Wednesday, January 01, 2014
Like many of us I am reflecting on things gained, lost, found, accomplished and changed in 2013 as I look to 2014. Lost: Weight, inches, and some of my insecurities. Gained/Found: My voice, confidence, peace within, another year with my husband and children. Changed: The family grew (added my MIL and BIL to our home on a full time basis), house plan picked, life. Accomplished: Over 1000 purposed miles, 39 half marathons (both virtual and live), Books From Bug ready to submit to the IRS for federal nonprofit charity status consideration. This is by no means the be all, end all list, but some of where my journey has taken me over the year. The goals for 2014: Continue the journey to being debt free, complete 40 half marathons (both virtual and live), complete 2014 purposed miles, live life fully and stay in the moment as they fly by too quickly and never can be replaced ....again - not all I want to accomplish in 2014 - but some great goals to live by, not survive by, not work by....but live by. May each of you have a year of truly and fully living. Happy New Year to you all!
Saturday, March 30, 2013
Proof of 18 months of believing I can...one step at a time...no matter how fast or how slow....proof that even big girls can be endurance athletes....proof of others belief in me...proof that I believe in me
Tuesday, January 01, 2013
I started my half marathon adventures just over 1 year ago. My very first half marthon I was dead last....by a LONG amount. The only people still at the finish line was my family and a race director. I was in tears at the end of this race. I finished out of shear determination. My legs were jello, my heart and spirit ached for the loss of my eldest daughter who I was walking in memory of, and I felt very alone as nearly the entire race every one went faster than me.
But I did not quit. Over the last year I kept taking steps, kept adding races, kept working through the depression, kept trying. Most races I ran with my heart much more than legs. I ran for me, I ran for my daughter who no longer could, I ran for my other children so that they see a healthy mom in all facets - spiritually, physically, emotionally; for my husband - most importantly for me.
I had victories and learned that it is okay to be slow - just go. I learned that I am in this for no one but me. I learned that the people at the back of the pack have some great stories. I learned that we all cross the same finish line eventually. I learned that being a fat athlete is nothing to be ashamed of....I am out there.
I began this year with a half marathon....and finished 2012 today with one last half marathon -
So how far is 13.1 miles?
It is measured in steps - LOTS
It is measured in medals - (from this year alone)
It is measured in weight - 24 Pounds gone.
But most importantly for me - 13.1 miles is the distance between life and death.
Saturday, November 03, 2012
I run for my life - physically, spiritually, and emotionally. It calms me, empowers me, clears my head, brings me to a center. When I first saw Forrest Gump (I was very pregnant with Halleigh) the scene when he just decided to run appealed to me. Today it does even more so. Perhaps that is due to having "enough" life, love and loss to understand. Forrest explained it this way "That day, for no particular reason, I decided to go for a little run. So I ran to the end of the road. And when I got there, I thought maybe I'd run to the end of town. And when I got there, I thought maybe I'd just run across Greenbow County. And I figured, since I run this far, maybe I'd just run across the great state of Alabama. And that's what I did. I ran clear across Alabama. For no particular reason I just kept on going....." That is what I did tonight. Sixty minutes nonstop running (which is a new personal record for me times a gazillion as I do walk/run intervals) at a very respectable 15 minute/mile pace on the treadmill. It may not be much for some - but for me was a marvel at what I could do. I still feel like I could jump back on the treadmill and keep going. I feel you loud and clear Forrest....today I just kept going.
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