Thursday, May 09, 2013
I can not believe I just said that!
That in itself is a breakthrough for me! For those here that know me, you know I usually give up at the first sign of failure. Well yesterday was HORRIBLE. See, hubby and I quit smoking 10 days ago and I was doing fine. A few issues here and there, but that is to be expected. Then I started back here Monday. Was great for a couple days, even dealt with the pain Tuesday and not being able to work out. THEN yesterday, it all fell apart. I meditated, filled my difusser with Lavender, Valor, whatever else I could find that was supposed to calm me, TRIED to do my yoga, but could not concentrate at all. I ate EVERYTHING I could trying to stop this feeling in my body....nothing worked. By mid-day I was shaking. REALLY?! I even tried a zanax, which I have not had any meds for months. NOTHING WORKED. I finally broke down and went and got a pack of smokes. That was it. Calmed me almost immediately. NOW, was I happy with myself...NO of course not. BUT I had to do something. Now to my point..... I could have said screw it I messed up everything and kept going, but instead I realized that I was asking a lot from my body, mind etc. all at once. I will have bad things happen and it's ok. What's not OK is to KEEP up the bad and give up. SOOOOO, today I have started great! I feel super, even better than I had. I think this is a wake-up call for me. One bad day is not the end of the world....you just have to pick yourself up and keep going forward. This I can do!