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I wasn't having enough fun

Monday, December 22, 2014

Getting ready for work this morning. In the shower I reached down for something and got a huge POP in my upper left arm muscle. The pain was stunning. It took almost ten minutes to get out of the shower because I couldn't raise it much or lean on it. It's easing now but it's still plenty sore. On top of everything else I did NOT need this.

  
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ICECUB 12/22/2014 7:23PM

    HOPE YOU FEEL BETTER SOON. IS IT A PULLED MUSCLE?

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ARNETTELEE 12/22/2014 5:45PM

  Hope you feel better soon!

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JUNEBUG4967 12/22/2014 4:32PM

    So sorry Mary, You are in my prayers.
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JEANNETTE59 12/22/2014 4:20PM

  Hope your arm feels better quickly, rest it as much as possible...do not lift with it!

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Horrible night

Sunday, December 21, 2014

I've just passed my worst night in years. I tossed so much, my bed is a torn-up disaster area this morning.

When I actually could sleep I had dreams that were bizarre when they weren't flat-out nightmares. In one my computer at work started spitting out weird charges that had nothing to do with the hospital (one was for a large order of oysters). I was told to find out where they were coming from and make them stop but I couldn't.

In another a policeman broke into my apartment and beat me. I reported him and the next night he broke in and attacked me again, body-slamming me to the floor and asking why I had reported him. I asked why he had attacked me in the first place and he said, "because I can."

Now comes the worst, and I'm bitterly ashamed of it. Twice I woke up needing the bathroom and both times the instant I stood up my bladder totally caved. It was like I had no muscles whatever. Today I have to go out and get some pet-stain cleaner. And people ask why I feel the need to isolate myself.

I'm in tears right now. I feel like I'm under siege.

  
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ICECUB 12/22/2014 12:29AM

    SO SORRY YOU ARE HAVING A ROUGH YIME. NIGHTMARES CAN BE TERRIBLE. THEY MAKE ME VERY NERVOUS. SOMETIME HARD TO SHAKE. MAYBE A DOCTOR CAN HELP YOU WITH YOUR BLADDER PROBLEM.

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    Praying for you, my friend. emoticon

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    I'm praying for you, my Friend.

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MRSKATEDUVALL 12/21/2014 12:25PM

    so sorry. i wish I could do something to help.

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NASFKAB 12/21/2014 11:44AM

  so sorry for the nightmares yes it is hard but keep at it

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1CRAZYDOG 12/21/2014 11:28AM

    So sorry. I know cyberhugs aren't the same as real ones, but hope they help.

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CHEFSOPHIE 12/21/2014 10:39AM

    I am so sorry. I hope you can get some rest today.

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I don't know what's happening

Saturday, December 20, 2014

My shoulder's giving me a lot of trouble, and I didn't injure it any way I can think of. I don't know if it's from leaning on it to push when I stand up, or what. But it's really irritating.

I've become almost obsessed with sleep lately. On weekends right after breakfast I go to my easy chair and almost try to force myself back to sleep. I've even caught myself almost dozing at my desk at work. I just feel so exhausted and wrung out.

Friday we had another storm, and it was actually worse than the big storm I wrote about last week. My commute Friday morning was absolutely terrifying. As huge and heavy as my Lincoln is, you'd think it would be as stable as a rock. But it hydroplanes like a little kid's toy sailboat. I almost lost control a couple of times.

Meantime we had our office Christmas party on Friday. We have a gift exchange that involves being able to steal. I got a beautiful insulated lunch tote with snap-lidded glass container. I totally fell in love -- and it promptly got stolen. I wasn't able to get it back, and it surprised me how much that bothered me.

I'm thinking about buying myself a lunch tote like that. In the last few months I've taken to eating only one meal a day on workdays, and that's dinner. I know that's wrong, but just can't muster the energy to make breakfast or lunch -- and even dinner is usually whatever is easiest to grab. I feel like if I had a lovely lunch tote I might feel more inspired to at least pack a lunch than when I'm carrying a used grocery bag. And then I feel stupid, like I don't really "need" the tote and it's ridiculous that I feel the want. I just don't know.

Sorry. Right now I have absolutely no Spark and no spirit for much of anything. I feel like it's all a huge waste of time. I hate that I feel that way, but I'm not going to lie about it. I just don't have any gumption for anything.

  
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WINDSWEPTACRES 12/21/2014 11:37PM

    So glad you got thru the storm safely. Your friend and her husband are permanently on my "God Bless" list for getting you back on the road.

I guess I'm a little out of touch, but I never heard of the stealing game. I mean, somebody took the time and thought to get you a nice gift, something useful, and some jerk can just decide they like it better than what they got? Stupid doesn't even begin to describe it, as far as I'm concerned.

Let me endorse the idea of getting a thorough physical ASAP, if you can manage it. So many things can manifest as fatigue, and if you're too tired to want to watch your guys on the weekend, that's majorly serious.

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MT-MOONCHASER 12/21/2014 1:28PM

    My feeling is that work gift exchanges are a bunch of crap and I refuse to participate. My exact feelings are that it is a waste of money that I could be spending on people I really care about.

I think that you should get yourself a lunch tote that you like and make sure that you use it.

As for breakfast, maybe you could prepare something the night before (which also works well for lunches). It wouldn't have to be much, a hard-boiled egg and a piece of fruit, a pre-made breakfast sandwich that could be nuked to heat it. I've even made up Jimmy Dean style breakfast bowls with some bacon, scrambled eggs and precooked potato. Just nuke to heat and enjoy. Even my emergency one - a banana, a protein bar and a glass of milk is better than nothing.

For lunches I like to cook up big batches of homemade soup. The possibilities there are endless and can give you 2-3 or more veggie servings.

Good luck and get that lunch bag and use it every day.

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PATTYKLAVER 12/21/2014 1:05PM

    I think you deserve a lunch tote. You've certainly have had more than your share of troubles lately.

When was the last time you had a physical? It sounds like your shoulder may have some bursitis. You may be anemic right now or you thyroid might be off. Please check it out.

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LIS193 12/21/2014 12:19PM

    Sorry about you shoulder pain, do you take anything for it?
Those gift exchanges are horrible - you get something nice and then it gets stolen. For years I felt that I brought something nice and ended up with rubbish but finally last year I managed to get to keep the gift I wanted.
Buy yourself a nice lunchtote for Christmas or just because. You need to look after yourself and eating a good lunch is key.
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PEGGYO 12/21/2014 12:13PM

    just keep on keeping on

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REMIAM 12/21/2014 10:23AM

  Those gift exchanges can be traumatic and bring out surprising hidden inner mean qualities. A new lunchbox has been a great motivator for me to assemble healthy lunches for myself--I hope you can find one online(mine came from Sierra Trading Post closeouts)or in a store which is exactly what you want. Hope you came away from the gift exchange with something good.
Bobby Flay is on the CBS Sunday Morning show today! I thought of you when I saw the announcement earlier today. Thanks to your posts I became acquainted with him and all those other terrific chefs, programs, and ideas! You've been a huge influence. My world is larger and happier because of the doors you have opened.


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MRS_TOAD 12/21/2014 10:09AM

    I really don't care for the "steal" game played at so many Holiday parties. I always come away with something I don't care about. Hopefully this so-called fun won't ruin your Holidays.

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1CRAZYDOG 12/21/2014 8:52AM

    That's horrid that someone would steal the gift given to you!

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LOSINGIT26104 12/21/2014 7:27AM

    This is a very difficult time for a lot of people. Christmas brings up lots of emotions, some good, some bad. Be kind to yourself and take care of yourself. Tomorrow will hopefully be a better day for you.
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WELLBEING67 12/21/2014 5:37AM

    Sometimes Christmas can be a time of sadness if I reflect on all the people who can no longer gather at the table. It becomes a time of missing loved ones, whether because they have passed on or are just too far away to connect with. If you are feeling this sadness, it makes sense that you would wish to sleep through it. If that's not the cause, maybe you are not resting well at night even though you are in bed enough hours, especially if shoulder pain keeps you awake or awakens you often. The stress of driving in a storm can even be exhausting, and that sounds like it was REALLY stressful. Go ahead and relax this weekend, drink plenty of fluids and take care of yourself Mary. emoticon emoticon

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NASFKAB 12/21/2014 4:07AM

  look after yourself

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  look after yourself

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  look after yourself

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ZRIE014 12/21/2014 12:24AM

  get a good night sleep

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LINDA! 12/21/2014 12:12AM

    So sorry about the pain. That can cause so much stress on our body and mind.

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The Friday after

Friday, December 12, 2014

I stayed home with a hammering headache today. The car interior has two days to dry out, then we get a new storm on Monday.

Meantime, I'm feeling kind of draggy and out of it.

  
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PATTYKLAVER 12/14/2014 2:10PM

    I do hope you feel better soon. Rain...rain....go away!

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    I am emoticon to hear that you aren't feeling well, Mary.

Prayers requesting healing are covering you!

Be blessed!

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NASFKAB 12/13/2014 7:05AM

  hope you feel better tomorrow

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PURPLE0906 12/13/2014 5:17AM

    Weather will do that. Hope your headache goes away.
Relax and have a great day!!

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HOBBESIS49 12/13/2014 2:46AM

    I hope that your headache has subsided.. emoticon

And that whatever has happened with your car interior gets resolved soon. Beautiful background by the way on your Spark Page.

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JUNEBUG4967 12/13/2014 12:29AM

    Sorry about the headache - that can really be a bummer - can't knit and don't even want to watch TV. Stay dry!

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1CRAZYDOG 12/12/2014 10:05PM

    Oh dear! HUGS my friend,.

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    hope you feel better tomorrow

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The Friday after

Friday, December 12, 2014

I stayed home with a hammering headache today. The car interior has two days to dry out, then we get a new storm on Monday.

Meantime, I'm feeling kind of draggy and out of it.

  


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