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Trying to be patient

Tuesday, June 14, 2011

It is so hard to be patient. I know that the choices I have been making will slowly and surely add up into weight loss. I just wish I could step on the scale and have lost 10 pounds and already feel "successful." But I know I am already successful because I can already tell that I have slightly improved my cardiovascular capacity. Also I am successful because I made good choices at the supermarket last night. Yes, they call these "non-scale victories." And I am successful even without knowing how much/if I have lost any weight yet. I will weigh myself tomorrow, but knowing that some of my small changes have only been for a few days, I just have to realize that the number may be the same and other changes might be happening inside my body.

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JUSTDUCKY1405 8/30/2011 9:51PM

    It sure is frustrating when that scale doesn't move, no matter how hard you try. Good for you for looking at the positives!

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DHAMPIR17 8/1/2011 1:10PM

    You are right!

Sometimes we focus too closely on the number on the scale and not how we feel about ourselves.

I know that while I may not dip down in the scale, I am getting better and feeling better and that is what REALLY needs to matter.

Just focus on every day and every small victory and you'll look back one day soon and go "Wow!"

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CARRAND 6/15/2011 9:09PM

    It sounds like you are making the changes you need to be successful. I hope the scale is kind to you, but don't panic if it's not. You will get there in the end. Take it one day at a time.


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ROBYNROSE26 6/15/2011 1:53PM

    Awesome Laurel!

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PASSIONATE2LOSE 6/15/2011 10:02AM

    You are making good choices and can celebrate your "non-scale victories" as you make them! I once read that it is the behavior that should be rewarded vs. the results (probably got that from Spark People). ;) Anyway, just doing what you are doing and all of a sudden, one day waking up to weight loss, will be another (this time, with a scale) victory worth celebrating! Just remember that it IS the good choices you are making that deserve your undivided attention, and that everything else WILL fall into place!


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    You can do it! Even if the number isn't what you want it to be, remember that sometimes you can gain weight when you first start making changes because you're gaining muscle. However, I do hope you have a happy weight-in!

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Cautiously optimistic, but I am buying the self-love at least!

Monday, June 13, 2011

Ok, so I have struggled for many years with my weight. I am sure the bulk of it is psychological. I love to read, and so I am currently reading "Just 10 Pounds" by Brad Lamm. Although I "know" that I should love myself, and I *do* love myself, having read through about the first half of the book, I am reminded to keep this in the front of my mind. There is obviously more to the book than that, but the self-love has given me some food for thought. So, here I go on losing 10 pounds. I have eaten pretty reasonably and done my "moving meditation" for the past few days and I feel really good about it.

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JCORYCMA 6/19/2011 10:59PM

    Showing ourselves love is so important! Sounds like an interesting book. Thanks for sharing.

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FUSCHIA6 6/16/2011 3:40PM

    My New Years resolution was to lose 10 lbs this year. What happened? I guess I lost next year's
P.S. Don't help me find them, I don't want them back thanks.
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BRIARROSE30 6/13/2011 7:04PM

    Oh Laurel, you should be proud of yourself! That is so great. I've really wanted to read that book too. Your a busy mom, so change is slower and more difficult. Even if you have a bad day, it's not the end. Just a bump in the road!

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MNMS_MOMMY 6/13/2011 4:45PM

    Congratulations on tackling both the physical and the mental work in your journey! emoticon

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Nothing too exciting to report

Friday, April 01, 2011

It's been way too long since I posted a blog, so hello to you all! Happy April Fools Day! One guy at work here forgot to lock his keyboard and someone sent out a message saying he had chocolate chip cookies at his desk. Well, where I work, whenever we get that message, it means they are pregnant. Haha, this guy is easily embarrassed and single, so it was pretty funny. But he has a good sense of humor.

So I am hoping to be pregnant again here soon. When I am I will report back. Staying healthy isn't always easy but then I guess I'd have two reasons instead of one!


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BRIARROSE30 4/6/2011 9:54PM

    Best wishes on the baby making!

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The need to feel heard at work

Wednesday, December 22, 2010

Today isn't a bad day, but it's not a good day either. I need to say some things "out loud," but I don't know who I want to say them to. So, time for a blog.

I feel like people aren't "hearing me" recently. It's mostly at work. I'm almost ready to stop trying because it feels useless anyway, but I know I can't. The boss might have a question for us all on the team, for example, and I may be the person who (sometimes) knows the answer. So I will answer to all if I know that particular answer. I make sure to explain the answer clearly. Maybe it's my timing, but it seems like my boss glosses over while pretending to listen. But apparently no one hears me. Then later someone else might figure it out and answer it too. But...wait...I already answered that! And then my boss acts like the other person is the smartest person on the planet. I actually think she has something against me if you want to know the truth. I try to act like I don't know she has something against me, but I am fairly in tune with things like that, and I can feel it. We have an intra-departmental rotation program between teams in operations and she is always giving me trivial excuses why I can't do it.

Well, we are getting a new boss pretty soon. I have mixed feelings about it, but I know who she is, and she seems good. However, I'm worried that my boss might tell her all sorts of untrue rubbish about me.

Sigh...what life lesson do I need to learn out of this? Am I acting like a know-it-all? Do I need to learn that I am a valuable human being even if no one else thinks so? Do I need to learn to deal with disappointment or rejection better? I just want to be heard. Don't pretend to listen to me...REALLY listen to me! I try to give others my undivided attention when they speak to me. I know it's hard, but I would like to receive that in return.


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AZTLAN777 12/31/2010 1:38PM

    You are such an awesome woman! Obviously, your "boss" like most, want to micro manage everyone, they don't really want input, they just throw out questions to make others feel dumb. However since you are answering her questions, you put a kink in her agenda. She is problematic, not you, so, let it go, wish her the best as she goes bye bye. The new boss, will see by your actions that you are a team player and are not a know-it-all, but you do want to be involved and contribute to your meetings or interactions with him/her. One thing I have learned is that, less is best. If you have something to say or an idea, state it, without all the facts or explanations, unless you are asked to elaborate. You are just too ahead of your time for the slowpokes. You are an amazing person! No one has the power to make you feel any certain way, unless you allow them to by giving them that power. Hugs!


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BRIARROSE30 12/22/2010 3:14PM

    Laurel, you are so right. It's not giving listening if your glossing over and not actually paying attention to the person talking! Just try watching TV while your playing a game with your kids - it makes mine irate!

I'm sure you are in tune with what is going on exactly. Do you think she feels threatened by you? It's been my experience that some boss's are extremely threatened by those that seem smarter or more capable then them. They don't want to be one-uped whether it's for respect, pride, or job security reasons. Sadly I have been through it and know quite a few others who have too.

Be glad your getting a new boss, and play it cool. Don't bring anything up because what will end up happening is you either confirm what the old boss said, or end up making the new boss form opionons that weren't there to begin with. The best way to disprove lies and accusations is to live it down. I also think you should let your new boss know that you haven't been in the rotation, and ask if she knows why. You might get some answers there. Just don't be accusatory or it will backfire!

I hear you Laurel and wish you all the best! emoticon

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I will never understand my cat.

Sunday, December 12, 2010

It has been a while since I got on my elliptical. I was surprised at how bearable and almost enjoyable it was. I of course grabbed my MP3 player and put on my workout playlist. My cat Kirby likes to sit in front of the machine where the leg "skis" (or whatever you call them) could smack him in the head. He has never let himself get hit...until today. I have known, that with the lack of intelligence my cat has, that him getting hit eventually was inevitable. He hardly noticed getting hit in the head, and he went on his merry way. He went and sat on the steps for a few minutes, and then came back to gamble with his fate for a little while longer!


Oh, and what is he doing right now? Doing an elaborate mating dance with our kitchen towel. And yes, he is neutered. Whatever........?!

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ELLEMAC7 12/12/2010 11:46PM

  An elaborate mating dance with the kitchen towel? I love it!

We have two cats--I call one our yoga cat because he's always stretching in yoga poses -- one day I got on the floor with him and he led me through three poses! It was only the second time I'd ever done yoga, but I think he was a good instructor...ha!

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BRIARROSE30 12/12/2010 11:02PM

    Your cat sounds cute! We have a dog that does some pretty confounded things too. Animals are so fun! Great job for getting on the Elliptical. I tried that a few weeks ago and found myself too uncoordinated to get in a full workout. They are very popular machines at our gym so I figure they must be pretty great once you get the hang of it. WTG!

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CARRAND 12/12/2010 7:18PM

    My cat freaked out when I lay on my yoga mat to do some poses. I started with "legs up the wall" and Lydia sat by my head for a minute or two, then raced all over the living room with excitement.

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LHLADY517 12/12/2010 3:34PM

    I can so understand. Our 2 cats confound, confuse, entertain and madden us in matter of seconds.

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ELAOPET 12/12/2010 1:34PM

    It is not for you to understand! You are there to serve humbly! emoticon

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LEXIE63 12/12/2010 1:29PM

    I think we keep our animals endlessly entertained with the strange things we do as we go through our days. *grin*
Lex xxx
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TWOTIMESS 12/12/2010 1:19PM

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Enjoy him!

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