Friday, June 28, 2013
Okay. So on Wednesday Evening I just get done working out. I have had a problem with my leg for year now. It swells up all the time and I wear compression socks to help with it. I workout in them to to get a better blood flow while working out. I noticed all day I had some pain in the back of my lower leg, but it became worse when i took the sock off.
I have a history of blood clots in my same leg and it felt like the same thing. i had all the symptoms. I go to the hospital to get it checked and luckily no blood clot. Instead I have Cellulitis. Its an infection of skin and tissue. It was caused by a cut in my leg I have had for a while. The doctor thought I was diabetic by the look of my leg. They tested for it and I'm good. What worried him the most was that my leg was very swollen and he already knew it was dew to my heaviness. He says gravity is not on my side. The blood flows down to my leg through my veins, but it does not flow back up like it is supposed to.
Basically he told me that if I do not loose weight then at this age, by the time I am 40 I will have heart problems, diabetes, and more FAT PEOPLE PROBLEMS. The doctor did not say it in that way, but that's what came to me.
While I was in the hospital I received a text about my uncle passing. He was like my grandfather and I will miss him. This side of my family is where my weight comes from. When we go to a family reunion all of us are big. Not anymore. I can't do this and I want to live until I see my great great grandchildren.
So it was just more motivation. I am 33 and I don't have time for this. I am definitely going to keep working hard.
I think I messed up in the beginning. I have been going strong for 2 weeks now and only 9 pounds lost to show for it. I am glad, but i know I lost more than that. My beginning weight was from the time I went to the doctor in February. I know I must have been heavier than that, but I just went out on a limb and said if I get lower that on my first weigh in I will be happy. Well, I thought i would be because I am not. I am at the weight I was in 2011. Which is good. What took a year to put on I took off in two weeks. YAY!
So marching on I go. Today is my husband's birthday and we had plans to eat what we want tonight. I think I am going to take it easy. This really scared me and it was a reality check. I will let him enjoy. He does not have as much to loose as me.
Sunday, June 23, 2013
I am happy to have started another week. I woke up Friday morning feeling awful. My head was hurting and I did not sleep well. My husband put me back to bed and told me just to sleep. I slept until 1 pm. I felt a little better. There was no way we were gonna workout.
Saturday was a busy day. We did get a workout in then either. So we basically had two days off. It was nice, but my nerves got to me because I feel like there is no rest time for me...I got too much to lose.
This morning we got up a little late. We did stadiums at out football field. They were a BEAST. There were six in all to do and boy my glutes were burning. What got to me was on the visitor's side the stairs were REALLY HIGH AND STEEP. i have been wanting to tackle them ever since we started working out. As I started up the stairs I know there were about 20 more than the other side. I ran up those in no time. These however took me a minute and I had to stop and rest. When I got to the top my FEAR got to me.
When I was younger and smaller I use to love scary roller coasters and rides. I loved a challenge. When I started getting heavier gravity really took a toll on me when I rode scary rides. The one I remember was at Sea World. I was probably about 75 pounds lighter and we got on Splash Mountain. Hell, it was the only ride that did not have straps I could not fit. When we reached the drop it was all good until I realized that my body was not as young or small. My body nor my mind got a thrill out of that ride. I got a fear of heights and wet pants after that.
This morning was my first time being so high and my legs got very weak when i reached the top and then turned around to go down. My husband joined me on top, but I told him i can't make it down. He is always the one motivating me in a work out, but it was not happening this time. He left me and said "You can do it"...I was like HELL NAW! Luckily there was a fence on the side to grip, but he had to talk me all the way down and it took every bit of 10 minutes.
He kind of got on my nerves because he just did not believe I was that scared. I went into a RANT about how he was not me and I was not doing them again. He basically mild down because i can get crazy. I wanted to hang it up after that and go home.
I was very mad at myself because I felt like it defeated me. I can't wait to lose a little wait so i can get my balance back. I will be able to do those VISITOR stadiums with no fear.
I forgot to add that I also went walking with a friend who invited me to go with her. She was nice about it, but when you walk with a friend, especially someone you invite, you walk with them. Honey, she, and her group she walked with, left me in the wind. Plus it started to rain (POUR DOWN). I walked for about 3 miles and then called it quits. I was worried about getting sick
My dinner from Thursday is on my blog.
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