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Milestone 1-17-11

Monday, January 17, 2011

I got on the scale this morning and I felt good. I looked to make sure the big lines which bracketed the scale needle were the ones I thought they were. They were. 175. Actually the needle was below that but at this point I am not about to quibble about that. The point is that I have reached a number that at one time I had despaired of ever reaching again. This is significant because of my being a Type II Diabetic.

I am the one who could starve herself and not lose weight. Evidently my resistance to the insulin I do produce and the small amount I produce combined to make my blood sugar level high enough to trigger my liver turn everything I ingested into fat. I felt sluggish and came to think that was going to be normal for me, after all, I was in my mid sixties. I am just getting old.

Being put on the medication metformin which stimulates my pancreas to produce more insulin has changed so much in my life. I guess I hope that others who may be Type II Diabetic(TIID) and don't know it or are afraid to find it out will read this and get in tune with their bodies, in touch with their doctors and into a better life that awaits them.

One of the super benefits that another friend who also recently went on medication for TIID noted in a conversation and I then became aware of is that the constant craving for carbohydrates is gone. I don't hover over the loaf of bread waiting for the magic hour when I could have a slice. I don't need it. That is overwhelming if you are one who has suffered from carb cravings and couldn't satisfy them.

The heavy feeling is gone. I have the energy and ambition to take on projects that have been sitting around half finished or unstarted for the last several years. I feel younger and have hope for a more active lifestyle than I have been able to enjoy for a long time.

So 175 is significant? Yes, but not as a number sufficient unto itself, but as a "mile marker" on the journey I am taking to better health.

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KASEYCOFF 1/27/2011 3:52PM

    As Holden Caulfield said, 'Truer words were never spoken.' You are so right about the difference even some weightloss makes, for insulin resistance, for carb cravings, for everything else that goes along with this crazy disease.

Good for you, Viv - you're doing great!

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    hi Viv.. SHerry shared this with us and i am so glad.. my dr perscribed Crestor.. i am going ot google and see what is the difference.. i can't take crestor as it gives leg cramps. and i have had enough of those in a lifetime.. and i have heard of METFORMIIN.. and alot of people are taking so wondering why he wouldn't give me that instead..

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SKYFYRE 1/17/2011 11:31AM

    Congratulations, on meeting a number you had thought was a thing of the past! I know how hard you have tried to diet in the past few years to no avail. It must feel so good to finally have energy and feel like there is a little more control being handed to you. Glad you have past this little milestone!

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SHEILAS6 1/17/2011 11:29AM

    Viv, I like this blog so much, I will be sharing your link with our Walk Team. This is very inspiring. I have enjoyed reading this immensely.

hugs Sherry

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RAINYFRIDAY 1/17/2011 10:32AM

    Congrats on this milestone!

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The bicycle.

Tuesday, January 11, 2011

several years ago My son saw the neighbor lady leading a very nice clean bike out to the trash cans. he asked why. she replied that she figured someone would take it before the trash pickup truck came. There was nothing wrong with the bike. She just didn't ride it anymore. Son to the rescue. He asked if he could but it for his mom whom he wished to encourage to ride. No, but he could have it.

Fast forward a month or two or six and i rode it one morning and scared the snot out of myself going down an incline in a very low gear I had used to climb said incline without a helmet, and the frame shuddering as though to come apart at any moment. The bike went into the shed.

Fast forward a couple of years and with new cycling togs (thanks to my darling daughter) and a helmet that had been hanging in the shed for two years minus one month I had good intentions. I had Son check out the bike in front of the house and off I went.

Proudly I rode uphill to my limit of 3/4 of a mile. (At this point in my neighborhood one either gets to go up a serious hill or down a serious hill which one then must pedal back up.) i turned around and started back home feeling good. That is I felt good until I felt fear. No rearbrakes at speed going downhill. i shifted into the highest gear I could and squeezed that brake lever as hard as I could. Dragging my heels and intermittently hitting the front brake lightly I slowed to the slight incline of my driveway and hopped off the bike. Oh yeah, did I tell you that I had paid a bike shop well known by name to check this bike out before I rode it the second time? No? well I did.

The bike did not go back to the shed. I figured that it was not the bike's fault and it really did not have it in for me. I took it to another bike shop where the owner promised to make it safe. I am actually looking forward to getting over this cold and slightly warmer weather, yes, I am a wooss ( is that one s or two?) to get out and try again to recapture that good feeling of being up on a bike and out in the air moving under my own power.

In the meantime, I better shut this thing down and go pedal the stationary around my imagination. Let's see where shall I ride today?

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SKYFYRE 1/11/2011 9:23PM

    Don't forget you can use those togs for the stationary too, your bootie can get sore on that thing too! PS I ate too many oreos, just tells me I should never buy them in the 1st place!

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Living in the moment

Sunday, January 02, 2011

Have you ever gotten into your car to go somewhere and miss or almost miss your get-off, or turn because you are on auto-pilot to go to work? I have.

Have you ever gotten into bed and been unable to remember what you have done or been that day? I have.

Have you said things because what you say is automatic to an outside stimulus and then later felt that you could have done a better job of expressing yourself? I have.

Have you ever found yourself so overloaded that your feeling are hurt by the pressure of these outside commitments that you don't even remember agreeing to accomplish? I have.

I put something down and a second later I have no idea of where I put it. I am often going through motions of living without enjoying the fact that I am alive and able to do what I can do and think and love.

As I found myself asking these questions of myself I had to ask as well why do I care? Why can't I just laugh off the mistake of driving, go to sleep without thinking about the day, let the words fly out of my mouth without filtering, and get on with the task at hand and stop whining about how everyone expects so much of me and blah, blah,?

Well the fact that I ask these questions means that I am dissatisfied with something in my way of living. I am trying to be a person of prayer, so I want to give credit to that prayerlife for directing me to read authors that will give me direction. I have thus read some books by Father Richard Rohr and listened to some of his talks. He is promoting a concept that sounds so simple but I find difficult but very rewarding when I am doing it. The idea is that we need to live in the moment. We are capable of being conscious of what we are doing ,where we are, with whom we are relating and why.

There is much more to this, but I find that when I practice this I feel that I am more alive. As I read more and incorporate more of the concept into my life, I am sure that I will discover that living in the moment means a great deal more, but at this point in time I am working on being conscious of what I am doing at every moment. Perhaps I will at least be able to remember where I put the car keys Maybe I will be able to stop locking them in the car.

I wonder if this will help me stop unconscious eating and emotional eating?
I will see, won't I?

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SKYFYRE 1/2/2011 4:37PM

    Hmm... we all do this to some point. I guess if you are always rushing to get something other than what you are doing accomplished, it is easy to do things like lock your keys in the car. Hard to stop and really enjoy getting out of the car though!!! Hahaha! Great relection mom, I hope that you can slow down and enjoy what it is you are doing! I love you!

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It 's a mystery that I enjoy.

Tuesday, December 21, 2010

Yesterday I had the privilege of going out in the rain to shop with my dear daughter. As I was walking across the puddle strewn parking lot my slacks got heavier. The fact is that they were quickly getting soaked about the hem. This would not have happened three months ago, so why now? Ah, a mystery!

As I hiked my britches up to keep from stepping on them with my heals and to keep them from getting wetter and heavier as the water wicked up the fabric, I felt the cold dampness against my ankles, I have never had to endure that discomfort and I looked down to see what might be causing the dragging on the wet ground. I saw pants that looked baggy. Surprise! When one loses weight, the parts of one that push the top of the pant out is gone and the result is that the pants effectively get longer!

With the mystery solved, I went home and put the pants in the laundry. when clean, they will be donated to someone who needs pants of that size.

Oh, guess what? I get to go shopping for pants that fit me! Let me see, Goodwil?, Ross?, Kohl"s?, Walmart? ????????

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Wednesday, December 15, 2010

For years I have heard it said and I have said myself: I should write a book. I now have been bothered by a book idea for some time. I say bothered because I know that there are so many books out there written by witty and talented people that the ods of anyone actually reading any book I could write are exceedingly slim. Even more, there is a deep seated fear that someone might read what I write and by doing so expose me for the fraud I know I am. What interests me, however, is the idea that writing a book is not necessarily for others to read. I am beginning to think that writing is something that deep inside of us we want and under some circumstances need to do. I don't know that I willl ever write a book, but I am walking around the idea of a chapter, maybe.

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SKYFYRE 12/15/2010 5:10PM

    I know you, a little anyway, you aren't a fraud. I love you! Write away!

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JANRTEACH 12/15/2010 12:02PM

    Interesting. I'm starting one right after Christmas about local history.

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ANN777 12/15/2010 10:30AM

    Yes, you should just write! Commit to writing 1,500 words a day and you would almost have a 50,000 word book in a month. Write for yourself.

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