Wednesday, January 30, 2013
Have been having a really tough week, having a back and forth conversation with my mother. This is really nothing new, she has been harassing me one way or another for the last 30 years about my weight. It has always been a problem for me, she really knows how to get under my skin, and she's a little passive aggressive about it, and I know she means well, so I just internalize it, and feel bad about myself, because she never thinks anything good about me, or if she does, there is always a big BUT you're fat added on to the end. Not that direct, she really does try to be more subtle, but I just lost it this week. I told her she had to stop bringing it up, because it really upsets me, and then I just want to stay fat to spite her. How childish is that? I donīt think she is getting the whole picture yet, but I do feel better for telling her to step off. I donīt know if I can deal with her quite yet, but in googling mother's and daughter's weight, and saw all the links made me feel so much better.