Wednesday, June 22, 2011
So I went and updated my current weight. Decided to use one of Sparkpeople's calculators on the side. I was amazed ! If I get on track and can lose 2 little pounds per week I can be at my goal in a little over a year. 2 little pounds! We aren't talking about rocket science here. They aren't saying you need to lose 10 pounds a day or 30 pounds per month. 2 little pounds per week! Wow, I've never looked at it that way. That seems so acheivable. Was that all I needed as a realistic number? Well I'm off to ponder those 2 little pounds and see where they will lead me. Just had to share my utter astonishment. I mean can it really be that simple, not easy, but simple?
Tuesday, June 21, 2011
Okay so I didn't get right off to the right foot, but who would have guessed my last blog would have created a new friend and an instant way to keep me on track. It's day number two since I found my new spark buddy and I have tracked absolutely everything I have put in my mouth. Wow! Who really knew i ate that much? Not me! I'm coming home every night now with a sense of complete excitement to read what my buddy has to say and then it's an instant way to go right to tracking my food. Just like I told her, the emails she sends daily are what I use as a desert to finish off my daily food intake.
I haven't eaten the best of food but I'm noticing trends in my eating. I should be able to come up with a solid plan after this week.
So here I am with a new sense of renewal for a long time and I'm excited to track my food and jump on my spark page every day!
This is a great place!
Thursday, June 16, 2011
This is me now. Saw my last entry was awhile ago. I was getting ahead starting to do the right things and then it all fell apart again. I'm an emotional eater. When I'm super happy, I eat. When I'm stressed, I eat. When I'm sad, I eat. So all those things have happened since my last post and I ate, and ate, and ate. I have now gone through one of the most horrific things in my life. I buried my 26 year old sister. She was 11 years younger than me and I raised her and my other sister (10 years younger than me) for the first 8 years of their life, and then after I buried my father I took over again, then when I buried my mother I was once again there as the surrugate parent. So it didn't just feel like my sister who had died, but my child. She passed away in February. To say I've haven't taken it well is an understatement. I keep looking for the little men in the white jackets to come take me away on a daily basis. I figured this will be a good way to try to move forward and try to keep my sanity at the same time. So I bought the spark, made my motivational mural and now I'm putting it all down in writing to see if I can get my focus elsewhere. So one of my goals is to blog, please bear with me as I move forward on this journey. I'm now at 265 started 1 year ago at 245 and I am working toward 160... But it's not about the numbers it's about how I feel. Hopefully healthy living will allow me to fight my way out of this depression I am in. So here I go again....
Saturday, November 06, 2010
This morning I woke up completely exhausted and I still am sitting here typing this. I started thinking about it and I'm exhausted because I'm moving and doing things I'm not used to. I haven't dropped a pound or an inch but I'm moving, eating healthy food that tastes good and best of all I'm smiling. How is this possible I sit here and ask myself? Then something I heard Harry Chapin say that his grandfather said popped into my head
"There are two kinds of tired: there's good-tired, and there's bad-tired.' He said, 'Ironically enough, bad-tired can be a day that you won. But you won other people's battles, you lived other people's days, other peoples agendas, other people's dreams and when it was all over there was very little "you" in there, and when you hit the hay at night, somehow you toss and turn--you don't settle easy.' He said, 'Good-tired, ironically enough, can be a day that you lost. But you don't have to tell yourself, 'cause you knew you fought your battles, you chased your dreams, you lived your days, and when you hit the hay at night, you settle easy--you sleep the sleep of the just, and you can say "take me away."
I'm good tired today. I don't want to go anywhere but I know I have done the best I can do for me. I am learning so much about myself as I am moving through this new journey. Doctors appointment next week and hopefully I'll check out and be set to go and take that next step.
Lovin' Life and feeling Good Tired who could ask for more.
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