Sunday, March 11, 2012
One word describes today.....DISASTER! Over 2000 calories and those calories included; truffles, cookies, sweedish fish, brownies, and lots of diet soda.
I have not found a cooping mechanism for my emotional eating and that is very evident with yesterday. I had a very emotional funeral of a lovely lady that will truly be missed. Then a horrible fight with my husband, in which we haven't really talked since. It's hard because I know he's miserable and really never truly loved me, but I love him with all my heart and selfishly can't leave. He can't leave because of the kids and before them it was his great fear of change and the unknown. I wish I could give him what he wants, but I'm afraid we are past that. Now it is time to find the courage to do what is needed, or change myself completely. I don't know I'm confused, tired, and emotionally spent. So now it is me just keeping my mouth shut in more than one way.
Got to go, I'll post later if day 6 goes any better.