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Food and Your Mood

Friday, February 15, 2013

Wow another week gone and I finally ate everything I was supposed to and didn't go over my calories for the day! I'm so proud of myself!!! Woo Hoo me!

Now on to more important things. I have been eating small amount 6-8 times a day all week. No I didn't make my caloric intake, but I did learn something which means more to me that making my nutrition goal. I found out that when I only do breakfast a small snack lunch and then wait 6 - 8 hours for my next meal I get super cranky and start snapping at everyone around me. I had to apologize to my whole family for the way I treated them. I didn't realize I was doing this until after I had eaten something and was actually level headed enough to focus on what I had been doing.

What you all probably don't know is that my husband is bi-polar so I deal with major fluctuations every day of my life and have for 15 years now. Today I finally was able to see what he meant when he tried to explain his disease to me.

So just as he takes his medication every day I now know that I must continue to fuel my body with healthy foods to keep my mood level and not turn into some stereotypical psychotic woman.

For those of you out there that find your moods swing when you are trying to live a healthy lifestyle it might be just as simple as eating more healthy little meals during the day.

I'm thrilled with the lesson I learned today. I hope you all have found things that will keep you sparking every day!!!


Could have been Miserable Monday - but decided to make it a Merry Monday!

Monday, February 11, 2013

Do you ever say or have you heard people say "It's a Monday!" Like Monday's are the worst day and the more they say it the worse the day could be. I started my sparking day off well this morning and then walked into my job where I couldn't even get to my desk before I was bombarded with issues that had to be fixed or dealt with right away. I hadn't even sat down my purse and I had that thought the dreaded thought - "So this is how my day is going to be" with a super heavy internal sigh. I fixed the issues thrown at me and finally got to drop off my stuff and start my day an hour later. I decided to take a quick break and open up my SparkCoach. Got to the Coaching video and saw Stage 2 across the screen. I started to listen and of course work jumped right back in and everything was in chaos. Difference is that in that small second that I saw Stage 2 my internal brain (without even discussing it with me first) decided that I was happy and this was going to be an awesome day! After that no matter what came my way I could quickly respond, enjoy the people I was working with, and even take some things off my never ending list. I made my Monday Merry even through a Migraine.

My head hurt so back by the time I got home, I honestly thought I shouldn't have been driving because my head was pounding and my eyeballs felt like they were going to pop out. I came in the house crawled into my bed to get away from the lights and sound but realized my goal, I had to check in with my SparkCoach. That was almost three hours ago and I've eaten my dinner, played with my dog and spent an hour sparking...

My day feels truly complete, my headache is now just a dull throb and I feel like I have the energy left to do a couple hours work before I have to be back at work at 4am....

Sparking is really changing my perspective and my attitude. I didn't think I'd see it this soon, but it's definitely happening....

So if you are thinking you are having or had a Miserable Monday take a deep breath and repeat after me.... Merry Monday Self and everyone else!!!

Keep Sparking!!!

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Sunday, February 10, 2013

Now typing this for the second time (horrible when you hit the wrong button on the keyboard and it deletes everything).

I am a list maker. I have lists for Things To Do, both at home and at work, I have grocery lists, I have lists for what I'm packing when traveling..... I love lists!!

I joined SparkCoach last week and have been tracking, reading, watching, and moving since. Great job Larria! I usually don't get through, but I spent the money this time and I refuse to waste the money. Today I signed in and the coaching video was regarding setting S.M.A.R.T. goals. I started to have a conversation with myself at that point. Imagine the good and evil beings sitting on your shoulders.

One Self: You do that every day by doing your lists
Second Self: You don't every complete those items on your list however

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I pulled all of my lists (yes I'm strange and I file my Things To Do (TTD) lists by month) and sure enough I completed everything else even if it took me a year, but I just kept writing my weight loss goals and not touching them.

Here I was sitting thinking of how I was sabatoging myself. I had to figure out why I didn't work on those goals. Back to my conversation with myself:

One Self: Why aren't you meeting your weight loss goals? Why are you ignoring them?
Second Self: Can't believe you didn't figure this out sooner, it's because you use the weight thing in each of your goals.

AhHa Moment! - Could it be that making my goals just about pounds was holding me back? So how do I fix this. By making S.M.A.R.T. Goals without using weight. Before I started this mental journey my goal was:

I will lose 150 pounds over the next 18 months by tracking my food, movement, water, and following my spark program.

Okay so there were so many things wrong with that. Thank you SparkCoach for making me see where I was hurting myself. Who starts with a goal so large you can't see any type of quick gratification to keep you motivated? Me of course, but I have to change that. The amount and the time frame where just unrealistic. After having my ah ha moment I also made my goal all about weight and that is a big trigger for me to avoid it so that had to be changed as well.

Now my goal is as follows: I will work hard over the next week to track my food, water, and activity every day. I will check in with my SparkCoach daily and track my sleep and mental feelings daily. I will journal how I feel and if I feel any healtheir. I will track my energy levels.

So instead of one goal it is a one week goal with lots of little goals inside it. All specific, but nothing that will sabatage me. All of them can be accomplished just by signing into SparkPeople every day.

I can't fail right? Well the other self says: Anything is possible.

My other self is right, but I've finally created something I can truly check off my list every day. Something that fits into my daily life without taking a huge chunk of time.

I'll keep you posted on how it goes, I truly believe this goal is attainable and I'm off to get it done.

Everyone out there keep Sparking and set yourself some S.M.A.R.T. Goals!

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And anther day bites the dust

Tuesday, May 15, 2012

Making it through another day. Now just have to come up with some great goals. Yesterday I just told my sellf MODERATION. Instead of two sausage sandwiches just one. Instead of 6 52oz Dr. Peppers during the day just one. Also I drank my first glass of water in a long time yesterday. Bought myself a super cool cup that reminds me I need to drink water and it keeps it nice and cold for me. Have to get back to tracking, but that always causes me anxiety because I have to actually look at what I'm doing and that throws me into a hopeless feeling. I have to face it though. I did spend about 3 hours in the garden last night. I weeded, shoveled dirt, and tied up tomatoes, and cleaned out the areas around my fruit trees. I really felt the exercise this morning..... Ughhhh!!! but yeah me I actually did something that involved movement.

Things just keep getting better and I'm just moving along down the right path. The boys are on board and supportive. Has anyone else watched "The Weight of the Nation". Started watching last night and it really hit me how much of it's true. I open my eyes and looked around and sure enough what did I see..... More overweight and obese people than healthy people. I don't want that to be me! I don't want to have diabetes, or congestive heart failure. I don't want my joints to fail and my liver to have issues. So here I am again day number to declaring that I will get healthy. Some things just shouldn't be a choice, this is one of them. I'm sick and tired of being sick and tired. Even some of my bouts of depression can be tracked back to my unhealthy habits. So I'm gonna change! I'm going to free myself! I'm going to WIN!

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MICHELELYNN777 5/16/2012 12:28PM

    You have a great attitude! I think the first step is changing our mind about things and that's what you're doing. Baby steps are the way to go so you don't get overwhelmed and give up. You WILL do it if you stay focused on what you want and just keep going a little bit at a time!
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CHEETARA79 5/15/2012 7:13PM

    Yes! Keep making those small changes day by day and they will add up to SUCCESS!

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Cruising right along through the thick and thin....

Monday, May 14, 2012

So I've been gone for what seems like forever, then came back for a moment thinking I would be all gung ho and with it, but just slid right down the "this takes to much effort" pole. I'm back again and WOW have the past week been a doozy for me. I pretty much already think I'm insane, but I just about ordered my own custom made straight jacket. Who knew that one lie (doesn't really matter that it was huge) could completely derail my existance. I guess a back story is necessary. When I was a young girl my father hurt himself and could not take care of me while my mother was working. My cousin, the wonderful soul she is, volunteered to be my babysitter. Up to this point my life was perfect. it was filled with love, family, and laughter. I spend my weekends with my family and enjoying life to the fullest. I was 6 or 7 at the time (the period is sorta fuzzy in my mind) and one day my cousin left and I didn't see that part of my family again until 5/5/12. Almost 30 years of missing a huge chuck of my life. I was never told why but I overheard adults talking as I was growing up. So I sat down with my cousins after all this time and found out that my father was a sexual predator. He hurt my cousin. My families way of dealing with it was to lie. Tell me my father didn't do it. Not expalin why my family had disappeared. It was a different time then and he was sentenced to 1 year of nights and weekends in prison (I though he was working the graveyard shift) and 8 counseling sessions. To my knowledge he never did it again. Both of my parents have been gone now for at least 10 years so I don't have them to ask about anything again. I'm finding though that I don't really know who I am. As stated before one lie and my overall belief in my values and who I am is in question.

After biting my nails, eating everything in my refrigerator and everything at the local grocery store, sleeping when I wasn't eating, and ignoring my children and husband, as well as starting to fail at my job: I made a decision! I am the only person who can decide who I am. It is not the things that happen to me during my life but how I use those things which define me. As of right now I have the perfect opportunity to make myself exactly who I want to be with no holds barred. I don't have to look at the restrictions put on me from the past. I can be the person I want to be with my own morals, goals, and I can set my own path in this life.

So pick up your glass and toast with me to the new Larria. Wholly improved and on the road to victory!


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