Saturday, April 25, 2009
I really had to realize that I need to stop living for yesterday, and to live for today and for what can be tomorrow. I had to stop worrying about who I was, and think about who I can be...I was starting to have a lot of self esteem issues again and my negative self talk came back. It's important to keep working on these things we wouldn't talk to our friends or anybody the way we talk about ourselves so just keep an eye on it and every time you catch yourself saying mean things change it for something nice about yourself. Remind yourself your a strong beautiful person and deserve to have self esteem and to be talked to with respect.
Another thing I was struggling with was worrying I wasn't being as "good" as I was before that before I felt like I had more control and I felt stronger....that's a hunk of bologna nothing had changed at all NOTHING only my thinking I was thinking I wasn't as strong as I used to be and couldn't control my eating and therefore didn't have any control and I started playing this weak character this negative sad little girl who had no self esteem and couldn't control her binging but that is so far from reality! Indulging in food that tastes good is not binging and is not something to binge over it doesn't have to be red or white it can be pink give and take push and pull so don't freak out if you eat too much food because even skinny people over eat sometimes you just need learn what you can from it and pick yourself up and keep going it's all about a process or a journey it doesn't have to be done all at once
in a nutshell it's all about the frame of mind you have to remember there is allway's some light in a dark situation don't let things bring you down and watch your self talk if you tell yourself "but i like food too much" or "i can't do this it's too hard" or "i wish i could do that" than you will feel that's the truth and when you feel that way your actions will show it, your thoughts affect your feelings, and your feelings affect your actions so think positive think big and dare to dream you never know when your dreams will become reality
All about the self love