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Finally Made the Decision

Wednesday, July 20, 2011

My medical doctor and I have had an on going battle for the past two years. She has been trying to convince me to have weight loss surgery and I flat out refused. My logic was if I didn't need surgery to gain the weight then I don't want to use surgery to lose the weight. I never thought that having the surgery was an easy way out. I know that it means drastic changes in your lifestyle and I wasn't sure I could commit to it.
As the years passed my health problems have gotten worse. My back pain is getting worse, I have 2 herniated disks, 2 enlarged disks, and my lumbar spine is twisted to the left. Some days it is all I can do to walk from my bed to the bathroom. Four months ago my doctor looked me in the eye and asked why are you living with this pain if you don't have to. A light bulb went off! That was the day I decided to have the surgery.
I knew where I wanted to have the surgery and I went to a seminar held at the hospital and learned that there were four types of weight loss surgeries. I chose to have the Vertical Gastric Sleeve. I am scheduled to have it on Monday, July 25th. I have been shopping for my recovery, purchasing all the liquids I will be able to eat after the surgery. Let me tell you it is not much. If you thought this was easy trust me you are dead wrong. There are some foods that I will never be able to eat again if I want to be successful at this.
I am grateful to SP for all its support and for the groups for those that have had weight loss surgery. I feel that I am ready for this and can commit to what it will take to lose the weight. No one likes to be cut open, but I will darned if I go through all this and not keep the weight off.

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MOONANDSTARS77 3/2/2013 1:57PM

  Good luck!

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SBNORMAL 7/14/2012 1:26PM

  More power to you. Keep us posted!!

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FINEBABY72 7/21/2011 4:38PM

  I pray your surgery goes well, and your recovery is successful! Good luck to you! emoticon

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PLATINUM755 7/21/2011 3:00PM

    Do keep us informed as your date draws nearer, and afterwards. We wish you well with the surgery. Each step we take in life offers us a new beginning... emoticonto your new beginning...We are here for you as you continue on your journey to a healthier lifestyle. emoticon

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MS_SWEETHEART 7/20/2011 11:13PM

    I've thought about it, but I'm chicken. I hope all goes well and I'm here to offer support in any way I can, take care. emoticon

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    It's not the easy way out. I have a close friend of mine who did it and lost 80 pounds- I had lost 100 without it. What I see is that we both made a choice mentally or medically and then we did almost the exact same thing. Reduced calories, upped protein. You can do this. Follow what the Dr's say. I'm proud of you for realizing that any work you do can be undone, so take care. emoticon

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RONNIE0404 7/20/2011 6:05PM

    Well wishes being sent your way. Take care!

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JESSICA2140 7/20/2011 5:34PM

    Best wishes!!

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SKYRUNHER 7/20/2011 5:28PM

    I wish you the best with your surgery!

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Happy to be Alive and Done!

Saturday, September 05, 2009

Lately I have been hearing about so many people dying of massive heart attacks and this scared me. Many of these people were younger than I am now. I know I have high blood pressure and I take meds for it I am hoping once I lose the weight I won't have to take the meds anymore. My best friend of 36 years died to a massive heart attack and she wasn't on any meds at all. For a while I wondered why her, why am I still here with all the health issues I have and she didn't have any. Now I know that she did have health issues but she never took care of herself. She would constantly call me and ask about my health but in the 36 years I knew her I never once heard her say I am going to the doctor.

Today, I am happy to be alive and done with battling with my weight. I am here for a reason and it is time I took better care of me than everyone else. I need to be the best I can be in all areas of my life. I am not just trying to improve my health, but my career and love life as well. As a woman we are always so concerned with others and neglect ourselves, but if we don't take better care of ourselves we won't be here to take care of those we love.

I am so done with hiding behind the weight and health problems. I feel like a flower about to bloom. It may be coming at a late point in my life but I am grateful it came at all.

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CASTLET 1/13/2011 12:14AM

  Great post! This really resonates with me, and my personal journey. Always taking care of everyone else.....on Blood pressure meds and facing an almost certain early death if I didn't get a grip on myself and make some big changes! Thanks to the wonderful resources and people of SP, I have lost 50 pounds and have kept it off for 9 months now. I'm starting chapter two currently.....on the road to dropping 30 more, then we'll see :-) I hope your journey is going well. Keep it up, and carry that spark! emoticon

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ENUFF81020 10/25/2010 6:25AM

    This is a powerful blog in many ways--I hope that you are still going as strong today. You can do this and we are all here to lend a hand and our positive thoughts to help you along the way. emoticon
Gentle hugs,

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TYEASLEY 9/6/2009 12:14AM

    You're here with all of us. You can do it!! So glad that you're here and ready to tackle your health hurdles. Who knows, this time next year you'll be a totally healthy fit, medicine free person.

Cudos to you!! emoticon

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LILSHINE 9/5/2009 9:03PM

    Amen. It's never too late. Always on time

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New Attitude

Monday, August 03, 2009

It has been a while since I blogged and it is way overdue. I have learned that I am my own worst enemy in losing weight. I know what I should eat, I know that I have to exercise yet I am still obese. Why?... because I am lazy and I procrastinate. I put off working saying each day I will start tomorrow and yet I will end up going months without working out. When I do workout I notice that I eat healthier.

It took me a while but I think I have found the right exercise format for me. I bore very easily so I find dance aerobics works best for me. I need good music and fancy footwork in order to enjoy my workout. If I don't enjoy it I won't stick with it. Thank God for Netflix, where I can stream workout dvds online and also rent them. I have tons of workouts to mix and match so I don't get bored. I plan on joining a city run gym which only cost 75.00 for a year long membership. There I can get my weight lifting in as well as water aerobics for my joints.

As for my eating plan, I am not a veggie lover but plan on changing that. I need to incorporate more veggies into my meals. I eat enough fruit but lack in the veggies. I also need to cut back on the sugar, its my nemesis. I know I am a sugar junkie and if I can tackle the sugar then the rest will be a piece of cake.

I needed to get this out there and not keep it in my mind. I need to be held accountable and this way all of SP knows my plan and can call me on it.

Thanks for letting me rant!

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PLATINUM755 8/4/2009 9:37AM

    Dance, dance, dance, dance, dance...really does the body good and sooo much fun along with the water aerobics...Love the plan!

As for adding vegetables, like everything else, start slow. Start with a salad and a low cal spicy (like you) dressing that will make your tongue dance while you eat, and work your way up from there. I haven't met a vegetable that I didn't like, however, the preparation makes a difference. I won't eat a vegetable cooked any old kind of way, so experiment and find the path that leads to where you want to go. You can do it!

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CNIKKI33 8/3/2009 11:44PM

    I bore easily too. I fell in LOVE with belly dancing. I just recently tried zumba but I fear I am not very coordinated. It was awkward.

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NGCHILD 8/3/2009 10:44PM

    Dance away! Good for you for finding something that works for you!!

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FALYNB 8/3/2009 10:11PM

    I think we all in some sense are all our worst enemy because If we weren't none of use would be here. So now that you faced that theirs a way to change it and your on the right track for that.

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DANIELLE68 8/3/2009 9:54PM

    It takes great courage to get real with yourself. I would love to know which dvd's you're using on Netflix. Keep on keeping on.

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    You got it out here now. You have a plan and know what to do.....Don't keep those thoughts locked up inside, let them out so we can motivate and support you. emoticon

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TRACY-HAZZARD 8/3/2009 9:17PM

    Rant away!!! sometimes it's the best way!!

I need to try dancing, although I am not very good at it, AT ALL!!!


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Life is Never Boring!

Sunday, September 07, 2008

Every time I think things are going well something happens to turn my life upside down. I am now dealing with having to make a career change. This is major for me, since I have spent the last 7yrs doing what I am doing and prior to that I spent 5 yrs preparing for it. Now what? I don't want to make this change but have to. I am trying really hard to not let this depress me or send me on eating binges. I have enough health issues already I don't need anymore. I am grateful for my friends and family that have been so supportive of me through this, and to my SP family for allowing me to vent.

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SUNNY11434 9/7/2008 10:21PM

    Hello my sister!!! Boy have I missed our chats. I'm still in Ohio and have broke down and got a lap-top and in the process of installing messenger.

I'm so sorry to hear that you're forced to make this decision. What next is a very deep question sis. I know you love what you do but I truly believe that with prayer you will make the right decision, one that will be a stepping stone to bigger and better things for you. Life is never boring but I be darn if we both could use a little boredom about now. lol.

Keep your head up Kim. I will be in touch.

Hug hugsss,

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Tired and Unmotivated

Wednesday, July 23, 2008

You would think with all the health issues I have, arthritis, high blood pressure, herniated discs, ocular hypertension, that I would be motivated to lose weight. I know what I need to do to lost the weight but I can't seem to get up and get active. I am my own worst enemy. Instead of exercising I sit around being a couch potato and watch television. If it wasn't for work I would be even bigger. At least at work I have to move around and walk up and down a hallway. Although I am tired of being overweight and dealing with health issues I am not doing what needs to be done to take care of it. Why? I wish I knew why I sabatoge myself. Maybe I need to see a therapist to help me figure out why.

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SARITARN 7/30/2008 12:01PM

  if you think you need to see a therapist... chances are you do! not because you are crazy or anything, but sometimes it helps to just let things out. i have been in therapy for months now and i can absolutely say it helped me!! my overeating started as a child when dealing with neglect etc from my father after my parents divorce. that was my way of dealing. we all have different issues, it doesn't hurt to look in to it! :) i have arthritis, herniated discs as well, and also multiple surgeries on my left foot which now i have nerve pain etc. it can be very overwhelming and discouraging. don't get discouraged. you don't have to change everything at the same time! make small goals! whether its making a healthy lunch every day for work, or drinking so much water every day. once you get one thing handled, you can add on another goal :) weight loss isn't instant, it's a long process and it's not always easy.

slow and steady wins the race!!!

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SUNNY11434 7/26/2008 11:15PM

    I feel you so completely Kim. I've figured it out for'd think that with ALL my health concerns and especially with this latest one that I'd COLD STOP what I'm doing wrong, exercise 5xs a day (not once) and just get right!!! Well, I'm not going to beat myself up (like my doctor did). I have a eatting disorder and it's not going away just b/c I want it to. It's not going to go away just b/c I know over-eatting could have me literally wake up dead any given morning and I'm not going to change just b/c it's the most friggin' logical thing in the world to do. I AM A OVER-EATER and that's the bottom line. I have an addiction to the activity of eatting and I'd better reprogram my azz asap if I'm going to get better. So I'm starting with prayer. I need willingness to do what I need to do, which is, eat to live and nothing more. In the mean time I am much better. I am making myself get up at 7:30am to exercise. I'm making myself stick to my eating schedule...even if I'm not eating all the EXACT right things and I'm telling on myself when I do wrong. One day at a time and wanting to do and be better is where I started.

Kim, pls don't be discouraged. Blog about it, share with our team, and will yourself to give up the fight to stay stuck. lol. IT's a sloooooow procees and this wont happen for us over-night. I really do thank you for sharing and wanting to do better. Heck Sis, if we had the answer to why we don't do what we know is right then we'd be millionaires.

Here's a special healing hug (((((((KIM)))))))!!!


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SGODDYN 7/24/2008 9:53AM

    Hi There,
Seeing a therapist is a good idea. I went through a bad phase some time back and that's the only things that got me back to being what I call my normal me. Also, see your doctor and talk to him/her - you may be low on iron and that causes fatigue and a depression like state of mind.

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LITTLEMECHE 7/23/2008 11:43PM

    when i first started i didn't do much i pretty much just read some articles, tracked some foods, I knew what i had to do, for some reason the first push is sooo hard, Now a few weeks later, I'm not the most active person here or the most commited one, but i have done some small changes that put togheter have made a difference, i have only lost 3 pounds but i feel more optimistic cause i have better habits, and i still have to drag myself into do some workouts but just the thought of becoming an active person gives me peace inside, i guess i'm just saying that it's not easy but if feels so right once you get into it, you have already become a member, and that's a big step now go for smaller steps, drink lots of water, learn to use the site, walk a little more, you'll find your way.
Good luck and if you need a buddy feel free to ask.

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RAYLINSTEPHENS 7/23/2008 11:08PM

    One day at a time, one step at a time, one foot in front of the other.

Some days just living is a challenge.

Do you need to see a therapist? I don't know, I am not a doctor.

But you are taking the first step by reaching out to people that can understand and really relate to you. We are all here for you, you only have to open your heart and let us in.

Join a few teams - surely one will touch your heart and help.

Hugs emoticon
and Love,

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