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In search of The Moderate

Sunday, December 28, 2014

They say all things in moderation - I wish I could live that way. If food were in moderation I would not be this size. If I could exercise in moderation it would not be viewed as "well I could not get it all in so won't do anything". If I cleaned in moderation I would have organized areas not one spot done and chaos every where else as the project became overwhelming.

The dictionary says moderation is "the avoidance of excess or extremes, especially in one's behavior or political opinions." Synonyms: Self-restraint, self-control, self-command, self-discipline. My lack of moderation is apparent all over - from my body, to my house full of stuff, to the lack of consistent savings, etc.

I gifted myself with permission/encouragement of at least 1 purposed mile a day with the goal of a 5K a day in 2015. I told myself that is was okay if it was not all done at once as my family frequently interrupts the best laid plans. But that I need, wanted and deserved to get the miles in. I have managed at least 1 mile a day and have even told my family that they can wait for less than 20 minutes (I am not fast) for me to finish a mile before they can ask me for X, Y and Z. I am not be heartless to them as there are other adults in the house. I am being heart full to me.

Then a friend told me about a challenge in 2015 to complete purposed 2015 miles. My first inclination was to jump in with both feet after all it was "only 5.5 miles a day - every day" and in my head I started calculating how to get it done and show just how I was awesome to do it. And then I started thinking of moderation. Moderation in ALL things. Right now the concept of almost 40 miles a week every week is beyond what I have in me. Right now it would be setting myself up for failure. Right now that is so far outside of any level of moderation. So I am gifting myself again - the gift of saying "No thank you"

It is okay to not do everything. It is okay to pull the reigns back. It is okay to say "Not now".
It is not easy - but it is okay. I look at what friends are doing and I want to jump right in and say me too - but that is not living in moderation. I can live fully and largely and still live in moderation.

To quote Marty Rubin "To go to any extreme is to limit oneself."

Here is to removing my limits and finding The Moderate- one mile at a time.

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PICKIE98 12/28/2014 4:32PM

    You are so right about moderation. with foodstuffs, our senses are so overwhelmed sometimes, it is difficult to step back and stay in command of them.

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Confessions and 5K

Thursday, December 25, 2014

Confession - I suck at dieting and sticking with it.

Duh - if I were good at it I would not be this size.

I go through spurts where I am doing good and then life gets in the way and I do not take a more active stance to protect "my" time and become the good martyr and give up my miles, my time, my health.

I am healthier than I used to be. A little over 3 years ago I did my first half marathon and have been doing them pretty consistently over the years. I have a wall full of medals that show that even a walker can do this endurance sport and finish the races.

But the truth is I am not consistent in between times. I do not get all the miles I want in. In 2013 I had a goal of 1000 purposed miles and made it plus some. In 2014 I was no where close. I just quit doing the little things and I watched my weight creep up and blamed it on X, Y, and Z and never said what the real reason was...I quit doing those daily things.

I told myself this last couple of weeks to even do just 1 mile a day of purposed walking, turned on the treadmill and did nothing. I even left it on all day with the idea that I would "just" jump on there...and did not. There are 50 million things to do instead of taking that time for me.

I looked at some pictures of people I know who are endurance athletes and I see the weight dropping off of them. I was jealous that it was not me. Then I had to be honest - I was not doing what I need to do to make it happen. All the races in the world on the weekends do not make up for the lack of consistency on a daily basis. So, today, I gifted myself 1 mile. The treadmill is still on and I plan to get a couple of more miles in before the day is done.

My goal is to prove little consistent changes will do so much for me.

The goal is to do a 5K (3.1 miles) of purposed walking a day. Every day.

I want to see what 5K a day will do.

Here is the starting photos.
This is not about dieting

This is about changing my life

Here is to the gift of 5K to myself -

I am worth it

I will gift myself that time each day.

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NVRSTOPLAUGHIN 12/25/2014 5:10PM

    Awesome!!! and you can totally do it...i have kind of been in that funk and i'm working on day 5 of a mile a day on the treadmill...i've never been a fan of the treadmill....previously i've been the go outside to walk or run type....but time is not always allowing it which gave me an excuse to a treadmill a few weeks back and have started on a routine....

I actually just barely put on the appropriate clothing to get on the treadmill and my goal for today because it's a holiday is to eek out 3.1..... it's not doubting if i can...its wondering if i will!!

Thanks to your blog....that's my next stop!!

Thank you!!!

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Wednesday, January 01, 2014

Like many of us I am reflecting on things gained, lost, found, accomplished and changed in 2013 as I look to 2014. Lost: Weight, inches, and some of my insecurities. Gained/Found: My voice, confidence, peace within, another year with my husband and children. Changed: The family grew (added my MIL and BIL to our home on a full time basis), house plan picked, life. Accomplished: Over 1000 purposed miles, 39 half marathons (both virtual and live), Books From Bug ready to submit to the IRS for federal nonprofit charity status consideration. This is by no means the be all, end all list, but some of where my journey has taken me over the year. The goals for 2014: Continue the journey to being debt free, complete 40 half marathons (both virtual and live), complete 2014 purposed miles, live life fully and stay in the moment as they fly by too quickly and never can be replaced ....again - not all I want to accomplish in 2014 - but some great goals to live by, not survive by, not work by....but live by. May each of you have a year of truly and fully living. Happy New Year to you all!

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The magic of just 5 more minutes and lowest common denominator exercises

Saturday, August 10, 2013

I remember as a child asking for just for 5 more minutes lots of times - whether to stay up, watch a movie, playing outside, swimming, etc. Those 5 minutes were magical when granted. Not that they made a big difference in my life - but those 5 minutes were golden.

I am a plus size endurance athlete and have completed more than 33 half marathons since 10/5/2011 but still have the days where the training runs/walks/wogs or even the races seem to suck everything out of me and I don't want to keep moving. I want to quit. I want to say enough is enough. Today was one of those days. I was on the treadmill and wanted to quit. I wanted to be done. My body was willing but my mind had long since quit and was coming up with every reason why I should stop the session. I was changing the pace and incline on each song to avoid muscle fatigue and boredom. As each song was coming to an end I would tell myself I could quit after this song....

But the spark points for exercise are done in 5 minute increments and naturally the songs were not coinciding to the next 5 minute increment. I am also the type of person that is not going to waste minutes that won't convert into another Spark point. I know it sounds compulsive and it is. It reminds me of what I called lowest denominator eating my great great aunts did. They would have 1 bite of turkey left over but they could not eat just 1 bite of turkey - it would require a little bit of potatoes and then a little bit of stuffing and then a little bit of salad and so on and so forth. Next thing you knew these ladies had a full plate again. As a child waiting for things like Christmas presents it was maddening. Now I remember it fondly and laugh at how much these tiny ladies ate by doing just one more bite.

Today on the treadmill I did my own lowest denominator eating so to speak--- I could not just let the "one more bite" sit by itself. A song would end and the time indicator would be something like 33 minutes or 41 minutes...anything but an even 5 minute block. I kept telling myself just bring it to another 5 minute increment so I could have the Spark point. Before you know it those 5 minutes started stringing along and soon it was a 90 minute session.

Today I fully embraced the craziness of my family. I may not use lowest common denominator eating....but I easily see it as part of my exercising life. Some day I will explain to my children why they heard me muttering just 5 more minutes over and over today as they came to check on me while I ran/walked/wogged. Some day I hope to show them that the magic of "just 5 more minutes" of childhood can leap into their adult life too....and be just as magical....if not more. Today just 5 more minutes made a huge difference in my life --mentally, physically, and emotionally.

Today, I want just 5 more minutes

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MSEMBERSTORM 8/25/2013 2:10PM

    This is awesome!!!!! I love it!

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LEANNAW4 8/11/2013 11:26AM

    Great blog! Very well written and with a very compelling message. I do the same thing with my workouts - telling myself just one more song, or round up to the next five minutes or until the calorie count hits an even increment of 50 or some other combination to keep me going just a little longer. It somehow makes the session more fulfilling, doesn't it? Great job, and thanks for sharing!!

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LIVELAUFLUV 8/11/2013 9:49AM

    I too want those sparkpoints, and will go the extra time on my walks to get there!

Keep up the GREAT work!

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Saturday, March 30, 2013

Proof of 18 months of believing I step at a matter how fast or how slow....proof that even big girls can be endurance athletes....proof of others belief in me...proof that I believe in me

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-PAULA 3/31/2013 12:43PM

    emoticon emoticon You have done wonderful!

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DENRNAJ 3/31/2013 4:25AM

    Amen! Good for you for pursuing that difficult path and inspiring others! emoticon

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