Monday, December 19, 2011
Went to my holiday party yesterday evening. Pics are up, and I am torn by this pic.
I recognize myself, but it's weird nonetheless. Here's the weird thing: that doesn't match my ideal self-image, and it is heavier than I picture myself... but at the same time I can see, even in the picture, that I appear to weigh less than I used to. That's strange to me, that I can see a net loss and yet still see myself as big. So then that leads to the question, when will I not look big to myself? I don't know. I will say that I consider myself significantly less "over-over-overweight" in this picture than I have in past pictures. Here's another pic with Oscar.
Here's the pic from the same event last year.
I know these aren't directly comparable, but I think I see some slimming in the face? And I've been having non-scale-victories left and right. Ripped up and tossed my favorite work pants that were too big, had to buy belts because my pants keep falling down, several people have observed weight loss. Plus scale victories.
It's just hard to remember sometimes that it took a long time for me to get heavy, and it'll take a long time to get lighter.