire you for continually making healthy choices and I pray that I will get there someday, that I will have the strength to overcome my food addiction, that I will have the strength to stop pitying myself."

Oh, honey...I see you! And I so relate to what you are saying. I want to share my darkest moments...those times that have led me to this point. And, it truly is a journey. And guess what? This might be where you are right now...and you have only good things to look forward to in your health journey, my friend.

Let me start by admitting that I grew up in a family of addiction. My parents (and all subsequent step-parents) were all drug addicts. In addition, my mother was bi-polar and I grew up as the oldest of 5. As children, we saw horrific things that no child should see, at the hands of domestic abuse. We were never physically abused, but we were most certainly emotionally and verbally abused. But, I had to hold it together because I was the protector. Frankly, I'm shocked that I never developed an addiction to any substance like marijuana or tobacco or alcohol. I firmly believe the hand of God has been on my life since I was a child.

However, this does not mean I haven't struggled with addiction. I have been addicted to more benign things: Coca-Cola, fast food, Facebook. Looking at this list almost makes me laugh...except that any kind of addiction results in too much time spent on that thing...and it damages relationships. And that is not funny.

That being said, I do honestly feel that my genetic propensity toward addiction is partly why I have seen success in my diet and exercise program this time. I suppose I have, if you will, traded addictions. Talk about taking lemons and making lemonade! Health is not a terrible addiction to have.

Still, this is why I am SO focused on listening to my body. Because, if it gets out of hand, it could lead to injuries, obsession, eating disorders. I'm not naive enough to think that I'm immune to the possibility of these things. But I'm being smart about all of it...and paying attention and staying alert. The moment it becomes an unhealthy obsession is the moment I will need to take a step back and re-evaluate some things.

I've talked about my roller skating accident a bit - usually from a positive standpoint (thank God I can walk, etc.) But I haven't really shared the defining moments from that experience...that really do fuel what I'm doing today. In fact, I haven't shared this with anyone.

When the accident occurred, I was in a crowded roller rink with plenty of little kids watching. My sister and I were doing great...she was teaching me some T-stops in the middle of the rink. It can only be described as a freak accident. In less than a second, I was on the floor, holding my shattered elbow bone so it wouldn't come out of my skin and unable to move because my wrist and ankle were also broken. The time spent waiting for the ambulance felt like an hour. I knew that every kid in that place was watching in horror...and their moms were thinking, "My kid will NEVER go roller skating again!" I tried not to scream because I didn't want to scare them, but it's a lot of pain for a person to bear at once.

Luckily, I have had 3 kids naturally. I'll tell you what...pregnancy breathing is a lifesaver and really got me through that wait for the ambulance. The other thing that got me through was my sister's voice. She just kept talking to me and I didn't let her stop. Her voice carried me through that entire night. I refused to open my eyes, because I didn't want to see the damage...for fear I'd go hysterical. So, my eyes were shut for hours. (I hope that I can be that voice that carries some of you through your darkness.)

Still, I was thinking, "It's just a broken arm. I'll go back to work on Monday and I'll be embarrassed but it'll heal and I'll still try out for derby in July." Cut to the emergency room, where it felt like we had to wait FOREVER to see an orthopedic surgeon. X-rays, a million nurses, lights and voices. Still...my sister's voice through every moment. I remember I had finally calmed down (probably drugs) and gotten the pain under control. I was OK. Then, the nurse came out and said, "Leah, I need to talk to you. You need to know that this is bad. Real bad. Your recovery will be long. You will need a lot of help when you get home." You guys, I knew at that point that I had 5 broken bones, but I just hadn't thought about what that meant. As she was talking, I completely lost it. I mourned the fact that I wouldn't be going back to work for weeks (turned into 3 months) and that I would be a huge burden on my family and friends. I hate to be a burden.

Surgery was successful. Recovery in the hospital...well, it was so rough. Ok, maybe I lied a bit earlier about no drug addictions. If I could get an IV of Dilaudid for use at anytime, I would be ALL over that. That stuff was FANTASTIC. And, man, I sure did need it. Most of the time, I had friends and family there to keep me company. But at night, people went home. I don't know why I woke up every single night at 4am. Like clockwork. But I did.

And one night...I woke up...and wasn't prepared for this thought to hit me: "Your roller derby career is over before it even began." This was a huge moment for me. I had been hardcore training and working out for 3 months prior - 6 days a week - and had lost 15 lbs. I WANTED this. When I realized that there wasn't any hope for it, my soul mourned its loss. I really was hysterical. ALL that work...all those 5am workouts...all that pain...for what? Nothing. I was SO upset, I was sobbing to the point of hyperventilating and my body was shaking. The nurse ran in and I tried to explain but I couldn't. All I could do was cry. She thought I was in pain physically, but I wasn't. It was a deep soul pain. Thank God for her...she brought a warmed blanket and it really helped to calm me. And I drifted off to sleep.

I've already shared in a previous blog about the recovery physically. It was long and difficult. But emotionally, I shut down. I slipped into my normal depression (thanks for passing that on, Ma) and I distinctly remember telling myself one day, "I will never be able to do anything fun again. I will never be able to play a sport. Forget skiing. I can't run. I can barely walk. I can't even do softball. There is nothing I can do physically anymore. For the rest of my life."

Look...I know it's hard sometimes to see successes all over SparkPeople. While they are motivating and so encouraging, they can also feel like a knife just stabbing you in the heart. But, if you are feeling that way right now, I'm here to tell you...we have ALL been there. You aren't alone. And you CAN push through it. Personally, I needed some help in the form of medication. There is no shame in that...it really helped me and got me to a point where I was positive enough to be able to think, "You know...maybe I could walk a bit."

You're not alone. You can do this. You REALLY can. Just don't give up. Just keep going. Please keep going.

I watched a video blog this morning and literally got the chills because this guy (one of my favorites on SparkPeople) was talking to exactly this issue of feeling discouraged. I know it's 8 minutes long, but you guys...if you are discouraged, I promise this will encourage you. You really should check it out.

www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_jo
urnal.asp?id=JOHNTJ1


All that to say...I'm not doing this from willpower alone. I'm doing this from a place of pain, where I endured quite a lot of emotional turmoil and gained some strength from going through the dark places. Your struggles can and will be used to fuel your future successes.

When I cross that finish line tomorrow, it will be a victory in the face of my accident. It will signify that I am no longer defined by my past or my limitations.

I know we hear this a lot, but it's the truth...if I can do this, so can you. And we can do this together.

  
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ALIDOSHA 6/3/2012 10:31AM

    Thank you!

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MANILUS 6/3/2012 8:29AM

    Very inspirational! You are correct in the past trauma fueling the present success. I have many traumas that have made me out to be the strong willed survivor I am today. So nice to hear a story that I can relate to. Run girl, run!!!

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SERASARA 5/28/2012 10:10AM

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TREATL 5/28/2012 12:16AM

    A very inspiring blog! Thank you!...and Happy Memorial Day! emoticon

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JSCHARF 5/28/2012 12:10AM

    Thanks for providing me inspiration when I needed it the most...

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KPETSCHE 5/27/2012 11:43PM

    Wow, thanks for being so open and sharing your story with us. A person just doesn't realize what someone has gone through until they hear "the real story" behind the story. You have overcome so much already. Keep up your great work.

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KSM1634 5/27/2012 11:16PM

    Thank you for sharing. This blog is right on the money for me and where I am in my getting healthy journey. It is funny how we can here the same message from many sources. Just this morning the Pastor was speaking on how dissatisfaction can be your inspiration for change

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JULIA1154 5/27/2012 10:50PM

  Thank you for your thoughtful and helpful blog.

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MISHBLEZ 5/27/2012 8:29PM

    Amen, my father was bipolar; not an easy life at all. In fact, mine sounds quite similar. Good for you and all the positive steps you're taking to turn lemons into lemonade. Thank you for sharing.

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JUDYLY 5/27/2012 8:24PM

  A heart felt thank- you

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CHICAT63 5/27/2012 6:36PM

    Thank you for sharing, as you can see by the responses we are here to support you. My ex-husband was bi-polar had both alcohol and prescription addictions, unfortunately he past away at the age of 43 (only 3 years). Always look forward and not back....Hugs, Josée

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CUDDLYPOLARBEAR 5/27/2012 3:57PM

    Thank you for sharing....

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ANDYLIN90 5/27/2012 1:38PM

    This blog is so full of insightful truths. It certainly confirms we all have our dark moments and times of discouragement, but what is so important is we can get through them, accept our losses and go on. Weight loss, weight management will always be a work in progress for me. This blog was inspiring to me; thanks for posting!

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MSROZZIE 5/27/2012 12:07PM

    What incite, with your drive, determination and positive mental attitude you are already a success. Liked your honesty and openness. Keep the FAITH! emoticon emoticon

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HONEYPOT319 5/27/2012 11:04AM

    Thank you for sharing your pain and your victory overcoming it! I can relate to a lot of your story. I definitely substituted addictions the last time I lost 40 lbs I substituted exercise and healthy snacks for my tobacco addiction. It worked for about a year. Then through my own emotional turmoil and dealing with my husband's diagnosis of terminal cancer, I switched back to my original addiction. :( I have just recently realized that when my Pooh Bear's time here on earth is over, I will still be here, still morbidly overweight and addicted but without him here to support me. I made a change! I am going to do this! For me! I deserve it! I still struggle with depression about his cancer, I still struggle with my addiction to tobacco, but I have made permanent changes to my lifestyle and way of eating that will benefit me in the long run! Thanks again for sharing your story. :)

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BAKERBARBARA 5/27/2012 10:43AM

    Amazing story!!! Thank you for sharing it!!!

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TERRIPAL1 5/27/2012 10:28AM

    Thanks for sharing, beautiful blog and I will check out the vlog too!
So happy for you that you're in a great place now, and I loved the what you said about "health being an addition" that's a great way to think!

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CRINKLYMONKEY 5/27/2012 9:45AM

    Awesome! Thank you for shairng that. Yes it is hard when all you see are success and you feel like why can everyone else do it but not me. emoticon I am glad that you told us that it all has not been easy for you and that you have your dark moments as well.


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LINDA7668 5/27/2012 9:34AM

    Thank you so much! Although I am losing the weight and getting healthier every day, I still doubt myself. I've never felt that I've had the willpower to do this and always expected to be fat for the rest of my life. I feel better seeing that someone else has lacked willpower at some point.
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BLOOMING52 5/27/2012 7:56AM

    Thank you.

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TRIANGLE-WOMAN 5/27/2012 7:51AM

    You sound like are doing the weight loss the "Inside Out" way...the way it needs to be done if it is going to last.

I too have no will power this time around, only desire and intent. It is so much less intense and "brutal" this time around and so much easier due to inspiring stories like you!

No jealously from me, only appreciation, because I know I CAN have what you have!

Keep reminding me of that! Keep sharing!

-M

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KIPPER15 5/27/2012 6:46AM

    Thank you for a great blog, very personal and very honest. It always helps to know that we are not alone in our problems and set backs. emoticon

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BESSHAILE 5/27/2012 6:10AM

    wow

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LIBRARYBELL1 5/27/2012 12:24AM

    Thank you for sharing your story. The things you say mean a lot to all of us. It just all makes sense. I'm sorry that you went through such pain in your childhood and with your accident. I'm glad you're better now. And thank goodness you are breaking the cycle and not passing on the abuse to your children. That's a huge thing that you are doing in your life. Anyway...thank you for sharing.

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LOGOULD 5/26/2012 11:11PM

    Thanks for being so real and raw and vulnerable and letting us all know that its okay to not be 100% cheery sunshine all the time. We can still muddle through and one day we'll be the victors. Best wishes tomorrow - can't wait to read the report!

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GARDENSTAR 5/26/2012 7:26PM

    great blog. There are days I need to see stories like that.

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BLESSEDBEING 5/26/2012 7:09PM

    Thank you for such a powerful blog. The trauma I'm recovering from is very different--childhood sexual abuse that occurred decades ago, but has fueled PTSD into middle age. It doesn't really matter that the challenges are different. Choosing to make changes in thinking and behavior that lead to greater health and wholeness is what we are all here to do.

I applaud your successes and your willingness to share your experiences. I wish you continued success and joy on your journey.

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PS: You might enjoy my Be a Warrior blog.

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PCASEY7 5/26/2012 6:35PM

    Great blog, keep up the great writing!

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EFFRAYECHILDE 5/26/2012 5:56PM

    Good blog.

I can relate to whole injury issue. Mine is nowhere as bad as your injury. I flipped a 4-wheeler onto my leg about a month ago and am still healing. No broken bones. But, no intense cardio until all the bruising on my leg is gone. So, I "walk it out" in pool.

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ADVENTURESEEKER 5/26/2012 5:07PM

    Your accident story made me tear up! Through our struggles we do one of two things: fall deeper downwards or emerge stronger than we ever thought we could be. Congrats for emerging as a fighter!

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JIBBIE49 5/26/2012 4:54PM

    emoticonWhat a star, being featured again in the SPark Mail.

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MRSWEEKS01 5/26/2012 2:29PM

    Hey girl!

We are friends on Facebook, in the weight loss group....

I just have to say that you gave me a HUGE shot in the arm today - - - and it was exactly what I needed! Your journey has brought you to where you are today - celebrate it and know that there is nothing you can't achieve!

Here's to many more 5k's and your time will only get BETTER!

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CICELY360 5/26/2012 2:06PM

  I enjoy your blogs.

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MOMMY445 5/26/2012 1:32PM

    thanks for sharing such an amazing blog!

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JSLATE2K 5/26/2012 1:07PM

    Funny how we sometimes get just what we need. This week, I've been lamenting the fact that I have to lay off some of my favorite cardio activity for awhile as a result of a leg injury. Nothing anywhere near as serious as what you went through, although I've been through something very similar over 2 decades ago.

It put my relatively minor injury into perspective. It's something that will heal in a few weeks - not months - and a Spark Friend sent me a link to exercises for people with mobility limitations to help me keep going while it heals. It even includes a seated cardio workout.

How lucky am I that someone pointed me in the right direction the moment I needed it? And how blessed am I that this post was here the moment I was feeling my lowest? Heck, I lost 2 pounds this week, in spite of my leg - I have no room to squawk!

Thanks for writing just what I needed, when I needed it.

~John

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LIVELYGIRL2 5/26/2012 12:16PM

  Wow, this is what makes others see that they too can change and transformed to new beginnings.You have guts to share ....we thank you. emoticon emoticon

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MIMIDOT 5/26/2012 11:42AM

    Thank you for your wonderful blog. I needed to read it today. You're the best! Good luck!

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PYTPUTT07 5/26/2012 11:21AM

    Thank you for your honesty...it takes a lot of courage to be so honest!

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TONYVAND1 5/26/2012 10:57AM

  Thanks for sharing and all the best

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NSTARSMITH 5/26/2012 10:22AM

    Yeah, pain and darkness and the trudge through them toward the faintest glimmer of light ahead - been there, done that. Maybe will again someday - who knows what life holds? God willing, I will grow through it all whatever comes! You are an inspiration! Thank you for blogging about your terrible and wonderful trial and comeback!

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NEWMOM20121 5/26/2012 8:41AM

    Thank you so much for sharing. Wonderful

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BIRDLSLAURIE 5/26/2012 8:24AM

    Thanks for sharing on such a personal level. Yes, we can do it!

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When The Virtual Becomes Reality

Thursday, May 24, 2012

You know, I've found myself spending a lot more time on this site over the past few weeks.

When I first started, I would do the basics every day - log my food and exercise, and get as many points as I could and that would be that. I never even bothered to check out the Friend Feed and I rarely read anyone's blog posts. It was pretty much a bare bones approach to SparkPeople. It's not that I didn't think everyone on here was nice or I didn't enjoy adding SparkFriends. I did. I had a couple SparkFriends that I recognized because they frequented my Team message boards, but not too many. It's just that it didn't seem REAL. It was a virtual world with a bunch of people I'd never met and probably never would and this virtual world wasn't part of MY world.

But then things took a super sharp turn. I recall a few weeks ago deciding to just browse through the Friend Feed because I had received some SparkGoodies and sweet messages from a couple people I didn't know. Went through and liked a few statuses...checked out a couple blogs and left some comments. And it was kind of fun. I mean, I'm a self-proclaimed Facebook addict, so I know how this all goes. But still...I thought, "I'm already addicted to FB and Twitter...do I really want ANOTHER social media site? This is why I am not on LinkedIn yet or Tumblr. Can't manage them all!"

Then came what I like to call "the explosion". There was that blog post about my first run of a distance of 5k. I am not sure what it was that was so popular about that one, but I suddenly had an inbox blowing up with comments and gifts and kind words. I have received 390 comments on this one blog entry! As this was my first experience like this, I felt so touched and I vowed to write a personal note to every single person that commented on this blog. Well, I made that commitment when there were about 85 comments. Haha. I believe I managed about 300 return comments. But, man...things started taking off and once I was awarded "Motivator", I could no longer keep up. However, through that crazy few days, I managed to add about 150 SparkFriends (and continue to add each day).

In response to that blog, I realized that all of you are so very REAL and so many people are in need of encouragement and inspiration and most of us are all in the same boat, no matter where we live or what our circumstances in life may be.

I have been up to date on my Friend Feed for the past week. I don't miss a post!!! Yes, I see you all out there! I like any status where someone spins 20 or more. I like ALL statuses of people receiving fitness minute awards and any status that shows someone has worked out or feels great about their health. It's just a "like"...but I see it as a little bit of encouragement that I can give to my friends here on SparkPeople...an "atta girl/atta boy...keep on keepin on!" if you will. I really do read every blog that comes across my Friend Feed now. Don't always comment, but if it resonates with me, I certainly will. I wasn't too involved in my Teams before, but now I am finding new friends there every day as well.

And what has happened as a result of one decision to read through a Friend Feed? I can't even explain it to you. Somehow, this melee of random virtual profiles has transformed into living, breathing, phone talking, text messaging, Facebook friending, struggle sharing, motivation giving, REAL LIFE frienships in MY real world! A divide has been crossed and, somehow, this community is REAL now!

It is the motivation I receive from all my SparkFriends that keeps me positive and keeps me writing these blogs. It's incredibly circular the way this works! I truly believe that, without you, I would not have the motivation that I have or be able to provide any motivation at all.

Thank you so much for being true friends. For being there for me and allowing me to be there for you. Now...Spark on, friends!!! It's a beautiful day!!! I'll catch you on the Friend Feed, eh?

  
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JULIA1154 5/26/2012 11:03PM

  You sound like a very thoughtful and generous person. I'm so glad to have "met" you on SP.

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WEARINGTHIN 5/26/2012 4:09PM

    I joined over a year ago, but didn't really get active with Spark until March, and started my new food plan on March 30th. I haven't been commenting on blogs. This might be my first one. I am glad you have had success in connecting with people, and hope somehow all of this has contributed to your weight loss and fitness efforts. Glenn

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SCRAPPINPOLLY 5/26/2012 12:57PM

    I've been slowly doing that too. Keep up the great work!

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CAROLZ1967 5/26/2012 9:57AM

    I slowly started doing more and more on here too & love it all. Like you, I used it mainly for logging and points at first. The way I started making actual "friends" was actually through trying to earn more points, by "commenting on blogs". And my comments led to return comments and then becoming spark friends! And like you, I then discovered the joy of the "friend feed" and also use it to keep tabs on what they are up to and reading their blogs. I love it all! :-)

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REENIE131 5/25/2012 10:16PM

    Isn't it amazing how people you've never met can become so important to you?

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PCASEY7 5/25/2012 4:57PM

    Great blog! I'm starting to feel that way myself and getting more involved and we'll see where that takes me.

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TERRIJ7 5/25/2012 12:11PM

    I agree! I don't do Twitter or Pinterest, but enjoy time on FB every day. My spark teams and the friends I've made there are as real as many I have in real life. Congrats on becoming "Motivator"

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CICELY360 5/25/2012 10:54AM

  Good blog.

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REGILIEH 5/25/2012 10:05AM

    TY!

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TATTER3 5/25/2012 9:39AM

    The interest you show to others and the time you take to give of yourself is what makes you the star that you are!!! Keep Sparkin'!!!Good job!

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SJKENT1 5/25/2012 9:35AM

    Lifelines... yes!

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BIRDLSLAURIE 5/25/2012 9:33AM

    Sometimes this may be like a lifeline for some who are trying so hard to achieve a goal and it is nice to think that someone cares enough to reach out even if it is "just a like". Thank you for caring.

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TANYA602 5/25/2012 9:19AM

    I feel your sentiments exactly! The same thing clicked with me about a month ago when I discovered I was more interested in the SP friend feeds and points and tracking than I was in what was happening on FB. As I read more and more success stories, I am more and more able to tell myself that I, too, can lose the weight, get my health back on track, and that it will take time and hard work.
Congratulations on your rock star success! You ARE a true motivator!
Have a great weekend!

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EFFRAYECHILDE 5/25/2012 8:33AM

    SP is awesome. I am getting into logging on about 5 days out of week . When first, it was only 1 to 3 times. Soon, I hope it will be every day.

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FARIS71 5/25/2012 8:25AM

    I will have to investigate this friend feed. I'm not to savvy on here yet.

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BERI03 5/25/2012 6:46AM

    emoticon I am also getting into the commenting and Friend Feed checking and I love it!

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GRAMPIAN 5/25/2012 6:25AM

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FRESKA 5/25/2012 5:59AM

    sounds great! i dont know how so many people SEEN your blog!? i feel invisible on here! lol or maybe i'm just not that interesting. lol emoticon
maybe i need to join a different team or two? i'll pour my little heart out (well for me to share this stuff is personal, maybe not terribly emotional or something) anyway and then i'm waiting.. and crickets.. crickets.. and i'm like ok. ?? maybe i'm just a dud at this blog stuff. lol
but thankfully a few friends like you do check in and see that i'm sharing and progressing. and it means a lot to me! SO emoticon BACK emoticon :) and i do remember that . suddenly your friend list was like 20 something. then the next time i looked it blew up! lol i was like WHOA! miss popularity is here!! emoticon
congrats on your blog of the day awards too! You are doing amazing!
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NCSUE0514 5/25/2012 5:41AM

    I'm beginning to struggle a bit, so I'm javascript:void(0);trying to become ore involved in SP

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SUSANK16 5/25/2012 5:26AM

  virtual life is interesting, isn't it?

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    I find myself getting on here, just to see what you have blogged about for the day! Thank you for keeping us motivated and inspired with your writings! They are awesome! emoticon

Have a fabulous holiday weekend and good luck with your race! :)
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LIZALOT 5/25/2012 5:12AM

    Wow! you're impressive, you really are! I don't interact much, and rarely keep up with all the friend feed info, but you're right, it's a wonderful experience. I must use your inspiration to take a more active part. I don't always comment on what I do either - like the half hour heavy digging in full sun yesterday, for instance.

You are a real motivator, I'll just have to keep on keepin' on!

Hugs

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COURTNEYO5 5/25/2012 4:58AM

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JIBBIE49 5/25/2012 2:06AM

    WOW, once again you're featured in the Spark Mail. What an honor.

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MARATHONDAD 5/24/2012 2:58PM

    it is like a huge family with so much support. I love Spark alot and have made many great friends. Would love to run with lots of them if I could

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LILLITO 5/24/2012 2:22PM

    it does get 'addicting', doesn't it?

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LINDAKAY228 5/24/2012 1:22PM

    My friends online have become so real to me too. It's amazing the support. One is on her way driving now from southern California to where I am in New Mexico to spend a few days with me and visit my area. We've met before face to face but looking so forward because we have found we have so much in common. I can't say enough about my SP friends! Glad you've found the relationships here too!

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RAMONAFLOWERZ 5/24/2012 12:30PM

    honestly, its the friendships i am forging here that are keeping me going on my plan... i have wanted to give up so many times and i've come close - but then a sweet friend will send a message, leave a goodie, a pat on the back and i'm back at it again... sometimes you just need more than just the people around you in real life, you know?

thank you for being such a positive friend!

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SCOTTPILGRIM 5/24/2012 11:43AM

    Glad to have you! Keep it up!

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CALLIKIA 5/24/2012 11:33AM

    I'm with Jeremy. Make sure you balance what you need for yourself with what you feel you should give. I was like you in the beginning and thought I'd reply to everyone all the time, but after a while that just got to be too much and it was taking away from time that I was needing to spend on me and what I needed to make the changes and adjustments in my healthy life. That being said, isn't it nice to start to build a core group of people you can count on to encourage, support, and even just recognize you when you fly by? I think the community aspect is the thing that sets SP apart from a lot of other "weight loss help sites" out there.

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RUN_BAKE_BLOG 5/24/2012 11:02AM

    I am glad you went from my Spark Friend to my Real Friend.
Virtual Leah was cool, but Real Leah ROCKS!!!
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JEREMY723 5/24/2012 11:00AM

    Don't overdo things and stress or wear yourself out. It's ok not to respond, to take time for yourself, etc. Just be careful to not wear yourself out:)

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DANILYNNG 5/24/2012 10:56AM

    I go through and comment on any weight losses, positive exercise comments, fitness minute milestones - I figure, I love it when somebody notices that I lost 1 pound, why wouldn't they? Besides, I'm going to be meeting some of my Spark buddies... I decided to run a race in Indianapolis, for some loony tune reason! emoticon

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Don't Worry, Mom...I'm ALIVE!

Wednesday, May 23, 2012

Well, I've been sitting here rubbing my eyes and trying to figure this blog out for a little while now. Usually, I create my entire blog in my head during my morning run. But, today I was focused on the run and nothing else.

I had heard there was a 5k/10k coming up here in my town on Saturday, but had dismissed it because, you know, MY first 5k isn't until July 28th. However, I received an e-mail yesterday from a personal trainer friend from church (she actually led the "Made To Crave" study that I was in that started me on this whole healthy lifestyle) and she is giving a presentation on health after the race and wanted to know if I'd come watch. Suddenly, the idea that I'd so quickly tossed aside a week ago began to turn itself over in my head.

I thought, "Of course I'll go see Julie speak and support her." If I'm going to be there, I might as well go a bit earlier and see all the race day festivities. And, if I'm going to do that, I might as well run the race, seeing as it's the same length that I've been running with no trouble in my training runs for the past couple weeks. And, you know, I probably won't run the entire race. I'll probably walk some of it, but I know for a fact I can finish in under an hour...which isn't bad for a chick who broke 5 bones just two years ago. This could be a really big victory for me. And it would be some good experience for future races. And, I mean...it's right in my backyard. I don't have to drive anywhere or get up super early. Ohhhhhh.....ok...."REGISTER". Done.

I've done my due diligence and research and tapered my run this morning down to just 2 miles (man, that felt short!) And tomorrow will be a complete rest day...healthy eating, to bed as early as possible. Friday, a short 20 minute run with some speed bursts. As good of sleep as I can get on Friday, then it's Race Day. Through all of this, I will be hydrating like a monster because the high on Saturday will be 94 degrees, sunny and 0% chance of rain. I don't expect it to be too bad when the race starts at 9:30am and, luckily, it's just a short 3.1. Nevertheless, I am already hydrating.

I texted my family last night (mom, stepdad, sisters) to tell them what I had so flippantly decided to do. My mom was quite worried, but we ended up having a great chat after that and I guess I can share some of that...perhaps it will give you some insight into what this sport means to me now. Perhaps it will resonate wtih you...or remind you of another activity in your own life that brings you just as much joy. Plus, I love to be nosy and read other people's texts. Haha.

MOM:
Are you conditioned for the run? Remember to hydrate well before, during and after the run. Please take it easy and at a realistic pace! The goal is to "finish the race", not be the first to finish. To meet your goal, you will need to run a mile in 15 minutes.

ME:
Mom. I am conditioned. I've been running for a month under a certified personal trainer's guidance. I am laser focused on my injuries and listening to my body cues now. I run a 5k as my normal practice short run. It's not that hard. I am training for a half marathon next May. I normally run 5k in 43 minutes and usually don't push too hard. But if I don't get 40, who cares? I will have finished a 5k in under an hour just 2 years after a devastating accident. That will be sweet victory.

MOM:
Well, I guess I need say no more. I did not know you were training. I am so proud of you and, judging from what you have shared with me, your goal is attainable.

ME:
You're a cute mommy to worry. :) My body has completely transformed in the past 4 weeks. I can feel it. And see it. I feel like a brand new person. Confident, beautiful and completely EMPOWERED. It's amazing! I've never been more happy in my entire life. I am literally GLOWING.

MOM:
No more antidepressants. :) Sometimes depression is chemical, hormonal and/or environmental with life stressors. Sometimes all it takes is a little help getting to the normal level and then one can learn to cope and manage the depression without meds. You don't have to live with the generational baggage anymore.

ME:
Yeah. Running has released a lot of emotions. It has almost changed me emotionally and spiritually more than it has physically. I didn't expect that. I never want to get up and do it, but the second I get outside and that 6am burst of dawn hits my lungs...it's instant energy. I work a lot of things out in my head while I'm running.

MOM:
I'm so proud of you.

ME:
I cannot believe I'm a runner and pretty much on my way to becoming an athlete in a sport. It's crazy! I never thought this would be possible at my weight and with my past injuries...but these excuses were just smokescreens and not real. They were lies, based on FEAR.

{Aaaand...scene.}

Whatever it is that fulfills you the way running does me, I hope you find it. And I hope you do it for the rest of your life. There's just nothing more thrilling than feeling truly alive...and I wish for that for every one of you.

If there's any way I can help you, you guys know how to find me.

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AMURDOCK68 5/28/2012 9:53AM

    Great blog post. Thank you sharing. I will have to look on ahead and see how your run went. :)

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PRAYINGSUZIE 5/26/2012 1:40PM

    Good luck! You are very brave to do a race!

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IBECCA 5/26/2012 1:23AM

    I am proud for you!

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EBEAMS 5/25/2012 11:06PM

    I love running too ... Congrats on deciding to just go for it! That is AWESOME!

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JULIA1154 5/25/2012 6:37PM

  Your mom sounds terrific. I hope you know how lucky you are to have her.

Enjoy your run!!

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JKPONYGIRL 5/25/2012 6:13PM

    wow - thanks for sharing that conversation.
you'll do GREAT tomorrow!
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ONEATATIME3 5/25/2012 3:48PM

  Good Luck with your5k emoticon

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KATELOSS2009 5/25/2012 3:37PM

    moms never stop worrying... LOL... you did a great job of rationally explaining why you were going to be ok, which probably helped her a LOT.

and WAY TO GO on getting into the 5k so much earlier than planned!! you rock!!!

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JEANNINEMM68 5/25/2012 2:35PM

    I am sure that you will do great Good Luck!

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MANILUS 5/25/2012 12:54PM

    Zumba is my passion! Sounds like a great conversation with mom. I am so happy for you!!!!

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GRRARRGH 5/25/2012 11:33AM

    Good Luck!!!

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GOING-STRONG 5/25/2012 11:27AM

    I took up running last year after walking for several years. Boy, I sure do wish I had started earlier as running has so many positives. Good luck on the 5k. I ran my first Half in April and it was challenging but doable. For sure I will be doing more. Right now I'm thinking the Rock n Roll Vegas in December. You get to run down the Strip at night! Might as well have fun with this stuff! Spark on!

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LIVEINZEN 5/25/2012 9:56AM

    What a wonderful and inspiring post. I can feel the energy and the joy emanating from your words and it lifted me up just by reading.

With your can do approach there will be nothing stopping you.

WTG!

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GROWNINOP 5/25/2012 9:29AM

  Good luck!

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KITKABOO 5/25/2012 7:46AM

    You continue to inspire me, such a positive outlook.

Such amazing achievements emoticon

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CAROLZ1967 5/25/2012 7:18AM

    I love running and how it makes me feel too! I prefer to run outside like you but with 3 young kids and wanting to do my workouts (week days) while they SLEEP, I alternate btwn my treadmill and elliptical. But on wkends & hubby's vacation days (home in early AM), I get a longer run outside & cherish it. I have had knee problems so I am very careful and do some walking too, to prevent another injury. But I'd LOVE to try a Half Marathon. Your blog is making me want to try....can't hurt right?! I mean, if I'm careful...just stop training for it if my knee starts to act up. So thanks for your motivational blog! I felt like I was right there with you and your mom and feeling the same way. :-) I'm very happy for you. You should be very proud of yourself!

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THISTIMEMYWAY 5/25/2012 7:03AM

    Thank you for sharing! You are doing so well! I am happy for you that it has helped decrease the depression. Whenever I run, my head is so clear during the day. It's an amazing feeling! emoticon emoticon

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LAURANCE 5/25/2012 6:55AM

  Good for you! You inspire us to get out there and do our exercise. And for those of us who cannot run (doctor said No after I had my knee replacement), there is vigorous walking.

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SDORTON2 5/25/2012 6:47AM

  I have been thinking I really need to start running. This is encouraging. emoticon

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RUNNERRACHEL 5/25/2012 1:21AM

    What a great blog. I love that you love running so much and that running has so many unexpected benefits for you! emoticon

I look forward to reading more of your blogs!

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MARYJEANSL 5/24/2012 10:58PM

  Have fun on your run! Best of luck!

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KBRADFORD88 5/24/2012 10:17PM

    Sorry I missed this blog before I posted my crazy status reply. You will do awesome. I know it.

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LOGOULD 5/24/2012 9:46PM

    You're going to do emoticon

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CICELY360 5/24/2012 9:45PM

  Good blog

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ELIZABETH160 5/24/2012 8:40PM

    Awesome! I have been bitten with the running bug, but it is really hard on my knees so I am taking things slow for not, just doing a little every time I am on the treadmill. But you're doing really well, and it's good that your mom supports you! Has the personal trainer helped a lot? I have been thinking about finding someone, but I'm wary... Hoping that I will get a lot out of it if I'm spending so much money!

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LIVELYGIRL2 5/24/2012 1:51PM

  Good for you emoticon emoticon

Run on bye, I wish I could watch.

You have accomplished quit alot in such a short period. I mean, walking, running, blogging, starting a group and goal. I am amazed, aren't you Sparkers? emoticon

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SATCHMO99 5/24/2012 1:11PM

    Your mom's proud of you, we're proud of you, but MOST importantly, YOU are proud of you!

Running always helps me shift my depressive thoughts. At my lowest point I went out the door crying, started to run, stopped crying, whenever I stopped running i started crying again, so I kept running for twice my normal distance. Strangely enough, I wasn't crying when I walked back in the door :-)

xx

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MAMALOVEBUG 5/24/2012 11:30AM

    Thanks for sharing this and best of luck on your race!!!!

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LINROSIE 5/24/2012 11:17AM

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EUEK098 5/24/2012 10:42AM

    emoticon you signed up for an earlier race, better now than later i say, let us know how you, and please please stay hydrated.

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SHOAPIE 5/24/2012 10:37AM

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EFFRAYECHILDE 5/24/2012 10:10AM

    Way to go, girl.

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MIMIDOT 5/24/2012 9:42AM

    You can do it! Thank you for the great blog. You're lucky to have such a caring and understanding Mom.

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VOLLEYGIRL77 5/24/2012 9:41AM

    Good luck!! And it's great you have a supportive mother!

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REBOFKELDON 5/24/2012 9:30AM

  seize the moment emoticon

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PICKLEDBEETS 5/24/2012 9:07AM

    Great conversation. Your mom sounds awesome! Keep up the good work.

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CLAYARTIST 5/24/2012 8:31AM

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STEADFASTNSEE 5/24/2012 8:29AM

  Proud of your accomplishments! HUGS

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ROUNDTOWNMOM 5/24/2012 8:23AM

    YOU GO GIRL!!! I agree with ON2VICORY........you are just gonna "rawk" this race!

Hard work!

Dedication!

NO EXCUSES!!


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