Tuesday, April 30, 2013
I never would have thought I would love running. I was always telling people "I ain't running unless somebody is chasing me" and "If you see me running you better start running too, cause something BAD is coming!"
But here I am, working through week 6 of C25K, and loving it! I went from not being able to run more than 30 seconds at a time, having to repeat week 1 THREE TIMES, to being able to run for 20 minutes non-stop and actually looking forward to my run days. Whoda thunk it???
In February, my daughter brings home this sign-up form for a Girls on the Run 5K program at her school. She begged and begged to join, and I finally shelled out the $100 fee so she could do it. She then asked me the dreaded question: "Mommy, will you run the race with me? Pleeeeeeeease???" What am I gonna say? "No honey, I won't exercise with you and get into shape and eat right and run this race with you cause I'd rather stay on the couch and watch TV while you go out an run". Uh...no. Although it was tempting.
I just figured I would run some of that 5K, walk most of it, get a pic made with her at the finish line and then go on with my lazy life. But then I got this nifty new iPhone and I was searching the apps and found this C25K one, so I decided to try it. And I promptly HATED it. And I hated myself, cause I could barely "run" for 30 seconds without wanting to die. Then something inside me shifted, and I thought to myself "I will NOT let this stupid program beat me!" So I kept repeating week 1, over and over, until I got through it. And funny thing was, I started finding myself flipping through running magazines at the store. And searching running message boards and websites. And researching running shoes. And I read the book "Born to Run" by Christopher McDougall.
This ain't my first rodeo with the C2K either. I tried the program on coolrunning.com and was going to run a 5K on my birthday in 2011, but got HORRIBLE shin splints and gave up.
So here I go again, but this time I rest like I should, I use ice if something hurts, I stretch like I should, and I have managed to avoid the shin splints.
Now I am actually enjoying my runs. I am sore, I am tired, I dread the burning of my legs on the hills (really really low hills, don't let me fool you here, low but hard just the same). And I am probably the slowest runner ever, I see my reflection in the car windows I pass on my street sometimes, and I think "Good Lord! Is that really what I look like out here? PITIFUL!" But I keep on doing it.
I actually think I can run the entire 5K, although at my snail's pace it will probably take me darn near an hour, but I am going to do it. And I have already looked into other 5k races coming up in my area. I hope to get my speed up after I get my endurance up. I will work on it. And I will keep on running. Because, yes, I am a runner!
Friday, July 08, 2011
Ok so I know I am not great at sticking with this eat right and exercise thing. I can do great with it for a few days....maybe even a week or two, but then I am right back into my old habits of eating whatever I want and finding every excuse imaginable not to exercise. But I have now realized something crucial about myself...TOSTITOS OWN ME. For real, I am addicted to a stupid tortilla chip. I FREAKIN LOVE THEM!
Ok, so I have been doing better with the exercise thing. I have a goal, I want to run my first 5K on my birthday: 9/11/11 here in St. Louis. So I have been loosely following the Couch Potato to 5K program, doing my own thing with it, for about 5 weeks now. I faithfully get out there every other day and have really noticed an improvement in my running stamina. Now keep in mind that my old motto on running was: "I don't run unless somebody is chasing me", so to run voluntarily is a big deal for me. And I am getting kinda good at it. BUT.....I cannot break my addiction to TOSTITOS.
Every single freakin night I give in to my cravings for Tostitos chips and salsa. I absolutely love it. I think about them during the day (sad...I know), I make myself promises that I have no intention of keeping (ok, I will only eat them once a week, just so as not to deprive myself) or bargain with myself: I will only eat one serving, in a bowl, not out of the bag....or: If I run extra tonight then I will allow myself to eat two servings...yada yada yada...
But then here comes 9:30pm and the Tostitos are calling out to me from the pantry, then the salsa joins in...calling my name...and my weak self gives in without a fight. Do you think I take the time to get out a bowl and count out one serving? HA! All previous promises to myself and bargains I made with myself are forgotten...until I emerge from my Tostitos high and see myself on the couch with the almost empty bag and crumbs scattered around me. And you know what is the worst part? Am I ashamed? No...........I am SATISFIED!!!!!!!!!!!! Sad but true.
Ok so I know what you are thinking....so just don't buy them. Tried it. Resisted buying them at the grocery store during my weekly shopping trip. Did it work? NO....I just go to the gas station and buy them @ 9:45pm and pay triple price. So yes....I am well and truly owned by a darn tortilla chip.
Tuesday, February 02, 2010
Well almost a year ago now I started this weight loss journey. And I did well. I lost about 13 lbs, worked out regularly, tracked everything I ate, kept (mostly) within my calorie range, started getting those "are you losing weight" questions (loved them!) and was doing well. I was so proud of myself, and feeling so healthy and strong. AND THEN...I just stopped it all. I was working too much overtime, and stressed out and trying to be SUPERMOM at home and SUPERWIFE for my husband and SUPERNURSE at work. And that left no time or motivation or even desire to track what I eat, or exercise, or even care about sparkpeople. And this has gone on for the last 5 months. ENOUGH. I can't do everything, and I can't save everybody, and I can't be everywhere at once. So now I need to focus on me. And start my sparkpeople program again, for ME. I have already messed up today, with the horrible breakfast I ate. But oh well, instead of saying "I'll start back tomorrow with it", I am going to start back on track with the next meal. And I guess I need to take this one meal at a time and one exercise session at at time. And not try to do everything for everyone, and not try to ease my stress (which will always be there in some form) with food. So hello again everyone here at sparkpeople, I am going to try this again and I'll be back in a couple of hours to track my workout when I get home from the gym!
Monday, August 24, 2009
So I fell off the wagon for a while. Now I am trying to get back on track. Some days are easier than others. If I have to work, it is usually not a problem to eat the right amount of calories (I am too busy to overeat and too tired at night to bother snacking). But on the days I work it is much harder to drag myself to the gym to exercise. On the days I am off, it is easy to go to the gym, but so much harder to resist snacking and the calorie overage that comes with it. I was doing so well for a while, but then I got frustrated and stopped being so careful for a couple of weeks and it seems like I have fallen back into the old habits and it is so much harder to get motivated again. Ah well, nothing in this life worth anything comes easily. I will just try to take it one day at at time, or even one meal/snack at a time...and move on.
Monday, August 17, 2009
Lately I have been really bad. I have not been practicing self control, I have not been watching what I eat, I have not been exercising like I should. As result, my weight has really fluctuated. Some days it is up, others it is down. But for the most part it has stayed the same. This has been going on for about 3 weeks. Each day, and at the start of each week, I have told myself "I'll do better tomorrow" or "This is the week that I'll get back on track", but each week passes with me STILL making poor food and exercise choices. I don't know what my problem is. When I started this I was really excited and motivated. Now, I just feel so sick of counting everything most of the time. I don't know what I need to do to get back on track. I am so frustrated with myself, yet I still continue on the destructive path. I know what I should be doing, but I keep making the wrong choices. I just need to get myself under control and STOP!!!!!
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