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Tuesday, April 30, 2013

I never would have thought I would love running. I was always telling people "I ain't running unless somebody is chasing me" and "If you see me running you better start running too, cause something BAD is coming!"
But here I am, working through week 6 of C25K, and loving it! I went from not being able to run more than 30 seconds at a time, having to repeat week 1 THREE TIMES, to being able to run for 20 minutes non-stop and actually looking forward to my run days. Whoda thunk it???

In February, my daughter brings home this sign-up form for a Girls on the Run 5K program at her school. She begged and begged to join, and I finally shelled out the $100 fee so she could do it. She then asked me the dreaded question: "Mommy, will you run the race with me? Pleeeeeeeease???" What am I gonna say? "No honey, I won't exercise with you and get into shape and eat right and run this race with you cause I'd rather stay on the couch and watch TV while you go out an run". Although it was tempting.

I just figured I would run some of that 5K, walk most of it, get a pic made with her at the finish line and then go on with my lazy life. But then I got this nifty new iPhone and I was searching the apps and found this C25K one, so I decided to try it. And I promptly HATED it. And I hated myself, cause I could barely "run" for 30 seconds without wanting to die. Then something inside me shifted, and I thought to myself "I will NOT let this stupid program beat me!" So I kept repeating week 1, over and over, until I got through it. And funny thing was, I started finding myself flipping through running magazines at the store. And searching running message boards and websites. And researching running shoes. And I read the book "Born to Run" by Christopher McDougall.

This ain't my first rodeo with the C2K either. I tried the program on and was going to run a 5K on my birthday in 2011, but got HORRIBLE shin splints and gave up.
So here I go again, but this time I rest like I should, I use ice if something hurts, I stretch like I should, and I have managed to avoid the shin splints.

Now I am actually enjoying my runs. I am sore, I am tired, I dread the burning of my legs on the hills (really really low hills, don't let me fool you here, low but hard just the same). And I am probably the slowest runner ever, I see my reflection in the car windows I pass on my street sometimes, and I think "Good Lord! Is that really what I look like out here? PITIFUL!" But I keep on doing it.

I actually think I can run the entire 5K, although at my snail's pace it will probably take me darn near an hour, but I am going to do it. And I have already looked into other 5k races coming up in my area. I hope to get my speed up after I get my endurance up. I will work on it. And I will keep on running. Because, yes, I am a runner!

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DEEEBEE 5/1/2013 10:43PM

    Baby steps lead to bigger steps to giant steps. You're starting off fine, and you will succeed! Good for YOU!

DeAnne, Missourians Team

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TXTOAD9970 4/30/2013 4:59PM

    You are an inspiration to me. I currently use the stationary bike at my gym at work five days a week and walk on the weekends. I have thought about trying to run, but I tell myself, "You will never be able to run more than 30 seconds!" But I have never tried. I think I will try this weekend! Thanks for sharing your story.
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LINDAKAY228 4/30/2013 4:03PM

    Your story is so awesome! You are doing great and I know your daughter is going to be so proud of you and you will be so proud of yourself. I'm a slow runner too. But we beat anyone who is just sitting on the couch watching!

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NENATO2 4/30/2013 1:11PM

    Congratulations! I too, find myself running during my workouts. I guess we can never say never, huh?

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LADYPHANTOM 4/30/2013 1:09PM

    Yes TREADIN4BSP, those endorphins are sweet! Some days it is just the thought of those endorphins that get me out there in the first place!

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TREADIN4BSP 4/30/2013 1:06PM

    Way to go!!!! emoticon emoticon I, too am a slow runner who is starting to like it....gotta love those endorphins at the end of your run, right?!

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Tostitos own me

Friday, July 08, 2011

Ok so I know I am not great at sticking with this eat right and exercise thing. I can do great with it for a few days....maybe even a week or two, but then I am right back into my old habits of eating whatever I want and finding every excuse imaginable not to exercise. But I have now realized something crucial about myself...TOSTITOS OWN ME. For real, I am addicted to a stupid tortilla chip. I FREAKIN LOVE THEM!

Ok, so I have been doing better with the exercise thing. I have a goal, I want to run my first 5K on my birthday: 9/11/11 here in St. Louis. So I have been loosely following the Couch Potato to 5K program, doing my own thing with it, for about 5 weeks now. I faithfully get out there every other day and have really noticed an improvement in my running stamina. Now keep in mind that my old motto on running was: "I don't run unless somebody is chasing me", so to run voluntarily is a big deal for me. And I am getting kinda good at it. BUT.....I cannot break my addiction to TOSTITOS.

Every single freakin night I give in to my cravings for Tostitos chips and salsa. I absolutely love it. I think about them during the day (sad...I know), I make myself promises that I have no intention of keeping (ok, I will only eat them once a week, just so as not to deprive myself) or bargain with myself: I will only eat one serving, in a bowl, not out of the bag....or: If I run extra tonight then I will allow myself to eat two servings...yada yada yada...

But then here comes 9:30pm and the Tostitos are calling out to me from the pantry, then the salsa joins in...calling my name...and my weak self gives in without a fight. Do you think I take the time to get out a bowl and count out one serving? HA! All previous promises to myself and bargains I made with myself are forgotten...until I emerge from my Tostitos high and see myself on the couch with the almost empty bag and crumbs scattered around me. And you know what is the worst part? Am I ashamed? No...........I am SATISFIED!!!!!!!!!!!! Sad but true.

Ok so I know what you are just don't buy them. Tried it. Resisted buying them at the grocery store during my weekly shopping trip. Did it work? NO....I just go to the gas station and buy them @ 9:45pm and pay triple price. So yes....I am well and truly owned by a darn tortilla chip.

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FINNERFAN 7/8/2011 11:36AM

  I feel your pain ... I too am addicted to tostitos. I have tried the healthier versions and the whole wheat ones and they just don't cover the cravings. Not buying them helps for me as it is a 20 minute drive to the nearest store and that is enough for the lazy me to complain about how long it will take. I wish I had an answer to this addiction if you find one let me know.

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Tuesday, February 02, 2010

Well almost a year ago now I started this weight loss journey. And I did well. I lost about 13 lbs, worked out regularly, tracked everything I ate, kept (mostly) within my calorie range, started getting those "are you losing weight" questions (loved them!) and was doing well. I was so proud of myself, and feeling so healthy and strong. AND THEN...I just stopped it all. I was working too much overtime, and stressed out and trying to be SUPERMOM at home and SUPERWIFE for my husband and SUPERNURSE at work. And that left no time or motivation or even desire to track what I eat, or exercise, or even care about sparkpeople. And this has gone on for the last 5 months. ENOUGH. I can't do everything, and I can't save everybody, and I can't be everywhere at once. So now I need to focus on me. And start my sparkpeople program again, for ME. I have already messed up today, with the horrible breakfast I ate. But oh well, instead of saying "I'll start back tomorrow with it", I am going to start back on track with the next meal. And I guess I need to take this one meal at a time and one exercise session at at time. And not try to do everything for everyone, and not try to ease my stress (which will always be there in some form) with food. So hello again everyone here at sparkpeople, I am going to try this again and I'll be back in a couple of hours to track my workout when I get home from the gym!

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DRAGONFLY519 2/2/2010 11:09AM

    Welcome back and remember we are all in this together and we can get through this...


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Trying to get it right.

Monday, August 24, 2009

So I fell off the wagon for a while. Now I am trying to get back on track. Some days are easier than others. If I have to work, it is usually not a problem to eat the right amount of calories (I am too busy to overeat and too tired at night to bother snacking). But on the days I work it is much harder to drag myself to the gym to exercise. On the days I am off, it is easy to go to the gym, but so much harder to resist snacking and the calorie overage that comes with it. I was doing so well for a while, but then I got frustrated and stopped being so careful for a couple of weeks and it seems like I have fallen back into the old habits and it is so much harder to get motivated again. Ah well, nothing in this life worth anything comes easily. I will just try to take it one day at at time, or even one meal/snack at a time...and move on.

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MITURN 8/24/2009 11:11AM

    Way to set attainable goals for yourself. Keep up the good work.

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JANNALEE1 8/24/2009 10:54AM

    You are absolutely right! You have the right attitude, so I am sure you will get right back up on the wagon! Good luck.

PS. I LOVE your dog!! I used to have a basset also. SOOOOO cute. I love a dog with stubby legs!

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TJARRARD 8/24/2009 10:47AM

    I know what you mean. You're not alone in that.

Good luck!

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MUST get back on track!!!

Monday, August 17, 2009

Lately I have been really bad. I have not been practicing self control, I have not been watching what I eat, I have not been exercising like I should. As result, my weight has really fluctuated. Some days it is up, others it is down. But for the most part it has stayed the same. This has been going on for about 3 weeks. Each day, and at the start of each week, I have told myself "I'll do better tomorrow" or "This is the week that I'll get back on track", but each week passes with me STILL making poor food and exercise choices. I don't know what my problem is. When I started this I was really excited and motivated. Now, I just feel so sick of counting everything most of the time. I don't know what I need to do to get back on track. I am so frustrated with myself, yet I still continue on the destructive path. I know what I should be doing, but I keep making the wrong choices. I just need to get myself under control and STOP!!!!!

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SALDABA6 8/17/2009 11:12PM

    What do you do to get back on track? Very simple,,,, log in every day and account for every little thing that goes into your mouth. At the end of each day review it. Sometimes we say " I did badly" but the stark reality when it stares back at you seems to make a better impact. Perhaps you need someone to be accountable to besides just you?Sometimes what happens is we are all gungho at the beginning but we give up too much at once and cannot sustain that. It is better to change one small thing and build on it, than it is to throw everything away at one time. This is a lifestyle change not a diet, by time it is gone, hopefully the old habits are also. Good luck on your journey and Keep On Trucking. Don't give up or count yourself out so easily. Babysteps...... one day at a time one meal at a time emoticon

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