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And the week gets better....

Sunday, July 03, 2011

Weighed in today. 2.6 pounds down! Woot Woot! I've just finished rereading chapter 1 of The Spark and I'm feeling that spark from the tips of my shape up covered toes to the top of my in a pony tail, sweat covered head.

I went to a bbq yesterday and didn't feel like I missed anything.

These small goals are building my confidence and creating an urge for me to do better every day.

This week I'm working on getting up without hitting the snooze button. I know not exactly a nutrition or fitness goal, but it's a habit I'm really bad at and I want to break. So wish me luck and I keep on trucking right into week number 3 of staying on track. Seems like I just started this yesterday! Guess it's true time flies when you are having fun!!!


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MS_SWEETHEART 7/4/2011 12:16PM

    emoticon emoticonon the weight loss! Keep on tackling those small goals, and keep up the great work. emoticon

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MBW209 7/4/2011 2:26AM

  emoticon Happy 4th and enjoy that success!

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And I thought life couldn't get any more insane!

Saturday, July 02, 2011

So today I got home from a 13 hour work day, and I had mail in the mail box. I was so excited. I had applied for life insurance with Farmers. After my sisters death at the age of 26 earlier this year with no insurance, I decided I wouldn't do that to my family. So off I went did some comparison shopping, made my decision, submitted my paperwork, paid my premium and waited for my policy information. So I got home opened this piece of gold which I had been waiting for. Smiling I sat down on my couch, slowly opened the envelope savoring the moment when I would see all of that beautiful details in my hands. I pulled out the letter started to read it, my excitement growing with each word.

Ms. Carroll,

Thank you for submitting your application for life insurance with Farmers.

*******Then it started going down hill.********

We regret to inform you that due to your height and weight we are unable to insure you.

The rest was pretty standard. I reread it a thousand times. I think I went through more emotions than most people do during the greiving process.

I was angry that they would call me "short and fat". Then I was delirious to the point of insanity at how funny it was that they should tell me I have a weight problem when I'm working so hard to change my habits and create a healthier me. Then I was shocked that they would tell my agent they couldn't talk to me about the decision.

So there it is in writing from someone other than myself, my family, my friends, or my doctor. According to some computer, in some basement, in some random building, in the middle of who knows where it has been decided that I am unhealthy.

In the remaining portion of the letter they let me know I could contact them and ask for additional information. Exactly what more do they think they can say? I almost want an apology, but that isn't the exactly the way I should be looking at it. They also advised me they would be putting it into my record (ooooo I am feeling like someone with a criminal record, but my only crime is overeating).

So instead of getting more upset and running to the fridge. I tracked my food for the day, and ran to my local shoe store and picked up a pair of those new shoes by Sketchers. The ones that allow you to work out your muscles more while you are walking. I believe they are called shapeups.... Anyone else out there every used them? I'm hoping they give me a little more of a boost.

So I am proud of myself for doing the right thing and once again so happy I had this place to vent my life.

Thanks everyone you are the best!


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MS_SWEETHEART 7/2/2011 12:08PM

    We're in the same boat. I can't get approved for life insurance either. I didn't take it as well as you did though. I requested the additional information, and the person I talked to had an attitude because I had questions. Soooo I proceeded to give him a little information, @#%$^&, if you know what I mean. But I accepted it, and I'm trying to get down to an "acceptable" weight, and try again. So just keep on doing what you're doing, and hang in there. emoticon

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MBW209 7/2/2011 2:14AM

  Good for you! Wish I had handled the rejection for longterm care insurance as well as you did in your situation! It is amazing to me that people like you and me get turned down when some of my friends with far more risky health habits get approved. Well, we will just have to show those insurance companies, won't we? emoticon By the way, I have been wearing ShapeUps for a year or so and I really like them - hope you will feel the same.

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Is this week over yet???

Thursday, June 30, 2011

This week beat almost any other week I've had of just pure stress (not related to a death in the family). I started with a migraine last Friday and wouldn't you know it I still have the tail end of it today. I was hoping things would be get better quicker. It was a total stress headache slightly spiked with new weather. Today it's 109 degrees! It's been like that all week with one day being overcast and humid. That was my worst day. I ended up passing out from the pain that day. This week I have had to let go of one of my employees, deal with being declined for life insurance because of my weight, changing my hours, getting very little sleep, and trying to figure out what I'm going to do with my kids for school this year. Seems like the decisions never end. Then my sisters insurance company contacted me and now there are more things to deal with there. I know I'm still in the greiving process because I just don't want to think about it or deal with it. Then yesterday my other employee almost quit. So I found myself a little debbie apple pie and ended up blowing my day. The good thing was that even eating away, I managed to gain control and stay under my normal average of 3000 calories per day. Today I jumped right back on the wagon and I'm doing well. I've managed to track through it all. I'm so thankful for the little notes and messages from the members of Sparkpeople. I think a lot of the days this week it was them and not me that kept me away from the cheese cake or the bag of chips. So thank you thank you thank you! emoticon

This weekend there is a hike coming up and I'm excited to hike to our favorite fishing spot and spend the day at the lake with the family and some really great friends! So there are good things on the horizon.

I hope everyone out there is sticking to it regardless of the ups or downs. It's the sticking power that will get us all to our healthiest place.

Have a great time out there until the next time.


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MS_SWEETHEART 6/30/2011 11:03PM

    Wow, you have had a long week. After all this week threw your way, you managed to keep on keeping on, and that's amazing. I hope things get better for you soon sweetie. Try to get a little rest, and hang in there. emoticon

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Day #6 - Migraine

Sunday, June 26, 2011

Even through a migraine I've had all day. I still managed to track my food. Woo Hoo!!! Still not a great number day, but I'm congratulating myself on making a full 6 days with honestly tracking my food. Anyone ever find yourself lying on your own spark tracking? Why? There's no one out there that is the food police that will come marching to your door to lock you up for that soda you drank or that potato chip you were sneaking out of the pantry. We not only lie on your tracking, but if your anything like me you also sneak into the kitchen and drop a piece of cheese into your mouth or try not to get caught with a spoonful of icecream. Your family are only concerned for your health. They can't exactly hurt you other than give you a disappointed dad look (you know the one you would have rather taken a spanking than have him look at you that way look). So do what I'm doing.... Just be honest, you aren't helping yourself or anyone else. I have discovered after 37 years of doing this that I'm the only one I'm hurting by not actually tracking the truth of what I put in my mouth. Don't get me wrong it's a horrible number to look at when you total it all up, but It's the truth and that's the only way to get started on the right track.

I'll get off my soap box now. Hope everyone has a great Saturday night!

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MOLLYBROWN55 6/26/2011 2:43AM

    Congratulations!! You have identified a HUGE treasure! Self honesty!

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MS_SWEETHEART 6/26/2011 1:52AM

    Have you been spying on me? Yes I have lied on the food tracker, and I've even waited until I was home alone to steal a treat or two. But I know better so I do better now. However, I'm still tempted from time to time to steal a treat. Sometimes I'm strong, sometimes I'm not. Hope you feel better soon, and have a great day. emoticon

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If I were to give up today would be the day, but I'm going to persevere!

Friday, June 24, 2011

So I thought I was going to quit drinking soda and found myself at Circle K filling up my 44 oz soda out of habit with the straw in my mouth before I had a clue what I was doing. Didn't realize how automated what I do is. Then today I hit my alltime high for calories consumed 4800+. Can you say "Wow you need some help!" I've taken a couple of great steps. I'm the first person to say I'm addicted! I'm here tracking and making it through this first week with bells on. Even putting in that much food, I could have lied and not put down what I really ate, but how is that helping.
This is the truth! I'm finally facing it head on! I'm going to do this! Weighing in on Sunday. Freightened of the scale, but it's just a check point.
If I can get through today admitting I put more calories on yesterday and that I have a problem, and I can post for the world to see that I ate OVER 4800 calories today. I can do this. It's gotta get better from here, there is only a long stretch in front of me with some hurdles, but the more I use the tools I have the healthier I will be. The longer I will be here for my children. Tomorrow I'm gonna start spring cleaning our house in June.... First full weekend off in a long time and I'm gonna spend it with the family getting the house ready for us to live healthily in....

So wish me luck and I'll see ya all back here tomorrow.

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MAKING140BY40 6/29/2011 1:55AM

    You can do it. It will take time to make new habits! I am glad you are here with me, checking in with me. You are definitely help motivate me to keep in present time in my weight loss journey! We will make this happen, with stumbling blocks and learning points! We will keep moving forward and reach our goals!

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MS_SWEETHEART 6/25/2011 4:26AM

    This is a learning experience, and there will be mistakes along the way, there will be some days when you hit your mark, and others when you're far off. BUT HANG IN THERE. Tracking the good with the bad is the right thing to do, it will help you to make healthier choices. Soda used to be my drug of choice, I drank soda all day, and water maybe once a month. But after about 2 months of making healthier choices, I kicked the habit. I couldn't just quit cold turkey and I hate diet soda, so that wasn't an option. I limited myself to 1 soda a day with a meal, gradually decreasing it each week, until I kicked the habit. However I'm still struggling with cheese (don't like the taste of low-fat or fat-free). Glad you decided to persevere. emoticon

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