Friday, July 18, 2014
We decided to go to the show last night. It was nice. I ran into my former trainer and it was wonderful to see her. Ran into a lot of people I knew from that barn. Saw people from my new barn.
I ran into a lot of other people that I hadn't seen in a long time. Many started by commenting on my sister's horses. I was very honest and said that they would be better off telling her in person as I haven't seen the horses nor have I seen my sister in 2 years. I think some were rather startled. One person, who I have known for forever, I told the story to and she said, "yep when it comes to material things, families are awful."
I figured I wasn't going to hide anything. This is the road my sister chose. We all have to stand by our choices. I wasn't going to feed a load of garbage to anyone either letting them believe we have this great relationship that isn't there.
I saw my sister and she saw me and her niece and nephew. She turned her nose in the air and pretended we weren't there. Her loss not ours. I watched her show a mare she has had since before I quit showing. She was 2/2. She deserved it. The mare didn't look good.
Yesterday was the day we buried my mother 2 years ago. I think it was fitting to be where my mother loved to be and that is a horse show. Honestly, I had no feelings toward my sister one way or another. She was just someone in the crowd.
Last night showed me that I have moved on with my life and have no need for anyone other than my friends, my husband and my kids. Anyone who doesn't want anything to do with us, that is their choice and their loss, but no one should expect me to cover them with decisions they made. The horse world is a very small place and, generally, the truth comes out and goes around. I hope Mimi is happy with her decision and being such a small person as I'm sure everyone will soon know the choice she made. They will also know they she didn't have the guts to ever speak to me herself. She sent my brother to my house.
I am moving on with what I want to do without any regard for what she is doing. If she is at a horse show, so be it. There are so many other people who are more important than she is. She is just one very low person in a very big world :)
Thursday, July 17, 2014
I read a blog by spark guy a couple of days ago where he talks about his 10 minute a day exercise streak. That reminded me of my mantra which I forgot. All it takes is 10 minutes a day. I can do 10 minutes a day. I decided to start working on that again.
Today I wasn't going to do anything. We have some horrible people living next to us. They are renters and just don't care about what they do. They yell and scream using fowl language all night. I've called the police in the past and had to call again this morning as it sounded like they were beating each other and I know there is a young child there. I also called the person that owns the property. He is totally useless.
I'm not going to give up on getting rid of them. They are killing our block which is coming back. Many people are putting on new roofs and building new garages (including us), but why should we put this money into our houses if people like this are just going to hurt the worth of our houses. I even called some special police thingy they have to help get rid of nuisance renters. I pay taxes to live here. I have a lot invested in this house and I will do whatever it takes to keep our neighborhood safe.
Aside from that, I have been in a rather sour mood today. My whole barn is at a horse show which takes place about 10 minutes from me. People from the barn have asked if I was going to come and watch them show. As much as I thought I wanted to get back into the shows again, I'm not really sure. One thing that is probably bugging me is the fact that my sister will be showing 3 horses there and I'm not really sure I want to see her. My other issue is that so many people I used to talk to regularly when I was showing horses just disappeared when I stopped. They no longer talked to me on facebook or called or anything else. I'm not 100% sure I want to get back in with people like that again. I have a life without the shows that I am enjoying.
I really enjoyed going out to the barn yesterday and bringing JC in from the field. No one else was in so I got to clean him up, get him ready, ride him and clean him up again and turn him back out into the field. I did let him eat some "lunch". At first, I was freaked out because when I opened the door to get him from the field, he started screaming. I thought he was totally upset with being out there. After a bit, I realized he saw me and figured food. After I turned him back out, he was completely content being out there. I must admit I had a melt down last night wondering if the person who owns the barn remembered to bring him in. I haven't heard great things about her. But, she did call me after I texted her and all was fine.
Ok so I digress...back to the 10 minutes a day. Today, like I said, I didn't feel like doing anything. My daughter and I were watching a Hell's Kitchen marathon and I had been a bum all morning. I just couldn't stand sitting anymore. I decided to start walking during the commercials. Spark guy said the 10 minutes could be broken up throughout the day. Then I continued walking during the first segment after the commercials. Then I decided that I needed more steps. When the show was over, I decided to find my rainbow on Walk it Out.
All told, I did 60 minutes of activity. I have to remember that not every day has to be an all out marathon on the treadmill or the horse. Any exercise or movement works and all it takes is just 10 minutes
Tuesday, July 15, 2014
Thank you for all the comments on my blog yesterday. Actually, my son decided to fill it out himself. It was basically asking the same question 10 different ways. He got it. His handwriting is awful, but he thought it better that they see him for who he is and they would realize why he has trouble getting a job.
As far as the attorney, there are attorneys who will do work with SSI on a contingency basis. He hasn't been denied which is good. Usually, you are denied with your first application. His is still active. When and if we need an attorney we will get one. In the meantime, he got the form finished. Whether they can read it or not is their problem.
Thank you all for all the great advice!
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