Sunday, October 05, 2008
I have reached 5000 points. I am getting points but my eating is at a crossroads. I have been eating after dinner, well over a 1000 calories that I am not even putting on the site because I don't need to--I got my 5 points. Besides it happens so late, that I can easily avoid being conscientious. Well, I need to get it together. I have tried control. I have tried saying I won't do it, but that hasn't worked. New plan. I am going to try to remember people who struggle at other things: people with injuries, people with cancer, etc. People who have to really work just to do Normal things. I am going to say "I can do this." Then I am going to stop and pray. Within a week I have an appointment to be hypnotized in order to curb my after dinner eating.
It is so much easier for me to start things then to put a curb on things. I started exercising in the morning--getting up at 6. I have always said I am not a morning person, and really wasn't, barely making it to the coffee and barely making it to work on time--but i overcame that. As I said, I can start things, but have a hard time stopping. "I can do this." will be my watch word. Let's hope I am not like the cubs--starting with hope and ending in tears. No. "I can do this." I am not facing Billingsley or Kuroda.