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Text From Dad

Wednesday, May 11, 2011

My Dad went back to San Diego a couple days ago. At 3am, I received this unusually emotional text from him:

I love you so much. You're my "baby Leah". I was there when you were born. I cut your umbilical cord. I'll never judge you or disparage you. You can always tell me what you're feeling. Please call or text me anytime. I don't ever want you to feel isolated. You're not.

Wow. That is just EXACTLY what I needed to hear today. *tears*

  
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AWOOD1973 5/12/2011 5:04AM

    I wish my dad was around to say those words... I miss him everyday! Cherish every moment that he is on this earth, to give you encouragement and love. I'm glad you have him to lean on when you aren't feeling so great! Things will get better for you. Pick yourself up and dust yourself off! You matter! Have a great week! emoticon

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MARVEEME 5/11/2011 8:40AM

    Fantastic! I'm so happy for you. Nothin' like knowing Dad loves, understands, and cares about you so deeply. You're very lucky to have a Dad like that, so treasure him.

I completely understand how your Dad feels about you, and how hopeless he can sometimes feel when he can't protect you from the daggers of the battle of everyday life. It's a "parent" thing, ya know? Keep holding on to this feeling, and make sure you can reach for it the next time he says/does something that ticks you off, willya? Life is short.

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CAM2438 5/11/2011 7:43AM

    That was wonderful!!

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JEDIGYRL 5/11/2011 7:30AM

    Wow, that is so sweet. Also he's thinking about you in the middle of the night. You're very lucky.

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Down

Monday, May 09, 2011

Man, I am just not myself. I am feeling so down lately. I have struggled with depression before and I am on medication for it. The medication usually works, but it just hasn't been cutting it lately. I'm just so overwhelmed with marital and work stress...I just feel sad.

I am thinking about doing two things to remedy this. I thought about calling the Employee Assistance Program through my job to see if I can get some free counseling sessions. And I also was thinking of forcing myself to actually use the SparkPeople meal plans. What a handy dandy feature that is...you can even substitute for things you don't care for and print out a grocery list!!! How cool!!! I really thought I could stay on track on my own but I just haven't been able to do it!

So I think I'll try that. At least then, I will know that I will not be going over on my calories. I think I'll go ahead and try to start that next week. It will take me quite some time to plan the first week of meals out and get all the groceries, etc.

Wish me luck!

  
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FATBUSTINMOM 5/10/2011 2:03PM

    Sorry you're feeling down emoticon
I use the meal plan and love it! When I make my own substitutions that aren't on the list, I just try to make sure it's close in calories. The grocery list feature is great! I had a little trouble figuring out the dinners, since they are for 1 serving only and I like to make enough for my husband and daughter, but I wasn't exactly good in math, lol!

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LOIDAEG 5/10/2011 2:52AM

    Good luck But I think you can do it!!! :) I'll be using the meal plan this summer in the States. So much easier when you got access to the foods it says on the list :) You'll do great!!

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MARVEEME 5/9/2011 10:35PM

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LUCK! Looks like you've got a handle on solving the issues before you, so it's more than just luck, it's implementation and success! BLESSINGS!

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Gross

Friday, May 06, 2011

Yesterday, I got a verbal warning from my boss at work about my so-called "poor performance". Never mind that I just had ONE off day and the rest of the time I've been here I've been a complete superstar. He said if it wouldn't have been ME...the consequences would have been more severe than a verbal warning. Ugh.

And it just so happened that my company had a free Mexican buffet for lunch in honor of Cinco de Mayo. Literally about 15 minutes after this delightful encounter with my boss. Ummm....emotional eating much??? Yeah, it was not pretty.

Then, we had to pick my Dad up from the airport because he flew in from California to visit us. He's staying until Monday. Of course, he was starving after flying all day and what did he HAVE to have? White Castle. I challenge you to find ANYTHING healthy from that place. And, anyway, whatever. I didn't care. I was still so angry.

I went at least 1,000 calories over yesterday. I had some WACKY dreams and my stomach is not happy this morning. I feel sad and down and gross and I know that it's all wrapped up into one bad health package.

One day can make a difference. It really can.

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AMJSATURN 5/8/2011 9:48PM

    Take one day at a time. Put it behind you!!
Don't sweat the small stuff.
I bet things are looking better already. emoticon

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MARVEEME 5/6/2011 11:13PM

    Show him what you GOT, baby! Kick start your game plan to live longer by showing HIM HOW! Teach him to cook GREAT HEALTHY meals.................YOU CAN TEACH DAD NEW TRICKS...............HE ALREADY LOVES YOU, AND WANTS YOU TO WAIT ON HIM, BUT GIVE HIM A GIFT HE CAN TAKE HOME.................KNOWLEDGE. You'll be glad you did this FOR and TO him............I was, and Daddy lived until he was 85!

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BETRME100 5/6/2011 10:46PM

    Sorry you had to deal with that. I know I would have run right to the food had I been in your situation. I hope today was a better day for you...have a nice visit with your father!

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SPARKYEG 5/6/2011 2:59PM

    Yep, the food hangover. It is so not fun. Chug that water to help get rid of the bloat. Enjoy the weekend with your dad! Today you can make better choices. I hope work is better for you soon. It's not worth beating yourself up over it. Take care of yourself!
--Sarah

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JOJOSZENT 5/6/2011 10:19AM

    Breathe, things will be better today.

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OILMANDREW 5/6/2011 9:47AM

    You'll rock it today though...hang in there!

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Broke My Own Record

Wednesday, May 04, 2011

So, I walked the trail tonight. Four miles, but this time I really pushed myself to see how fast I could do it. I usually slow down and kind of goof off for the last half mile or so, but this time I went full speed the entire time. I was able to do four 16-minute miles, which is really a big deal for me. I would say I generally usually do four 22-minute miles, so this is definitely a personal best.

Aside from a few muscle locks during stretching afterwards, my body feels amazing.

It was hard work. But it was worth it.

  
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MARVEEME 5/4/2011 10:40PM

    You are on FIRE, girlfriend! I'm proud of you!


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FINALLY BACK ON TRACK!

Tuesday, May 03, 2011

OK, this is a short one today. Just a little celebration for the first day that I've come in under calories in over 2 weeks! I feel amazing today!

I'M BACK!!!!!!

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MARVEEME 5/3/2011 12:07PM

    AWESOME! I'm doin' the happy dance for ya!

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