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Saturday, July 12, 2014

This week was bad for me on the scale. It went up to a place I haven't been in a while and I am so angry with myself. It's not like I don't know what I am doing wrong. I am eating wrong and drinking wrong. When we eat at home, my husband is making sides of french fries and macaroni and cheese. I think I am tired of fighting him for healthy things. He decided to lose 10 lbs and he did it. Now, he is maintaining so he makes whatever he wants.

When we have been going out, I have been ordering a lot of soup which I know is loaded with fat and salt. I have been having a lot of salads with mayonnaise. I have also been ordering things with heavy sauces.

I am not sticking to my goals and I don't know why. Part of it is the frustration with my feet. It seems like every time I get on the right path, something goes wrong with me whether it is my neck, back, feet, heels whatever.

I am at a point that I feel like giving up. I just want to eat what I want. I know that is not going to work, but it is how I feel. I am so sick of fighting and getting no where. Maybe I am just too old for this. Maybe I don't want it bad enough. Maybe I am just tired of it. There are so many maybes and no answers. Maybe I should just give up!

I am tired and I am frustrated!

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TXGRANDMA 7/13/2014 9:18PM

    It is so hard when you reach a certain age and your metabolism slows even more! There is no room for any kind of slipping......It does get old, but what option do we have? If you are like me, if I stop trying to lose, I will gain, and quickly! emoticon

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SNOWFILLY 7/13/2014 7:50AM

    Think - "RIDING SUIT". emoticon emoticon emoticon
Nothing worthwhile is ever easy, but you can do it. One step at a time. One habit at a time.

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4-1HEALTHYCYNDI 7/13/2014 12:02AM

    I so understand where you are coming from. It is so frustrating to do everything right and still gain. It is hard to eat differently from you spouse. I know this as I've dealt with it often enough. You are a strong woman who is tired and in pain. Those things make it hard to make the best decisions.

Now you have to decide whether you want to continue striving for your goals or not. I/we can not do it for you. Do you want to live as pain free as possible? Do you want to show JC or not? If you do what are you willing to do?

There are no easy answers. Taking a break is not giving up.

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SVELTEWARRIOR 7/12/2014 11:15PM

    Don't give up!!!!!!! I understand your frustration but giving up isn't going to make you feel any better. You can do it!!!!

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JUSTME29 7/12/2014 11:11PM

    Never give up. Tomorrow is always a new day. I keep promising myself every night that tomorrow will be better, and then the next day is worse. Today's weigh in was extremely discouraging and so was my response to it. I'm where you are, I just want to eat what I want when I want, but that's not working for me either. My hubby has lost a considerable amount of weight over the last year or so, he has cut way back on his portions. I'm proud of him, but what I find most discouraging is that if I eat exactly what he eats (smaller portions and all) I will still gain and he will continue to lose. It infuriates me and I have to find a way to get over myself and just do it.

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IMEMINE1 7/12/2014 9:18PM

    Don't give up. Just set your mind on the positive emoticon Because you can.
Just talk yourself out of the bad and go with the good.
Have a healthy week. You are worth it!! emoticon

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LOPEYP 7/12/2014 7:34PM

    Take a step back and reassess. your feet are bothering you. How can you burn calories without putting pressure on them? Maybe biking or swimming??
Hopefully your amazon order will arrive and you'll get some relief.

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EJOY-EVELYN 7/12/2014 4:55PM

    Confession is good for the soul! Don't give up! You know what you have to do. Get a few more "go-to" foods in the house that you can go to when the hubby makes foolish choices. Perhaps it's time to find together time other than at mealtime. Do it for you so you can have quality time with all your loved ones.

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EMMACORY 7/12/2014 3:52PM

    It is about progress not perfection. emoticon

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    you definitely SHOULD NOT give up .. it is frustrating a lot, but worth it when you get to your goals and maintence so you can eat more of what you want also .. but if your husband continues on the path he is on, he will gain those 10 lbs back quickly .. you can't eat all the mac and cheese you want, or french fries all the time, or just eat what you want when you eat out and he will find that out soon .. weight maintence gives us much more freedom, especially when we continue to work out/exercise/maintain some fitness goals, but the point is we get to "treat' ourselves more often, not return to our old eating habits, which is how we got here in the first place .. allow yourself to have a couple cheat days a month, and enjoy smaller portions of some things you love .. and don't berate yourself if you have a week where you don't lose here and there .. just think about how much more freedom you will have when you get to maintence and how great you will feel... healthy, proud, accomplished, look better .. feel better .. it WILL BE worth it when it is all said and done .. set small goals and just to the absolute best you can every day .. and that is all you can .. you ROCK!! you are AWESOME .. you are stronger than you think!! and worth sooooooo much !! "Never Give In, Never Give Up!! Quit Is Not An Option" .. i had a bracelet made with that on it .. it is my new motto... make it yours too !!! emoticon emoticon

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MOMTO6CUTIES 7/12/2014 3:07PM


Failure isn't final. Get back on the right track, find your motivation.

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MJRVIC2000 7/12/2014 2:52PM

    Faith makes everything possible;
Hope makes everything work;
and love makes everything beautiful.
God Bless YOU! Vic.

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Bad Feet :(

Thursday, July 10, 2014

A few weeks ago, I went to my doc as I am having really bad foot pain. He checked the heels and it is not that. He also x-rayed and there is nothing wrong with the bones or anything. He told me to get metatarsal bars. I took one look at that prescription and said forget it.

Things have been getting worse. Finally, I decided to google the metatarsal bars and discovered they are not that uncommon. They are basically inserts with some sort of cushioning around the ball of the foot. I found out I can get them on Amazon.

I ordered them and I really hope they help. Right now, my hip and calves are killing me as I am probably walking funny due to the pain in my feet. I also think I overdid it on the treadmill yesterday. I knew it was hurting and should have stopped, but I couldn't get myself to do that. I kept going. Not smart emoticon

I was up at 5:00 this morning as I couldn't lay on my right side because my hip was so bad. I was going to go out to the barn today, but I decided to give my hip a rest. I have searched every where for info on this foot issue. Apparently, it is very common. I checked here on spark people and had like 500 hits.

I think the solution for this will be hit and miss. I am going to have to try things to see what works for me. One thing I've discovered is Merrill shoes are awesome if you have pain on the balls of your feet. They put a lot of padding that and that helps. My only issue with Merrell is that I can only wear their sandals. Not helpful when it is not summer emoticon

Oh well, just one more thing to work through emoticon

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LOPEYP 7/12/2014 7:31PM

    When my back/hip is bothering me, my knee and foot (on affected side) bothers me. sounds like yours is the reverse. I've never heard of the bars but use orthodics and they definitely help me. Good luck with them and let me know if they work.

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ENDUROVET 7/11/2014 11:40PM

    Damn, do I feel for ya! I've all but given up jogging & even power walking w/my own degenerating feet...
My mainstays are now the elliptical, cycling, yoga, but here lately a little swimming since my pond is full again! (The closest this farm girl's ever gonna get to a pool ;-)

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SVELTEWARRIOR 7/10/2014 10:31PM

    I hope you find a solution that works for you soon. I think I would check into the foot stretching that was mentioned above

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SVELTEWARRIOR 7/10/2014 10:31PM

    I hope you find a solution that works for you soon. I think I would check into the foot stretching that was mentioned above

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JUSTME29 7/10/2014 8:14PM

    I've had terrible foot problems too. It started as plantar fascitis but then I'm pretty sure it morphed into something else. The doctor told me to do stretches but they didn't really help and I went to a chiropractor that did some foot manipulation that helped and showed me how to change my gait to be easier on my feet. I never go barefoot anymore (this was really hard for me, I was the poster child for bare feet growing up and even into adulthood. I once spent an entire summer month barefoot, just to see if I could) and they are getting better. I have inserts for my tennis shoes that help and I wore them to work a lot despite the lack of professional appearance. A co-worker told me about a brand of shoes called Orthaheel that have made a world of difference. I have a pair of sandals, slippers, and 2 pairs of flats for work. They're not cheap, but I can actually walk at the end of the day instead of virtually having to crawl off to bed.

I hope you find your solution.

Random question - are you Pisces? A while back I was asked if my sign characteristics described me and I had no idea so I googled it. On that site it said that Pisces are prone to foot problems.

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FLORIDASUN 7/10/2014 7:26PM

    Dh had terrible plantar fascitis...he started doing some stretching exercises per his foot therapist and he is all better! Just from simple foot stretching exercises on an elevated board with a telephone book propped under it on a slant, He was told to never go bare foot either. emoticon

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SIEGRID 7/10/2014 6:35PM

    I hope that you can find a solution for your feet. If you . I am not sure where the pain is, but, maybe you could bike or ride a stationary bike? Instead of walking that is.....
We'll keep our fingers crossed!!!!

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4-1HEALTHYCYNDI 7/10/2014 6:22PM

    **HUGS** Hope the solution is as simple as metatarsal bars. Good luck!

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BBONET 7/10/2014 5:17PM

    emoticon Just make sure you take it easy and don't aggravate the situation! Sure hope the bars work for you but try to slow it down so you are not in some much pain!

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EJOY-EVELYN 7/10/2014 4:40PM

    Sure hope you can find a solution that works for you.

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This and That

Wednesday, July 09, 2014

Things have been relatively quiet so I have been spending a lot of time with JC. Unfortunately, he has some rash or something on his neck and it is bothering him quite a bit. The vet said the bugs around here have been horrible this year and it is affecting a lot of the horses. The girl who takes care of him is going to be gone from tomorrow until next Sunday so I will make a point of getting out there more often to make sure he is ok. The woman who owns the place will be taking care of the horses.

In between riding, a new Walk it Out challenge is going on so that keeps me moving. Trying to get my steps up.

Overall, things are good :)

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FLORIDASUN 7/10/2014 7:30PM

    Poor JC hope,those stinking bugs leave him alone! Good,for you for having a little down time...take good care of yourself! emoticon

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LOPEYP 7/10/2014 8:27AM

    You are wise to keep an eye on JC re:the bugs.

Nice to have a slow period, especially in the summer. Enjoy it!

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SVELTEWARRIOR 7/9/2014 11:09PM

    I hope JCs rash gets better soon. You are doing great!!!

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SIEGRID 7/9/2014 7:22PM

    Miserable bugs!!!! I hope JC's rash clears up and it stops itching!!! Every year my mare has to be treated with antibiotic creams for the eye because of the bugs.
Poor babies, we want so much to protect them!!!!!!

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TXGRANDMA 7/9/2014 4:51PM

    Hope JC's rash is better soon! Poor boy! Good luck in getting your steps up! emoticon emoticon

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4-1HEALTHYCYNDI 7/9/2014 2:08PM

    Keep up the great work! Poor JC. Hope the rash gets better soon.

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MAINEALI 7/9/2014 12:40PM

    Ya, the bugs are such a bother. Take good care of yourself and JC.

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What a Workout!

Saturday, July 05, 2014

I went for another group lesson on JC today. He was awesome! He was sort of crabby as there were 4 other horses in the ring and the riders are fairly new and kind of all over the place. I decided not to get frustrated by it, but to use it to learn to go around traffic (that's what we call other horses in the ring). One of the hardest things for me to do was to maneuver around the warm up ring before I showed. Warm up rings are nuts. Horses are going every direction. People are running around making noises and some horses are just acting naughty.

These lessons are really helping me to focus on maneuvering him and keeping him calm. The thing with JC is he is the only horse I have ever owned that actually works your abs. His former trainer used to say the same thing. You can an ab workout every time you ride him. The tough thing today was that she made us trot slow. OMG, that is a killer with him. He doesn't lift his legs very high to help push you out of the saddle when you post so you have to do it yourself through your legs. You never want to use your hands because then you are pulling on the horse's mouth and they don't like that.

When you think of posting, basically think of doing squats while on a moving object that weights over 1,000 lbs and you have to life your entire body weight out of the saddle. That is the best explanation I can give for it. You also have to hold yourself upright at all times. You do not lean back nor do you lean forward. You are holding yourself up. It is all about balance.

I know there has been a lot of debates by some people on spark that horsebackriding is not a workout. I don't know how many of those people have ridden in a flat saddle and done anything more than walking. I burned over 400 calories riding him today and then another 250 calories bathing, toweling and walking him.

There is not one muscle that doesn't get used when riding a horse. Believe me, you have to be very controlled in your movements. Riding English Saddleseat is a very precise thing. I had forgotten how hard it is to post and canter etc until I was watching young kids learning to do it today. It was funny.

There came a point that my abs were so sore I wanted to stop, but I kept going. This has turned into a very good thing for both of us. He has also lost some weight. The vet had always said he was "fleshy". Now he looks like he is in perfect weight. Moving to the new place and having windows and light and people around keep him from thinking about eating all the time. At the old place, he would finish his dinner in 15 minutes. Now, he is still picking at his hay a couple of hours later.

I will get back there again on Tuesday. I am going to be ready to show him again next year!

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FLORIDASUN 7/10/2014 7:39PM

    Fantastic workout for,both of,you! I'm happy JC is going back in the ring and happy you have this new goal to take him's great to have future goals isn't it? emoticon

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4-1HEALTHYCYNDI 7/9/2014 2:07PM

    So glad you are having a great time learning some new tricks in the ring. I think that if you stay calm so will JC. He might be picking up on your stress before you enter the ring or dealing with traffic. Have fun!

PS: Riding is exercise even if it is not aerobic exercise, especially while riding english saddle. I know I used to ride english saddle when I rode. (I had a western saddle cinch break on me and since then I've preferred english, more contact, better control).

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EJOY-EVELYN 7/6/2014 8:19PM

    Your title says it all . . . What a workout! Glad to see JC gets you again so quickly.

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ENDUROVET 7/6/2014 5:08PM

    P. S. However I DO think the Spark Tracker overinflates the calorie burn of long distance riding... (I know I didn't burn 3K on my last 50-miler ;-)
It gave me 600 cal for an hr of light trail riding today - nah, I'd believe 300 maybe!

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ENDUROVET 7/6/2014 5:04PM

    Yes, anyone who thinks the horse does all the work either A.) doesn't ride him or herself, or B.) doesn't ride well!
I have often challenged such individuals to come along; I'll mount ya on the best equine in my barn (Champ or Alex, who are going to step right out & not give anyone any control issues) & we'll go out for an easy 5 mi trot... The only cowboy who's accepted my challenge was begging for mercy in less than 2 mi!!!
(That's about 20 min)

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WILSONWR 7/6/2014 8:38AM

    You are so right - riding is a workout!!

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SVELTEWARRIOR 7/5/2014 11:57PM

    I have no doubt that you are going to be ready to show him by next year!!!

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SIEGRID 7/5/2014 10:25PM

    I ride western, so I prefer to 'sit' while I trot. I generally work up a good sweat doing this. But still, it's all about body control and maneuvering the animal with your body. With my mare we ride with our seat and keep our reins very loose, all turns, lead changes etc, are done through the butt., and my yes, between the riding and the grooming, you get to burn a lot of calories, and have a great time doing it!!

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TXGRANDMA 7/5/2014 7:00PM

    Wow! You really got a workout! I know how hard it is to post on a slow trotting horse! I rode English for a bit way back in the day, but lately had been encouraged by our trainer to learn to post on a western saddle as a lesson in where the horse's legs were at any point in the gait. I also know about Warm up rings, having shown all those years! And yes, you are right, they are crazy! Hope you can move tomorrow! emoticon

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TERESA159 7/5/2014 6:22PM

    How cool. I never thought horse riding could be so good for the person riding it.

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It's Not Just For Me

Friday, July 04, 2014

I went to the barn to ride JC today. I hadn't been there since last Wednesday. The weather was awful and I got busy and I put him on the back burner. I keep forgetting that I can't do that as it is not just me that is affected, but him too. When I got out there, he looked terrible. He has hair missing from the underside of his neck. He was caked in mud and he was pretty angry with me. He wouldn't look at me.

I have trouble remembering that he is no longer in training. Yes, there is a trainer at the barn and we do take lessons from her on occasion, but he is not one of her training horses. It is my responsibility to get out there and check on him and groom him. He had mud in his mane and his tail. He has welts which a lot of them have from the huge bugs we have this year. It's like these bugs are resistant to fly spray. The horses are asking to come in by 12:00 because they can't stand the bugs.

We spent some time talking to him and cleaned him up. By the time he was tacked and ready to ride, he was in a better mood. I was going to take him outside, but we have just mastered the inside and, considering his state of mind and his whatever he has on his neck, I just decided to stay inside.

He was such a good boy. I am mad at myself for not mentioning his neck to Caitlin. I noticed it when I was there last Wednesday. When I was currying his neck, he reached his head way up in his stall and kept twitching his lip. He does that when you itch a spot and it feels really good. She thought maybe another horse had done something to him, but when it occurred last week, there was no mark on him. He either got bit by a bug or it could be an allergy. She put him on some medication and it doesn't seem to be bothering him.

After I rode him, he got a soapy bath which he loved. Here they have a warm water wash stall. She had me use the medicated soap on him. Then, I had to towel him dry. That is an arm workout. I am so sore ugh! But, he looked so good and he seemed so much more comfortable.

She told me that she can always tell when he starts missing me. She said he starts rubbing his tail. As long as I come out regularly, he leaves his tail alone, but when I am gone longer than a week, he starts rubbing it. She said it could be that he doesn't feel he gets the attention the others get because they are all worked by Caitlin. It could be he thinks I deserted him. Who knows?

I do know that I am not going to neglect him anymore. I can go out there any time from 8:00 a.m. until 8:00 p.m. Even if I just go out and lunge him and walk him, at least I am spending time with him and moving my body. No more putting him on the back burner.

Back tomorrow for another group lesson emoticon

Horses...they do a body good! emoticon

JC and Sarah

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FLORIDASUN 7/10/2014 7:45PM

    JC is such a beautiful horse. He loves you and you love him..?The time you two/spend together is precious. I love JC also! emoticon

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LYNCHD05 7/5/2014 10:22AM

    I love hearing your stories about JC. I have never had the opportunity to be around horses but you make me realize how smart they are. One of the things in my life that I would have loved to experience. Thanks for sharing!!!

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ADRIENALINE 7/5/2014 1:48AM

    He is a great responsibility. Everybody needs attention now and then.

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EJOY-EVELYN 7/5/2014 1:11AM

    I love that . . . "Horses...they do a body good!"

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SVELTEWARRIOR 7/4/2014 11:04PM

    He is gorgeous!!!!

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TXGRANDMA 7/4/2014 11:01PM

    Oh, Poor JC! He was really upset by the time you got there! So glad you made it out to see him today and gave him a little pampering. There is nothing like messing with a horse to make a person feel better! Hope that his neck is better soon.....wonder if he has allergies? emoticon

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ENDUROVET 7/4/2014 10:46PM

    He's SUCH a handsome fella!
Gotta post about our 4th of July parade... Then I drove to pick up my friend's new family member, buckskin pinto TWH gelding. A good day even while missing my boy
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JEANUT 7/4/2014 9:27PM

    It's amazing how animals know just the right "look" that lets us know they are upset with us.... and to think some stupid scientist think they don't have feelings.
I know he enjoyed the attention and forgave you.

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EMMACORY 7/4/2014 8:45PM

    Everyone needs love and attention. Give JC a big hug from all your Spark People friends. emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon

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