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Lessons I've Learned in 100+lbs (Part 2)

Saturday, June 05, 2010

Here is the second part of the lessons that I have learned over the course of my weight loss. For me they have become more than lessons - sometimes I need to remember how far I've come, so that I can continue on this weight loss journey (sometimes it's a bumpy road!!)

14. Moderation. Moderation. Moderation. Did I mentioned…moderation?

15. The stove/oven in my kitchen is more than just a clock and timer. It can be used to cook meals – healthy meals….

16. Donuts, cakes and candy will ALWAYS exist. I do not have to eat them daily. I will not singlehandedly cause the collapse of the junk food industry.

17. Eating healthy is not a punishment.

18. When I don’t want to go out and do “it” – meaning exercise - I remind myself there is absolutely no legitimate excuse for why I can’t (granted, I don’t have kids!).

19. That thinking about going out and doing “it” –exercise-, is far worse than actually going and doing “it”…

20. Very few people will fully understand why this has been a struggle. It is outside of the normal definition of “struggle” – it does not involve smoking, alcohol, finances, etc. And yet, getting my eating under control and learning to live healthy, has been one of the hardest struggles I have ever faced.

21. That I’m lucky. I never developed diabetes, joint problems, or a sundry of other obesity-related health issues. I was playing with fire…

22. Compliments are a powerful thing. When a random friend says “Wow – you look great!” it makes the struggle seem so much more fulfilling.

23. Anonymity is also a powerful thing. When friends don’t recognize me, due to the weight loss, there is a whole other sense of self fulfilment.

24. That no one really understands how life altering this journey is – unless they have been down this road. It’s the same with most other substantial journeys. It has been an emotional rollercoaster, and yes, I have cried. There have been days where the weight has not come off fast enough, that I feel like I am fat, ugly, etc. The scars of having been chastised for being obese DO NOT wear away over night – but I am confident that one day I will look in the mirror and not see rolls.

25. Strangely enough, that my stomach is actually grosser having lost over 100 pounds, than it was at the beginning. Yes, saggy skin is not pretty. If saggy skin and stretch marks are the worst things I have to deal with, life is pretty good.

26. That if I succeed (and I have 45 pounds to go), I can do anything. Wait! No…. I have come this far – I can do anything NOW.

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    I love moderation, moderation, moderation.... that has been one of the key words in my new journey this last few weeks. Thank you for sharing and congratulations on your weight loss this far!


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YVETTE120 6/6/2010 1:54PM

  I really enjoyed reading this blog and you are rght the saggy skin is not the most important thing it is what you have accomplished so far. Sagging skin is just your battle scars. I applaud you. emoticon

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STILLSLIM 6/5/2010 11:44PM

    Love it. Thank you. emoticon

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RAINBOWMF 6/5/2010 10:21PM

    Loved blog 1 and 2 they were great.

Always remember you have removed the weight, never to find it again. I always use the word remove because I never want to find it again-- like in lost!

When you succeed in removing your last 45, I will be here to celebrate with you. Maybe even remove 40 with you!

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ELSEEBEE 6/5/2010 8:42PM

    Your two blogs have been wonderful! Your sense of humor and great attitude shine forth from every sentence. Thank you for sharing with us!

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PATTYCAKE17 6/5/2010 6:53PM

    Great blog! So encouraging to see you succeed because I know the struggle is worth it. Keep up the good work, and the blogs! emoticon

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CHIFANG130 6/5/2010 4:59PM

    Your stove/oven is more than a clocker and timer comment cracks me up. Thanks so much for sharing your right on target lessons learned. Congratulations on making this far it to your weight loss goal! What an inspiration!

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WILD4STARS 6/5/2010 4:23PM

    What an inspiration you are. That's for a great blog.

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JESSSPARK 6/5/2010 4:06PM

    Loved this blog. Thanks for sharing! :)

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Things I've Learned in 100+ Pounds

Sunday, May 23, 2010

I've been working on a list of lessons I've learned over the duration of my weight loss. I'll be breaking it up, as it's too long for one blog entry. Enjoy :)

I've Learned:

1. I could learn to eat (and like) fruit. Three years ago, you would never have caught me with an apple, banana, or basically any food that came from a tree (unless it was pureed with alcohol). Now, not a day goes by that I don’t have at least one or two pieces – and actually enjoy them.

2. I could learn to crave green things (which is better than saying: “I could learn to crave foods that are not covered in icing, sugar, chocolate, etc”). Over the course of two years I have started to crave lettuce, spinach, asparagus and broccoli. If it’s green, layer it on! And who knew that spinach and asparagus are quite tasty?

3. That I would feel guilty when I snuck a donut or cupcake – 2 years ago these were my staple snacks; there were days I would go through the drive thru and order 2 donuts to eat on my way home from work. No more.

4. That it’s not selfish to put ME first, so that I can work out, eat healthy and take care of me. I used to feel guilty when I wanted to work out as opposed to go and do things with friends. But you know what? I want to live to a ripe old age, and at 300+ pounds (and 5’5) I likely would not have. If I need to work out to be healthy and continue to lose weight, that’s OK.

5. That I could learn to crave working out. The energy I get, and sense of fulfilment that I feel from running, makes it worth every minute.

6. That being smelly post-work out would make me feel good – and that I do not care who smells me! It means I accomplished something, and sometimes that’s worth sharing (even if others don’t like it). That funk you smell is ME!

7. Guess what? Clothes come in colours OTHER THAN black. And guess what else? It’s kind of fun to experiment with colour.

8. Related to 6 – it’s also kind of fun to shop in stores that are not exclusively plus-sized. Especially when the cost of an entire OUTFIT is less than a pair of plus-sized pants.

9. That I would have to learn to shut my mouth – oh yes, I said it. At over 300 pounds, when someone would either “kindly” or rudely suggested that I needed to lose weight, I would be hurt. Now I have to keep from confronting individuals in the same position that I was in 2007 – it did not help me to have it pointed out; and no matter how much I want to help others, it’s not my place to do so unless asked.

10. There are muscles and bones under that fat.

11. That the foods I used to adore, make me feel like a sack of excrement. Just because they taste oh-so-delicious, they are not worth the hassle, bloat, etc. I still adore those foods, but my body does not adore them in return. Who knew that eating healthy would make me feel good?

12. That it’s ok to take a day off and just be “normal” – and not always worry about the weight. As long as I remember: ONE DAY OFF CAN MEAN TWO DAYS TO RECOUP.

13. If I don’t buy it, I can’t eat it.

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TRUCKUME 9/27/2010 1:11PM

  Congratulations on your weight loss. Now I have an idea of what to expect, in future comments. I'm still a work in progress.

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YVETTE120 6/6/2010 1:49PM

  I know what you mean about black because one day last week I wore pink and I got a lot of compliments and I was wondering why? then a friend at work told me that I wore nothing but black all the time and that I looked really summery in another color so I am going to buy me some fun colors for the summer emoticon

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CHIFANG130 6/5/2010 5:06PM

    I can so relate to your # 9 comment about keeping my mouth shut and not feel the urge to spread the spark. It's hard because they don't know what they are doing to themselves by being out of shape. But who am I to say they should lose weight.

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LADYLIGHT 6/3/2010 2:00PM

    WOW, I am impressed! You sound Proud and you should be, Congrats!

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RTLINHART 6/3/2010 7:10AM

  Thanks for sharing. Very helpful

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4KIDS_4ME 6/3/2010 2:57AM

    #6 made me LOL. Thanks for sharing your great list!

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NINASYMONE1 6/1/2010 3:34PM

    Now I know what to look forward to!!!

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MAKEDAMNSURE2 6/1/2010 3:08PM

    I like number 7, People at work starting screaming OMG YOU'RE NOT WEARING BLACK!! haha it was a good feeling, you are awesome :D

Comment edited on: 6/1/2010 3:09:25 PM

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YOYO-NOMO 6/1/2010 7:21AM

    great blog - thank you for sharing ang congrats on your success

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LOVEVEGAN 5/31/2010 3:13PM

    Wow this list really hit home. Thanks for putting it in writing,I look forward to the rest of your list.

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LUCYSRAIN 5/31/2010 12:32PM

    You Go Girl!!

Fantastic Blog, something so many of us can relate to and learn from..

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HEALTHY_45 5/31/2010 11:44AM

    Thank you for taking the time to put this list together, it is a great reminder for all of us who are on this journey whether we have 10 pounds or 100+ pounds to lose. emoticon

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MJDEVEREUX 5/31/2010 4:14AM

    How exciting to shop in non-plus-size stores! Those places really do have plus-size price tags. Congratulations on everything.

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FITITGIRL 5/31/2010 2:21AM

    Great and congrats on being featured!

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WOLFKITTY 5/31/2010 1:05AM

    Growth is essential to living. Congrats on all of yours!! Great blog, congrats on being featured! :)


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RAINBOWMF 5/30/2010 9:55PM

    Luv your list, I am going to re-read it again when I have more time.


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SISTERDEAR 5/30/2010 5:42PM

    Wonderful---you put it so well! emoticon

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ALYFITN 5/30/2010 5:33PM

    I love the last one--I don't buy it... i can't eat it. So simple. So true. Great blog! emoticon

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WILD4STARS 5/30/2010 5:22PM

    Great list. I love them all. Thanks for posting.
Happy Sunday and Happy Sparking,

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CAMSMOM918 5/30/2010 9:20AM

    Excellent reminder for us to look at the lessons all around us. I'm still amazed (confused??) that I sit and plot what exercises I'm going to do in the morning when I am alone in the house. Sometimes I stop myself and say "Whoa!" It's a whole different mind set that continually surprises me. I have a long long way to go, but I am inspired by the success stories of others. Thank you for sharing.


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BEHMOM 5/30/2010 8:43AM

  Terrific! I'm awaiting the next list.

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SAMMCMASTERS 5/30/2010 7:11AM

  Thank you. It is always helpful to hear what keeps others going! emoticon

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STILLSLIM 5/30/2010 5:55AM

    I love number 12. It is so true. You have learned a lot. Thank you for sharing

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CAROLYNINJOY1 5/30/2010 3:20AM

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MGRIFFITH32 5/30/2010 2:56AM

    You've learned some awesome things. Thanks for sharing!

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JIBBIE49 5/30/2010 2:25AM

    Good luck at keeping it off. emoticon

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THINLIN07 5/29/2010 11:39PM

    I relate to the plus size clothing shopping. Fortunately I never got to the 300 area but I did get into the 200s. I love the one size fits all. All of what part of me. Getting frusturated because everything you bring into the dressing room is too tight. Glad your liking fruits and veggies now. Congrats on seeing that 100 pounds go.

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TONIABLAKE 5/29/2010 7:30PM

    I got all the way to Lesson 7 before I realized you weren't talking about me. Out with the old: brownies (except No Pudge). In with the new: asparagus (grilled with nothing but salt and black pepper. Yummy.

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    I liked # 1 because until just a few months ago I never ate fruit, in its place would be cookies, cakes, or candy. Not anymore!
Loved your blog!
Thank you for writing it.

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ELSEEBEE 5/29/2010 4:57PM

    Awesome blog! You have summed up so well the lessons to be learned from this journey we are on. Thank you so much for sharing!

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MOMMAPEARLS62 5/29/2010 4:14PM

  Words of wisdom. You go girl!

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DOLLIE6 5/29/2010 2:03PM

    Thanks so much for your encouraging blog. You go girl. You can do anything you set your mind to. You have proved it.

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JULIES_JOURNEY 5/29/2010 1:36PM

    Great blog! It makes me think of what I've learned so far on my short journey!

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KKSTRAIT2010 5/29/2010 1:08PM

    WOW!!!!!!! Great job. This was an awesome blog. I too liked the statement referring to that if you don't buy it, it won't be in your cupboard to eat. An awesome job. emoticon emoticon

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PATTYCAKE17 5/29/2010 10:30AM

    I made it through a very stressful week in good form, but this morning I'm feeling that vague empty hungry feeling. Reading your blog has helped to put things a little more in perspective for me. Thanks for the encouragement. Keep up the good work! emoticon

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CUCKLE 5/29/2010 10:03AM

    Wow, a hundred pounds, you go girl!!!!!!!!!!!!

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2BEEFIT 5/29/2010 9:38AM

    I like the If I don't buy it I won't eat it. I go to the cupboard and there is NOTHING there!

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LINDASDUN 5/29/2010 8:27AM

    Wonderful blog!! I totally agree with the fruits and vegetable points! I haven't been consistent enough with the exercise count that as a "have to", but it is coming. Keep up the great work.

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BECKYANNE1 5/29/2010 8:02AM

    Great Blog! emoticon

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NHAEFELE 5/29/2010 7:58AM

    As someone who still has 90 pounds to lose,it is encouraging to hear from someone who has been there. Thank you for sharing with all of us.

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JEWLZ13 5/29/2010 4:53AM

    Wow... you have such a positive attitude, and you have come a long way. Congratulations on being a healthier, happier person!

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EVER-HOPEFUL 5/29/2010 2:18AM

    emoticonblog and thanks as i am in a bit of pain and feeling down i was eating a chocolate biscuit as i start reading this blog.when i was about half way through i gave my son the other half.it amazing what we do without thinking whwen we are down or stressed.you are right it is better not to buy but try saysing that to my man.having said that i am the one who put it in my mouth,chewed and swallowed.i will have to start being more accountable if i am ever to get to the 100+lbs lost like you.you have done great,can´t wait to read the other blog/blogs accossiated to this one.thanks for the reminder.keep up the good work.

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WANDAC2013 5/28/2010 9:30PM

    Great blog! Congratulations on your success!!!

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WARMSPRINGDAY 5/28/2010 6:26PM

    Interesting what you say about fruits and veggies. You know, the funniest thing happened to me the other day. My husband and I stopped at our local fruit market. I bought veggies, he bought candy. In the past, I would have had that candy bag ripped open the minute we got in the car. Guess what I ripped open! A bag of baby carrots. I just absolutely had to have them! Who would have thought it?

Congrats on the weight lost. I'm following in your footsteps. You are in inspiration.

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ITSALMOST30 5/23/2010 4:30PM

    I can't wait to read installment two. It's funny because I completely agree about fruits and vegetables. I have always like them but now I have to have them. The same goes with exercise. I crave working out and feel odd when I have a day off. I actually look for ways to get all sweaty! Ha ha.

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1GROVES2 5/23/2010 3:07PM

    I like the way you have listed these things...I also agee with #13 the most! yesterday on the message boards ice cream was the topic...well I posted that I did not even go down the ice cream aisle. I quit a 30 year smoking habit (more than 6 yrs. ago) with basically no problem, but leave alone with ice cream....no self control! It has been more than 2 years since I bought ice cream...but that is just it...I can`t buy it because I will eat it and I mean eat it til the who;e carton is done!
Have a great day and I will try to read more of your lessons. emoticon

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Oh fitness...I bleed for you!

Tuesday, March 09, 2010

In the past I've been a bit of a klutz...
There was the time, 2 days into a 6 week backpacking trip, I tripped on a flight of stairs in a quaint hotel in France, and did some serious damage to an ankle - the fact that I had a 40 pound pack strapped to my back didn't help matters. I spend the next four weeks wincing across every cobbled stone and staircase I could find!
I have tripped in potholes, fallen over rocks, fallen face-flat on the stairs of the Pantheon etc...
I am proud to say that my klutziness appeared to be over, especially since I haven't mugged out during any of my runs/jogs - until tonight.
While powering through the last 2 km of an 11 km day, I wiped out on a sidewalk. I am proud to say that I left skin and blood behind. Granted I am scraped up - knee, elbow, hand...and bruised...and sore...but I feel liberated - I have bled for my cause!
Sound strange?
Several years ago, while in a sheep herding trial, I hooked myself on the chain link of a sheep enclosure - which made me proud - I was part of the elite who had bled and was scarred from my "sport".
I thought I was crazy until I spoke to a hardcore football (soccer) fan. If you know footballers, you will understand what it means to be a football supporter - I find this subculture to be absolutely fascinating. My ex, who is a die hard Liverpool fan, summed up the true nature of being a true football fan...
"You can't legitimately claim you support a team, until you have bled for that team."
Apparently he had bled for Liverpool, when a fight broke out between Liverpool fans and Nottingham fans.

And now I get it....
So fitness, I bleed for you...but now if you don't mind, I need to go and tend to my wounds! emoticon

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JRNYFAN 3/15/2010 3:54AM

    I'm glad to see that I'm not the only klutz around. I embarrass myself quite often while in Pilates class or just general walking... tripping over nothing (or my own feet). Blood loss for a healthy lifestyle is a good thing! :) Hope you heal quickly!

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THE_SILVER_OWL 3/10/2010 8:39PM

    My little sister once broke her foot walking across the street wearing platform shoes. It was the day BEFORE she was scheduled to move. Being the big sister, I rode in on my white horse and moved for her. To this day I accuse her of breaking her foot on purpose...
I hope that you heal quickly!

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Donuts...Stop Staring at Me!

Friday, March 05, 2010

I love junk food, carbs, etc. Put a glaze or icing on something, and I will devour it in seconds. Which is why I don't bring these foods in to my home.

That is also why I'm thrilled *sarcasm* by the plate of donuts, cinnamon buns, dessert scones, etc, presently sitting in the kitchen. They are staring at me...tempting me...oh that glaze would taste soooooooo darn good right now.

My boyfriend recently aquired a job in a coffee shop - at the end of the night, any stock that remains is dispersed to the staff.
While I do occassionally bake, I know EXACTLY what goes into my baked goods - coffee shop "baking" isn't exactly healthy, and is somewhat mysterious.

Last night, he proudly came home with a bag of junk, and excitedly exclaimed "Help youself!"


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LDANELIS 3/5/2010 10:05PM

    The problem is - I was lucky when I started this whole weight loss thing (for lack of a better term) - I was living where I could control my urges, because I did the grocery shopping for ME exclusively. If I started banning all of the foods that I can't have, while living with him, he may not be able to eat/indulge/etc. He also didn't know me when I was 300+lbs; he has seen pictures, but I'm not really sure he fathoms them; another person, another time, another place. I'm also not sure he fully comprehends the struggle - he tries to, but I'm not sure it is understandable if you haven't walked down this road.
It's a slippery slope, and a true test of my will power. But let me tell you...if I walk past that plate one more time, I might break :)

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JUST_TRI_IT 3/5/2010 8:21PM

    ARGH!!!!!!! NO fair!!! I say if he wants them, keep them out of the kitchen... and somewhere that does not sabotage your efforts....

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JUST_TRI_IT 3/5/2010 8:21PM

    ARGH!!!!!!! NO fair!!! I say if he wants them, keep them out of the kitchen... and somewhere that does not sabotage your efforts....

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IZZYBEBOP 3/5/2010 3:34PM

    Tell him to stop bringing them home! That's what I do if I know I can't resist something, I just don't buy it. I've actually thrown stuff away because I knew if I got started eating it, I wouldn't be able to stop.

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Finding My Stride

Thursday, March 04, 2010

Alright - so after a very tumultuous month, that culminated with a literal nose dive off the weight loss wagon, it is the first time in nearly 4 weeks that I feel I'm getting back on track.
On Sunday I finally started strength training again - felt good. Monday I started doing crunches again - felt OK at the time (but my muscles are telling me otherwise!! HA!). Finally, tonight, after hemming and hawing, I finally started walking again. When I left "home" I walked/ran an average of 7-9km 5 days a week. Tonight, in my new city, I did 6 km, and I feel great. It was city walking, which is a little less challenging than the terrain I'm used to, but an accomplishment considering I HATE city walking. I put on my music and powered along - I felt free, and was actually smiling at some points. Gradually I will get back to running - I stopped in late December after a storm rendered my route into a sheet of ice; walking was far safer!!
I am slowly starting to re-clean up eating habits and hopefully in a couple of days I will be back to my former, health-conscious self!


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