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The Mighty Steroid

Friday, January 24, 2014

Where do I begin?? Life has been CRAZY since Christmas. I hurt my back over vacation time and for the last 5 weeks I have had a bad case of sciatica. I've had this condition in the past but NEVER have I felt pain like THIS before!! Unable to move, turn, bend and crawling to the's been a nightmare for sure. So week after painful week I kept going to the doctors wanting some relief and they handed me prescription after prescription of STEROIDS.

Wow. First there was the dose pack...that didn't touch the pain...then after the first 7 days there was 14 days of 40mg of steroids. They figured stronger would be better...WRONG! I became a BEAST of a person!!

I had NO idea how crazy these drugs would make me!

Nothing helped. Nothing worked. So I went to a specialized Doctor at a pain clinic. What did this man do??? Prescribe me STEROIDS!! Along with lots of muscle relaxers!! Fun Fun. It still didn't work.

Finally I had to resort to getting a epidural steroid shot into my back!! It's been 3 days and I feel AMAZING!!!! I'm supposed to wait 72 hours before proclaiming success. But I'm so thankful for that procedure!!!

During the last month I gained EIGHT (8) pounds on those drugs!! This devastated me but then I just pushed through the last few days and decided to be positive. Since stopping the steroids on Monday, I have lost 3 pounds!! Yeah!!!

I'm so happy for all the support I've had here on Sparkpeople and I'm very thankful for Sparkpeople because it was only by being consistent, coming here daily and even if I felt like a big, fat, swelled up failure, I knew I wasn't.

Now...let's begin again!! I see SUCCESS coming my way!!

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JPENNY2525 2/7/2014 11:23PM

    Glad for your success on the epidural and over coming the pain! May the rest of the year be filled with success and victories! emoticon

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IDLETYME 1/24/2014 7:36PM

    This is a wonderful blog! You really went through a lot but came out a winner. If you feel good - those pounds will come right off. You can do it! emoticon

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CHERYL_ANNE 1/24/2014 4:43PM

    I second Trev's comment about steroids...

I am happy that you are no longer suffering because it is near impossible to accomplish anything when you are in a constant state of pain and cannot get comfortable

I've suffered from it in the past as has my Mom and neither of us has been prescribed steroids. We've used muscle and skeletal relaxers, taken "Feldenkrais" classes, Mom's been put in "traction" at the physio-therapists, she now does tai chi and attends aqua-ritis classes, and I do yoga and pilates.

That said, I hope you find a doctor who can help you with this if it should ever happen again.

Here's to you being free!

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FELINEBETTER 1/24/2014 3:59PM

    Welcome back, Melissa -- to feeling more like yourself! I am very glad to hear that you're feeling much better. Sciatica can be beyond disabling! It sounds like they finally found a better solution/treatment for you. Remember this should (God Forbid!) it occur again and just go straight to the epidural.

I am very happy to share this journey with you. You deserve to feel good about yourself and succeed. You're doing it, Girl!!!

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TREV1964 1/24/2014 1:16PM

    Hi Mel,

Years ago I ruptured a lower disk which caused a bit of sciatica. I was offered codeine which eased the pain and used an infa-red lamp. The combination got me back walking, and driving within about two weeks and no steroids were used. Is there a reason for using the steroids? they are only used here as an absolute last resort.



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GREEN-EYED-LADY 1/24/2014 12:17PM

    God Bless You ! emoticon

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Cookie Cookie

Wednesday, January 01, 2014

Just me being silly

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IDLETYME 6/23/2014 8:40PM

    That is a wonderful blog - I'm proud of you for making it! Your weight loss is amazing!!!! Keep up the good work! emoticon emoticon

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GREGGWEISBROD 1/8/2014 10:10AM

    lol, love it. What a great way to make up for your absence! With a video blog! :-D I'm finally catching up, and it's making me happy to see that a lot of people were a bit absent in the last month. It's making it a lot easier to catch up, lol! Hope you have an amazing 2014, Melissa, I look forward to seeing where your road leads you this year. :-)

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TREV1964 1/6/2014 6:44PM

    Hi Mel,

140 is 10 stone over here, you surely won't want to loose too much more unless you stand at about 4 feet 6 inches. Assuming you are around an average height I would have thought you are about on goal weight now.

You come over as very cheerful, and very happy go lucky on this vlog and it makes for very nice viewing.



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STR458 1/2/2014 12:19PM

    emoticon emoticon yippee

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FELINEBETTER 1/1/2014 5:09PM

    Great to see you again, Melissa! That was cute! Let's make 2014 a real banner year.

As you said, together we can do this!!! emoticon

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Emotional Turmoil

Monday, November 25, 2013

I haven't been home (Texas) in 5 years. Last time I was there was to place my father's headstone on his grave. My father died 7 years ago and it was a catalyst to my large weight gain. Anyway...heading back south to see my mother in Texas and all these emotions are starting to overwhelm me. I know people are supposed to be all excited when they go home but what happens if when you go home that is the complete opposite of how you really feel? Many, many feelings are bubbling up inside of me. I realize a lot of my emotions have to deal with grief issues. Yes, I have therapy and I think the therapy was instrumental in me turning my life around 2 years ago when I started to get healthy again. However here I am again with all the feelings RIGHT IN MY FACE! BAM!

I'd love some suggestions, if people are willing to offer them, to how to handle grief/feelings/emotionally upheaval.

Thanks for any help you can give!!

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BRADMILL2922 12/3/2013 5:15AM

    I know it is too late now and you are back. I hope that you were able to navigate your emotions and able to enjoy your trip back some. I know it had to be hard and my heart goes out to you.


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GREGGWEISBROD 11/29/2013 11:47AM

    Grief is such a difficult ocean to navigate. Everyone heals in different ways and at different times. Have you ever read C.S. Lewis' "A Grief Observed"? It's a journal of sorts through his grief at losing his wife to cancer. His vocabulary and ability to explain his emotions really gives a better understanding to some of the things I've felt in my life during moments of deep sorrow and grief. You might find it helps in some ways too. Just a thought. There's no real sure fire way to get past grief apart from just focusing more on loving those that are still with us, and loving yourself in the process. Hope you're having an amazing Thanksgiving, Melissa.

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TREV1964 11/28/2013 8:44PM

    Hi Mel,

Whenever I return to London (The place of my birth and upbringing) I do not always look forward to going back up to Newham as much of it has changed over the past 30 years and where I grew up, so much of it simply is not there any more.

I go up there to visit friends and to socialise with them. I do not go up there to visit graves and do not make any effort to go anywhere up there that has bad memories for me in any shape or form.

I therefore associate a visit up to the East End of London in a relatively positive way in sense of reunion, a visit to watch a West Ham game, a concert on the south bank, a visit to the museums in Kensington, or a concert at the Albert Hall or Ronnie Scott's Jazz club in Soho.

This keeps me associating a return to the place of my origins a general positive experience.

I hope this suggests some ideas you may be able to use.



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STAY39 11/26/2013 11:05PM

    Good luck. I hope it all goes better and easier than expected. I hope you can find comfort in your family. Focus on all the good memories! emoticon

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GLAMNGLOWDIVA 11/25/2013 10:21PM

    ((((((BIG HUGS))))))

It must seem very overwhelming for you. Maybe you should go see your Dad as one of the first things you do. Take with him, let him know how you are feeling and get those emotions out. It might help with dealing with the whole family get together if you have a talk with him first.

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Sunday, November 10, 2013

My first attempt at a video blog. emoticon Kinda nervous about this!

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GREGGWEISBROD 11/21/2013 4:02PM

    Ahhh!!! :-D The smile on my face at getting to 'meet' you is so big, lol! You were awesome! So friendly, so adorable. You look amazing too, just a really great vlog all-together. :-)

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TREV1964 11/17/2013 7:11PM

    You are looking great and have a very bubbly personality too. You definitely have that sparkle that I consider so important I discussed it in my last blog.

Lovely to see more of you so to say. The one thing that is very difficult to assume from reading your blogs is your accent which came across as a nice surprise too.



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SUEPERWOMAN 11/15/2013 7:40AM


You are adorable! Holy moly you have lost so much weight, that is AWESOME!

Love, Ginger

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SOUTHGOINGZAX 11/14/2013 12:51PM

    Your first video blog is a success!

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    Keep up the good work. emoticon emoticon emoticon

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JUSTYNA7 11/11/2013 8:51PM

    You did a GREAT job!

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STR458 11/11/2013 11:38AM

    68 lbs emoticon ya U!!!!

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BRADMILL2922 11/11/2013 1:51AM

    Hi Melissa! Well done my dear! Now that you have the first one out of the way, you can feel free to do many more :)

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1HAPPYSPIRIT 11/10/2013 9:26PM

    emoticon job! So proud of YOU!!! emoticon

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JENNIFIER615 11/10/2013 9:19PM

    You've done a GREAT Job!! I see your flex.... :P Let's be friends!!

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IDLETYME 11/10/2013 7:26PM

    You did a wonderful job - keep up the good work!!! emoticon

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FELINEBETTER 11/10/2013 6:50PM

    emoticon You are looking GREAT, Melissa!!!

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Enjoy God's Creation

Saturday, November 02, 2013

Open your eyes today to the gift of God's creation! Make a point to look UP and notice and savor what you see!

"The heavens declare the glory of God; the skies proclaim the work of His hands. Day after day they pour forth speech; night after night they display knowledge. There is no speech or language where their voice is not heard. Their voice goes out into all the earth, their words to the ends of the world" Psalm 19:1-4

The beauty of creation is crying daily for you to see and to worship the Creator in response. Live life on a different level today-a HIGHER LEVEL!

This was from an email I received through a grief support class I'm involved in. I had to share it because I don't think enough of us truly see ourselves as a CREATION. We don't look up or out at our wonderful lives and appreciate that even if we are flawed, overweight, not having the "perfect" body, that we are still creations of God. I know that I don't take enough time to truly appreciate this. I spend hours on hours using negative self talk, which at the moment I'm trying to turn it around. I try and catch myself when I'm using negative self talk and then I make numerous positive affirmations for every bad thought I just thunk.

Another thing I am trying is the "ABC" game. This is where you go through the alphabet and with every letter you have to say something positive about yourself.

I am:

X-eXciting! (OK, I cheated on that one)

Just remember that YOU are so many things other than a number on the scale. You are God's creation!! You are amazing!! emoticon

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GREGGWEISBROD 11/8/2013 2:28PM

    "For you created my inmost being; you knit me together in my motherís womb. I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made; your works are wonderful, I know that full well."


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IDLETYME 11/6/2013 3:40PM

    You are very good at writing blogs. That's terrific - I'm not!!! I did enjoy all of yours! emoticon emoticon emoticon

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FELINEBETTER 11/5/2013 3:24PM

    F is for friendly
R is for "real"
I is for inspiring
E is for enthusiastic
N is for nice
D is for dear, dedicated and delightful! emoticon

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BRADMILL2922 11/4/2013 12:42AM

    So much more than the number on the scale! Love the ABC game! That is a nice positive way to look at things and yourself. We can really get pulled down by the negative so it is important to shine that light on the bright side as well!

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LUANN7 11/2/2013 4:20PM

    nice alpphabet tool keep up the good work!

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WALLINMW 11/2/2013 10:57AM

  Stay motivated!

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