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The thing we fear the most is I CAN.

Friday, June 21, 2013

Now i know some of you are wondering...what the heck do you mean Gwen? Fear of success... It's the GREATEST fear out there... It's easy to to fail... because by and large, it's expected. It's expected we will have bumps or hurdles in the road... Look at how many times many of you, self included, lost weight.. to only put it back on.. the yo yo effect.... We failed.... and then what do we do? We beat the SNOT out of ourselves emotionally.... crumble our own self esteem until we're a puddle of nothing... How do i know this...Because i've done this to myself... and very recently...


Now i can hear most of you going WHAT????? But you're a spark motivator! Yes i am.. and it's my job to be brutally honest. I DO FAIL.. I DO at times beat myself up over this.... My recent pulverization came by the way of my training for Ironman Lake Placid... A couple of people i know had been riding me pretty hard about my training... And i won't lie.. it IS physically intense... But the ONE THING they forgot to tell me how EMOTIONALLY intense it is... The questioning of self and abilities... and if you let a couple of naysayers get into your head... well,, like me... you spend a couple of days crying.. nothing but sobbing and tears running down my face as every fear came rushing out of me.... and the biggest one was: I CAN... AFRAID because i was doing this... I never did this with my HIM... but IM... is the biggest of all races.. WHO AM I to think i can do this.. WHO AM I to think just because i completed 1 cycle of IM training am going to do this again. And then that's where the panic sets in... I AM DOING THIS! Holy cow i AM getting the 18 hour workout weeks DONE... I AM getting better on my swimming and cycling and running...GULP! PANIC! And that's when the predators hop in.. the people who belittle your accomplishments, try and negate everything you've done to worthless... I'm succeeding and it scares the POOP outta me...

WHY? why do we fear success that much? Is it because we feel there is nothing left after?? I"m here to tell you...there is.. After every mountain of success there is always going to be another mountain to climb... whether it be weightloss, a new job, an new relationship.... It's what we take from that last mountain and push forward into tackling the new that defines us... For me.. it was facing my biggest fear: success.. Now i realize there is a possibility of not completing this racing and "failing" at it. But in the end.. It's JUST a race.. the journey to that race has had a ton of ups and downs. And for my naysaysers... I just have to say.. THANK YOU... those 2 days of sobbing all day was very freeing.... It allowed me to get back to enjoying training, enjoying the long rides on my bike... one thought i had yesterday while biking 80 miles is.. i feel very at home here.. this is where i'm meant to be.. peddling on this bike. DOING what i love.. I haven't had that feeling in awhile. Belief and more importantly faith in oneself.

So as you look into your day and are filled with self doubt about ANYTHING .... do me a favor... just think I CAN... I CAN be a better person today, I CAN make better food choices, I CAN...

For me today, my I CAN is going to be simple: I CAN...believe in ME.

ROck on sparkpeople... Make it a GREAT DAY!

  
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CUTENHEALTHY 1/20/2014 7:35PM

    We can and we will! Hear us roar! What a motivator you ARE indeed!

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MWWENSIN 6/22/2013 10:01PM

    it never matters what others think it is your what you think that matters several in my running group have done the ironman it is quite an achievement keep working at it an this accomplishment will be yours.

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LADYGWEN25 6/21/2013 7:18PM

    to everyone who's asked.. yes i do have positive people in my life.. people who lift me up.. who remind me daily how much of done.. despite the odds... this journey has SOO been worth it.! :)

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IFDEEVARUNS2 6/21/2013 11:47AM

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ON2VICTORY 6/21/2013 10:27AM

    LadyG.. it costs me nothing to toss out a casual "you can do it" because I know very little of the sacrifice and dedication it takes to accomplish this level of training. What I will say is that your determination to do this is nothing short of epic. There are very few who have the courage to pit themselves against one of the toughest endurance events on the planet but the things that you are learning about yourself, new abilities that you are discovering that you never thought you had, and the strength that comes from facing down your fears every day makes you a PRIME candidate to become an Ironman.

I am getting a tiny taste of this with my 70.3 prep. One thing that i have learned is that the longer you are out there on the course, the more there is that can possibly go wrong and running the scenarios through in ones mind can make your head explode. Dare to succeed, dare to shut the mouths of the nay sayers and most of all, dare to prove to yourself that your worth is beyond measure.

You CAN.

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FITFOODIE806 6/21/2013 8:59AM

    IM training is the accomplishment. That is serious work and dedication. I imagine the race is the reward. You ARE doing it!!!

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DDOORN 6/21/2013 8:23AM

    You're the best Gwen you can possibly be! And as for "the people who belittle your accomplishments, try and negate everything you've done to worthless"...I would hope you have few people in your life like this and hope that you stay far, far away from them!

Don

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ELRIDDICK 6/21/2013 7:56AM

  Thanks for sharing

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90 days to Ironman Lake Placid..who's idea was this??

Monday, April 29, 2013

GULP!

the resounding thought in my head yesterday when i looked to my countdown timer on my phone.. YES I have one.. would any of you expect ANY LESS?? lol the thoughts in my head were:

90 days til IMLP... COOL!... WAIT.. 90 days?? that can't be right! check..double check the calender..

yup!!!

GULP.... PANIC.... Can't breath.. CAN"T BREATH!!!

holy COW.. 90 FREAKING days til IRONMAN!

ok.. breathe in... hold.... breathe ooooouuuuuuttttt.......

wait a minute... i just did 16 hours of training this week.. and Just a little tired... Wait a minute... 16 hours... REALLY?? I did?? And i'm not tired... I'm not tired.. Holy cow !!1

I"M NOT TIRED...
wow.. maybe i CAN do this Ironman.... you know.. I think i CAN... 16 hours is my goal finish time.. I survived.. No i SUCCESSFULLY navigated my way through a TOUGH training week. I FREAKING DID IT!!!!
ok.. i think i can do this! You better bring it Ironman.. Because i think i can kick your BUTT!


Until tomorrow sparkpeople! It's an AWESOME DAY!

  
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ACTIVE_AT_60 5/7/2013 9:23PM

    I echo ON2VICTORY's statement. I have only done a 70.3 (Wildflower), so I have a sense what kind of challenge this is. I have two friends who are doing IM Lake Placid.

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PMRUNNER 5/2/2013 3:25PM

    You will do AWESOME!

Only 90 days until you crush IMLP!

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DDOORN 5/2/2013 1:36PM

    You are SO UP for this challenge! Can't wait to hear all about it! :-)

Don

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JCBRITT 4/30/2013 9:12AM

    I was at the Lake Placid IronMan 2 summers ago cheering on total strangers. It was a pretty great experience from my end...I'll find out if my sister (she has a vacation home) will be there during the race. Get me your race number and you'll have even more people cheering just for you!!

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CHANGINGHORSES 4/29/2013 8:19PM

    You can do it!!!! Go! Go! Go! No stopping you now!

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ON2VICTORY 4/29/2013 5:00PM

    I am so with you on this....solidarity sis! I'M rawks!.

Knowing you, you have done the work.... I will be following closely. I hope you post often :)

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Week 14 Ironman training

Tuesday, April 23, 2013

For those of you who don't know... the Ironman training plan counts down.. not up.. this week has me @ 6 hours of training... OY! I've been struggling lately with a lot.. a nonworking HRM so i've been estimating.. I have a friend getting rid of one just because he upgraded to a newer model.. I"m currently using his. the accuracy seems to be spot on.. which has led me to 2 conclusions.. 1 i knew.. one i had suspected... the one i knew.. I'm not eating nutritionally WELL.. I've gotten better about recording all the way up til dinner time.. and then seem to lack energy and/or inspiration to track after.. which has led me to graze on crap i don't really need or want.. which leads to my other thing i suspected... With a more accurate calorie count.. I've come to realize even though i'm snacking and eating CRAP... i'm still not eating ENOUGH..

SOOOOOO.. how has this affected me?? well I'm UP 3.75 inches on my waist, and 3.25 on my hips which is basically fat... lets face it... However PERKS... with the calf, thigh and arm.. i'm up an inch.. but i can tell you without having to post body pics on here THAT that gain is muscle.. you can see the muscle development..


my game plan....

1.) track it all.. even the refuel. be accountable for what i'm shoving into my mouth.. because the junk is affecting my energy level.. I'm feeling sapped of energy..

2.) modification of the food plan should help with the shedding the last 18 pounds, but more importantly inches. :)

3.) going to start using the sparkpeople video's for arm workouts again.. sometimes a familiar face helps motivate with the crunch time i feel i have sometimes..

4.) make sure i'm getting in my water.. because sometimes the water is from the lack of re hydration after a workout... which in the evening when i'm really tired is hard to accomplish.


So i'm off to prep for a bike ride and run.. Keep on keeping on sparkers.. today looks like it's going to be a fantastic day!

  
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ON2VICTORY 4/24/2013 6:48PM

    make it happen!! cheering for you :)

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DDOORN 4/23/2013 2:22PM

    Super plan and you are sounding SO COMMITTED! Spark ON! :-)

Don

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NATPLUMMER 4/23/2013 1:11PM

    Great plan!

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EDNASHUKIS 4/23/2013 11:21AM

    Congratulations, you are on your way to becoming and iron lady!!! You are aware of you failings and are trying to adjust accordingly. Keep up the good work! Edna

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Need a little help

Tuesday, April 09, 2013

OK i Know i'm a motivator.. but even i need a swift kick in the butt of motivation some times..

OK some know i'm doing an Ironman this year in July.. It's heavy into cardio endurance training.. I've had to give way on some of my strength training. I NEED to start doing it again.. it's the only way i'm going to lose the 18 pounds i had to put on for training.. since i was at 130, my dr made me put on 20 so i'd have a calorie buffer for training since i struggled to keep weight on last summer while training.. So I NEED NEED NEED some help and motivation to start losing and getting back into muscle building gear...to be healthy as well as a purely vane reason of heck i have pretty spring and summer clothes that aren't fitting.. and i want them to fit again.. lol..

So if you read this and can shoot me a line or 2 to get my butt in gear.. I'd appreciate..

Until tomorrow peeps.. Make it another great day!

  
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KATHLEEN0222 4/11/2013 8:56AM

    Remember how strong you feel and how AWESOME your muscles look while you're ST!!! Build those muscles to stoke that metabolism!!! GO LADY GO!!!

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JCBRITT 4/11/2013 8:24AM

    Write a plan for ST or find one like on JELF. I did really well for 2 months and then life got in the way. I need to get back to it too. Now that the weather is changing you may be more motivated. get going!! emoticon

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JLITT62 4/10/2013 8:10AM

    ST will only help you power thru your ironman!

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ACTIVE_AT_60 4/10/2013 6:46AM

    I would be very careful making changes this late in your training. Rather than start doing the strength training, you may want to do some caloric adjustments Alternatively you could add a some lighter strength training to your regimen. - Adding strength training this late in your training program might potentially be a recipe for disaster (aka injury) and you don't want that this close to your event.

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SETAGOAL1 4/10/2013 1:27AM

    To you from a good spark friend of mine.


~ Invest in the best - YOURSELF! Your health is your life! Make your health a priority = Be decisive! Focus on lifestyle changes = Take action! Make healthy choices = Stick with it! You CAN Do It!

Janet

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MOTHEPRO 4/9/2013 9:48PM

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DRB13_1 4/9/2013 8:42PM

    I also struggle with consistent strength training, so I'm focusing on bodyweight exercises I can do anywhere, anytime. Push-ups, squats, a resistance band...just bought adjustable kettlebells. I know that's not as "satisfying" as being able to pump iron and track the numbers, but doing SOMETHING is better than nothing.

I know you will rock the Ironman. Spark on! emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon

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NATPLUMMER 4/9/2013 8:04PM

    emoticon You know you want to rock some cute outfits....pump a little iron, Gwen!

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Still here! Just behind the scenes

Monday, March 11, 2013

Well I am still here.. still sparking away.. I enter my workouts daily.. my food...3/4 of the day.. Winter was an adjustment to upping my fitness.. working on strength.. Struggled with some of it as i was a little a burned out after MCM.. but i managed through with some slower weeks..

A month ago i started my IM training in the sense i need an extra months to get my adjust.. I've done the training last year for just my Half Ironman.. this week is my taper week..looking forward to it and less intensity... 3/17 is my first official day of IM training.. and i will try and blog as much as i can..

all in all my weight has maintained 145-147 range.. I've managed to keep the extra fat "buffer" my dr's want because mid season .. it comes to a point of no matter how much food you eat.. the weight just falls off of you.. so right now i'm just keeping track of food intake vs calories burned.. my peak week for month 1.. it was 7500 calories burned.. i managed to adjust through that just fine. :) Back on a nutritious track.. I"m giving myself til 3/17 until i get hardcore.. I"ve already made my family and friends aware of this... and they as always try to be accommodating as much as possible... OK ... off to get some upper body ST done.. I've slacked since Wednesday with fighting a sinus infection.. feeling better so time to get back in the saddle again.. literally because i'm going OUTSIDE for a bike ride.. WHOOT!

TTYL sparkers...

and tomorrow is ALWAYS another GREAT DAY!

  
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LILPAT3 3/12/2013 12:49PM

    Busy busy and it seems all is going well. I wish I had your problem of weight just falling off. I did get diagnosed with an autoimmune disease, which is affecting my thyroid, so hopefully once the medication is balanced I too will start losing some weight. Enjoy the outdoor bike rides! emoticon emoticon emoticon

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LADYGWEN25 3/12/2013 10:39AM

    Thanks everyone! :)

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DDOORN 3/12/2013 10:16AM

    Always great to hear from you Gwen...no surprise to hear that you just keep pouring on the steam! Whatta Sparker! Heck whatta FIREWORKS display! :-)

Don

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ON2VICTORY 3/11/2013 9:40PM

    I hear ya...fighting a sinus/bronchial issue myself... im anxiously following your IMLP training.... hopefully I will follow in your steps someday... If I do the event... I hope you'll be there to cheer me on :)

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LOPEYP 3/11/2013 12:19PM

    Sounds like you are doing great! Good luck with the IM training!!

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