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Gay Girls

Saturday, July 12, 2008


Recently I have had alot of young teenage Latina gay girls around me. They seem so happy to be around me and happy that I'm Mexican and gay and not sold out. I see them mimick me, observe me. They seem proud and amused that I am outspoken, strong, funny. They don't care about what I look like. I could tell that I make them feel loved, protected, and like they have someone in there corner. They are curious about my personal life. About my relationship. My fights. My apartment. My job. My family. My childhood.

Being a "role model" to them makes me want to improve myself, my body image, self-esteem, jealousy issues, health issues. I want them to see how you can change your situation. To have a real example of someone exactly like them making it.

Its been a special week. They gave me more than I gave them.

  
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WAITE02 7/12/2008 6:14AM

    That's so commendable. Everyone looks up to someone, and nearly everyone has someone that looks up to them. It's so important to take that roll seriously, and realize that the choices we make, shape the world as we know it. The decisions we make and decide on, the things we think we can let slide, show other people how to settle for less. I think it's so great that you're realizing just how many people are looking up to you as a roll model, and trying to be the best that you can possibly be! Congratulations, it sounds like it was truly profound for you!

It also made me stop to think... who in my life, is looking at me as a roll model, and what kind of roll model do I want to be. I want to be the best one that I can be too. Thanks for the insight.

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Or this design??

Monday, July 07, 2008


Which nail design do you like best?

  
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FATKAT28 7/7/2008 2:41AM

    MMM...THIS ONE IS PRETTY TOO...DAM I LIKE THEM BOTH. WITCH ONE WILL BE MORE VERSATILE WITH YOUR OUTFITS OR YOU KNOW WHAT GET SOMETHING THAT IS DIFFERENT THAT YOU WOULDN'T GET. ( I DO LIKE THE FIRST ONE LOL) BUT THERE BOTH VERY PRETTY. emoticon

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French Tip? New Project.

Monday, July 07, 2008


I love getting my nails done. I always get a design and once you do this they seem very plain without the design. I got a promotion recently and I am was trying to decide whether i should cut my nails down and get a french tip. --you know be more professional. But I can't do it. If I am cutting them down, then Im getting the design in the picture.

I had a good weekend. I restarted drinking my water as a first step back. I read everyone's advice and I am really going to try. I can't believe people have lost 40 pounds. This is amazing to me.

I think I need to figure out a hobby or a new project. I am a bit bored. I get a real high when I achieve something. I have been successful with quite a few projects in the past couple of years, but its been a while since I've taken anything new on. Recently, I moved, got a promotion, been 2 years with my girlfriend (worked on alot of personal issues-jealousy, insecurity,communication, etc.), worked on my relationship with my family, successfully created and completed 2 new projects at work. So now what?

I would love to lose this weight, eat healthy, and exercise everyday. I would love to say I was living a healthy life.

  
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FATKAT28 7/7/2008 2:36AM

    CONGRATZ ON YOUR PROMOTION !! I'm GLAD EVERYTHING IS GOING WELL FOR YOU. THAT DESIGN IS BEAUTIFUL ,BUT I'm SURE WHATEVER ONE YOU PICK WILL BE GORGEOUS ON YOU. emoticon

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Need Your Opinion

Saturday, July 05, 2008


This move has been way harder than I thought it would be. I haven't been able to get into the swing of things. My food intake is totally off. I don't have all the household items I need. I was in my old place for years and had slowly collected everything I needed for a home. We had a huge garage sale and now we don't have all the necessities. Its very frustrating.

Yesterday I was trying to set new goals and once again I have not been able to lose this weight and eat healthy. I have been the happiest and at peace right now, but still I am not eating as I should. I am not exercising. I don't want to be like this for the rest of my life.

One time I lost alot of weight and I got alot of attention from guys. It was really uncomfortable. It made me feel wierd because I had never experienced that --people trying to talk to me off the street. It would make me mad. I feel someone should get at me when I am at my worst and that's how I know it is true (that the person is interested in the inside of me). I know --its a little warped.

I'm wondering where I am going to go with my life. I am not going to have a goal on my list that never gets accomplished. So I need to go to work on this. Has anyone experienced this? Had personal issues about losing weight? Any advice?

  
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HUSKY__HANK 7/7/2008 7:34AM

  Just take things one day at a time. Use smaller goals as stepping stones to reach your larger ones.

One can do it!!

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PRYDEQUEEN 7/5/2008 4:33PM

    What pops out to me from your blog is that you are the happiest and at peace right now. Take a look at what is bringing you that peace and happiness. What are you doing different now than in the past? Focus on that peace and happiness. And simply breath it all in. It sounds as though you have made some changes in your life and they are starting to settle in like you are in your new environment. Change can be difficult for all of us. Any kind of change.

It sounds as though you are at a point of great change. Be kind and gentle to yourself and listen to your inner thoughts. Try to let go of all the busy chatter and all of the shoulds from your past. Your goals will arrive. Don't focus on the scale. Look at how you are feeling about your self. I believe that is what is changing for you.

Continue to take care of you. You know what is good for you.

Good luck!

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FATKAT28 7/5/2008 12:35PM

    HEY : ) IT SOUNDS LIKE YOUR AT A LITTLE BIT OF A CROSS ROADS. DO I LOSE THE WEIGHT AND STAY WHERE I'm AT,WHICH IS COMFORTABLE AND HAS WORKED FOR ME? OR DO LOSE THE WEIGHT AND HAVE TO DEAL WITH THE WAY "PEOPLE" RESPOND TO ME AND THE WAY I FEEL ABOUT MYSELF AS A NEW WOMAN? I CAN TELL YOU BELIEVE IT OR NOT I HAVE BATTLED WITH MY WEIGHT MOST OF MY LIFE BUT IN A DIFFERENT WAY. ANOREXIA-BULIMIA HAS ALMOST KILLED ME .I WAS JUST TRYING TO REACH WHAT I THOUGHT WAS A WAS CORRECT WEIGHT FOR ME. IN THE END I COULDN'T STAND FOR ANYONE MALE OR FEMALE TO LOOK AT ME. I'm HERE THANK GOD LOL....I KNOW WHAT YOU MEAN WHEN YOU SAY YOU WANT A PERSON TO LOVE YOU AT YOUR WORST MA BUT THAT DOESN'T HAVE TO MEAN WEIGHT. IT COULD MEAN WHEN YOU HAVE A BAD PIMPLE LOL...BAD HAIR DAY... HAHAH!! YOUR SICK WITH THE FLU AND YOU AINT LOOKING TO HOT LOL.....IT DOESN'T HAVE TO BE ABOUT YOUR WEIGHT.WRITE DOWN YOUR GOALS SMALL , LIKE I WANNA LOSE 10 PDS: HOW CAN I DO THAT:
1: FOOD PLAN
2:CARDIO 40 MIN H5 TIMES PER WK M-F
3:HANG UP A POSITIVE MANTRA ON MY MIRROR ABOUT ME.
4:START A REWARD SYSTEM FOR EACH 10PDS LOST.
5:WEIGHT LOSS NEEDS TO BE A TOP PRIORITY IN YOUR LIFE OR YOU WILL HAVE A SHORT LIFE.THIS IS A FACT.LIFE IS NOT A GAME MA,YOUR ARE BEAUTIFUL INSIDE AND I THINK OUTSIDE ( LOL IVE NEVER SEEN YOU HAHAH!) YOU DESERVE TO BE HAPPY. emoticon emoticon emoticon

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CLASSYLADYMAY 7/5/2008 11:50AM

    I have been thru that and was at your weight when i first started here.. the thing with me is that i was sexually abused when i was 9 and after i got married and had kids i didnt want attention form men so i gained weight so i wouldnt , but now i am thinking more of my health and want to be a better weight so i can do more which i am.! so take it step by step.. its Journey and with all the help and info on the site YOU can do this!!! a lot to learn but with small things to get in ahbit then it will be a life style.. not a diet!.. eat slow.. and less.. exercise each day.. work up to 30 mins or more... and be postive! caue being postivbe helps a lot.. also work out with weights.. helps a lot for many reasons.. keep going.. dont look back just forward and seeing the new you! Hugss Geri

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Black Widow

Tuesday, July 01, 2008


So here's the latest: my dad's mother is crazy! She never raised my dad but she recently told my dad that she wished that the cancer would take him. She is EVIL. Who does that? I feel like maybe she is a black widow murderer. She just seems to have no feelings. She is very self-absorbed and makes up lies. She is 95 but her mind is all there. Its almost scary.

I think maybe it was a blessing in disguise that she left my dad when he was 4 years old. Maybe he will finally realize all this.

  
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MONSTERMOM_3 7/4/2008 1:48AM

    Well, this is not easy to deal with perhaps surrounding your dad with positive people is important during this difficult time. Potentially your dad's mom does not know how to handle the situation, that is she has not forgiven herself for leaving him and instead of feeling anger towards him she feels it towards herself and covers it up that way. remember for many it is difficult to admit wrong doing and expressong feelings. Just be there for your dad (sounds like you already are)
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STRONGMELISSA24 7/3/2008 5:03PM

    Wow! your poor father. I'm glad that he has you in his life--someone to make him feel better and to know what real family love is.

Hope you're doing great!

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