Tuesday, June 14, 2011
It is so hard to be patient. I know that the choices I have been making will slowly and surely add up into weight loss. I just wish I could step on the scale and have lost 10 pounds and already feel "successful." But I know I am already successful because I can already tell that I have slightly improved my cardiovascular capacity. Also I am successful because I made good choices at the supermarket last night. Yes, they call these "non-scale victories." And I am successful even without knowing how much/if I have lost any weight yet. I will weigh myself tomorrow, but knowing that some of my small changes have only been for a few days, I just have to realize that the number may be the same and other changes might be happening inside my body.
Monday, June 13, 2011
Ok, so I have struggled for many years with my weight. I am sure the bulk of it is psychological. I love to read, and so I am currently reading "Just 10 Pounds" by Brad Lamm. Although I "know" that I should love myself, and I *do* love myself, having read through about the first half of the book, I am reminded to keep this in the front of my mind. There is obviously more to the book than that, but the self-love has given me some food for thought. So, here I go on losing 10 pounds. I have eaten pretty reasonably and done my "moving meditation" for the past few days and I feel really good about it.
Friday, April 01, 2011
It's been way too long since I posted a blog, so hello to you all! Happy April Fools Day! One guy at work here forgot to lock his keyboard and someone sent out a message saying he had chocolate chip cookies at his desk. Well, where I work, whenever we get that message, it means they are pregnant. Haha, this guy is easily embarrassed and single, so it was pretty funny. But he has a good sense of humor.
So I am hoping to be pregnant again here soon. When I am I will report back. Staying healthy isn't always easy but then I guess I'd have two reasons instead of one!
Wednesday, December 22, 2010
Today isn't a bad day, but it's not a good day either. I need to say some things "out loud," but I don't know who I want to say them to. So, time for a blog.
I feel like people aren't "hearing me" recently. It's mostly at work. I'm almost ready to stop trying because it feels useless anyway, but I know I can't. The boss might have a question for us all on the team, for example, and I may be the person who (sometimes) knows the answer. So I will answer to all if I know that particular answer. I make sure to explain the answer clearly. Maybe it's my timing, but it seems like my boss glosses over while pretending to listen. But apparently no one hears me. Then later someone else might figure it out and answer it too. But...wait...I already answered that! And then my boss acts like the other person is the smartest person on the planet. I actually think she has something against me if you want to know the truth. I try to act like I don't know she has something against me, but I am fairly in tune with things like that, and I can feel it. We have an intra-departmental rotation program between teams in operations and she is always giving me trivial excuses why I can't do it.
Well, we are getting a new boss pretty soon. I have mixed feelings about it, but I know who she is, and she seems good. However, I'm worried that my boss might tell her all sorts of untrue rubbish about me.
Sigh...what life lesson do I need to learn out of this? Am I acting like a know-it-all? Do I need to learn that I am a valuable human being even if no one else thinks so? Do I need to learn to deal with disappointment or rejection better? I just want to be heard. Don't pretend to listen to me...REALLY listen to me! I try to give others my undivided attention when they speak to me. I know it's hard, but I would like to receive that in return.
Sunday, December 12, 2010
It has been a while since I got on my elliptical. I was surprised at how bearable and almost enjoyable it was. I of course grabbed my MP3 player and put on my workout playlist. My cat Kirby likes to sit in front of the machine where the leg "skis" (or whatever you call them) could smack him in the head. He has never let himself get hit...until today. I have known, that with the lack of intelligence my cat has, that him getting hit eventually was inevitable. He hardly noticed getting hit in the head, and he went on his merry way. He went and sat on the steps for a few minutes, and then came back to gamble with his fate for a little while longer!
Oh, and what is he doing right now? Doing an elaborate mating dance with our kitchen towel. And yes, he is neutered. Whatever........?!
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