Friday, May 29, 2009
Today I decided to buy new work out clothes. The lines were long when it was time to check out, and one of the customers had several items that wouldn't scan. I ended up standing in front of the candy aisle for quite some time as price checks were done. As I stood there, I started looking at the chocolate- my downfall/my addiction. Hmmm.... just how many calories are there in kisses? So I picked up a bag and read it... then the 2 musketeers...on to the the Milkyways..... ok, snack size had less. Snickers, Carmel kisses....In my mind I was rationalising that I could buy the snack size and eat just 3, but I have never eaten just . I was picking up bags, putting them in my cart, then replacing on shelf and choosing different types... I was a women possessed.
My next thought was if I was going to buy some chocolate, I should get some of those little Debbies for DH that he loves... I like them too. If they are in the house I'm going to eat more then he will.
I looked at my line, and all of the other long lines, and thought it won't take 3 minutes to get those little Debbies. I glanced down at my basket, and all of those bags of chocolate almost hid my new work out clothes. I cringed and took a deep breath.
Through my mind flashed the endless hours I have worked to get this weight off and things I have not eaten. The hours of exercise, and the sore muscles; the dedication of my DS-I-L the personal trainer, who has given up her time to help me; my wedding anniversary cake, and the cake for my son when he left for the army. I visualized the size 16 pants that I have kept, and how I can almost fit into one pants leg now. And I thought about my blood sugar levels, and how they are normal now.
I slowly started putting the candy bags back on the self. When I was finished, I left the line for more shopping. Not for the Little Debbies, but for a bag of baby carrots for the ride home, and a box of my favorite sugar-free fudgesicles. I may be close to my goal weight, I'm not not finished...
One day. one hour, one decision at at time... I'm working my way through it.
Monday, March 02, 2009
I love doughnuts. They are wonderful. little melt in your mouth, sweet, fried pieces of heaven for me. There is a small shop here that makes the most wonderful ones. I am a doughnut expert- they really are the best.
The owners start at 3:00am making the dough from scratch. They begin frying them about 5, and you can smell them for blocks. I am driving 3 blocks out of the way right now so I can't smell them. They make them continuously until they are sold out. They are so wonderful, they are usually gone by 8am.
I have done very well resisting the doughnuts. Until today, I hadn't one since I started Spark. One of the drug reps brought in several dozen of them. It was a nice assortment too- plain glazed, chocolate covered, cinnamon twists, apple fritters, and a few jelly filled. The boxes were warm, almost hot, when he handed them to me. I set them on the table in the break room; and grabbed a glazed.
I inhaled about 1/3 of that delightful fried dough before I slowed down. For everyone who believes their taste preferences will change over time if you quit eating a favorite food, this is NOT what has happened to me. (Sorry......) It was wonderful!!! Then calories count of the day anxiety took over. I took one more BIG bite, chewed slowly, then regretfully threw the remaining half in the trash.
I skipped my afternoon snack, so was really hungry by dinner time. I ate baked fish and a ton of fresh veggies to compensate for the doughnut.
After dinner, I calculated my calories for the day. Even with the half doughnut, I was still 200 calories under the minimum I'm supposed to eat....
Now I'm really bummed. I could have eaten the whole thing and still not gone over for the day!!
I will not be eating doughnuts anytime soon. But the next time I do decide to have one, I'm eating the whole thing. Just one- but I am going to enjoy every bite.
Sunday, February 22, 2009
I've done this before; I know my body well. My weight loss is fixing to screech to a halt for a while.
Not because I plan to quit exercising or eat out of calorie range. This morning I hit one of the weight ranges my body loves. I know what they are. For a few weeks losing anything will be really hard. My body is going to rebel....
I am going to work really hard on staying with it. It is so hard to stay motivated during my plateau weights. I plan to count my losses in inches and ounces if there are any.
Focus Stay Motivated This will pass Focus Stay Motivated This will pass...
My mantra for now..
Saturday, February 21, 2009
It has been another of those weeks; work days were long and stressful, with never a dull moment... or a moment to take a break.
I made it through without reaching for food. That has been my life long coping tool. So I have stayed within my calorie range every day.
Also made all of my exercise goals. My CPT/DSIL is so wonderful- she is meeting me at different (and weird) hours so I can get my strength training in.
We are going to redo my BMI Monday, and I'm curious to see where it's at now. She has warned me not to expect huge results; it takes time.
I also have doctor's appointment Monday morning. I'm curious to see if all of this hard work shows by my blood work. It is certainly showing on my body.
Monday, February 16, 2009
Wow Woke up this morning and am just NOT in the mood to do anything. Didn't want to exercise but did my walking and cardio. Now I just want to get back in bed and sleep.
My house needs to be cleaned and my personal trainer will be waiting for me at 11:00 this am. I've been so charged up about her help and am enjoying it so much.. I still dont want to go today.
Is it this cold weather or what?
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